the now

I dreamt that I was with an older blond lady. She seemed formal, came from money, with high standards, a bit snobbish and yet seemed open and caring. I went to go through the small town and she came along with me. I said that we, our family, had horse a while back and a part of me felt that I was trying to gain her acceptance a bit with these words. It was only for a second, but I still regretted not being one hundred percent authentic. She asked what my interests were and I could tell she was collecting information about me. Not to sum me up, but she actually cared about me and wanted to help me. I felt a warm feeling overcome me and it felt so nice to have someone in my life "watching over" me.

I walked down a street to check out the town to see if I was interested in it. I realized I had already seen this town. It was quaint. Did I like it? Was it enough? Then I decided to stop trying to figure it all out, to just enjoy what I enjoyed while I enjoyed it, moment by moment.