germany

Ok.... I had a dream before this...

driving with someone to somewhere..... large vehicle...? ... some stressed involved

some people and I had been taking a class. The class was ?? not sure, but there was a next level. Everyone was asking me if I had bought the book yet and kind of without even thinking, I was looking to buy the book, a little stressed about it and so on. I realized I could have bought the book in the U.S. for much cheaper and here it would be expensive and hard to find. I was reading up in my book, looking at emails and other literature I had bought since in some advanced teachings. In all of the fuss and busyness of looking for the book... I realized that I didn't stop to think if I really wanted to even take the class. I didn't... so I stopped.

Then it went into me talking to other people that I knew back home that had tried to live in Germany. This gay couple I know.... they are super positive, try anything people. They came here and said... no, we wanted to go back home. It just wasn't a happy place for them. Then another friend he tried it. He works in the construction biz but in the dream in architecture.. he said... hmm it is too much for him. He said they are very strict with everything, which is good. He said you have good rules, which make things easier, but he said that it goes into your life. That if you joke about an architect etc.. or are lazy in your home life, and they find out, they said it reflects in your work reputation, and then if that happens, good architects won't want to work with you and if that happens, then you don't get to move up because you are always at the same level and never challenged by good architects.

Then I watched this tiny short woman. She was trying to make it in Germany. She is meeting people, getting out and so on. I think she is a hair dresser. She tries so hard, too hard. But she doesn't care. I am not sure what her original focus was, but now it has come down to just winning. It is not a good feeling to be around her. At one point there is a song playing and she is dancing with a couple she knows. A girl and her Swedish boyfriend. In the song there are words.. "take my hand" the woman puts her hand out to the swedish guy... she is wanting to go to Sweden.

hmmm.... less visuals in this one... more feelings...

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