Commited to non-commitment

ok.. say you are leary of commitment... there are many reasons.... good reasons for this..
not wanting to be stuck... not wanting to be controlled by circumstances/situations/rules that don't always fit... the rules are not always put there for the right reasons, are not always carried out by those that mean well.... and things, people, circumstances change... where commitment isn't supposed to with these changes... and if you don't know what you want... really hard and almost careless to commit

I guess the above is more for the big commitments... career, partner, etc...

Then there are the little commitments..... yes, I'll go to the bbq two weeks out (but what if something else comes up?)... well.. haven't really made any hotel reservations.. have a ticket in/ticket out... (just in case something comes up where you want to stay in abc town longer, or take off w/ new friends on the way) ... and usually going anywhere (vacations/trips/etc.) solo... so you aren't tied to anyone else's plans/hangups/etc. and so on...

I am sort of one of those people. I like being free for the most part. I'm a person who needs plenty of ?? well, I need to feel like I have options, not stifled etc... if say a guy who was interested in me (a fella) heard this.. might be a turn-off... well, if I heard it from a guy.. yes, it would be a turn off...

so.. the idea behind it all is that if you keep things open.. you won't miss something... some experience, some person, some....??? , now that I type that it sounds so.... opportunistic...? which it is... but... sounds so..?? umm shallow and greedy....
hmmm...
how about I hit it from this angle... not wanting to be stuck... not wanting to be in a rut.. not wanting to waste hours, days, years of your life out of ruttedness... out of habit... not wanting to miss some learning experience, growth experience because of being stuck in a rut.. or being stuck with someone who is that way...

so... the point I wanted to make.. or more like the question I wanted to ask... isn't that being in a rut too? to live your life not being commited... are you not passing up other kinds of experiences, growth and so on by planning your life avoiding the commitments..?

well.. yeah...

of course...

so I'm thinking.. the former comes from fear.. and I think with a lot of us... grows out of proportion (us being those that practice averting ;)) but... it also helps to know yourself and what you want I think ... so that you are not willy nilly commiting...

I think I'll pause here...