Wednesday, March 14, 2018

focus on the ...

I dreamt I was in a house, I lived in it with my boyfriend.  A mix of his ex girlfriends showed up as one person, walking around the house as if she owned it. I felt threatened and upset and that was turning to anger so I approached her to see what she wanted. It first it was defense vs defense, but then it turned into her explaining how she was miserable in the relationship due to this and that. We commiserated and all of the negative emotion melted away.

The bf showed up and I was sitting in the bathtub... clothed, but felt exposed or vulnerable. He was coming to say he was taking off to ski.

Then I was needing to get somewhere, almost to an office or work or an airport to get to work. I was running and it seemed I was running on a spiral of grass.... like a very very large structure of a path that spiraled up in the air and became wider as it went up. The path had stones, mossy stones, grass, streams, boulders and so on. I would start gaining speed and it would be fun, but then I would look down at the stones right in front of me and lose control of my footing and want to stop. I kept trying to run and it kept happening. I tried to remember what I was doing when it felt fun and good... I noticed I was not looking at where my feet were... but out in front of me at the next visual marker... a blade of grass, or a boulder, or.  I tried it again and it felt like I was flying.

Then I saw the ex girlfriend mix on the side with her father. All was ok with us and he seemed to help smooth it out even more. They had invited me to dinner as a peaceful gesture. I went from there to an airport. Sitting on a sofa with a towel, backpack and other items sprawled out. I saw two men looking for a place to sit near the gate, so I nodded to them and gathered my things so they could sit. This situation is a bit blurry. Some excitement for the trip, some unpreparedness feelings as well. Then a woman came out of the airplane entrance. She asked for some small favor from me and then handed me a free ticket that could be used to go anywhere. I was very appreciative. As she walked away, I had remembered that I had another ticket that was similar and was very excited thinking about my next trip.

Then I was at an office. An old exbf of mine was working there and had requested I visit. He looked well and was in a position he liked. I went to his office. It was quite the setup, nice lighting, furniture and a private bathroom. For some reason we both decided to stand in the bathtub. We looked each other in the eyes and it felt a bit comforting like coming home. We both could feel the exhale and embraced for a moment.

I left there and went to visit an old friend of mine and her mother. I was going to tell her about visiting my ex bf (JBDS). It was so nice to see both of them and then I mentioned to her mother about the father of the exgf. She was single so I mentioned that he seemed handsome and smart etc...