spirit animal and doughnuts

I dreamt I was in a group meeting. There was a shaved headed lesbian woman there leading the talk regarding spirit animals. I told her I once had an experience while listening to some music that was supposed to put you in a meditative state. While listening I saw a cougar, but then a wolf climbed out of the cougar's mouth and then I actually saw through the wolf's eyes. It was fun. I was very "in the moment" because the wolf would run one direction, pick up a smell and go in another, see a mouse, run after that.... no worries, no thinking "where should I be right now?" ... just feeling the cold air, following what caught my eye next. I thought it was very exhilarating and fun. Then at the end I was an owl. She went on and on about how interesting and telling it was, but she didn't say what it told. Then the group was breaking up, half of the group had gone into another room and had been drinking or doing drugs. I wanted to go home but my friends were partying. I said I could take them home because I hadn't had anything and they didn't want to. I kept on bargaining, I was going to go home somehow.

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I dreamt I was in a work environment. There was an office supply delivery that included cookies, doughnuts and peanut m&ms. Half of the office was empty and I needed to go look for someone, so I took an elevator down a floor or so. I don't think I found the guy or maybe I knew he would be coming up to the next floor. I went back to organize the food and put it away. It seems someone had put piles on different desks. I thought  this was odd. Why not keep it together in one container to keep it all fresh. Part of this was a controlling feeling too... what would happen with all of the items, who would take them, toss them, not put them in a container?  Why did I care, it wasn't my responsibility really.... I ended up just taking a jelly doughnut and going to a desk to work. It was someone else's desk and they had a pile of food there too. I put it in a box so it wouldn't get on the work. The girl that sat at the desk (RP) asked me what I had been up to. At that moment I couldn't tell her what work I had accomplished. I knew I had been feeling lethargic and uninterested in my work, and that since I was having a problem with my memory recall and suddenly was feeling guilty, maybe I hadn't been doing my work. I replied "not much." She was giving me the eye like I was worthless and lazy and should be gone. Then I started realizing I am not the type to sit and do nothing... I had other projects I had worked on that kept me from my normal work. I started feeling better again.