underwater flying

I dreamt that I was in a room that was under water, but I could be in the water just fine. It was pretty, freeing and a bit magical to be able to be there and float around. Then I was with some people in a room that was outside. There were 4 walls, grass on the ground and a tree and no ceiling. A man said to come with him, as he was going to show me something. I felt privileged. He took me to what looked like a small plane, but really small... cartoon small. It was just enough room for me to sit and there were wings and two controls. At first I thought he was going to fly me around, but then he got in his own plane. I asked... "is someone else going to control this from the ground?"  He said no, I would control the plane, it was ok, I would learn. So I got in mine, he in his and we started flying. It was wonderful. I loved how small and agile it was. I was flying without effort. Then I started thinking... I was concerned. How do I turn left, right, slow down, stop?  I had been doing this without a thought, but as soon as I thought about it, the plane stopped and fell to the ground. I wasn't hurt, but I wasn't flying.

Then I dreamt that I was with my mother at her home. It felt bad. I felt controlled and disliked. I was packing up my things and was trying to find which clothes fit. Some beautiful wool pants were way too large... I decided to give them to her. Why had I kept them? They were too short with heels, a warm color that wasn't me... but I had kept them knowing they were appreciable I suppose... something worth something just not for me..

Then I was out at the coast on a trip with my dad, step-mom and brother. We were on our way when I saw an ex (JBDS). He was in the grocery store. He was older, heavier... I wanted to say hi. I had flowers in my hand and was on my way and I started doubting the idea. My step mom said.. you should go... as if.. this is your chance, this was not a fluke... go say hello.  I ran into the grocery store and caught up with him and was excited and nervous, knowing he could just brush me off. I said hi how are you and he just looked at me, kind of with disappointment on his face. I apologized and said I would go. He clarified and just was disappointed in our history, in the inevitability of our not being able to do anything about our now.. It was bitter sweet.