Tuesday, February 26, 2013

new me

I had a dream I was at some sort of event. A reunion? coincidental reunion?  Some guys from my high school were dressed like bikers, others like pirates and so on

It was a big event and all costumed, but myself. Why hadn't I dressed up? I loved Halloween. As I thought this, the feeling left. It was as if I was observing someone else's old feelings. It wasn't me anymore and I was just having a knee jerk reaction. Now I suddenly didn't care.

I was wearing a long dress. It was kind of hippy/dumpy, but feminine. A guy that came by said he liked it.

Then I was in a house (in reality a house down the street from where I grew up, that a friend of my mother's lived in). I went inside and found AT, MT and M were going through the house for things to take. Maybe they were just doing laundry and taking their own clothes. It felt strange though.

I had been trying to clean the house before my mom came home.... I had thought the house was clean enough until I had thought of her.  Stuff started oozing out of the place when I thought of her.

Then I was working in a costco type building. The gal from who's the boss was the boss. She was interviewing me and was hard core, I didn't care. I knew that I could do the job. I wasn't afraid of her and I think that she liked that. So I started working there. They paid barely anything and had a  poor work environment. SK worked there.. I decided to leave, walk out without pay.. I didn't care, not apathetically, I just felt I "knew" better.

My dad, step mom, and brother were outside the building to meet me. It felt good. We were going to go somewhere nice.

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