the glow

I dreamt that I was with a group of people, some men, some women. Some of the people were from my past and some from my present. Some I thought I barely knew, yet they made an impression on me and some I was involved with more deeply. We were all sitting around quite closely, draped over sofas and all a bit snuggled together. It was as though we were all talking to each other, but didn't really have to say anything. A certain look, a pat with a hand and so on, told it all. It was as though we were all telling each other that we loved and cared a lot for each other, but separately. It was nice.

Then I was on a grassy path, walking through fields. There was a tree and around it were some red flowers, some orange berries and some other colors that made it look beautiful and I wanted to stop and take a photo. I was crouching down to get a good angle and a guy came up behind me. No one I knew, almost a bit annoying for some reason. He said, you might want to focus on where the sun is shining, where the glow was. I was taking the photo in the shade.I was upset at first or my ego was, but then humbled myself. I could tell he only meant well and I would take a better photo because of it.




 

golden nugget

I dreamt that a friend of mine (PC) and myself and a friend of her's (S), were traveling. She was  looking for clues to something... like each clue led her to somewhere else. She was carrying something like a gold nugget, but it had writing on it. We were at some event at a cemetery or something and she spoke to a woman that made her feel like she was on the right track. Then she was in the cemetery and found a matching stone to her gold nugget thing. She started digging and she had the final confirmation regarding being on the right path and something about a son... it seemed as though it was her son although she doesn't have one, but maybe a son like relationship or someone from a past life that was helping her in this one.

skin

I dreamt that I went into this large house. It was dark, with darkened raw wood ceilings and walls. It was spacious with vaulted ceilings, yet it was ? complicated in design or where things were put. There was a woman there and she felt dark as well. She was focused to the point that things outside her almost didn't exist, except for what she wanted to see or focus on. She didn't even see me come into the house, although I didn't try to be seen.  There was a large box made of the same dark raw wood in a room. She went over to it and opened it with purpose. There was a woman in there soaking in water, a fearful woman. She put her hands on the top of the woman's head and split the skin and peeled it off of the woman in one piece. Something about the soaking making it easier. It was awful. I couldn't see the skinless woman, but I could feel her fear and her weakness, and then the strength and uncaring of the other woman which was worse. She then put the other woman's skin on stretching it up over her arms like she was putting on a snug sweater and was completely covered.

razor's edge

I dreamt that I had given my friend the dvd, "The Razor's Edge." I had given him the 1946 version, as I already knew that he liked the newer one with Bill Murray. I was just wondering if he had seen it yet. I preferred the older one, so I was hoping he could see what I saw in it.

prostitute management

I dreamt that I was a new manager at a prostitution house. I had high energy, as a I saw a lot of things that could be improved and had many ideas. Not that I liked the industry, but I saw where things could be improved both for the clients and the workers. I told them we should set different price points as some men didn't want to have a full experience, some men just wanted some pretty company and so on. This would be better for the women as they would know what their expectations were going in and maybe would have to perform less and we would get more customers who maybe would normally shy away from this sort of thing.

odd..

river

I dreamt that I saw a friend of mine, like in a dream. She was in a blank space, so I was just seeing her is-ness... the way she was, flowed, energy? I then reviewed myself and felt I didn't have the same flow. I noticed I had a metal bar was screwed to the top of my head and it curved over the back of it down my back with screws into my spine. Out from the bar, were side bars, almost like ribs going around to about the front middle of my arms. So part of me was experiencing and free and the other wasn't. It felt rigid, I couldn't breath or stretch. I wanted out. I imagined the top screw unscrewing and it worked. the bar retracted into the middle bar on my back and then the side bars retracted in and it was gone, poof! I realized I was a little girl.

Then I was in water. I was moving in the boat trying to make it go and it wasn't getting anywhere. As soon as I relaxed, the boat was going down the stream, then it stopped. I got out and went down a green forested path. There were stone stairs at the end. I felt like there was something I should do, was supposed to do, was wanting to do. I decided to go up the stairs, almost in fear of something would happen, or more not happen if I didn't. As I was on the stairs, I looked to the right and saw more stairs. Should I climb those? It felt like I would just be in the same set of stairs only hirer. I looked over the edge of the first set of stone stairs. I realized I was on a cliff and that I should jump. Really? Couldn't I die? but it was the only thing left to do. I jumped expecting a splat at the end. I ended up only dropping four feet. I was ok. It wasn't as high as I thought. I made it out to be way scarier than it was in reality.

I brushed myself off and water was coming. I was in a boat again and drifting down a river. I started going faster and faster and even holding on to the edge of the front of the boat and putting my face out there in the wind and spray open and ready for what was next. I noticed as the boat was going, I was getting older. I went from girl to womanhood. The boat stopped in some sand. I got out of the boat and stepped on warm sand cover in fir tree greenery. I could feel the warm white sand under my feet. It felt beautiful, like the warmth of love. The greenery felt nice too, but in a different way. I walked deeper into this island and saw a large marble Roman type structure. It was completely empty, clean, a fine foundation, but nothing and no one. I walked up into it and wasn't sure what to do. It was cold, I felt cold. I saw at the end of the room that there were more stairs, same number as the stone stairs. I walked up those and realized there was nothing to do there, no where to go again, so I came back down to the main room. I could feel a presence behind me. It was up on the landing of the stairs I just came down. It felt dark, not like it was a threat, but dark. I thought, is this a shadow experience? do I need to look it in the eye, knowing now that "it" was an angel. No... I didn't need to look it in the eye. I didn't need to run from it either. Even thought it was an angel, it wasn't there to be light and sweet and soft. I kept walking because I was questioning whether or not I should leave this place. Just as I was coming to the conclusion of possibly no, the angel was right in front of me. I couldn't see its face, just that he had dark hair down to his shoulders, a bit scraggly. Although his gown was white, his wings and face were dark and I couldn't distinguish his features and didn't feel it was important too. He was showing me no... I needed to stay. Not knowing what to do with myself in this empty building, I sat down in the middle of the floor and dropped my shoulders and was resolved that I would just see what would happen next. I saw time passing, and red woven rug appeared under me, a warm wooden table next to me with vases, candles, plates, more decorations on the walls, furniture, people, activity and warmth. It felt like a life. It felt good.

Then the water came, calmly and I was off again flowing down a river. The water came to a whirlpool and I was spinning around feeling I should try and get out. I flapped my arms trying to swim, but the more I struggled, the more I would sink down in the water. I let go. I was able to just watch and experience the spinning, the different things I was seeing and enjoy it. The whirl finally let me free and I was at the edge of a river again. This time on soil instead of sand and the same greenery under my feet.

might makes right

I dreamt of a man from the 1940s. He was Irish and it felt like war time. He was singing a little chant...

"We all should have the same values,
You should be like me,
Then might makes right
and we must fight
and make an amputee."


It felt like a song of irony... showing how stupid it all is, we will never all be alike..
and to impress then on another could only be done by force
and then we lose.
 

looking for an apartment

I dreamt that I was at a department store with my new coworker DA. We doing something wrong in the parking lot, something we wouldn't want anyone else to know about, but I'm not sure quite what it was.We went into the store, bought some flowers and other items and as we came out, there was a man in a photo booth that was playing with some photos and film. I looked over and realized he had filmed us and I felt panicked. I went straight to him and asked for the photos. He was holding on to them defensively but with a feeling of ownership. I somehow threatened him enough to get them back. I felt there was not going to be a "no" from him. I wouldn't have stood for it.

Then I dreamt that I was looking for an apartment. I decided to go ahead and look at my old place in a neighborhood I wasn't happy living in due to the distance from the city. I was partly excited though as it was a great space with two story ceilings. As I was going there, I ran into JL (friend from Arizona). It was nice to see him. He looked good, his hair looked a little different. He was on his way to a wedding of his best friend's. His friend looked tortured and stressed. I felt almost that he would have rather married JL then his bride to be.