Sunday, September 11, 2011

soccer, Guadi, sun, snow suit, little girl

I dreamt I was part of a sports team. I was official etc., but I had never done the sport and was with all of these people with experience. I was kind of excited but also nervous. I think normally I would have been scared to death. We were getting ready to go and there were lots of things to do to get ready. Some people were packing up in a bus, others were in a pool, I was I guess in both. I don't know if we played soccer or it was a swimming event. It felt like the aggressive and competitiveness of soccer, but there just happened to be a pool. We were all gathered on the bus at one point with our bags, but then I found out that was just the meeting place and we had to take some other mode of transportation to the game. Didn't make sense to me. - - - - - - - - Then I was on some sandy mountains. I could see that they would fall apart under your feet. It would be a struggle to climb, if not impossible. They were situation right next to the ocean. Then I was out in the ocean with some people. A woman that seemed to have been giving us information and some young girls. I looked back at the mountains, with a preconception of how dangerous the mountains would be if you were to leave the ocean at that point. I had imagined that you would be crushed against he rocks by the waves. But when I looked back... the ocean was calm and the mountains looked smooth. We swam over to this other area with odd shapes. They were rounded, with large openings almost as if a giant bug with Guadi skills, made them out of mud. We looked inside them. They were very expansive inside. The woman was explaining how they had been decorated. They were beautiful. The ceilings were ornate and full of different colors and light. Although intellectually I knew there was nothing really to fear, something about looking inside them made me feel fearful or anxious in my heart area. I didn't know what I would find. ------------ Then I was with an old friend (KM) and we were in classes. She was her usual laughing talkative self. She was talking about things to friends. I would try to add in conversation, but for the most part just listened. I was doubtful of what I had to add and if I had the energy to spend to add. I was in one class and there were few students that had arrived yet. I was waiting and then realized I was in some sort of trouble. I had done something, small, unintentional, but still, by my hands, so I was in the wrong. I was waiting to be addressed. This man that looked official came to me, he said they had also found something in the past that I had done that would show a record of this sort of behavior. I looked at report. It said I had thrown some red beans while in a restaurant. I was scared... yes.. this could be seen as out of control. I looked again, then it read edamame and I was with a group of friends and we were all just having fun. Argh... so frustrating that things out of context could be used against you.Then he pulled me aside. I was ready for him to take me away. He walked me to a chalk board and talked about the sun. He drew it and then some equations. He said do you know the light that orbits the son.. it shows up and then ?? explodes. I thought I had a jist of what he was talking about but could not articulate it. I decided to just play dumb and let him explain more. He drew something but also showed up in my minds' eye. It was some thing that looked man made. He said no... it wasn't man made. But it happens and it will explode... it was darker than the sun and blueish green. It was just a phenomena, nothing to be concerned about, but he seemed intent on showing me and that it was important that I know it... and almost that it was special to know and that I needed to help him. That although these things I did "wrong" were punishable, they were also showing that I could take on this task. Some other people came by and interrupted him, so I went back to class. I was closing up the computer and the wall paper on the computer kept changing as did the icons. I figured when I restarted, it would all come back fresh again. -------------- Then I dreamt I was shopping for some clothes. They would be for a special activity. I think underwater. I was looking for the least hideous pair. A guy friend was with me and my step mom. I found what I thought were good ones, but they turned into being a gray snow jumpsuit. I guess I needed that as well, so it was kind of a bonus. But then there was a long coat that went to my feet that went with. I thought it was a bit over the top. It was red and long and I really didn't care for it. It had a gray kick pleat in the back. My guy friend thought I should get it and it would be useful. - - - - - - - - Then I was (almost like watching tv) was watching two men... but was insides the ones head as well. They were sitting and chatting. The one said he hadn't had sex in a long time and quit giving him such a hard time (in a playful way). The guy then played a recording of a phone message. The one had accidentally called him during his last sexual encounter that was recent. He was caught... they laughed. Then there was a little girl on the bed.. about 4. She was in her undies and was giggling... They immediately became responsible and told her to go find her mom. little girl

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