blue god

I dreamt that I was with an exbf BW and I was blue. Not naturally blue, but had blue makeup all over my body and face... but that this was me. He liked the color and me. Then I started feeling that although this was me, maybe I might offend others. I went to a bathhouse with a girl who fit in more than I did. At first I felt safe due to being with her, but then, with these people I didn't fit with, I felt again like I might be offensive... this color, was it a god of theirs I was offending or worse, not their religion and that was offensive. They wouldn't understand that it was me.  I held myself under water, for a very long time. I was shocked at how long I could be under for. The others didn't seem to notice this effort. I stayed under until I could wash off every trace of blue. I came back out and had accomplished it.  I was clean now, but they didn't notice me,  just the same as when I had the blue skin.  I now didn't feel comfortable and I was not myself.