acid gelatin

I dreamt I was at some sort of outdoor gathering. A party of sorts. I had taken some acid, but I was completely aware. Sort of like lucid dreaming, I could enjoy the experience because I knew it was fake and I was safe. Some people were paranoid, others out of it. I was along a grassy bank of a river (real), but I saw a giant shark and could experience it like watching a firework. Oooh aaaah... neat visual and knew it would leave as soon as it showed itself.

Then I dreamt that my friend KJ had a collection of stickers. He had one from a grocery store and it was a Led Zeppelin sticker. They were old, but still in plastic. He would sell the extras on ebay and keep one for himself.

Then I dreamt that I was taking a bite of some sort of gelatin protein bites. I was happy they were so good for me, palatable and no calorie. They were giving samples in a grocery store. A friend of mine CF, was in the deli having lunch with a friend. I needed to go grab something so went through the grocery area and when I came back, my friends were gone. 

interrogation

I dreamt that it was evening and I was working on an event with a coworker. Our boss was somewhere else while we were running some errands as well as getting to know each other. She was a bit new. We drove by a location and she eyed me strongly looking for signs in my expression. We  had just driven by a the place where I had (in my dream) dumped a body with my friend MB. I had accidentally hit and killed him and didn't know what to do. I wouldn't have worried had we not just gone out for drinks, and I knew then that I wouldn't not be listened to.  I had a perfect poker face and my ability to work under pressure was on my side. Then she complimented me on my coat and wondered where I had bought it.  I had purchased the coat near the scene of the crime. I guess something to change what I looked like or to replace soiled clothing and of course we just happened to be in that shop. I kept concocting emotions and stories that made me look innocent.  She knew something... but I knew she didn't have all of the evidence.  I felt bad in a way. It was her brother and she had a right to know or at least to desire to know what had happened to him, but I couldn't let my empathy for her situation put me in a compromising position.

office gossip

I dreamt I had a new job. It felt really good. I knew two people there that I really got along with, I knew the boss and we liked and respected each other. I was in his office and he was eager to tell me about how the job would go. I think we had a little bit of a romantic vibe going on as well. Then I went to go find my desk. I saw a sea of small small desks with monitors. There was no one desk that was yours. It was on a first come first serve basis. At the moment, there were no desks available, so when that happened you attended to other things in the company that did not require you to sit at your desk like taking mail to the mail room, or returning supplies. Everyone chipped in. It was close to lunch, so I went with my two pals to go to the area places for lunch. Some others came along with us in the elevator. On the way I could hear them chatting... One of my pals was a guy.He was so sweet and I really was endeared to him. There were two woman on the elevator just wanting to gossip and cause trouble. As we stepped off, my other pal, the female, was telling me what they were saying. They said that my guy friend had slept with my mother. I was sick at first but then immediately rebounded. I liked him. I'm sure if I saw this in a romantic comedy... you would feel for that character and want things to still work out. I focused on his good points and felt better.

luxe baby

I dreamt that I was looking through my mail and there was a large postcard with the letter stretched across it in all caps L A N V E S T A D or langstadt or something similar. In the dream I couldn't pronounce it, just gibberised it together. The photo underneath was of a modern looking glass house, very open, large, comfortable tall healthy people lounging on a sofa and on in the kitchen. A friend got all eager looking over my shoulder, spitting out that she knew of this place and and and .  It was a school/day care for infants that was extreme luxury. There were photos of the outside, of an almost black river outside, with about 9 smoothed top boulders sitting just above the water line. There was a naked baby on each one. I was thinking, well that looks dangerous, but I'm sure there was someone just outside of the shot that would swoop them up if they fell in. Then I was there at the place, sitting with others. I had been a temporary worker there and the visionaries of the place were about to return. I was a little concerned because I taught the babies the alphabet. Does that go against their vision? Were they completely natural or did they want them to be taught?  I figured it didn't matter anyway, it was my last day. Some girl walked by in a pretty navy sweater dress. It had a halter upper half and then a peplum in the back and some violet woven in here and there. The friend from before spoke out "Nice Carrie dress!" referring to the Sex in the City character. The girl didn't seem to know or care to know what she meant. She was not a fashionista, she was there to be part of the vision.

log cabin

I dreamt that I was in a restaurant that was a bit of a log cabin inside. It had been in the community for many years and wouldnt' be going anywhere. The decor was the same as years ago as well as the menu. It was cozy, kind of a sweet place. One of the workers was disappointed at how it had progressed. She said years ago the staff was much better. They all cared and took care of it. She said you would never see a drop on the ground because if one staff member missed it, the other would be right behind to catch it. It just wasn't the same place.

road trip

I dreamt that I was with LW, an old boss of mine. We were on a work related trip somewhere and she stopped to get gas and then go in the store across the parking lot for some items for out trip. She had taken quite a while, so I decided to go search for her. In reality go see if I could see how long she would be taking and I could pop into a clothing store as I needed a few items. I saw her in an aisle still shopping, so I ran over to the store. Nothing seemed to work out for me and I left a bit disappointed, but still enjoyed the free feeling having not had spent any money and less items to haul around. She seemed a little upset that I wasnt' in the car when she returned, but not horribly so. We started to take off and the car turned over completely. I don't know how it happened and it was just strange as we still had plenty of room to maneuver and the car seemed to rearrange itself and change shape.

grandma house

I dreamt that I was decorating for Christmas ... The place was my house at first.The living room, kitchen  and dining area were one huge room. At one end, the wall was a garage door that would open, then dad came over, saw that not all of my xmas lights worked and was trying to fix them.. Then I gave him a cake or something.

Then grandma was coming back.  The house was hers now and always had been. She looked around at decor, holding in her reservations.  I removed the things that were mine and helped her with her boxes. It seems she had gifts for everyone from her trip.  They looked like framed photos and I wondered if I would get one too. I looked a little more and I saw an old black and white photo or group of photos, with two of me. They were placed in an arrangement that stepped down the inside of the frame with the upper most pic being framed by the next pick, running down similarly until the last one had an image of me. You couldn't see the background of where I was in the photos as they were covered and the rest of the images were of mainly white sky. Although I was disappointed, I was glad there was at least one pkg for me.

I left and was relieved...

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embroidered greeting

I dreamt that I was in my childhood bedroom. My mother was down the hall. I wasn't happy. It was evening and I was about to go to sleep and I looked down and there was a greeting card on my nightstand. A needle and thread raised in the air and started embroidering the card. I was scared at first, but I was too curious to run. It was embroidering words, a message to me. I don't recall the exact words, but it was saying something about me having more power than I knew and I just needed to use it. It then embroidered a girl swimming. I asked.. are you saying I should spend more time in water? exercise? or??  It was more that I should enjoy myself more. 

letting go

I dreamt that I was the girlfriend of a very wealthy man, billionaire type.  It felt like a new relationship, but I felt very comfortable with him. I knew he loved me with everything and I him. It was kind of a different feeling for me to be with someone who would take care of everything. I have never had that feeling, well, since I was a child maybe... but even then, I knew decisions were based on limits of money, or rules and so on. This feeling... the world is my oyster feeling, was new. He had a large smile, dark hair that was long like a lion's mane, and somewhat weathered skin, but his energy was what you noticed. He was sure ... He wasn't a bouncy optimist, he had an edge to him, a focus. It was magnetic and repelling at the same time.

I was in his bedroom, which was more than just a bedroom. There was a huge entry room where his armoires and chests of drawers were, along with a sofa, lamps and so on. It was more of a living room with clothing. His assistant was there, a middle aged man that felt like more of his friend, confidant, but also servant. He would do anything he asked, and seemed to do it out of love and respect than for duty. Since I was the other half, he loved me too and was there to help me with anything, including how to best get along with this man.

He asked his assistant to paint two antiques black. He had just had them shipped to him and they were amazing to look at. They had inlaid wood and an amazing design on the interior. I pleaded for him not to paint this design. They were one of a kind pieces that he was going to basically destroy why they were so precious. The assistant smiled at me as if I was a child that was persisting that we leave cookies out for Santa. So naive ...  He seemed to love to experience someone learning about the oddities of his cherished master. In the end, he stained them a darker color. I thought it made me feel better because the design would still show through. But what really did it was just letting go.

lizard lake

I dreamt that I was in some odd indoor lake. It seemed natural, with dirt, rocks, plants and animals, but there were walls and a ceiling. You had to pay an entry fee as well. I was there with a girl friend, maybe a couple near my age, although we were all in our teens in the dream. She was a bit of a trouble maker. Doing inappropriate things, etc. She was just someone to hang out with, but there was always a feeling of unease around her that I don't understand why I was hanging out with her at all. She was just company I suppose. My mother was there too. She felt to me like sternness. No lightness, no fun. I was in the water and then noticed there were two large lizards across on the other beach. Large as in the size of a hippo. They were bright yellow with dark green markings and looked like they could eat any of us. I think one was the mother as the other one looked young. I wanted to leave, so we all got our towels and headed towards the turnstile.  Something felt off, I didn't want to be there, although part of me thought it was fun to be out, I didn't want to be who I was with, but part of me just wanted the company. I was split.

modern antique

I dreamt that I was talking with a gal who is writing a book (d). I asked her how it was going and she showed me a tiny beta/vhs type tape. It had the old clunkiness of a beta tape but it was about 2"x2"x1" and in that old computer beige color, but shiny. It was kind of cute, kind of handy, but I said I can't believe they are making these with the tape and the mechanical issues?? But they were the latest thing.

underwater flying

I dreamt that I was in a room that was under water, but I could be in the water just fine. It was pretty, freeing and a bit magical to be able to be there and float around. Then I was with some people in a room that was outside. There were 4 walls, grass on the ground and a tree and no ceiling. A man said to come with him, as he was going to show me something. I felt privileged. He took me to what looked like a small plane, but really small... cartoon small. It was just enough room for me to sit and there were wings and two controls. At first I thought he was going to fly me around, but then he got in his own plane. I asked... "is someone else going to control this from the ground?"  He said no, I would control the plane, it was ok, I would learn. So I got in mine, he in his and we started flying. It was wonderful. I loved how small and agile it was. I was flying without effort. Then I started thinking... I was concerned. How do I turn left, right, slow down, stop?  I had been doing this without a thought, but as soon as I thought about it, the plane stopped and fell to the ground. I wasn't hurt, but I wasn't flying.

Then I dreamt that I was with my mother at her home. It felt bad. I felt controlled and disliked. I was packing up my things and was trying to find which clothes fit. Some beautiful wool pants were way too large... I decided to give them to her. Why had I kept them? They were too short with heels, a warm color that wasn't me... but I had kept them knowing they were appreciable I suppose... something worth something just not for me..

Then I was out at the coast on a trip with my dad, step-mom and brother. We were on our way when I saw an ex (JBDS). He was in the grocery store. He was older, heavier... I wanted to say hi. I had flowers in my hand and was on my way and I started doubting the idea. My step mom said.. you should go... as if.. this is your chance, this was not a fluke... go say hello.  I ran into the grocery store and caught up with him and was excited and nervous, knowing he could just brush me off. I said hi how are you and he just looked at me, kind of with disappointment on his face. I apologized and said I would go. He clarified and just was disappointed in our history, in the inevitability of our not being able to do anything about our now.. It was bitter sweet.

arches

I dreamt that I was hugging a guy from behind. It felt nice and cozy.

Then I noticed I had one foot that had an arch and the other was flat.  I realized before this moment, it was the other foot that had an arch and the other was flat.  I now had opposite issue.  For some reason it felt exciting because it was a new issue instead of the old one.

furniture and bunk mates

Last night I dreamt that I was living in a house with about 5 other people. Three women and three men. It was almost as if I was in college, we had something in common in that way. The house was painted red, sort of an older house with things finagled around to work. There was only one large bedroom where we all slept. The bunk bed were three stories high, men on one side, women on the other. Two closets to be shared by all. It seemed nice though as apposed to cramped. It was because we all liked and or "got" each other. I was going to go out with KW. He had asked and it sounded like fun. I was going to jump in the shower but then I heard he had a phone call. His best friend asked him to a movie at The Mission, so he was going to cancel. Then  girl walked in as if looking to move-in. I thought I would tell her all of the oddities... no sink in the bathroom, no private room, etc. etc. to see if she could fit easily there.

Then I dreamt I was outside somewhere. I saw a women with her two children moving a piece of furniture. She was driving a cube van. When first looked inside it was as if she had made it into a little mobile home. I thought I had seen cabinetry and countertops. When I looked again it was custom furniture. She was a furniture maker as well as would refurbish furniture. That sounded creative and fun to me and I told her so. She paused and then asked if I would be interested in learning the trade. I was so excited. I forgot how much I loved to work with my hands and it sounded like such a breath of fresh air in comparison to what I currently did. 

ex camping

going camping or on a trip

I was with m y ex's parents. They were happy and helping me and seeing if I needed anything. We were all going to meet up later.
I called MT, but accidentally got benoit, I hadn't spokent to him since college.It was nice and he asked if I wanted to talk to JBDS and I laughed and said no no.... then I was talking to Cendrine... all friends from that time. It was strange and nice.

midgets and easter eggs

I dreamt that I was living in a new place. I seemed to be roommates with a friend. She seemed like a newish friend. Someone I was an acquaintance with, but never knew really well. She was dating a guy, a very short and stout one ...and then there was this other guy, not as small but also very short. The two bedrooms faced each other with no real wall in between, although it still felt ok. I thought the other guy was someone's boyfriend, but I guess that was past tense. As started randomly making out. I'm not sure why... it was like.. well food is here, may as well eat it. I didn't feel horrible about it, but I didn't like that I was doing it either. The new roommate was now someone else, a good friend of mine, a bit more conservative friend. I thought I was going to have to watch myself, my behavior.. I couldn't make out with the random roommate guy in the house. Normally I wouldn't like someone cramping my style, but I liked this. I thought, it will make me think, plan, get more specific about what I really want instead of just being a tumbleweed and taking what is available. The girl roommate started going through a door (I didn't know the apartment too well), that seemed to go to the back. I expected to see a parking lot, but there was a large backyard. It was nicely manicured, beautiful soft green grass. I was so excited to have a place to be outside. I didn't realize how much I missed it.

Then I was in the store next door. I saw these east chocolates and realized I needed to get my mom something. She was there too and was looking at the same things to get for me. I stopped and asked if we could just let one cancel out the other. I really didn't want chocolate eggs, she didn't either... so let's just know the thought was there and call it a day.

skull pick

I dreamt there was a ton of treasures around. A family member died and/or there was some storage found by the family that was for us all. It had many neat odd and ends. All different kinds of things, from clothing, to dishes, to musical instruments and furniture. My mother was going to sell it all for money, which I frustrated me. I didn't need to keep everything but I wanted to spend time perusing and getting familiar with the objects and maybe the stories behind them. I started picking up random small things that no one would miss and putting them in my pockets. There was something that looked like a hard wood toothpick only larger. It was angular instead of round and had a carved skull at the end of ivory. I'm sure it wasn't a toothpick, but it wasn't long enough to be a hair stick. I just admired the craftsmanship and it met the requirements of concealability in my hand to my pocket. I found another ivory skull item and it had much more detail in its carving. This one wasn't a pick, but maybe a comb or? either way, it was beautiful and looked like it had been cared for.  Then I came across an odd musical instrument. It was taller than me, but kind of like a very large square pillar with an old fashioned cash register on top. The whole thing was made of burled wood, all smoothed and polished. I had never seen this before and wasn't sure what sort of sound might come out. Was it like a self playing piano? There were a few collectors circling and admiring it.

There was so much stuff. Much will be looked over or tossed. I walked by my mother and felt extreme anger and said something bad towards her. Something like I wished I could ?? do something physical to her. She looked at me and smiled a bit of an evil smile back. Thinking that my words had just redeemed her of any wrong doings because I had said something so horrible. I reminded her that she taught me...

Oy... horrible feeling to feel.

gray banana

I dreamt that I was in an office. The whole floor was beige, the lighting was fluorescent, and it was quiet. The management had offices on the perimeter of the building and the rest of the employees had beige fabric cubicles. They weren't horrible... just dull. There was a large beige formica table/desk and beige metal file cabinets. It all felt dead. My office didn't have much in it for decor, just the beige-ness and a bowl of candy that was left from the holidays. They were peanut butter cups of some sort. They were not quality... more like peanut flavored high blood pressure. I found myself eating them as though there were a task that needed to be completed. I felt good about completing something but felt horrible from what the sugar was doing to my system at the same time. But the need to complete and accomplish was stronger than my need to feel good. I opened one of the file drawers and saw there was an employees birthday cake in there from a while back. It was... or had been banana.

 Now it was as though it was liquid that could hold its shape. The banana slices in the center an ashy gray... I needed to discard it. My boss went into his office which was just enough offset of mine that I could see when he came or went, but still had my privacy. Ideal really. I needed a change so I started rearranging all of my beige furniture. Something about the new arrangement seemed pretty amazing and I knew everyone else would be wondering... why did she get this arrangement and not us? or start copying me.. I wanted neither, just my privacy and to enjoy the new layout. I left to toss the cake and when I came back my table top had been graffitied. Not so nice words were written in crayon all over it in all kinds of colors. I didn't feel singled out, as the rest of the office had been attacked too. 

swimming cats

I dreamt that I was in my apartment. It was one of those dreams where I felt conscious as though it wasn't a dream at all. I was up to get ready for work, but went downstairs first for some reason. I wanted to look out the window behind the sofa. I moved the sofa out a bit and something was in the way. I looked and I realized my christmas tree was still up. It was a real evergreen though... which I didn't have. Then I looked down where I had moved the sofa and the floor looked odd. It looked as though it was shiny. Maybe the weight of the sofa had made a dent in the carpet? but then I looked closer and it looked as though the leg had pulled up the carpet and it was the padding underneath. Then I touched it and it was soaked... like there was a foot of water under the carpet. who was I going to call to fix it? SK? JK? I don't think I did it.

I looked up out the large window and it was still dark out. I thought I saw a cat jump in the tree. Probably the neighbor cat in the tree out front, but then I thought.. the tree isn't that close to the window. I tried to focus through the darkness and it was definitely a cat in the air and it looked as though it was swimming and then another was next to it. It was creeping me out, but I couldn't seem to turn away because part of me wanted to clarify what I was seeing. I was getting scared now and decided to just get ready for work. I went back upstairs and into the bathroom. Where was the furniture that was in there? It looked as though I had moved it all out. Maybe I was going to clean the floors. I sat and looked at the room empty wondering if I liked it better. I guess I did? but not as much as I usually appreciate an empty room. I went to the sink, well, where a sink used to be and went to turn on the light with the foot switch. I was moving my foot over it and realized that was no longer there either. I turned to turn on the water for the shower and it was a different shower that seemed to take up one side of a much larger bathroom. It was tiled half way up and then glass midway to the ceiling and it was long and amazing. I thought how nice is this? Then I realized... oh.. this must be a dream.

clear bandaids

I dreamt that I was in a house of a very wealthy family or someone that owned it was wealthy and everyone under the roof was used to having and not wanting. I was possibly visiting or living there. I wasn't "part" of it all, but I felt comfortable there. I was straightening and doing things and seemed to have cut my finger. The tip was sliced all the way through, but as if there was another smaller finger about 2 cm in. I found two clear bandages to hold it together best I could, although I really needed stitches. A friend there, asked if I was ok. I showed him how nicely the bandages were working, although it didn't seem like my skin wanted to go back. I told him that it didn't really hurt, and oddly enough it didn't hurt at all. He pulled out a needle and thread as if to say I should do it myself. I told him I wasn't that brave and had no intention of being so, and I would make an appointment that day to take care of it. I didn't need pain if I could avoid it. There was a little girl there, without her parents. She lived in the house and had a cute little bedroom made to her size. She had every toy and piece of clothing possible it seemed, although I think she just wanted someone to play with. The rest of the house seemed to think she was hard to deal with, didn't want to get dressed and so on. I went in to see her and we played for a bit and she got dressed no problem. I didn't like something about this house, this place or the little girl. I liked my friend ok...