Tuesday, February 10, 2015

5 questions


dreamt that I was sitting in a room with others. It was a bit of a workshop room with long tables and benches and stools, a little hodgepodge, but creative. There were several monitors on tables as well as empty spaces. I was sitting and working on something when a man came behind me and said that he wanted me to take this test. He gave me a sheet of paper with 5 math problems. After my first glance, I knew it was something that I was good at that other may struggle with. I was excited to do the test. There was a knowing that if I completed it successfully, I would belong to some group or have a new career with x company. He seemed confident that I would pass, and that this was just some red tape to go through. He seemed like he was a mentor, someone that had been watching me and now was ready for me in his group.  

I cleared my lap of a bag of books and papers, so that I could concentrate. I looked up on the monitor to see if my program was open. I had decided to type the answers in Word. None of it was overly complicated number wise and I had a calculator. I would write them all on one sheet and then copy and paste half of the answers on another as the instructions asked that the two sets be separated. 

I noticed that the area in front of me was a little insufficient, I had no place to write. Also the people next to me started crowding the table and I lost focus. I got up, gathered my things and sought out a clear table. My anxiety started to appear as I was worried about time and focus.  I moved to the new table that was completely empty then went back to get my monitor, which seemed like a light 3 dimensional rubber mat shaped as a monitor. I was getting situated and then people started moving to that table. Really?? So I picked up one last time and moved opposite of where I was first sitting. On the way a woman looked at the test in my hand, and with eagerness said, when will you be starting with us?  My heart raised and sunk. I was excited. These 5 questions... a few minutes, was all that was separating me from a dream of working with people that I liked, doing something Ioved, feeling like I was in the right place.  

Why was I making this so hard? 5 small questions that I could do, but my doubt was keeping me from doing them. I was panicking, as I wanted to completed it.  I thought I can do this, just sit down and do it...  

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