bad studying

I was in some sort of classroom I was with a group of students taking a test. We all seemed like we had spent plenty of time together because we seemed pretty chummy. I was stressing out. As I was taking the test I realized none of the information looked familiar to me. Had I checked out the whole time? That wasn't like me. I'm a procrastinator, but I do the work. I looked again at the first questions. They were all on stories we had read and (over) analyzed. I knew I had read the first story. In fact, I had gone over it with a fellow student several time until they understood the information. What was going on?? A guy in front of me (AdF) turned around and could tell something was up. He talked to me for a second. He was telling me that I had done all of the actual work, the reading, the analyzing ... everything on the check list. What I didn't do was put my?? soul?? my heart? my?? umph into it. So what ever I did as an activity, didn't stick enough to take the test. I could tell he felt bad about my situation. He knew I meant well and that I was confused, but at the same time he knew I wouldn't pass until I learned this. I should cut my losses and take the class again. There was no rush.  As soon as I realized it wasn't a race... that I could do this all again and would do great now that I knew the secret, I felt relief.

Then I was in this company. It was a place I supposedly worked a long time ago and was back again. I felt like a bit of an old timer because I knew a lot of the history that they didn't. I told them who I used to work with there and they would be in awe like they were legends.

Then I needed to get somewhere. One of the coworkers was taking a truck into town for lunch, so I jumped in the back of his truck. It was fun sort of sliding around in the back. I had a dog with me too... part real, then stuffed animal some of the time. Then the man stopped. He had a passenger in the car as well. He didn't know who I was and was disturbed by my presence. I told him some people that I knew he knew that I knew as well... I said I just need to go downtown ... He seemed ok then and we all went out to get some lunch.

doctor date

I dreamt that I had a sales job in a store. I think that I was supposed to be selling makeup. I don't see myself as a sales person, so I was doing my best. I realized after being there, no one really is a sales person and my best was better than most. I went over to a furniture department and helped a woman who looked lost in decision and made a sale of a special piece of furniture that I would make a good commission on. I knew they would want to move me to that department, which I was happy about. I left work to walk home. I went up stairs. It seems I was sharing an apartment with a friend, another woman my age-ish. We got along well, had similar ideas about decor and cleanliness. I checked for mail and then decided I need to get out in the city. We lived in a 4-6 story building in NW Portland. I wanted to see a shop that was right across the street from us. I walked outside and it was still open. Just as I turned to make sure the building door had closed a man came from behind. He was pleasant, a tall blond in a white coat. It looked like a lab coat. I had seen him around and he had seen me in the neighborhood as well. He had flowers and said something goofy but nice that made me feel nice. He was asking me on a date in a round about way. He was completely and totally a pleasant person. I told him that I wanted to see what was in the store across the way and he said he would like to see as well. So we went in... a shorter roundish woman was taking care of the till. She had a shoulder length bob with straight bangs. She seemed nice enough as well and I could see didn't mind the company.

bull dog pups

I waited too long to record these... but I rarely have repetitive dreams and two nights in a row, I had a dream about a baby bull dog puppy. It was adorable and felt good in the dream. Cute and pudgy. 

salsa

I dreamt about my exboyfriend (BW). We were walking through some markets and heading towards a train or bus or? We had a destination in mind. On the way, we walked through an old school. We were not supposed to be in there, but I think it was some sort of short cut. He at one point told some man to do smoething, which the man did. I just thought in my mind.... bossy boy... but he was good at asking people to do things for him. In the school he was looking for some pipe to shoot water through. I can't remember if it was for a prank or a distraction to the security guard. I found something that would work and he started working on it. Then I turned around and saw the security guard enter the building. I told him to run. So we ran down the hallway. At some point he needed to empty what he had in his pockts and he emptied a bunch of salsa in a fish bowl. We both immediately felt bad because we didn't want to kill the fish.

elvis hair

I dreamt about a guy with blond Elvis hair, at least that is what I called it in my dream, and fish gills for his under eye bags ... again, what I called it in my dream.

clay mask

I dreamt I as with my exboyfriend (MT). We were talking and for some reason I was smearing clay on his face. I think it was more like clay slip than it was a  mask, but I was telling him it was funt to fill in all of the crevices and pores to see what his face looked like smooth. We were both laughing and it was nice.

purpose

I dreamt that I was walking through town with a little boy. It was if he was my little brother (although I don't have one). We were getting away from someone and/or were trying to get to a safe place. At some point I lost my top, not sure how, but it was awkward and I needed to get somewhere to hide and find something to put on. We were walking in an area, and I thought I knew who the people were in a nice home we were near. Maybe a friend of mine knew them, but it was the closest thing I had for help. We walked up and I knew I had to quickly explain the missing top. These people were very wealthy and had little patience for people not at their level. A man opened the door. He was probably in his early 50s, dark hair, but bald on top. I quickly explained to please forgive my appearance and could he at least let the boy in. He let us through, said he would protect the boy but that I needed to leave. I asked for at least a t-shirt and he said .... just leave and wouldn't look me in the eye. I could feel he was disgusted. I went out to the front lawn, and felt relief from the boy being taken care of. Then two older teenagers? or 20 somethings came out? They were either that man's children or neighbors. They both were very self assured, very head strong, and very directed. The girl, who was slim, no makeup, long blondish hair,  asked what was my purpose in life. I said I wasn't quite sure and asked what her's was. She said that she had always been interested in a certain medical field and research and she was going to focus on that. She seemed to have no other distractions, like but I like to travel or dance or want a family, just this medical work. The young guy, who had naturally curly surfer hair, was friendlier. He also knew his purpose, but I don't think he shared it. He took off his sweatshirt and offered it to me to cover myself up. I told him thank you and that I would return and/or replace it as soon as I could. He didn't seem to care. I could feel the cold on the inside of the shirt where there were iron ons or decoration. He also asked me what my purpose was. He said there is no excuse for people to not know it. That it was more or less just a type of laziness and he had no tolerance. I felt sick to my stomach. What could I say? What did I like? I knew I liked how the mind worked and how to fix things in the mind... but is that enough to call something a purpose?

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I dreamt that I was in a classroom. We were all figuring out where to sit. I was sitting on the far left of the room, 2nd or 3rd seat back. I guess I was wanting to sit near friends and they near me. Our professor was coming in the room. We all were excited for class, because we all liked him. He had wisdom, was kind and fun. (He was actually the same man that was in the dream above). Class hadn't started yet. I looked around the room and I saw that my mother was also taking the class. This was odd as she wasn't really that self motivated for these sorts of things. I am usually quick to pick up new concepts, so when the instructor started the lesson, I was baffled in that I didn't understand anything he said. I think normally I would have panicked or wanted to hide my ineptness. But this time, I felt very free and almost good about saying... I don't understand a thing. Please explain. It felt very freeing. 

cookies

I dreamt that I was helping my friend PC set up some booth in a grocery store. I was very thirsty and drank a whole 2 liter bottle of water at once. Then I decided I was going to go by Taffys ... a kind of cookie, for a friend of mine. I went to the aisle to find them and each and every package was opened and half eaten. There was a guy behind me looking for the same ones and I let him know that we were out of luck.

walking home

I dreamt that two guys were following me across a park. I could feel them watching me and knew they were going to do something. They came up trying to take my purse. I kept walking, held on tight to my purse and didn't look them in the eye. I kept on talking about that I didn't have cash and they could follow me to a bank. I did this intending to run into someone on the way to ask for help. We crossed the street and I was disappointed that there were no cars I could stop. Then I saw a group of kids. I screamed for help and ran to them. They knew they couldn't do anything to me directly due to the number of kids, so they took the smallest boy and held  a knife to his neck. I was so furious I ran to the boy, picked him up and glared at the two guys and said they should be ashamed of themselves. I ran into the next house and there was a woman from another country there. She looked confused. I called the police. 

Locker

I was in a bath house or gym ?? I put my things in a locker and went to do something. Time passed and i went back to get my things and someone took them. i looked all around. i knew this girl took my things and she just stood there and denied it.