shorn

I dreamt I was cutting my hair. It felt freeing to let go of my old look and start over. Then I realized my bangs were not straight so I had to cut more. I had two friends there with me. They seemed supportive and yet tentative about what I was doing. I pulled my hair up to see where the shortest length was and cut, knowing I needed to make it even and it would grow back. I looked in the mirror and was disappointed. I told them I hadn't had bangs since I was about 11 or 12... and for a reason, it just didn't fit my face. I reached to the back of my head to pull my hair to the front and the texture felt odd. Then I realized I was with a coworker (BG) and he had cut all of my hair off... the kind of cut you picture when you think of someone cutting someone's hair short with a knife instead of scissors. I started crying uncontrollably. My friends watching me and me not being able to stop. I normally wouldn't want to cry in front of them but for some reason I wanted them to realize how much pain I was in so they would understand. I wasn't upset about the hair as much as someone doing something purposely mean to me. I had trusted him and he had just been mean. --- I dreamt I was at a hotel or resort. It was for a work function. I had a room next to a coworker (BG same as above). We had shared a bed the first night and both felt funny about it. I was always playing jokes on him, so for some reason, I gave his room to this guy in a wheel chair. He was very upset about it.. I tried to calm him telling him it was a joke and I could see that the guy was getting uncomfortable and he stood up. We both looked at him and then BG said he would turn him in. The wheelchair guy had been going to college on a scholarship for disabled people. He was just finishing that month with his degree. I asked BG to just let it go. He was almost done and this would ruin him. He left to go turn him in. We found out later the guy was able to say he had some temporary disability that only temporarily took away his control of his muscles and he was able to finish his degree. --- I dreamt that I was out with a coworker (SB). She and I were in NYC for work. We had gone out bar hopping and dancing. At one point we were in a room with a guy and his son and some other relative. Then I remember it being dawn and being surprised at the time and knowing we needed to get back as our plane departed at noon. I noticed I had a baseball cap in my hand and told her we should get it back to the guy. Not meaning at that moment, but to ship it to him. She gave me a dirty look and told me why...?? he is an as$h0/&. He beats his wife. Then I got the gist that I had kissed him and then felt awful. I had been drunk and friendly with someone I didn't like. Ugh... I tossed the hat. We got in a van was I thought we were driving back to the hotel so we could gather our things for the flight. But she changed into a pretty white dress and we were in a van with a friend of mine (K) from Berlin. She was getting married and had put up a notice to everyone that the wedding was that morning. I hadn't seen the notice and was not ready. They were whispering to each other and talking about me... it was more that she meant for me to go, but it still didn't feel good and I felt like an idiot.