aunt, carmel dessert, ??

I had a dream I was visiting my mom in the house I grew up in. I was going to stay for just a bit. She had other people living there in the backroom. Guys mostly, living there in trade for help with her house. I was looking in the fridge for some yogurt and there was only this single serving carmel dessert. I was trying to read the ingredients to see what it was and finally decided to just try it. When you pulled the plastic back it had a tiny ritter sport on the inside as a sample.

She had an aunt visiting or that moved in. In the dream she was Betty White. She couldn't stand the clutter in my mom's house. She was in the kitchen and said.. "I really think these magnets need to be put away." So she took them and stuck them to the inside of the fridge etc. She said "she won't notice and there just needs to be more clear visual space." She had an issue with her memory. She wasn't quite sure what day it was, what she was doing there, but she knew her history. She said she used to be in (a line of work I don't remember - she said a certain word, and I think it meant analysis, integration - and for teraxxx, art..., nutri...). I asked her what exactly it meant and I woke up before she told me.

no sleep

I went to bed about 10... then woke up at 2 a.m. and couldn't sleep. I started just counting my breath at about 4:30 hoping I'd fall asleep. I did.. and dreamt that I was giving away all my stuff to this friend. Her brother who was gay was all excited for me to give up my coat that had fur on it.. so he was jumping around saying.. I get the coat! Then I said to him... that I was a little sad ... I was giving away so much etc. He asked "is there any thing inparticular that you will miss the most?" I said "well.... " then I lost my voice and we both started laughing so hard that we fell over. Which then I woke to myself up snorting. :-s

snails/coworkers/job

Ok... had this dream I was staying at a friend's while he was out of town. He lives in Hamburg now. I was walking along and then looked inside a furniture shop. I was thinking maybe I needed some. It was some Italian leather couch place. I went in and picked up a black couch and walked out with it. I was a bit out of my own control. Then I took it to the apartment and looked for where I would sleep and something to eat. I fell asleep on the couch and then I heard some noise and it was some girl that he said might be there too. It was a bit uncomfortable. Then she left. Then I was sitting there and some older woman came. She looked down and saw a shell. I think she was going to pick it up to throw it away, but then she said.. These are the cutest little things. I thought it was empty but there is one inside. It was a cat squirrel thing. It lived coiled up in a shell like a snail, but it was furry, had the small head like a squirrel and hands it could use, but kind of like a cat too in that it was more flexible etc. It was pretty cute.

Then I was on some sort of business trip with coworkers. There were some men and women, all seemed to be from different countries. On of them and I were snuggling in the back of the car... then when he was talking to another guy... one of the other guys kissed me without asking. Then the first guy saw it, I felt horrible and there was nothing I could do. I remember us all getting out of the car and me sitting buy some small river/creek....

Then I got a new job (yeah!). This nice woman was telling me my duties and where to find things etc. Then I purchased stuff from her for my job. Then I was walking away with my bag of things, including some alcohol for some reason. I ran into some friends of mine and they were going my way to my new apartment and noticed what I had purchased.... that is about it

old house and death

Hmm had a dream I was at some sort of camp... just finding out where to live and be etc. I didn't feel safe there or like I could trust anyone.

Another dream. I was visiting a friend, maybe even going to live with her for a bit. It wasn't the best feeling. I felt out of place. She and her husband had bought my mom's house that I grew up in for most of my childhood. I felt funny parking outside and I didn't have full control of the car. Then I went inside and they were showing me where to put things and so on. They had done a lot of remodeling and added on to the house, but I could still see some parts of the old house. At one point it made me cry. I'm not sure if I was happy or sad. It just made me emotional. Then I was laying back somewhere... lots of other people lived there.... and I sort of was sleeping or thinking with my eyes closed. I could see black and then a light wave and I felt high or dizzy. Later I came to and the skinny Italian that lived there said.. you die twice. So I guess I was thinking, well his English is bad, maybe he meant I passed out twice. But then it was that I wasn't breathing and was "dead" twice and then revived. Strange.

Caves and Giant meat

Hmmm....

So the first dream I was in some cave.. it was all men, I was a man. There was some guy yelling at the front, but I knew he was asking all of us if we had ?? a certain something he wanted. I went back to my little nook in the cave an brought out a long piece of meat. I was going to give it to him if it would calm him down. He got what he needed before I brought the meat to him so I quickly turned around. I had actually wanted it for my meal. I went to back to my area and started cooking it on my little fire. I had a little dog (maybe a puppy) hidden there by the fire. I had to keep it close to it because it was the only area that was hidden by stone and I didn't want the other men to kill it. It was really sweet and I liked it but I don't think I realized how much the fire was too hot for him.

Then I was in a more present time, but not in a way. The clothing etc. was in the present time, but we lived by old society standards. I lived in a large home where there were ?? not sure if kings/queens, but they were something important. We (my mother and I) were relatives, but on a lower level. We lived with them and nicely enough, but you always felt the need to do as you were told, to stay out of the way and not to ask for much. It was very frustrating for me. I could see the others my age running around being brats. They really were not good for much. My mother had blamed ourselves for something that had gone wrong so we gave up a gift we were recently given to the family. It infuriated me. I was trying to tell her, but she wouldn't listen. They barely noticed the gift or the sentiment, so why waste one of our few treasures? She was busy cooking and I was outside looking about and noticed a giant and I mean GIANT pan had landed over out outdoor table, balanced by some trees and part of the roof. No one else seemed to care, so I went up and looked inside. It was full of meat. Again, GIANT slabs of cooked ham, sausages and so on. Giant meaning larger in circumference than a car. I was very excited like we had found hidden treasure. I wanted to quickly wrap it up and put it in the cellar to keep cool. Again, no one seemed to care. So I busied myself with getting paper to wrap it and cut it down to size... the other young ones were studying, looking for something to eat and so on. Not sure of the rest.. their father was involved somehow and I had some connection with the boy relative.

film like

Hmm I'm not remembering much. I know that I was watching and was at the same time this woman, very dainty with dark brown hair. I felt I was in the past but at the same time way in the future. Maybe kind of a post apocalypse type thing... where you start from square one. I felt like I was doing ok and knew my way around the ways of things but then all of a sudden I was captured and tied up, high in a town square, in my rags. It was cold, dark and rainy.. and then the colors were like it was being filmed like the movie 300. And the "camera" moved up... closer and closer to me but through my legs ( I was spread eagle) and closer than what a normal person could see..... odd

cowboy theme....

I had some dreams... just don't remember them (I slept in)

I remember one of them though... I was with a cowboy type and he was driving a carriage very fast..... through the night. He had figured a way to break the carriage in half and continue on with the horses to lose the people chasing us. .... that's about it.

germany

Ok.... I had a dream before this...

driving with someone to somewhere..... large vehicle...? ... some stressed involved

some people and I had been taking a class. The class was ?? not sure, but there was a next level. Everyone was asking me if I had bought the book yet and kind of without even thinking, I was looking to buy the book, a little stressed about it and so on. I realized I could have bought the book in the U.S. for much cheaper and here it would be expensive and hard to find. I was reading up in my book, looking at emails and other literature I had bought since in some advanced teachings. In all of the fuss and busyness of looking for the book... I realized that I didn't stop to think if I really wanted to even take the class. I didn't... so I stopped.

Then it went into me talking to other people that I knew back home that had tried to live in Germany. This gay couple I know.... they are super positive, try anything people. They came here and said... no, we wanted to go back home. It just wasn't a happy place for them. Then another friend he tried it. He works in the construction biz but in the dream in architecture.. he said... hmm it is too much for him. He said they are very strict with everything, which is good. He said you have good rules, which make things easier, but he said that it goes into your life. That if you joke about an architect etc.. or are lazy in your home life, and they find out, they said it reflects in your work reputation, and then if that happens, good architects won't want to work with you and if that happens, then you don't get to move up because you are always at the same level and never challenged by good architects.

Then I watched this tiny short woman. She was trying to make it in Germany. She is meeting people, getting out and so on. I think she is a hair dresser. She tries so hard, too hard. But she doesn't care. I am not sure what her original focus was, but now it has come down to just winning. It is not a good feeling to be around her. At one point there is a song playing and she is dancing with a couple she knows. A girl and her Swedish boyfriend. In the song there are words.. "take my hand" the woman puts her hand out to the swedish guy... she is wanting to go to Sweden.

hmmm.... less visuals in this one... more feelings...

next one in germany

ever

Buhdda boy

Last night I dreamt about a friend of mine that went off to a Buddhist monastery for a break in life. In my dream I was walking back to my high school (which is something I seem to have in dreams sometimes). I was initially looking for a parking spot. For some reason I didn't want to drive far. I found a spot, got out, was walking towards the front of the school and there was my friend. He looked much older.... lines on his face, crepe-ing skin, and he was wearing draped clothing and seemed to have a bit of a scraggly white beard. He had his kind of smile on his face... more with his eyes than with his mouth. He looked exhausted, happy, and sad all at the same time. I said "you're back!" I was really happy to see him... and really happy to see him happy. He took me to show me his room he was creating. While at the monastery, he (and maybe them) made a wooden alter of sorts...very nice but plain. He was humble about it and said it had been through a lot, so at one time looked better. A coworker of ours was there and kind of controlling... wanting to label what "this" was... his experience, the room he was creating, the reasons, what he should do next, and so on... I wanted her gone (mind you in reality, a very sweet person).

A previous dream... hmmm I was walking.. but seemed like I walked there before in the dream. I was trying to get home I think, which was a long walk. I was happy, because I was going to get to walk through this mountain area with rock formations. I hadn't been there in a long time. I walked through and the beautiful rock formations were all painted. Not by graffiti artists, but by a land developer. The entire rock was covered in orange and blue shapes and the land around it had new housing that was in between mobile homes and a house. Poor quality... gave me a sick feeling. I walked down the hill and then was with a girlfriend. I wasn't sure where to go.. and I don't think I had any money with me. We walked onto this car wash thing. It was part carnival ride, part car wash. Big and colorful. It was next to this restaurant, more of a fast food type place, so we slid down and went in. There were two men in there who we ended up knowing. One was Hugh Jackman (there is a wolverine poster on the way to my apartment ;)) and I'm not sure who the other one was. They were fighting, verbal and a bit... hmm not with fists but more with their feelings and anger. Hugh then somehow was my boyfriend. So I was waiting for him to be done so we could leave, but there was a nice feeling of not having to worry about anything because he was there watching out for me.

Rozen

Hmm in one dream I was repeating in my head... Rozen Plantz (in which a voice would say "kitty") Doesn't like plantz (and a voice would say Katze)...

I had another dream, I was in place/house/yard living with people. I was in the backyard, I think we were planning to do something illegal. My purse washed away and it had all of my money in it. I asked for someone to catcht it as it was flowing down the mud and they were not quick enough. I ran to the edge of the land where it had fallen and there was a steep jump into water. I was willing to do it, but then my dad said, watch out for the aligator! I looked and there was a huge alligator fighting with a gorilla. It had actually finally killed the gorilla that was down there. I decided not to jump. Then I was walking with my dad and stepmom. They were planning their wedding. We were looking at the places to do it and Charlotte was liking this one place. My dad said.. but I thought you liked the white house. She said.. oh I do.. we'll do it there. There was a party, people were drinking , eating, dancing... I was doing something and my mom was rude to me. I asked her to apologize and she wouldn't and other people thought it was mean of me to ask her to apologize.

Then someone was talking about this girl.. she wanted a different guy and was trying to woo him... they said it from of a guy who thought that the girl liked him. He was hurt... etc. The guy she really liked was hiding behind a couch.

Xmas themes

I think sometime last night after the 3rd or 4th wake up... I realized I would be moving out of this apartment on Dec. 22... so I would need to move right before Christmas... so why the dreams.

First I had a wee one where I was looking in one of the flower stores in germany for a small christmas tree. I was deciding if it was a good idea or not... I guess I decided not because the dream ended.

Then I had a dream... first it was in current times. It was more like I was observing a story between these people, not sure which but there were lovers, friends, relatives... then something happens and I'm walking through the snow... I'm am back in time and there is a cabin in the woods and the people are getting together for Christmas. The skinny Italian character in the present showed up last in this one, and with a british accent, with long hair and a leather daniel boone type jacket, and now with a southern accent. I, as the observer, could only stand at the door to peer in to what they were doing. There was a fire crackling, fur rug on the floor, people cozy in seats around the fire, food against one wall.. I looked at some of it and was hungry, so grabbed a couple of flakes of bread that had fallen off when the bread was cut. (In actuality my stomach had been waking me up all night with noises). An old man saw me and then offered me the bread crumbs. The people were gone now and I came in. I think I was going to sleep there or something but then I looked outside. I said.. Look at the moon! Oh my god, it is huge! He looked and agreed. It also had a picture on it. I was looking for something to put on... bras? I realized they were not mine, although pretty... and decided I was fine in what I was wearing, and went outside. The thing I thought was the moon, ended up being a large purple gray flying saucer type thing but it looked like a raft. Then the actual moon was still huge and very bright with some teen pop stars picture on it.

Another shorter dream... not xmas related... was I was just finishing up at the gym and changing. I saw that I had dropped my running jacket and picked it up and picked up two. The other was not mine, but very nice. I put it on the bench in my dressing room, now feeling guilty that I picked it up. Then I went to try on mine... and it wasn't mine either. :(

nuns, baby penquins and pigs

Ok.. misc. dreams last night

One I was with a friend.... we were at a fancy auction of sorts. Her in-laws have money. So someone was holding up this platter. It looked like trash to me but she exclaimed... "Oh it is a alkdjf!" and walked over to it saying how much she loved that artist. I could see she was getting approval from the in-laws for this, so I was happy they were getting along. I walked over to the next table and there were a couple of nun dolls. I thought.. I'll put my card on these. My step mom collects them and I could get these for her.. Then I picked one up and the nuns habit fell off... I put it back on and I saw the doll was only $2. I was relieved and at the same time confused why the doll was there. A nun and her little nun friend walked by while I was holding the doll. She looked at me as though I shouldn't be holding it, let alone be interested. I explained that my step mom used to be a nun and that now she isn't but she collects the dolls (in reality she was not a nun, just catholic). The alpha nun said with her head up as if she was wearing a neck brace, "she couldn't keep the focus (or something like that) huh?" I said "No, she really wanted to be a nun, but she didn't know herself well enough. And when she knew herself, she realized she wasn't one." and I walked away... Then I was at a work type place. We were in a building but one wall opened to the street. It was someone's birthday and everyone was supposed to go to this new trendy place for lunch. We went and the gimmick was that it was kind of a dessert swap. Every seating had two desserts. Mine were two gooey chocolate doughnuts. Then you were supposed to take one bite.. and then everyone moved to the right... and you take another bite and so on... I wasn't craving sweets and so I sat to the side where kids could sit and looked at the coloring books.

Then I had another dream. I was walking along a neighborhood street, but I think I was in Sweden (no idea what these look like). I was going to look for people that would let me walk their dogs so i could make some money. I was walking along and I saw up some stairs to a house, 2 baby penguins. They didn't look like baby penguins look. They were to balls of feather with yellow beaks sticking out. They seemed to give off an air that they knew what they were doing, but with the door cracked open and how they fumbled down the stairs, I could tell they escaped. I picked them both up and looked through the door... a middle aged couple (the new middle aged... late-ish 40s, early 50s) was inside. He was short and roundish with dark hair and a pleasant demeanor, she was tall and thin with short auburn hair, still pretty, but with more formality than her hubby. They looked over and saw I had the penguins and said oooh bring them in .. (as if it wasn't a big deal they escaped, but they were still thankful). The man looked out the door and tiny kittens were coming up too. He was saying how nice his cats were. Then one hairless was crawling up. I said.... are those tattoos???? The cat was covered in them. He said, no... I have a friend airbrush those on. S0, somehow I knew them in the past and they invited me in.. said I could stay, gave me a bed to sleep in and so on.. I went to go sleep in the bed and an exboyfriend was there. He crawled into bed with me and started to snuggle.. then I realized the bed was full of his computer, books, and so on.... I said .. these need to go or I go. So they went. Then I snuggled up to him and he said.. no. he doesn't like that... So I turned around and he snuggled up to me anyway.

Then I left the bed.. I was in the house but it somehow grew, had more people in it a couple I know, two little kids I don't, etc. The boyfriend of the couple was playing with that blow up clay.

Making little bombs etc... lighting things on fire. Then he would keep putting one by me to watch me run... he would laugh .. and then he would pull the wires out in the end. This last one he didn't get to in time and it blew a slash across his face. I said..it might not be bad but we need to get to the ER. Mind you.. the whole house of people had been milling around and the whole time it was a nice loving atmosphere. So we all start heading for the cars and I walk down some stairs and inside the house is an outside... a huge outside... it is a marsh area with a creak of sorts... The sun was just coming up and it was beautiful so I went to get my camera real quick to take a photo... then I could see the little kids in the water and the light reflecting on them , so wanted a nice pic, not that I could hold the camera still for the photo... it kept getting blurry (and when I looked at the screen I was taking a photo of someone with a white background adn they were wearing a white shirt with black suspenders and black pants... still blurry). Then the kids were running and saying I needed to run. I looked up and all I saw were deer in the creek... I was trying to take photos of them but they ran (I thought due to me). But then all these pigs were coming... I thought.. well then I will just take photos of the pigs.... Then water buffalo, ... so I would just take pictures of them.. they were cute.. Then they started charging at me.. so I ran to where the pigs were.. but they attacked me... full on biting me. One bit down on my arm and wouldn't let go so I ran and hit it and its head fell off and its body was in pieces. I didn't realize pigs disassembled so easily.. .

Cell phone soap pumps...

I had lots of dreams last night...

One I was in a new town. I thought I knew the streets better than I did.. I was walking around at night and then went into a grocery store for something to do... then it was a restaurant and I was trying to find the exit. I ended up in a blue truck with a mexican guy who worked at the restaurant. Apparently I had too much to drink at one point and gave him the idea that I liked him. Oops. So then I was asking him to take me home etc.. and it kind of faded from there.

Then I was at another restaurant in a different dream. I was going to meet this woman I had met in a class. We were going to discuss figuring out your mind versus your gut. I was excited to talk about this with her, but then she said she had plans with someone else and I would have to meet with her later.

Then another dream I was living with my brother and his friend (I lived with both of them about 19 years ago)... The one guy was getting frustrated with his cell phone. I asked him to show it to me and at first it was tiny and metallic pink. Then it seemed to grow into something that looked like a children's toy spaceship (still pink) with a clear pump on top. He said..."yeah... it reminds me of a soap pump." Then he started pumping it as if it was a soap dispenser and I started laughing at how ridiculous the phone looked and then I started laughing at my own laugh because it didn't sound like me.

hair dresser, surgery and mini horses

My last dream, I was at a hopital. I was there to get some sort of odd surgery on my heart, although there was nothing wrong with my heart. It was more of a preemptive surgery. I was pretty calm about it. I went in and my doctor was the one I had when I was little, Schluderman. When I was young he was very straight, very serious, never broke a smile. A slim blond man with a colorless face that smelled like soap. In this dream he was a little more "creative." He still didn't smile, but he was into "alternative" medicine. He and his nurse were telling me what to expect pre-surgery, giving me a little plastic device and telling me what to do with it and at what time. Then they were off behind the curtain to another patient. They told me the information so quickly that I didn't remember half of it. I looked down at the plastic device they gave me and I was thinking... I think they wanted me to pee in this... but today or tomorrow at 9? So I went through the hospital looking for him. I found him and my old boss in a room. She was getting the surgery first. I was trying to ask her what I should do next, but she was already gone on whatever they gave her to kill the pain. She was saying "those XX really worked.... I wasn't stressed at all!" etc. Then I looked around and there was a big spider on something I brushed off. Schluderman made a face. Then some baby pigs walked in the room, chickens, gray monkeys... I looked over to my friend Penny and she said..."oh... don't you remember. He works with animals, it is a new thing. It worked so great with me." The animals were supposed to be part of the treatment and heal you. I was like... "oooh... " really hoping that wasn't any part of my surgury. A nurse came over to me knowing what I wanted and said.. yes.. you should pee in that now.. your surgury isn't for another couple hours, but it is ok. Then she openned it to find that device was much much smaller than it looked and I had no idea how I was going to accomplish it. I decided to go back to the hotel where I was staying to complete the task. I had time. As I was leaving the room I could hear a little old lady talking about the cute little mice. She came through the door and had a little mouse in her hand (that actually looked like a little poodle). She swung back a curtain and put the poodle mouse back in its cage. I saw other little animals inside. They were all "dressed" like poodles. There was a tiny horse too... think the size of a plastic horse. I took that one for my walk back to the hotel. Since that is what the animals were there for, comforting. Then as I walked back.. I was outside and it looked like nyc, with the large sidewalks and tall buildings. Then I woke up...

Before that I dreamt that I was in some sort of school. A hairdresser I used to have was teaching a class there, but on photography. I was barely in the class or doing any of the work, so I wasn't feeling like I would pass. All of the other people were looking on some wall. It looked like the old report cards I would get in junior high before the official one came out... with hand written grades and observations. I looked for my name and I had an A. I went back to find the instructor (Scott).. and he was in bed in the classroom. I got in with him and took a nap. Then he had to go and I went to get my pants and he had left all of his clothes there... I was folding them up to take to him and .....

Solitary Man

woke up to Neil Diamond's "solitary man"..... I'm really not needing that as my motto this morning.

Dreamt... will have to see if it comes back to me .... I think there may have been a dog or some friendly animal that could think... that is about it.

Neil Gaiman... Killer dream

Ok.. I usually don't dream about torture or murder, but I read a short story by Neil Gaiman last night... "Queen of Knives" and I had a dream where I was the killer's "helper."

I was in a larger two story apartment (kind of posh) and there was a man in the place. I knew of him as a "boss." I needed to follow orders and stay on his good side. Part of me felt that this was all until I found a way to escape, so it wasn't that I was loyal to this person. I was following orders out of fear.

I was in the living area and organizing his things (he was a bit messy). Putting the remote controls in a line, moving papers in piles, tossing old receipts. There was movement of two people and conversation going up the stairs. Either this was an aquaintance, in which case it was better for me to be not seen or heard, or it was his next "project." If the latter, I needed to be at his side handing him what ever materials he needed. He yelled for me to come up... it was the latter. Dutifully, I went upstairs to see what he needed. Before me was my superior, kneeling on the floor putting tubes together. He looked like an ordinary man organizing wires to set up his new stereo. I looked beyond him and there was a blondish man in about his mid 40s. He was on his side, hands tied in front of him, feet tied in back.. but no gag. It was if he didn't realize what was happening to him because he didn't put up a fight. He just continued conversation, maybe explaining some better ways of putting him down besides Draino through a tube. My stomach turned.. what a horrible way to go. How could I be here...? My superior gave him a handful of pink chalky disks... The man ate them... I think it was to keep the acids down so he would continue to take the liquid. His mouth was foaming as he ate the pink disks...

Then I woke up.

marriage, hotels and undies

I know it was longer but I remember it starting here... it was like I woke up and I was married to this guy. We had just gotten married actually, and were with a group of people at his folks house I'm thinking. The group of people were either co-workers, from a class project, or something similar. We were finishing up a project and deciding how to divy up the duties until we met up next time. Someone had openned chips and chocolates... I asked someone to take it with them because it would go bad before we met up next time. This hispanic woman and myself decided to create a sign up sheet for next time as well. So we would have to have long discussions about who was doing what. She wanted to have it because she wanted dibs on cleaning the floors. So back the marriage thing. I was asking myself ... how did this happen?? I'm sure he is nice, but am not in love with him, I don't think it was physically possible to "consumate" the marriage due to his large overhanging belly. I was sick to my stomach and wondering either if I should a) go through with my decision and just buck up, or b) find the quickest way out. I didn't have to figure it out because I woke up to my next dream. I was in a hotel with an ex co-worker of mine, Danny (a male). He was staying at this hotel where it was just one room, the beds all against the wall, everyone had their own bathroom and there was a continental breakfast in the morning and computers with internet access lined up along the window in the room. He said he loved this hotel and wished more were like it. In the dream I partly thought it was strange, but then partly thought.... why not have all the beds in one room. You are sleeping anyway, so it made sense. I happened to be in sheer pink undies with black lace trim, a black bra and no shoes. I felt a little underdressed. I went to the computers to look something up, but the wires kept getting intermingled with other people's wires... I got up to go for a walk. I felt uncomfortable and a bit sleezy walking down the nice cafe laden street in my underwear... I was telling this to my friend Jason who was walking with me. I said.. you know what would work.. If I had perfectly fitting white oxfords on and my hair was just so.... then it wouldn't look so bad.

traveling dreaming

Had a ton of dreams while traveling, but didnät write them down.

last night a dream that included some sort of video game. I was at a big?? farm-wedding thing and one room had really big video game contraptions that felt really real, but then we ended up doing some reality activity that was partly dangerous? Then I was in a theater with someone new that I just started to like... and then I think I woke up...

Oh and had a dream that Sascha was right outside my door where I was sleeping... lightly saying my name to ask a question.. and trying and trying to wake up.... finally did to realize it was just a dream. But then checked my clock and he was just awake.

old dreams (spring 09)

Found this one on scratch paper.

Dreamt I overwatered my plants... my favorite plant that had lived the longest came out without its roots.

Then met this guy, work related, chubby, nice. I picked up my friend from Chicago in a small white car with the top down. We were driving downtown at night in it. Something about a concierge... Her luggage barely fit in my car. She complimented my luggage to the chubby guy. He was ready to compliment me on everything.

3/13/09
Woke up with the song Auld Lang Syne in my head. Looked it up.. had no idea it was Scottish.

I dreampt about working and being able to see a parade from the office window. Everyone was celebrating. I was leaving for lunch and was going to find some nice or special place to go. Then this quieter woman in the office got my attention. A small older black woman. She said the sandwiches in this shop are nice. I cringed on the inside because it looked like a cheap little corner market, but I went inside because I didn't want to hurt her feelings. There were all kinds of white bread sandwiches cut on the diagnal so you could see what kind they were. Ham, turkey, chicken salad etc. but they all seemed to have red jello in them. Then I spotted and egg salad with no jello. I found myself excited to eat it, having forgotten how much I liked egg salad. And then I thought ... what a nice, simple and affordable thing to like.

Then I had a dream ... I remember a dad ... a young girl I was helping.. and walking down stairs..

3/17/09
Had a dream about Sascha (friend from germany). He and I traveling. We saw Daryl Hannah with her mother. I was pointing her out to Sascha. Another about an ex's Dad.. he was smoking pot... Another I was working in a company. Mechanic?... Felt nice... family like
3/23/09
Dreamt that I was in some tiny car on a rail. Almost like a ride or old coal mine. I was with a child and we were heading straight for a wall... very fast. There was nothing we could do. I put my arms around the child to protect it as much as I could and at least to hide its eyes. Just at impact, we rolled some other way, we were fine. I started crying out of being scared/shocked and happy.

3/25/09
Dreamt that Michele (Italian guy) was an Oak Tree and I could felt close to him as a tree and love him. Also had a dream this curly haired blond guy was trying to get me to do yoga saying it was important or things would not go well. And then spiders (2) came after us. Then when I woke up, I looked at my white wall and saw a dark shadow about the sie of a small apple crawl up the wall. FREAKED me out!

4/3/09
Dreamt that I saw Peter (old friend of mine's husband) and was "ok" but funny feelings. And Dan, a guy that worked at Rodgers. I was topping by to say hi and they were looking at me like "get over it"..."move on" ... "We have." (this was after I had been going through a box of old letters and cards)
6/12/09
Dreamt this friend from NYC (d.j. anthony), was trying to get cozy with me and I didn't want to - so he thought I wasn't interested... Another ... was given a blue bird and it was so sweet. It was round and fluffy and snuggled right under my chin. I was looking for a place to put it but there was just a cage with a parakeet and the parakeet was mean. I thought they would fight, but the parakeet became sweet when it was around that bird. ... Another ... some unknown thing was pulling my blankets away but then grabbed me - wrapped me in the blankets and was moving me from one room to the next. I tried screaming and no sound came and then finallyh it did and I woke up. Rare that I can scream in my dreams.

Paintings, play and new sun hat

I think my dream started in some sort of class... but I know there was?? some guy there too.

Then I was walking on the beach at night, flipping through a painting book (like a book you would paint in or something...). I was looking at paintings of scenes in the rain, people in the rain... it was a bit abstract/stylized. I was thinking .. did I paint these??? Then I was meeting my brother and his wife just off the beach to go to a play. These young, hip Japanese people were outside saying... "great play, you should really go..." So we went inside to buy a ticket. I was wondering if I looked ok since I was walking on the beach and in my dream I was unaware of what I was wearing. I looked in a reflection and saw I was in a nice dark plaid wool coat and a wool cap and my hair actually look stylish. Then we went in the building and we were looking for the actual ticket counter since part of the building was a library and part was a museum. The book of paintings turned into a newspaper and I was looking around for where I could rcycle them, but couldn't find a place.

At the end I was with Tessa and I was all excited because I was wearing my new sun hat. It was white and actually fit. It was almost loose... but.. fit. ;) (I just bought one online last night... I have a big head). ;)