Solitary Man

woke up to Neil Diamond's "solitary man"..... I'm really not needing that as my motto this morning.

Dreamt... will have to see if it comes back to me .... I think there may have been a dog or some friendly animal that could think... that is about it.

Neil Gaiman... Killer dream

Ok.. I usually don't dream about torture or murder, but I read a short story by Neil Gaiman last night... "Queen of Knives" and I had a dream where I was the killer's "helper."

I was in a larger two story apartment (kind of posh) and there was a man in the place. I knew of him as a "boss." I needed to follow orders and stay on his good side. Part of me felt that this was all until I found a way to escape, so it wasn't that I was loyal to this person. I was following orders out of fear.

I was in the living area and organizing his things (he was a bit messy). Putting the remote controls in a line, moving papers in piles, tossing old receipts. There was movement of two people and conversation going up the stairs. Either this was an aquaintance, in which case it was better for me to be not seen or heard, or it was his next "project." If the latter, I needed to be at his side handing him what ever materials he needed. He yelled for me to come up... it was the latter. Dutifully, I went upstairs to see what he needed. Before me was my superior, kneeling on the floor putting tubes together. He looked like an ordinary man organizing wires to set up his new stereo. I looked beyond him and there was a blondish man in about his mid 40s. He was on his side, hands tied in front of him, feet tied in back.. but no gag. It was if he didn't realize what was happening to him because he didn't put up a fight. He just continued conversation, maybe explaining some better ways of putting him down besides Draino through a tube. My stomach turned.. what a horrible way to go. How could I be here...? My superior gave him a handful of pink chalky disks... The man ate them... I think it was to keep the acids down so he would continue to take the liquid. His mouth was foaming as he ate the pink disks...

Then I woke up.

marriage, hotels and undies

I know it was longer but I remember it starting here... it was like I woke up and I was married to this guy. We had just gotten married actually, and were with a group of people at his folks house I'm thinking. The group of people were either co-workers, from a class project, or something similar. We were finishing up a project and deciding how to divy up the duties until we met up next time. Someone had openned chips and chocolates... I asked someone to take it with them because it would go bad before we met up next time. This hispanic woman and myself decided to create a sign up sheet for next time as well. So we would have to have long discussions about who was doing what. She wanted to have it because she wanted dibs on cleaning the floors. So back the marriage thing. I was asking myself ... how did this happen?? I'm sure he is nice, but am not in love with him, I don't think it was physically possible to "consumate" the marriage due to his large overhanging belly. I was sick to my stomach and wondering either if I should a) go through with my decision and just buck up, or b) find the quickest way out. I didn't have to figure it out because I woke up to my next dream. I was in a hotel with an ex co-worker of mine, Danny (a male). He was staying at this hotel where it was just one room, the beds all against the wall, everyone had their own bathroom and there was a continental breakfast in the morning and computers with internet access lined up along the window in the room. He said he loved this hotel and wished more were like it. In the dream I partly thought it was strange, but then partly thought.... why not have all the beds in one room. You are sleeping anyway, so it made sense. I happened to be in sheer pink undies with black lace trim, a black bra and no shoes. I felt a little underdressed. I went to the computers to look something up, but the wires kept getting intermingled with other people's wires... I got up to go for a walk. I felt uncomfortable and a bit sleezy walking down the nice cafe laden street in my underwear... I was telling this to my friend Jason who was walking with me. I said.. you know what would work.. If I had perfectly fitting white oxfords on and my hair was just so.... then it wouldn't look so bad.

traveling dreaming

Had a ton of dreams while traveling, but didnät write them down.

last night a dream that included some sort of video game. I was at a big?? farm-wedding thing and one room had really big video game contraptions that felt really real, but then we ended up doing some reality activity that was partly dangerous? Then I was in a theater with someone new that I just started to like... and then I think I woke up...

Oh and had a dream that Sascha was right outside my door where I was sleeping... lightly saying my name to ask a question.. and trying and trying to wake up.... finally did to realize it was just a dream. But then checked my clock and he was just awake.

old dreams (spring 09)

Found this one on scratch paper.

Dreamt I overwatered my plants... my favorite plant that had lived the longest came out without its roots.

Then met this guy, work related, chubby, nice. I picked up my friend from Chicago in a small white car with the top down. We were driving downtown at night in it. Something about a concierge... Her luggage barely fit in my car. She complimented my luggage to the chubby guy. He was ready to compliment me on everything.

3/13/09
Woke up with the song Auld Lang Syne in my head. Looked it up.. had no idea it was Scottish.

I dreampt about working and being able to see a parade from the office window. Everyone was celebrating. I was leaving for lunch and was going to find some nice or special place to go. Then this quieter woman in the office got my attention. A small older black woman. She said the sandwiches in this shop are nice. I cringed on the inside because it looked like a cheap little corner market, but I went inside because I didn't want to hurt her feelings. There were all kinds of white bread sandwiches cut on the diagnal so you could see what kind they were. Ham, turkey, chicken salad etc. but they all seemed to have red jello in them. Then I spotted and egg salad with no jello. I found myself excited to eat it, having forgotten how much I liked egg salad. And then I thought ... what a nice, simple and affordable thing to like.

Then I had a dream ... I remember a dad ... a young girl I was helping.. and walking down stairs..

3/17/09
Had a dream about Sascha (friend from germany). He and I traveling. We saw Daryl Hannah with her mother. I was pointing her out to Sascha. Another about an ex's Dad.. he was smoking pot... Another I was working in a company. Mechanic?... Felt nice... family like
3/23/09
Dreamt that I was in some tiny car on a rail. Almost like a ride or old coal mine. I was with a child and we were heading straight for a wall... very fast. There was nothing we could do. I put my arms around the child to protect it as much as I could and at least to hide its eyes. Just at impact, we rolled some other way, we were fine. I started crying out of being scared/shocked and happy.

3/25/09
Dreamt that Michele (Italian guy) was an Oak Tree and I could felt close to him as a tree and love him. Also had a dream this curly haired blond guy was trying to get me to do yoga saying it was important or things would not go well. And then spiders (2) came after us. Then when I woke up, I looked at my white wall and saw a dark shadow about the sie of a small apple crawl up the wall. FREAKED me out!

4/3/09
Dreamt that I saw Peter (old friend of mine's husband) and was "ok" but funny feelings. And Dan, a guy that worked at Rodgers. I was topping by to say hi and they were looking at me like "get over it"..."move on" ... "We have." (this was after I had been going through a box of old letters and cards)
6/12/09
Dreamt this friend from NYC (d.j. anthony), was trying to get cozy with me and I didn't want to - so he thought I wasn't interested... Another ... was given a blue bird and it was so sweet. It was round and fluffy and snuggled right under my chin. I was looking for a place to put it but there was just a cage with a parakeet and the parakeet was mean. I thought they would fight, but the parakeet became sweet when it was around that bird. ... Another ... some unknown thing was pulling my blankets away but then grabbed me - wrapped me in the blankets and was moving me from one room to the next. I tried screaming and no sound came and then finallyh it did and I woke up. Rare that I can scream in my dreams.

Paintings, play and new sun hat

I think my dream started in some sort of class... but I know there was?? some guy there too.

Then I was walking on the beach at night, flipping through a painting book (like a book you would paint in or something...). I was looking at paintings of scenes in the rain, people in the rain... it was a bit abstract/stylized. I was thinking .. did I paint these??? Then I was meeting my brother and his wife just off the beach to go to a play. These young, hip Japanese people were outside saying... "great play, you should really go..." So we went inside to buy a ticket. I was wondering if I looked ok since I was walking on the beach and in my dream I was unaware of what I was wearing. I looked in a reflection and saw I was in a nice dark plaid wool coat and a wool cap and my hair actually look stylish. Then we went in the building and we were looking for the actual ticket counter since part of the building was a library and part was a museum. The book of paintings turned into a newspaper and I was looking around for where I could rcycle them, but couldn't find a place.

At the end I was with Tessa and I was all excited because I was wearing my new sun hat. It was white and actually fit. It was almost loose... but.. fit. ;) (I just bought one online last night... I have a big head). ;)

Baby food

Dreamt I was moving and my brother was at the same time, somehow from the same place. He wanted to pack stuff in my moving trucks because he didn't plan ahead and get one. I was like..."no, mine's packed." It wasn't but it was getting there. And I was a little irked that I should have to give up a convenience that I worked/planned for when Mr. Grasshopper didn't. My mom was with us and doing some ..."remember this?... and remember that?..." Then I was at the ocean with my dad and step mom. It was very steep to get to the actual water, but it looked so nice and I was excited to be in it. There was one section that the water came up higher in a safeish area, so I went over there to dip my feet in. There were things that would get stuck in these posts that were stuck in the ground. Some old swim suit catalog etc. Then I was with my aunt and she wanted me to help feed this baby (who I guess was my cousin's baby). So my aunt took hot water off the oven and poured it over an adult flake cereal and mixed lettuce. She also had some over ripe apricots cut up... in case the baby wouldn't eat it. And then a bowl of a left over mexican chili bowl, if the baby didn't eat those. Was horrible. The baby wouldn't eat it. I dumped it all in the garbage and was going to make at least just mushy flakes for the baby. I went upstairs to do something... came back down.... and it was like the house was a bit of an office (almost police/fbi). The agents were all over. I worked for them in a way since I worked in the house. My aunt saw me and said she was amazed that I got the baby to eat. I decided to zip my lip. The baby would make it known when she was hungry later. I left on my way... Which ended up being some sort of office in a big building. I shared an office with a couple other guys. T-shirt and shorts wearing, not focussed on work, kind of guys. I was about to leave for lunch or something and one of them followed me. I could tell he wanted to ask me out, which made me want to walk faster down the stair well.... he put me in a headlock and half dangled me over the edge of the stairs and then asked me out. Hmm... I was very stern and said "not funny!" And didn't talk to him the rest of the way down. And was a bit happy inside now that I had the perfect excuse to say no to him. On the way down the stairwell, there were locks on each rung of stairs. They were made by artisans at a local college. We were unlocking each one as we went down. Some girl came down behind us all annoyed. "Do we have to do that now?? I haven't unlocked locks here in 20 years." Then I was even happier and just ran down the stairs to the floor where my car was parked and... woke up.

Shed, bulls and mini-scalp

My first dream ... I saw a group of people (like 4 or 5) all huddled together and they were being pushed together by bulls. The bulls completely surrounded them... A bull from a distance was getting ready to charge the group which would kill them all.. All of the bulls had large horns (that no real bull would ever have). They had the lines of a ram and they encompassed the top part of the head. So the bull starts charging and then a different bull comes up just before he is about to hit, and jumps on top of the group, protecting it and rams the bull away... the people are so squeezed in... one woman comes out of the group from under the bull... and squeeezes out. Almost seems like childbirth... And it is a nice feeling to be free but at the same time a painful one.

Next one, I'm in a town, it is darkish. I group of men are walking down the main street (dirt road). All of the people in the town have already been killed. These men all wore black, long hair, and appeared to be native american... but some sort of dark group/gang. I knew if I stayed where I was behind a building... they would be able to easily catch me and kill me. So I needed to go out across the street and up this hill. In doing that, I would be seen. So I ran across the street...and I could sort of think myself up and fly a bit. So I did this awkwardly up the hill until I reached the top and ran into a house. The main guy was already up there and had me cornered. I knew I was going to die, so we walked towards each other. He was very tall.. I came up to his chest. He pulled out a large knife and said "I apologize that I have to do this" and he took the knife towards my head and cut off a piece of skin and hair... It was all bloody. He had done this to save me.. make it looke like he killed me. Then it was like we (he and I) moved into another world where we traveld together, went to some old market. I was looking at beads and kept rechoosing. Talked to some other people and they were talking about schooling etc. I don't remember much... but it felt like just living ...

The last one was of my highschool boyfriend. I was going out to meet him. I was in his house and he wasn't there... he was outside and knocked on the window for me to visit him in his workshop. I walked in and he had this large workshop... and within it a little raised shed of sorts with sliding glass doors on both sides (almost taking up the whole wall) and windows on either end. He would sit in there and talk to friend, work on little projects.... hide away

misc. boys

I dreamt I was in some sort of cafeteria. It seemed a bit hosipital/retirement home-esque. There was a guy there I was having a bit to eat with. (In reality I have never met this person, but he is some guy that requested to be on my facebook... who I haven't accepted yet....).

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Had another dream I ran across a guy I haven't talked to for about a year (for good reason). When I saw him though I really wanted to say hello and see how he was doing. I didn't get a chance to though.

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Dreamt that a friend of mine (who in reality recently met the man of her dreams)'s boyfriend was seeing another woman behind her back. I was looking for a mutual friend of ours to tell her and see what we should do...

satellite moon

I dreamt that I found out the moon isn't what we think it is. It was a round satellite that was sent out a looooooong time ago... made of metal, hollow.... etc. The surface has collected dirt and so on over the thousands, if not millions of years. It was originally sent out to reflect the sun for our evenings, but before the moon, we had only stars. It was kind of a sad thought for me in the dream. I hadn't realized how romantic and beautiful I thought it was until I found out it was a satellite.

You look way older ......

bits of my dream are left, but towards the end I went to some fancy new dessert place with some friends. They were selling a ? "find grind" gourmet rice crispy type thing. It was like they crushed the crispies first... flavored them.. then did a thin layer on the bottom of one flavor, then the top was another flavor and they cut them in long narrow rectangular shapes. Everyone seemed to like them.. they gave you special spoons etc. I walked over to the counter for some reason and the girl behind the corner and I were talking. We realized we were the same age and she goes "you are?!?!?!???" I was thinking she thought I looked so young for my age and then she said.... "you look soooo much older than me!" Hmph Then she went back in the kitchen because she was embarrassed... and started talking to the blond bearded chef .. and he said.. "say you mean to say younger etc..." And I told them... sorry... heard it, no problem.. and laughed...Then I went out of the place to the rest of the ?? mall ?? or and shopped at a nice store for a suit. I tried it one and it fit so good..... , but then when I went by some reflection it looked like my body changed. I left and went to put the clothes back and leave and then I woke up.

hairdresser and ratios

The night before last I dreamt that I went back to a hairdresser I used to go to. I wanted him to cut my hair. I sat in his chair as we chatted and he stood about a foot or more away from the chair and kept twirling it and would touch and fluff and spray my hair as I spun. It was like I was a lump of clay on a pottery wheel. When he was done I noticed he didn't cut anything... He said he thought it needed to grow.

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Last night I dreamt that I was with my Spanish friend Tomas. We were going on a picnic of sorts. He was driving an older station wagon, something that felt practical but good, and we stopped in the country somewhere. Some open field, grass etc. Then three guys came buy... a blondish guy who was Italian, an older Italian man and then a taller man with dark hair, cut very close but he didn't say much. I only saw his back. The blond guy wanted me to come with them. He was saying we should be together, get married etc., the older man just wanted to talk... , sit, relax, eat and talk some more. I told the blond guy that I wouldnt' go with him. I was here today to have a picnic with my friend. He was disappointed but then left with the tall guy. The older man sat down with us and talked about a discovery. He was talking about the numbers 666 and how all this time we had confused these numbers for something they were not. He kept saying .. they are a ratio... like three dimensional (or something like it) ratio of sorts and that it has a lot of power. He said.. I broke a dish and used 666 to ?? capture/use the power of the breakage...

then I woke up.

Guns and ??

I dreamt that I was in some war zone in another country... it was where life was still happening while the war went on around us. I was in the wrong area... the ones being attacked ... or the ones not in the lead at least. I was trying to spy and find out where the weapons were, what kind and so on... I had photos.. one was of a pistol from WW II. (I had watched a video about a month ago on guns....). This old man (enemy).. took my photos... I tried to play dumb saying my dad would love to see a picture of this old gun etc... so I could get the photos back. Then they started showing me that the cost of the war was mainly due to bullet production.. guns were significant etc... but they ran through bullets like they were a renewable resource... and they would claim that you needed different bullets etc.. for different things... anyhoo....

The other dream now is just about gone... hmm.. was related to .... hmm was at a friends house uninvited. They were waking up and started making breakfast. Then some of their relatives came over... I felt in the way. I left with an unrelated friend to some culdesac to see some garage sale. I picked up some glasses and put them on my head... then walked around and they had some amazing items.. then I realized that this woman was an estates person and held auctions frequently... some items were pretty nice, but I felt in the way there too, so left.... don't remember much else...

apartments malls etc...

I had a dream that I had married a guy I went to highschool with. No one I had dated in the past, just a guy that was in some of my classes. I was visiting my mom and she was living in some sort of house/apartment where the back of her house was next to a walk way that went around a lake. It was pretty nice. There were lots of ducks. Then the place was kind of mine, and I kept wanting to show them this one spot in the lake where I had put a cute tiny lobster and some other cute fish and for some reason they just stayed in that little area like they were family. The first time I showed it, I jumped in the water. Not right at the edge, but jumped far so I was in the middle. The water was warm and nice. The next time I showed the area, I was having a harder time finding it and then it was like it was connected to a very very fancy mall. Only high end stores and a store per brand instead of department type stores. I walked up to one and the outside had a table with a cabbage and a knife. I picked up the knife and was able to chop the cabbage very easily and I really wanted the knife. Then this old man was next to me started giving me advice. Saying it wasn't the knife, it was how you use it and then how you take care of it. Then I started walking through a baby clothes store and I could hear my mom and a friendn talking, so I kept walking to be a little ahead so they wouldnt' find me (not sure why). I was still thinking about the idea that I was just married and was very unhappy about it. Why had I married him? I didn't want to and now I wanted out. I was thinking immediate divorce. My mom told me that if it is within 4 days of the wedding, I could just sign a thing and would be divorced. Then I just had to do it and tell him. He had already planned to move into my place, and then I had this other gal living there too. No one I really cared for. It was a nice apartment and I had a closet where I could actually hang bras and underwear (it was kind of nice really). And I started to go through old lingerie that I had never worn and decided to give some of it away. THen this friend of mine was asking how the to women (the one staying at my place and another that had just shown up) were getting along. I really didnt' care, nor did I want them in my place. I decided to move. THis move would take me farther away from downtown, but would get me away from having roommates. I was kind of excited. Then I talked to the landpersons about it and then I didn't want to move. Hmmmmm.... that was about it.

April 07 dream...

moving paintings around for a painting exhibitone guy/dad like figure was saying paint , be creative.. paint down what ever comes up in your mind...so at the same time.. he was painting an apple.... and the guy right next to him was painting a very similar picture w/ a diff medium (chalk on suran wrap)..;)
he said something like ...unless you are happy, you never reach full peace... which it is this energy that you want to spread.

Then there were parts about Ken (artist friend).... him visiting another blip of a radio saying.. check to see if he knew her number before.. blah blah blah ... this girl there saying thank you to me for being a good friend, moving around "pin" boards to place the art on. I was organizing... everyone else was painting

Song in head on awaking - April 07

I woke up with this song going on in my head ... and the same thing happened another day

Tongue-tied,
(I'm) short of breath,
don't even try Try a little harder Something's wrong,
you're not naive, you must be strong
Ooh, baby, try Hey girl, move a little closer.
You're
CHORUS:
Too shy shy Hush hush, eye to eye
Too shy shy Hush hush, eye to eye
Too shy shy Hush hush, eye to eye
Too shy shy Hush hush

Modern medicine falls short of your complaints
Ooh, try a little harder
You're moving in circles, won't you dilate
Baby try Hey girl, move a little closer 'Cause, you're

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This one on another day...

Come take my hand
You should know me
I've always been in your mind
You know that I'll be kind
I'll be guiding you
Building your dream
Has to start now
There's no other road to take
You won't make a mistake
I'll be guiding you
You have to believe we are magic
Nothin' can stand in our way
You have to believe we are magic
Don't let your aim ever stray
And if all your hopes survive
Your destiny will arrive
I'll bring all your dreams alive
For youFrom where I stand
You are home free
The planets align so rare
There's promise in the air
And I'm guiding you
Through every turn
I'll be near you
I'll come anytime you call
I'll catch you when you fall
I'll be guiding you
You have to believe we are magic
Nothin' can stand in our way
You have to believe we are magic
Don't let your aim ever stray
And if all your hopes survive
Your destiny will arrive
I'll bring all your dreams alive
For you

other planets... and floating

Ok.. I guess it has been a while since I have written down some dreams.

1
I was on another planet with a coworker. We were both digging in the soil looking for signs of life on that planet. He wasn't coming up with anything but I found a cookie tin and other things... Then a man showed up... he told us to follow him back to ??? I told him we were not from there. He looked at us funny. I said we were from Earth... He didn't seem familiar with it. So we follow him back to what seemed to be building... almost like a business park. We went inside and there were all of these researchers, some computers, lots of windows etc. A very nice feel in the office. There didn't seem to be a ?? well... no competition, political stuff going on. Everyone was working towards the same goal peacefully. It was nice. So I talked to another guy who looked like Seymore Hoffman. I told him we were from Earth and had he heard of it. He said yes... just some of the people there were not and had never been. This planet was being used to grow crops etc. and either be a resource in the future to Earth or a place to move to in the future. BUt it was very controled and protected. They were doing tests on what could grow there and what couldn't etc. I offered to help and they were going to give me some paper work to do. Then I ran into my old choir teacher from grade school. I said ... Mrs. B@@@@!! Is thatyou? She said no.. must be someone else. But I was sure it was her. Even had the same Boston accent. I didn't feel like she was lying but it was almost like her past was erased.

2
Another dream that I was going to take a ship up to another planet. We were all getting schooled on how to "be" there etc. Others were almost ?? "followers" of sorts. They believed something would happen to them (good) on the planet. I wasn't one of the followers and was asking for proof and facts of these good happenings. Then I woke up.

3
Had a dream I was floating out of my body. It felt really real. I was floating from where I was at the time of the dream. I could see myself sleeping in my bed, it being dark etc. I kept trying to get back to my body. It was a very scary feeling. I finally made it then I woke up.

4
I dreamt that I was shopping with some friends and then we went to the very top of this sky scraper. We were going to have lunch up there. Then I felt the building move. I asked if they felt it adn they said no.. that I was just probably dizzy or something. Then it happened again where the building swayed and they noticed it. Then the swaying became more and more dramatic to where we felt like the building would collapse. The building's top was getting close to the ground so I took a chance and jumped and landed in the river. I thought it would be better to risk hurting myself falling then with the building collapsing. I made it fine etc.. don't remember the rest.

School and Work

I dreamt that I was a nanny or house manager for this couple. They were a nice couple with one child. All with dark shiny hair. I was doing things well and they liked my work and me. At one point I was sitting on their bed with them and we were all calling a number to have something fixed.. the guy leaned over to pick up the phone but it also made it so the wife could not see my face and he kissed me. I quickly jumped up and said I had to attend to something else and left the house. When I left I was near some chain link fence near a school. It was the first day and I did not sign up for things correctly or missed something so that the day of school started and I wasn't prepared. I was running around wanting to figure things out, where to sign up for classes, where the classes were located, etc. Then I saw a class going on by a swimming pool and thought.. I don't know what my class is, but this one looks nice so I will just sit and take it. Maybe later I could change my morning class to that one. I sat there on the cement next to the pool and watched the instructor on the far side of the pool. He was instructing the class to do different floor exercises. I didn't much care for the instructor, but I was enjoying the atmosphere and people using their bodies. Then an instructor's helper came buy. A blond guy with not the shortest hair, but not long either.. he seemed like an energetic and happy person. I saw that he kept doing things with the pool and always around me. Then finally he sat down on the cement and did the exercises we were doing but kept looking over to me to see if I was admiring his skills. It turned out he liked me. I was thinking .. why me out of all the women there. So then somehow we are (him, myself, another couple, some other people) all at a house and going to stay there for a holiday. And he is very sweet to me, listens to me, plays and snuggles, etc. Was a nice feeling.

Then the next dream, I was on some sort of retreat with the people i work with. It was at a very fancy hotel in vegas (but nothing that exists). The hotel was beautiful and dark. Lots of dark red velvet, beautiful wood work, old style furniture etc. Our team would meet downstairs daily in this parlor. We had chairs all in a circle. We were given a project to come with a disertation? on a problem that needed a solution. We would meet for dinner regularly, have scotch after dinner in the cozy parlor, it was all very nice. We were in the dining room at one point and I needed to leave to use the bathroom. I went to the bathroom and it was all marble. All the stalls were busy though it seemed and all had men in them... and they were showering. So I thought I would try the men's room and found the same. So I went back and decided to go up to my room. I needed to go up a large staircase (very wide) but they were currently doing a fashion show/dance presentation on it. If you waited on the side you could be allowed to go up between dancers. The dancers were all very regal and confident, even the very young ones. A girl in a green dress went up successfully before me, but when it was my turn, it seems more dancers kept coming. I tried going up the side behind a man in the tuxedo who seemed to be in charge of the presentation, but for some reason my legs were not agile enough. I finally was able to go up because one of the dancers grabbed my hand to pull me up. He left his performance to talk to me upstairs. He spoke with a russian accent and wore a green full body suit with swirls of color on it and had a painted face. He was seemed unfulfilled in his work and then he looked out our hands. He said that hands were one of the oldest languages. That you could understand and communicate so much through the hands, but people have forgotten and they try and use intellect instead, which doesn't work as well. Then we spoke of things he could do to bring awarness back about hands. Later I went back to the parlor. There was another group meeting next to us that were all very nice looking men and all gay. One looked just like Tony Curtis and I wanted to tell him he should really play him in a movie. So I went to sit down with my group. Fritz (a current coworker) was supposed to be there, but he was on the second story of the room looking out a window and had some campy hat on. I didn't really recognize the others at first. I was sitting next to an older woman and she was very helpful and had good advice. She was also very calm like she knew herself well enough that no request of her was about failure or success, she would do what she her abilities would allow and that had to be ok. If it wasn't, it wasn't her problem. None of this in a rebellious or stubborn way, more of like it was a "truth." Later Kim (another current coworker) came down and she was very very nice. Also in the same mode as the women, but less so. Then I woke up.

landing on my feet

I was in some building and a guy was doing a performance. He was pretending to be a ventriloquist's dummy. He was very strange. Then I need to escape because I realized I was with bad people. I started to run and they ran after me. I picked up something that had fire on it and threw it at them and they guy said "great... now look what you did, it is too late now..." and I saw that there was gas leaking in places and the whole place was seconds from exploding. In my dream I felt like I was about to die... but I ran anyway. I ended up making it out of the building but then right out into more chaos. There were people running everywhere. I think the explosion caused some sort of damn or something to break and a wall of water was coming our way. Again I felt as if I was about to die but I ran anyway. I kept running over piles of broken pavement and rocks and I made it. Then I was running beside everyone else and there were these two girls I guess I was partnering with. We stopped and I took out a syringe. They looked at me and said.. I knew you were going to poison us. I was thinking .. huh?? But there was some agreement that two of the three had to die, we were going to choose who on the way and it was just accepted.. but I ran again... and made it.

Bombed building...

Old dream I found on some scrap paper...

I was in an old bombed brick building being taught a class. I was sitting on broken dishes and on pillars. We were watching a film through a broken wall. We were "inside" and we were looking through the wall to the outside where the film was projecting. I had to move material that was hanging from the ceiling out of the way to see the film. We had a bathroom break, so I went to use it and was in the handicapped stall. There was a security camera in there that was for in case anyone was hurt while in there...

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I was in Venice ... floating on a slab of cement in the canals. I didn't have much control of how I was floating or where. There was a floating ?? memorial of sorts. It was draped in curtains and there was a coffin inside. I didn't want to flow through because you were so close to the coffin and the dead girl inside. This girl was saying I had to go through it. .. yeesh.....