fighting the dragon

I dreamt that I was in a different type of world I think, as I was a mermaid. I seemed to have had a mentor person. It was a woman who seemed older, wiser, stronger and possibly darker in her heart. At least she wasn't very soft and sweet feeling. But she was there to help me and I followed what she said without question. I felt as if I paused to analyze her directions, it would just be one second too late to follow them. We were swimming up to a place where you needed to belong to be there, and I didn't belong. There was a type of moat around the place, although all of the people and buildings were on both sides of the moat. She was telling me almost telepathically that I needed to be here and start belonging, but I needed to get passed a dragon in the moat. It was an underwater dragon, about the size of a human. She had me swim in one direction with her and then I had to go back towards the dragon and face it. I thought I would have to kill it or it me, but that wasn't the case. I just had to swim towards it, acknowledge it almost, but not get swept up by or bitten by it. I followed her instructions almost as if my mind wasn't with me... my adrenalin and desire took over and my body moved. I made it. I came out of the water in a blue strapless dress, the bottom was fitted and flared out, mermaid style. I felt empowered and majestic walking over the grass to the lights and the people.  

ultimatum

I dreamt that I was in a building. At first it felt like a fancy school and then a business. There were interesting rooms in the building and it was all unique architecture, with lots of stained wood. One room was an auditorium. My coworkers were filing into the room and I felt as if I might have been a bit late. As I walked in, I could see there was something going on. Some of the people were standing, some were sitting, but the room wasn't settled. There was a man facing the room from the side entrance. He was in charge, and not just as a boss. It seemed he was powerful, and in control of everyone's fate somehow. He offered a new contract to everyone, but it was more like an ultimatum. You choose the contract, or you choose ?? getting fired? death?  I hadn't had the offer yet, as the man didn't see me. A group of women refused his contract. It didn't feel like tragedy though, it felt like they freed themselves from this man. I was happy for them or at least admired their decision.  Then the man and I sat down facing each other. He had a case and opened it. It was full of gold square shaped plates (not food... ). It filled the case in a kind of curve, almost as if it was some sort of game where cards are fanned out. He was making an offer to me...

aliens landed

I dreamt I was in a home sharing a room with other people. Initially, I had my own room, but I had to move back into another one with two other people. At first I internally resisted, but once I was in the room, I felt fine. There was a woman there. Kind of ugly, masculine, dark hair, short.... and we were doing an odd experiment sticking things up her nose. It was a legitimate experiment that she wanted to do, not something mean. She had some other things in there, a rubber toy and last, a baby carrot. I felt that it wasn't going right and it made my stomach turn to do it. I noticed she was bleeding, but I wasn't sure how to retrieve the items. I went to go get the help of my friend BB, because it was his experiment and he had the tool. I liked knowing I could go to him.

Then I was flying... out of the house, away over some grass and over a small town. It felt good to fly. I had either forgotten that I could or just not taken advantage of it in a while. I landed on a street and then all of a sudden I heard something in the air. I looked up, finally... aliens had come. It was no longer an idea, a myth. They were real and it seems we had known about it because we had special ships in the air flying to fight them. They were white ships made of thin material. It seemed like cloth, but I remember it seeming extremely advanced. I was taking photos with my phone, and so was my brother. I was worried they would take my phone away as I don't think we were supposed to witness any of this. I saw one of the pilots look over, but he continued on with what he was doing.

end of the road

I dreamt that I was going to the beach with my dad. We took Hwy 99. There has always been a sign there that has two routes, one that goes through town and one that circumvents it. I've always gone through the town, but decide for some reason to take the other route this time. It lead to a hangar and it seemed the road stopped right at the building. I figured due to the size of the doors on the hangar, you must be able to drive through it. I went to the building and checked with the people. A tall blond woman said yes, you do drive through and pointed me to another large door on the other side of the inside of the building. My dad was talking to someone else in the building as I went to inspect the door and see what was on the other side. I opened it and the pavement only went a few feet and perfectly ended...  and there was a hedge that you couldn't pass. So you couldn't really drive through. It was the end of the road and would have to go back and start again. 

corner office

I dreamt I went back to work at my last place of work (b*m*l). I was working away, doing everything appropriately, not complaining or looking for things to complain about... but I realized I stayed off in the corner. Certain people didn't even know that I came back to work there. The CEO did, but he wasn't a talker. I decided I should go be social, so I went to put a dish in the kitchen and I could see the President walking around. I felt my stomach sink. For some reason, I didn't want to see him and I felt that he didn't want to see me. 

convention

I dreamt that I was at a retreat. It felt very "done" as in it was very organized, hyped, and so on. The speakers had lots of energy and poise, almost in a 1980s sort of way. They looked the part, sounded the part, dotted their i's and crossed their t's, had all the right swags and details. I was curious, it seemed like it would be fun either way. I enjoyed the idea of being the one who could sit back and be lead through the day. My friend ASh was there. She looked as though she was enjoying the idea too. There were two main leaders. A perfectly dressed man, with a perfect physique, hair, face and posture and a woman, who was similar, but had a bit of ?? hmm she was tall, and looked like she was on a mission, the ring leader.  We were all currently sitting on the roof of a building. It was sunny out and it seemed as though the set was going to change a bit the next time we saw it. It didn't match the perfect of the rest of the scene.   The session broke and we all walked through the halls or lobby or where ever it is that we were. Everyone seemed to hustle and bustle to the next thing. I was exploring and enjoying the energy of the event and the surroundings. I loved hotels and conventions. Then I saw that the next session was about to begin. I forgot that we were to have supposed to showered and dressed up for the next session. I gathered my things and ran to find a shower. I went to several and it seemed they were all occupied.  I could see that some of the women were almost done, but I couldn't rely on them hurrying and I didn't want to test my patience. I finally found a shower room just as ASh was about to get there. I told her I would hurry. It seemed that it was open to a stair well and more.. but that seemed normal. I kept trying to put my things down and I could see that the female announcer had her dresses in there. It looked like she would be doing several costume changes at this event. They were full length strapless gowns, a red one, yellow and kelly green. I heard something over the speakers and the event had started. They had screens all over the lobby and I had a small screen in the bathroom of the event. I was wondering if I should just watch from there or if it would be appropriate to walk in mid session. I didn't want to be a target for this woman. I started noticing some other things... can't remember now... which made me think this was an odd event. I felt as if they were starting something... , gathering followers, it didn't feel right and I wanted to make sure ASh knew.

epoxy church

I dreamt I was with my mother in a church. The ceilings were huge and domed. It felt clean, 1950's like.. It felt like my grandpa was there. The ceiling was so high and lofty and lots of light poured in, but it was an epoxy ceiling. I thought it was odd in the first place to use a material like that in a church. I thought it was kind of a cost cutting product. Also, it didn't looked finished. I said.. look.... there is a grid and places where you could see the mold lift, other places where it is perfectly smooth. I would have thought if they left the grid framework, it was so they would do carvings or ornate ?? somethings in between ... and if not, they would have made it perfectly smooth. It felt unfinished... It felt cold... It felt fake...

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wine rules

I Dreamt I was at someone's house. This woman was a strong personality, probably wore the pants. She had long straight blondish hair, older, and seemed to have not time or desire for fixing herself up and/or being feminine, but she was nice and attracted people to her due to her strength and you felt comfortable around her. What you saw was what you got.We were moving clothing around on racks outside of the room where they belonged. Either they were redoing that room, or she was going through the clothes. I was trying to see which order to put them back in and which ones interested me. I think she was giving some of them away. I would pick up a top or?? and hold it in front of me at the mirror, trying to mix things that I normally wouldn't to see if I would come up with some new style or idea. Nothing seemed to work. Also, when I would look in the mirror, it looked like something that I had tried on at the beginning, was still on, but it was a cushion of sorts. It was big and square and on my back and it made me look awkward and cartoon like so I couldn't really get a clear idea of the clothes I was trying.

Then we were all on the couch. She was telling me about some wine, and she couldn't remember something about it, but she was told she could never bring it in the living room. Not for cleanliness reasons, it was more like it had some sort of rule or spell on it and if she brought this particular bottle into the room, it would mean bad luck. So we all went into the kitchen and then some more people came over. They were going to redo her floors. It all started to happen so fast, but I saw the destruction materials flying out the door... old floor and some sheet rock and so on.

bad boyfriend

I dreamt that my mom had a boyfriend that is actually a boyfriend of a friend of mine (PS's boyfriend CB). I knew he was bad. I'm not sure if I had a gut feeling or evidence, but I knew he was up to something and using her. I wasn't sure what to do though. If I told her so, she would defend him and make things worse, so I was stuck.

swim suit

I dreamt that I needed to get a swim suit. I knew this store was having a sale, so I decided to go in. Something about it felt like you had to be part of some special group to be in there. Not a formal group, so much as a ... we are snow boarders... or we vacation in the SW .... or?? something along those longs, a group of people that have similar habits and activities. I wasn't from that group and could feel it going in. I didn't feel uncomfortable though, just out of place. I went to the swim racks. I tried on one suit. It was much too big and I realized it was for older ladies. It has these odd flaps on the side near your thighs to cover them. I didn't think it was a good idea, even if you did have bad thights... they looked like whale gills. Then I think I found a red swim suit and it was only $22, a steal now days. So I was going to get that one, but then I left the store for some reason. I was telling some people that I found a suit, and I probably should have purchased it right then. But it was one of those things... do you buy something if it is a good deal, what you were looking for... but it still doesn't feel right?

bad studying

I was in some sort of classroom I was with a group of students taking a test. We all seemed like we had spent plenty of time together because we seemed pretty chummy. I was stressing out. As I was taking the test I realized none of the information looked familiar to me. Had I checked out the whole time? That wasn't like me. I'm a procrastinator, but I do the work. I looked again at the first questions. They were all on stories we had read and (over) analyzed. I knew I had read the first story. In fact, I had gone over it with a fellow student several time until they understood the information. What was going on?? A guy in front of me (AdF) turned around and could tell something was up. He talked to me for a second. He was telling me that I had done all of the actual work, the reading, the analyzing ... everything on the check list. What I didn't do was put my?? soul?? my heart? my?? umph into it. So what ever I did as an activity, didn't stick enough to take the test. I could tell he felt bad about my situation. He knew I meant well and that I was confused, but at the same time he knew I wouldn't pass until I learned this. I should cut my losses and take the class again. There was no rush.  As soon as I realized it wasn't a race... that I could do this all again and would do great now that I knew the secret, I felt relief.

Then I was in this company. It was a place I supposedly worked a long time ago and was back again. I felt like a bit of an old timer because I knew a lot of the history that they didn't. I told them who I used to work with there and they would be in awe like they were legends.

Then I needed to get somewhere. One of the coworkers was taking a truck into town for lunch, so I jumped in the back of his truck. It was fun sort of sliding around in the back. I had a dog with me too... part real, then stuffed animal some of the time. Then the man stopped. He had a passenger in the car as well. He didn't know who I was and was disturbed by my presence. I told him some people that I knew he knew that I knew as well... I said I just need to go downtown ... He seemed ok then and we all went out to get some lunch.

doctor date

I dreamt that I had a sales job in a store. I think that I was supposed to be selling makeup. I don't see myself as a sales person, so I was doing my best. I realized after being there, no one really is a sales person and my best was better than most. I went over to a furniture department and helped a woman who looked lost in decision and made a sale of a special piece of furniture that I would make a good commission on. I knew they would want to move me to that department, which I was happy about. I left work to walk home. I went up stairs. It seems I was sharing an apartment with a friend, another woman my age-ish. We got along well, had similar ideas about decor and cleanliness. I checked for mail and then decided I need to get out in the city. We lived in a 4-6 story building in NW Portland. I wanted to see a shop that was right across the street from us. I walked outside and it was still open. Just as I turned to make sure the building door had closed a man came from behind. He was pleasant, a tall blond in a white coat. It looked like a lab coat. I had seen him around and he had seen me in the neighborhood as well. He had flowers and said something goofy but nice that made me feel nice. He was asking me on a date in a round about way. He was completely and totally a pleasant person. I told him that I wanted to see what was in the store across the way and he said he would like to see as well. So we went in... a shorter roundish woman was taking care of the till. She had a shoulder length bob with straight bangs. She seemed nice enough as well and I could see didn't mind the company.

bull dog pups

I waited too long to record these... but I rarely have repetitive dreams and two nights in a row, I had a dream about a baby bull dog puppy. It was adorable and felt good in the dream. Cute and pudgy. 

salsa

I dreamt about my exboyfriend (BW). We were walking through some markets and heading towards a train or bus or? We had a destination in mind. On the way, we walked through an old school. We were not supposed to be in there, but I think it was some sort of short cut. He at one point told some man to do smoething, which the man did. I just thought in my mind.... bossy boy... but he was good at asking people to do things for him. In the school he was looking for some pipe to shoot water through. I can't remember if it was for a prank or a distraction to the security guard. I found something that would work and he started working on it. Then I turned around and saw the security guard enter the building. I told him to run. So we ran down the hallway. At some point he needed to empty what he had in his pockts and he emptied a bunch of salsa in a fish bowl. We both immediately felt bad because we didn't want to kill the fish.

elvis hair

I dreamt about a guy with blond Elvis hair, at least that is what I called it in my dream, and fish gills for his under eye bags ... again, what I called it in my dream.

clay mask

I dreamt I as with my exboyfriend (MT). We were talking and for some reason I was smearing clay on his face. I think it was more like clay slip than it was a  mask, but I was telling him it was funt to fill in all of the crevices and pores to see what his face looked like smooth. We were both laughing and it was nice.

purpose

I dreamt that I was walking through town with a little boy. It was if he was my little brother (although I don't have one). We were getting away from someone and/or were trying to get to a safe place. At some point I lost my top, not sure how, but it was awkward and I needed to get somewhere to hide and find something to put on. We were walking in an area, and I thought I knew who the people were in a nice home we were near. Maybe a friend of mine knew them, but it was the closest thing I had for help. We walked up and I knew I had to quickly explain the missing top. These people were very wealthy and had little patience for people not at their level. A man opened the door. He was probably in his early 50s, dark hair, but bald on top. I quickly explained to please forgive my appearance and could he at least let the boy in. He let us through, said he would protect the boy but that I needed to leave. I asked for at least a t-shirt and he said .... just leave and wouldn't look me in the eye. I could feel he was disgusted. I went out to the front lawn, and felt relief from the boy being taken care of. Then two older teenagers? or 20 somethings came out? They were either that man's children or neighbors. They both were very self assured, very head strong, and very directed. The girl, who was slim, no makeup, long blondish hair,  asked what was my purpose in life. I said I wasn't quite sure and asked what her's was. She said that she had always been interested in a certain medical field and research and she was going to focus on that. She seemed to have no other distractions, like but I like to travel or dance or want a family, just this medical work. The young guy, who had naturally curly surfer hair, was friendlier. He also knew his purpose, but I don't think he shared it. He took off his sweatshirt and offered it to me to cover myself up. I told him thank you and that I would return and/or replace it as soon as I could. He didn't seem to care. I could feel the cold on the inside of the shirt where there were iron ons or decoration. He also asked me what my purpose was. He said there is no excuse for people to not know it. That it was more or less just a type of laziness and he had no tolerance. I felt sick to my stomach. What could I say? What did I like? I knew I liked how the mind worked and how to fix things in the mind... but is that enough to call something a purpose?

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I dreamt that I was in a classroom. We were all figuring out where to sit. I was sitting on the far left of the room, 2nd or 3rd seat back. I guess I was wanting to sit near friends and they near me. Our professor was coming in the room. We all were excited for class, because we all liked him. He had wisdom, was kind and fun. (He was actually the same man that was in the dream above). Class hadn't started yet. I looked around the room and I saw that my mother was also taking the class. This was odd as she wasn't really that self motivated for these sorts of things. I am usually quick to pick up new concepts, so when the instructor started the lesson, I was baffled in that I didn't understand anything he said. I think normally I would have panicked or wanted to hide my ineptness. But this time, I felt very free and almost good about saying... I don't understand a thing. Please explain. It felt very freeing. 

cookies

I dreamt that I was helping my friend PC set up some booth in a grocery store. I was very thirsty and drank a whole 2 liter bottle of water at once. Then I decided I was going to go by Taffys ... a kind of cookie, for a friend of mine. I went to the aisle to find them and each and every package was opened and half eaten. There was a guy behind me looking for the same ones and I let him know that we were out of luck.

walking home

I dreamt that two guys were following me across a park. I could feel them watching me and knew they were going to do something. They came up trying to take my purse. I kept walking, held on tight to my purse and didn't look them in the eye. I kept on talking about that I didn't have cash and they could follow me to a bank. I did this intending to run into someone on the way to ask for help. We crossed the street and I was disappointed that there were no cars I could stop. Then I saw a group of kids. I screamed for help and ran to them. They knew they couldn't do anything to me directly due to the number of kids, so they took the smallest boy and held  a knife to his neck. I was so furious I ran to the boy, picked him up and glared at the two guys and said they should be ashamed of themselves. I ran into the next house and there was a woman from another country there. She looked confused. I called the police. 

Locker

I was in a bath house or gym ?? I put my things in a locker and went to do something. Time passed and i went back to get my things and someone took them. i looked all around. i knew this girl took my things and she just stood there and denied it.