Tuesday, June 05, 2012

roady

I dreamt I was was on some sort of boat or even an ice block, although it wasn't cold. I was drifting through other small island type things. Some no larger than a boat, some the size of a small restaurant and others more island sized, but they were closer to a mainland. I think I liked the freedom of floating around and not being connected to the other pieces of inhabitance, although I knew I still wanted to be with people. It just felt like when I landed on them, things became more complicated then I felt they needed to be. I wasn't going to harm, hurt or interrupt anyone, so couldn't I just go about my way? I ended up on one of them, I think it was an Asian restaurant. All of the food seemed foreign and I didn't recognize what to order.

Then I dreamt I was walking up to a concert. I think I was supposed to be doing something there? but maybe just watching. Two of us were picked out of the audience to go to the stage. One of them was already up at the front and up on stage, I lifted up my arms and allowed myself to be body surfed over the crowd. It was a nice feeling. I was sent to the side of the stage while they talked to the other girl. She had to give a little speech on why she was there. I kind of wanted to avoid that so was happy to talk to the band's makeup/producer/?? person on the side of the stage. She was young, about 25, but acted much older. I was older, but felt much younger. We were talking about career and freedom. How we both liked go from thing to thing instead of committing to one career. I wanted to follow my interests in a light way. Kind of like you would imagine a wolf in the snow... following a mouse around out of interest instead of hunger. The band was Aerosmith. The girl and I continued to talk and realized we had some friends in common that were producers and photographers and so on. Then Steven Tyler walked by and said "ready to give it a go?"  I looked at her eyes were asking for confirmation if I wanted to go travel and work with the concert. Part of me was very ready and my mouth was saying yes, and then part of me was wondering if this was just a knee jerk reaction. Going on to the next thing when the current thing was getting challenging. She then asked me if I knew this one guy. That his dog had died recently and he was really sad. He showed me a photo, I didn't think I knew him, but he reminded me of people from a group of friends of my boyfriend's.  I felt bad for the guy, I also felt envious that he had felt this deeply and others felt this deeply about him to give him notice. 

doubt

 I dreamt I was talking to my boyfriend. He was being aloof at one moment where I thought everything was ending, and at the next moment saying he wanted to move in together. The one felt horrible, the one felt great, the idea that both could happen in a short moment made me uneasy and doubtful.

cats work

choppy memory on this dream...
work for office
managed women
PC rec'd discount on apartments.. I almost kept but then gave to her
big house.. many waiting to be se en... actors?
cats... playing
getting ready
dark man aksing me questions
flashback of me in cute top .. my back looked great... I was in great shape
walking through a home... ladies lived there... exchanged info

orchard spaniels

I dreamt I was at my grandpa's orchard that he used to have. I could see a man out working in the orchard and two spaniels dancing around his feet. The man had a dark energy about him. He felt heavy, weighted and anxious. It was as if his soul left him, and all that kept him going was to get to point B. He had that feeling of thoughts spinning in your had of all you "had" to do and get done and that had encompassed him. I didn't want to go near him and I wanted him out of the orchard. I took a closer look at the spaniels, who felt more like joy and love. They were prancing around the man's feet, but I could tell they were starving. I felt an urgency to feed them, but I wasn't sure I had the power to do so. At that moment, the man held one of the dogs heads down and shot the dog in the head several times. I screamed out at the man to stop with every bit of energy I had.

Good lesson.... feed your joy before you become dead inside.