unfinished home

I dreamt I was living in a house on the outskirts, kind of in some woods, near a river, but still close enough to town. I lived in a bit of a make-shift apartment, partly in a basement, partly unfinished, ... SD, a friend from Chicago was visiting me. I was showing her my place and she was saying how she was going to buy a tv etc. I told her not to as I had two flat screens. I would have hated for her to waste her money.

I went to my trunk where my second tv was and  was also going to show her the shed where my livingroom was. It was all a bit rustic, but I kind of liked it.

wedding flood

I dreamt that I was at a large hotel that had ballrooms and restaurants for events. I seemed to be setting up the event and running around. At the same time I felt not part of the event and like I crashed the place. I was walking by people trying to be unnoticed in my crashed-mindset and the groom caught my attention. He was inviting me to a private party for the bride and groom, a sort of thank you for all of my work. Ok, I guess I was part of this thing. I thought he was telling me the party was an after party after the wedding and reception... but then it was starting right then, a before party. I was disappointed. The after party sounded like more fun, more special, less... as an "I have to thank you some how so here is a non-sincere event to make it seem like I care."   I went down a hallway to a lobby and then into a computer room. It was as if a large scientific company was in the building as well.  I walked into the room and it was all protected by card keys. I could walk into the entrance, but not through a turnstile. The room was white and the whole border of the room had computers built into the walls. One wall had sit down counters with computers and a window out to something they were working on. I could see something had gone wrong, as one of their inventions or experiments crashed into a woman scientist. She was older, brown bob, not very attractive. It was a person that felt like she was not focused on anything beautiful in life. Just measurements, specifics,  what she could see before her.  She was dead now and blood everywhere. I guess I was supposed to help, or was helping and I had blood on my hands. I had put my hand against the window and left a blood mark on it.

I left the room and was walking back the small wedding thank you party. There were people dressed in stormtrooper outfits, but more refined and less bulky. They were also in more muted grays and greens. I kind of rolled my eyes at the new trend and the club at the hotel that attracted these types.

I saw the groom again, very groomed, short haired blond fella. This time he didn't look as cheery. There was a flood of water coming, a natural disaster type of flood. The whole room was suddenly consumed with chest high water. I was standing on top of some tables and watching everything move past me, desserts, and tea sandwiches in the muddy water.

It seemed the flood was over as soon as it began. Time had to have sped through it, but time really hadn't moved. A few of us were stacking furniture in an area to keep some of the water and items to the place of the reception. Otherwise, everyone else had left.

I remembered that the blood was still on the window. I needed to go clean it up. Not that I had done anything wrong, but someone had and I didn't want any evidence out there. I went into the room but didn't have a key card this time. I was going to sneak over the turnstile and clean. Just as I was, a woman came in. I acted like I belonged there and cleaned the window and left.

I went to an apartment that I had rented for the few days of the wedding. It was dirty too. I went out onto the deck or roof? and there were items left from the flood. I could see people on the street gathering food and going to their cars, for the most part, helping each other. I took some palm leaves and stacked them on the roof. I'm not sure if it was to clean up or that they were valuable. They seemed valuable.

Then I was in a torn up house or make shift salon. The flood had hit a friend's house that did nails and hair. My friend PC and I went there to get a manicure and he was a bit harried, although pleasant.. he just didn't have his normal supplies, his normal space.  She was almost done and he hadn't started on me yet. I looked down though and saw pink on one nail. I didn't want pink... too barbie for me. I was going to remove it before he came back and to start over. I wanted the same color as was on my toes... a nude.

killer robot

I dreamt that I was shopping for gloves. I have long fingers, so nothing was fitting. Someone told me... "don't you know, Mr. ?? can make them for you any time custom fit?"  I was so excited to have something that I didn't have to bend to.. it would bend to me.

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I dreamt that I had forgotten to do something before I left my cousin's beach house. So I drove back out there and decided to spend the night.  A family showed up during the night. I didn't know that she had rented it out that night. I had nothing on and was in bed and was apologetic when they came in. The man was apologetic back. I rushed around to put things on and then leave.

Then I was at an event, some sort of concert hall or convention center. I was supposed to be there, either part of the event or something. I was walking through the concession area and started to walk towards the door. A large white robot was following me. I knew that it was going to kill me. It wasn't as fast, but could make its target well. I ran out to the cars but it seemed to be able to spot me no matter how fast I ran or where I hid. I was running in front of a row of cars and then it was right on my tail. I took a sharp turn and then another and dove between some cars on the ground. I was between a normal car and some sort of black tank, that was matt black and maybe 4 inches above the ground. I couldn't slide under either car.  I was sure that it was going to walk past me, but mid stride, it turned 45 degrees and...   I woke up. 

chicken movies

I dreamt that I was in a grocery store... well first a little market and then it seemed to get larger. I worked there. The people seemed to be pleasant enough. I wasn't sure what my title was, I'm not sure it mattered. I guess it was my lunch time and I sat near the deli, but we sat at a large garbage bin with the lid being our table. I sat with two other new employees. A somewhat chubby guy that seemed really nice and pleasant and a petite woman with black hair and sharply cut bangs. My food items kept falling off the paper and onto the garbage lid. I had to keep through things away. It seems the woman was making this happen.

Then I was in another room. A more appropriate lunch room with my friends SK and CK. We were all eating chicken but all cooked differently. One said... I'm eating "movie title" chicken... , another .. "well I'm eating "movie title" chicken... They said what kind of chicken is yours? It doesn't come from a movie.   I said, "Oh, mine is from Close Encounters of the Third Kind... it was before product placement." (which isn't true... but funny) I felt a bit not part of the social norm with my chicken, but I liked it. It felt free and I didn't have to fit in so much.

fish tails

I dreamt that I was in the ocean with two girlfriends. People I don't know in reality... We were swimming and I noticed one of them had a, well like a mermaid outfit from the hips down. It was on the level of buying a surfboard or flippers for your feet, some new trend. Hers was white with red stitching and zippers. The other one had a deep blue one with white stitching. I was watching them and they looked a bit awkward in the water. I was completely enjoying the ocean, the buoyancy, it felt amazing. I thought I would show them how to do it and I kind of wanted to try the new thing out too. I was showing them you had to use your whole body as if it was one limb. They couldn't see it or connect the idea and kept struggling with their old thoughts about how one swims. I let it go and got on land. Then I was walking along a river bank. I think  I was going to go fishing. I walked down a sidewalk that was between the stream and some houses. It felt sweet, quaint, pleasant... In getting there I had to walk one way for a while.. then turn 180 degrees at a v in the sidewalk to walk on the other side of the houses to get to my destination.  At one point there was a girl at a doorway. She had down syndrome and wanted to say hello. I came to her door and we chatted a bit. She was highly functional and sweet. I saw that I could go out her front door and be back on the beginning of the path. It would be a shortcut if I wanted to go back. I left the girl and kept walking. I saw then another path that let to the beginning of the path. I didn't have to go around all of the houses to the v... I could have been at the fishing spot a while ago.

house of ...

I dreamt that I was in a car with my step mom, my dad and my brother and there was a baby. A baby girl with lots of curls. We were all getting out to stay somewhere. I'm not sure where... the beach? camping? some event?  They were all out of the car and I wanted to sit in the back for a bit. I wanted to sit with the baby girl. We had a connection. Part of me wanted to take care of her. I told my step mom that I was worried.. My brother is so critical and I wanted her to grow up with an open mind of possibilities... not criticisms. I decided she would be fine... and she was not mine to teach.

getting ahead

I dreamt that I was with my family on the road where the old white farm house is. We were walking down the road for old times sake. In my dream there were old farm stores and quaint shops in the area and it would be fun to see them again. For some reason I wanted to go faster. Maybe I wanted to be alone, maybe I wanted to get there faster? I'm not sure. I started jogging. It felt good and I liked the idea of getting there and getting settled and having some alone time. I came up to a building. It looked like a place that they would have some wine tastings. They had tables outside, a large barn door open and tables inside. I was thirsty and was looking for a machine to buy water from. I found one and turned around and my whole family was there. Hadn't I ran there? Shouldn't they be a ways away still? I was disappointed that I didn't have time and I wanted to head on to the next place. Although I did feel warmth knowing they were there, somewhere.

bubble baby

I dreamt I was in a room with some ?? horrible people. Horrible in that they were not clean, were not aware of their surroundings, of their bodies, of their time, of anything. They had children and just put them in front of the tv, on a dirty sofa, in a dirty room, with little light... The woman was large... not just large, HUGE in a scifi crazy way. Her head was tiny above her huge heaving body. Her calves and arms had a yellow sort of fungus growing on them... there was a voice saying something along the lines of the more you are not aware.. etc... basically this would grow. I could see it growing before my eyes. Oh it was horrible. Then I could see her belly, all shiny with sweat... her skin hanging all over... then she was making noises.. she was about to have a baby. I don't even think she knew it. It shot out and I have no idea where it went. I looked around on the floor and saw nothing and looked under the sofa and so on. Then I saw this dark bubble in the air. Was that the baby? It had a skeleton in it. Just the skull... it was floating inside the bubble. I asked if that was the baby and it nodded. I could see through the black eye sockets and saw a pinkish brain floating in the background. This somehow confirmed to me that it was in fact the baby. The woman started shrinking now... started looking like a normal person. The rest of them started seeming normal and behaving.

out of date

I dreamt that I was walking through an apartment building. Something I might have been impressed with in the 80's, but was out of date now. It was an apartment building of quality though. You  needed to know people to get in, be part of their group, but.. maybe that is what was outdated.

I was at an elevator near a gift shop on the main floor. I was on the floor with my suitcase open... trying to look busy while the manager walked by. I wanted to look like I lived there so she wouldn't bother me. Although something felt like I did live there, but ... maybe still didn't belong.

I left the place and into the parking area. I was heading to a friend's wedding. MB and P were finally getting married. There were people from my past there... high school people, not my people either really. I had made some cookies for MB that were stacked like a cake. They were not meant to replace the cake, and they were just an example of something people could nibble before hand. They colors were not ideal though... lavenders and girl colors.  I went to go put some things away and then came back. MB had refrosted them.. in grays and greens. Much more his style, modern, avant garde, neutral... I felt bad.. I wanted to do something nice and was capable, but he didn't get to see my final product.

Then I dreamt that my brother had my mother's old french table we grew up with. He wanted to get rid of it having no idea what it was worth. Even then, he wanted to toss it.

engine

Dreamt then woke up mid sleep... typed it in my phone... No memory left of dream:

I dreamt that I was driving to Oregon City. I was using siri to get there although knew how, wanted to see a different route and there was one.

Kept getting on wrong road, then saw these guys... looked like they were going to an event and needed a ride. They were shaved headed, nude-ish more like covered in body paint to either make a point? be a piece of art... either way it looked like they were trying to do something and I was going to offer just a little help, a ride.  In the car they were nice at first and then we stopped. One stole my car battery. I was so upset.. I needed to get to oregon city. They were just hoodlums, not doing anything special. I called 911, but it just went to some recording with music, no choices to push buttons. I went to the station. She said that she was the only one manning the office that day, so couldn't answer the phones, and I needed help. I see that she had little to provide so I said, When I get my situation figured out, I will call the person for the muscle at the end. I went back... they were all in a woods area where we had parked by the river. They were just sitting and joking. I thought... I'm going to go get that battery. I jumped on the big chubby one and went down to them. I think the chubby one would help me possibly, if I asked. I picked up the battery and walked back up the hill. I opened my hood and my whole engine was now gone. I was furious. I screamed at them... I'm not rich, I don't have money for this. I was going to Oregon City for interviews and I needed this all to work. Something about all that made them decide to give it all back. So I felt a bit of relief. I was still going to go to the police after. There was one leader. A skinny dark haired young guy. He was dark inside as well, bitter, lots of hate in him. He was the only one I needed to keep my eye on.

Sleep writing - conference

Dreamt then woke up mid sleep... typed it in my phone... No memory left of dream:

Gov job. At location sorting, dressed professional, we are at major conference, part if it but not. Lots of suits, end of a meeting, lots of milling about... Me on the periphery

Then woman asking for stuff, two envelopes you have been holding. She wasn't upset. I offered her help, she was happy and nice and willing to train. 

short ones

I dreamt that my dad was thinking about getting back into meditation. We walked by this older, very young-older, Japanese man. He was saying how people were treating meditation as a ??  order placement.. a note to the future saying what they wanted... He was displeased.

Then I dreamt that there was a baby girl. She was wearing a shoe, a new kind for babies. The upper part looked more like a classic shoe, made of a firm material. The bottom was very soft and almost not connected to the upper, so the baby could move naturally.

Then I dreamt that I was moving. I was getting things ready. I went to a woman's house L. She was at home.. also organizing things and reviewing her home set up.

Then I dreamt that ML wanted to date me. There was another couple there. We were nice to each other. mainly because we were nice... I didn't want to be with him, and really I don't think he wanted to be with me.

sparkly eiffel

I dreamt that I was in a room with extended family on my dad's side. People I knew, didn't know, uncomfortable familiarity. Too many people in my space wanting this or that. My nephew was there but but a bit younger than now. A baby and couldn't crawl yet. He was in pink pjs though. My high school sweetheart was in a big chair across the room and I wanted to bring the baby too him. The baby seemed so soft and warm and sweet and I wanted JK to experience it. I walked to him and they had just finished feeding him on the floor. The baby was making awkward chewing faces and his nostrils seemed to stretch as he chewed. It seemed normal and I knew once his mouth was clear, the nostrils would go back to normal size. I didn't care and picked him up mid chew. I wanted to share him. It was such a warm cozy feeling though that I don't think it was the baby. It was almost as if I was the warm cozy... and the baby was just a baby.

Then we exchanged some gifts. My dad and step-mom were openning and both received sparkly eiffel tower statues that were about a foot or so high. They seemed to like them.

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Then I was in a home. There was an older woman there, but a real go getter. She was about to go jogging and walked down the block in her running gear. There was a picket fence she walked by and there was a coat hanging over the edge. She picked it up as if that was normal, and put it on. I wondered if she thought that was ok to leave her things on other people's fences. It didn't feel right.

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Then I was a woman in a dream. I had a slick black hair in a pony tail and straight bangs. I was wearing a fitted top, belt and a full skirt. I looked very coiffed. I was with a man in the dream who also had dark hair. I kept being called "mommy" in the dream, but it didn't mean a mother. It meant the person you go to, a matriarch of sorts. I didn't know if I was ready for this name. Did I want to be paired with this man, these people and be in charge....

moving on

I dreamt that AS was done with me and no longer interested. It was necessary for me, yet sad at the same time.