forced opportunities or ...

I dreamt I moved into a big house. It was a loft type place, two story, and pretty amazing. I was sharing the house with an older woman that seemed nice enough and intelligent. For some reason, once a week I had to climb a wall in order to keep it. I wasn't really a climber. I turned around to look at the wall. At least it was brick so I could get some footing. I thought I could possible do it, but felt weird that I had to do that to live there. I also had to pay out the nose to live there. I couldn't believe that I signed the contract!!!???  I had a good thing going where I was and could pay off some debts...

Then I left and was getting ready for my new job or new training. I was going to be a police officer. Think more of a British police officer with button down shirt and short sleeves and tie of sorts. We had to wear a specific uniform for classes. My brother was going to the same class. I was doing it because it was the thing to do I guess. I needed money, the training was available, I was qualified.... I guess basically I was doing it because it was easy, even though I knew I didn't want to be one. I couldn't find the shirt I needed to wear and was running late and was thinking... maybe I could skip the whole thing.

Then I was on a cruise ship. I went out of duty I think for a friend... or for social duty reasons. I walked over to a class we were supposed to take. I was going to help sew costumes. I didn't want to do that either. I went to leave and my friend was disappointed in me that I didn't want to do what she wanted me to do. Why wouldn't I just go along. The costumes were for a play. I was supposed to be in it as well. As I was walking, I was thinking.. I know I'm supposed to sing in this. I don't sing.. will I do ok? ... I can still get out of it... but what if I do good? .... what if this is my thing and this is my opportunity to be forced to do something I'm scared to do so I find out my hidden talents...