Monday, June 20, 2011

apology

There are bits before in this dream that I don't remember. I'm driving along 101 on the coast line. It is a beautiful day, breezy and I'm looking out across the ocean. All of a sudden I see a guy riding a scooter? or a motorcycle , what ever it was, it seemed small and so was he. He had red hair, a red helmet and glasses. I could only see the back of the woman, who had long brown hair tied back in a low pony tail and she was riding in front of him on a bike. I hadn't hit them but they startled me and since I hadn't been aware of them, I thought I would roll down my window and say sorry in case I crossed in front of their path at all. The red headed man was from a workshop I attended recently who was having some challenges. When I apologized, he snapped back at me. I was a bit insulted, and frustrated that he reacted that way. I was being nice, let alone I hadn't really done anything to them. I tried again to explain, having to keep to his speed with my car, he softened.... and again... and finally a smile. I only felt better in that he felt better, but the effort for the response I'm not sure was worth it. Did I really need this stranger to smile or understand the situation if  I was ok with it?

Then I was driving through a tunnel and a new friend of mine (RvB) was with me. It was a beautiful tunnel. It was rock that was carved out by nature and so when driving through it, windows of sea could be seen from one side and a river and trees on the other. I parked on the side. I told him... "see? it really is pretty here!" I don't feel like I convinced  him. He then asked if we could get to the beach from this spot. In my mind I was thinking not, but I wasn't sure. Before I could answer, a man that had been traveling behind us, was bouncing out across the sand through one of the windows of the tunnel. There was a dip in my feelings... I'm not sure if it was due to not knowing the answer?  or that I was just here to get my friend this far... and then he would go on his own to his next discoveries 

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