puppet

I dreamt that I was somewhere.... inside some home. There was an odd table outside made of sticks... kind of artsy. It had a little tiny mock up home on it, but enough space in front for trinkets? jewels?

There were fancy jewels set out on it... some antique. Were they mine? They felt like my responsibility.

A man was outside. He looked either homeless or sketchy. Either way, he felt sketchy. I needed to go out there. I didn't want to be obvious or offend, but I didn't need the items stolen either.

I felt like when I went out there that he wanted more than the jewels. He was wanting control.. like he wanted to hurt me.

For some reason I talked to him, and kept talking... trying to appease, trying to be polite. Why? He was a direct threat and I should have yelled, screamed, grabbed my things and ran inside. Why was I trying to spare his feelings??

Then I was walking down some old neighborhood. It was a very "nice" neighborhood, traditional, old.. hmm I felt like I "should" be there. Not that I wanted to be.. or that it was me. It just what everyone else seemed to want. I didn't fit in though. But I felt I should. It was normal, it was nice, it was secure. I ran down the side of some old ladies house.... I was intimidated by her a bit, although I didn't know her, want to know her, want to be like her... I just felt like she must know something that I didn't.

I felt uncomfortable and not in control of my own limbs