comparison

I dreamt about a friend RC. I saw him and my heart started feeling alive. I wanted to talk to him, be with him... it was as though he was a magnet or a siren. I felt alive around him. As I walked closer to him and this was attainable, a feeling of fear shot into my gut. What would I say and who would I be? Then I realized that I wasn't enamored with him at all. I was enamored with his way of being, his authenticity, his trueness to himself... my fear was that in standing next to him, I could see if I was being true to myself.