two kittens

I dreamt that I was pregnant. I looked down and I had a tight mound of a belly.  I didn't know whose it was, and it seemed to be getting too late to do anything about it, my stomach protruded out too far. How could this have happened?  How could I have let it go so carelessly?  I wanted to throw up. It seemed to get larger quickly and I realized I could feel the baby kick. I wanted him?? the him that was the father to feel it. For a moment, I knew who the father was and excitedly told him the news. Then I realized I could feel wear the head was. It felt like a real being now. I could almost caress its face as thought it was out. I had a very motherly and loving feeling about it and suddenly nothing else mattered. Then I was following a kitten. I wanted to make sure it wouldn't get hurt or get out of the house. It was very cold outside and there were many places it could escape. I thought.. it has a knowing... I will just let it figure it out, but then part of me wanted to test both ways, one where I watch over and one where I let it be 100%. The kitten walked out on a 2x4 where we were remodeling. I then saw two kittens. I realized I was carrying on the experiment simultaneously. The kitten that I was ignoring was about to fall... I wanted to go catch it, but just then, it fell on to sticks and died. It was as if I could hit ctrl z on a keyboard and reset the experiment and the kitten was back alive.