cactus roses

ok.. not sure I spelled that right.. and don't care too much at the moment

have been busy busy lately... I got an extension on my job. That PM that sucked on the previous post? Well, she got canned and they gave me the project. :) Also there have been hints of creating a job "like what I'm doing"... and/or being the dept. manager. Nice for the ego, but not sure i want it.

I have done a handful of informational interviews and learned yet another thing about myself... I like project work, but short projects, and more of the concept end than anything. Not a big fan of being a task master. It is ok when everyone is as efficient, cares about getting things done, etc. as you, but when they are not, it just stresses me out. I don't know if I want that on a regular basis. Makes me feel better each time I learn something ... as well as realize that .. hmm if it stresses you out.. maybe you don't like that ?? Crazy how the mind works and well... more like how you have trained your mind to work. I'm sure it was helpful to talk myself into things at one point in my life but it sure was a mind $#@* for later when I can't even read simple signs.

anyhoo... had several dreams... one about me writing. I tell myself daily that I hate to write, but I think I just hate to write about things I don't care about. So anyway, I wrote this ?? piece, guess it was amazing and got a lot of attention.. mentioned something about a ? yellow rose?? and so people from all over the world were sending me these cactus plants that had yellow roses. My director was there and she said she had taken all the letters that came w/ the plants and had them filed. I wanted to see them, but they "owned" them now or something.

Her office was covered in shelves of Italian pottery and boxes of pasta. Strange.


Let see.. had another that involved traveling.. like was on a train, then a ship etc.. but wasn't sure where exactly I was supposed to go or if I was on the right train. (ok, that isn't a hard one to interpret). But met people on the way and it was nice and adventurous.

I'm at hurry up and wait again at work.

*sigh*