skull pick

I dreamt there was a ton of treasures around. A family member died and/or there was some storage found by the family that was for us all. It had many neat odd and ends. All different kinds of things, from clothing, to dishes, to musical instruments and furniture. My mother was going to sell it all for money, which I frustrated me. I didn't need to keep everything but I wanted to spend time perusing and getting familiar with the objects and maybe the stories behind them. I started picking up random small things that no one would miss and putting them in my pockets. There was something that looked like a hard wood toothpick only larger. It was angular instead of round and had a carved skull at the end of ivory. I'm sure it wasn't a toothpick, but it wasn't long enough to be a hair stick. I just admired the craftsmanship and it met the requirements of concealability in my hand to my pocket. I found another ivory skull item and it had much more detail in its carving. This one wasn't a pick, but maybe a comb or? either way, it was beautiful and looked like it had been cared for.  Then I came across an odd musical instrument. It was taller than me, but kind of like a very large square pillar with an old fashioned cash register on top. The whole thing was made of burled wood, all smoothed and polished. I had never seen this before and wasn't sure what sort of sound might come out. Was it like a self playing piano? There were a few collectors circling and admiring it.

There was so much stuff. Much will be looked over or tossed. I walked by my mother and felt extreme anger and said something bad towards her. Something like I wished I could ?? do something physical to her. She looked at me and smiled a bit of an evil smile back. Thinking that my words had just redeemed her of any wrong doings because I had said something so horrible. I reminded her that she taught me...

Oy... horrible feeling to feel.

gray banana

I dreamt that I was in an office. The whole floor was beige, the lighting was fluorescent, and it was quiet. The management had offices on the perimeter of the building and the rest of the employees had beige fabric cubicles. They weren't horrible... just dull. There was a large beige formica table/desk and beige metal file cabinets. It all felt dead. My office didn't have much in it for decor, just the beige-ness and a bowl of candy that was left from the holidays. They were peanut butter cups of some sort. They were not quality... more like peanut flavored high blood pressure. I found myself eating them as though there were a task that needed to be completed. I felt good about completing something but felt horrible from what the sugar was doing to my system at the same time. But the need to complete and accomplish was stronger than my need to feel good. I opened one of the file drawers and saw there was an employees birthday cake in there from a while back. It was... or had been banana.

 Now it was as though it was liquid that could hold its shape. The banana slices in the center an ashy gray... I needed to discard it. My boss went into his office which was just enough offset of mine that I could see when he came or went, but still had my privacy. Ideal really. I needed a change so I started rearranging all of my beige furniture. Something about the new arrangement seemed pretty amazing and I knew everyone else would be wondering... why did she get this arrangement and not us? or start copying me.. I wanted neither, just my privacy and to enjoy the new layout. I left to toss the cake and when I came back my table top had been graffitied. Not so nice words were written in crayon all over it in all kinds of colors. I didn't feel singled out, as the rest of the office had been attacked too. 

swimming cats

I dreamt that I was in my apartment. It was one of those dreams where I felt conscious as though it wasn't a dream at all. I was up to get ready for work, but went downstairs first for some reason. I wanted to look out the window behind the sofa. I moved the sofa out a bit and something was in the way. I looked and I realized my christmas tree was still up. It was a real evergreen though... which I didn't have. Then I looked down where I had moved the sofa and the floor looked odd. It looked as though it was shiny. Maybe the weight of the sofa had made a dent in the carpet? but then I looked closer and it looked as though the leg had pulled up the carpet and it was the padding underneath. Then I touched it and it was soaked... like there was a foot of water under the carpet. who was I going to call to fix it? SK? JK? I don't think I did it.

I looked up out the large window and it was still dark out. I thought I saw a cat jump in the tree. Probably the neighbor cat in the tree out front, but then I thought.. the tree isn't that close to the window. I tried to focus through the darkness and it was definitely a cat in the air and it looked as though it was swimming and then another was next to it. It was creeping me out, but I couldn't seem to turn away because part of me wanted to clarify what I was seeing. I was getting scared now and decided to just get ready for work. I went back upstairs and into the bathroom. Where was the furniture that was in there? It looked as though I had moved it all out. Maybe I was going to clean the floors. I sat and looked at the room empty wondering if I liked it better. I guess I did? but not as much as I usually appreciate an empty room. I went to the sink, well, where a sink used to be and went to turn on the light with the foot switch. I was moving my foot over it and realized that was no longer there either. I turned to turn on the water for the shower and it was a different shower that seemed to take up one side of a much larger bathroom. It was tiled half way up and then glass midway to the ceiling and it was long and amazing. I thought how nice is this? Then I realized... oh.. this must be a dream.

clear bandaids

I dreamt that I was in a house of a very wealthy family or someone that owned it was wealthy and everyone under the roof was used to having and not wanting. I was possibly visiting or living there. I wasn't "part" of it all, but I felt comfortable there. I was straightening and doing things and seemed to have cut my finger. The tip was sliced all the way through, but as if there was another smaller finger about 2 cm in. I found two clear bandages to hold it together best I could, although I really needed stitches. A friend there, asked if I was ok. I showed him how nicely the bandages were working, although it didn't seem like my skin wanted to go back. I told him that it didn't really hurt, and oddly enough it didn't hurt at all. He pulled out a needle and thread as if to say I should do it myself. I told him I wasn't that brave and had no intention of being so, and I would make an appointment that day to take care of it. I didn't need pain if I could avoid it. There was a little girl there, without her parents. She lived in the house and had a cute little bedroom made to her size. She had every toy and piece of clothing possible it seemed, although I think she just wanted someone to play with. The rest of the house seemed to think she was hard to deal with, didn't want to get dressed and so on. I went in to see her and we played for a bit and she got dressed no problem. I didn't like something about this house, this place or the little girl. I liked my friend ok...

under priviledge

I dreamt that I was at a concert. It wasn't outside, but the seating was more like an outdoor concert where you find spots on the ground, or group around a table etc. I was in a good spot and was about to go get a drink. A girl asked if I could get her one too as she was underage. I did it without a thought and brought it back. I then was sitting and waiting for the concert with a friend. A group of youngish folks sat down next to us. They looked a bit privileged. The girl asked me if I could go get her a drink as well since she was underaged. My friend had just told me that I could be put in jail for this. So I told the girl no and gave her the reason, although I don't think it was the reason. I could feel her manipulative spirit and it rubbed me the wrong way. I know she would get her drink. 

cue welt

I dreamt I had a welt of sorts, the size of half of a cue ball. It was behind my ear and quite a bit disgusting. I didn't want to look at it but I didn't want it there. I decided to just let go ... there was nothing I could do about it and I immediately felt better.

all day funeral

I dreamt I was going to a funeral for my grandfather... although he wasn't really any relation and all of mine have already passed. My mother had asked me to go and my brother and his wife was there. It ended up including a nature walk near the river, with dogs and a puppy. It took most of the day. I was a little panicked as my office thought I would be out for an hour or two. My mother acted like she didn't know... I was frustrated and was hoping this would be the last funeral.

orchard run

I dreamt that I was on a farm, out in the country. I was sitting at a table and across from me was my captor (who was Ben Kingsley). It was a slow evening, almost torturous. He wasn't doing anything mean, besides being there and me knowing that I was going to be hurt or find my end at some point that evening. We were having dinner maybe? I was in a long red gown and looked like Natalie Portman. A bit skinny, a bit frail. It seemed we were having a battle of wits that was getting us nowhere, but escalating the fear, the control and the hatred of the situation. I knew I was going to get no where with him. At one point I just decided to get up and run. I rather be killed quickly if it was going to happen that to let it draw out. I ran into the orchard half being me .. half watching from afar as if it was a movie. I could see her/me run along the orchard. I thought ... she could make it if she would quit running in the moonlight. She needed to get between the trees, even if it seemed it would take her longer to get to her destination, at least he wouldn't be able to see her. She threw a large hard clod of dirt in the air and it hit him in the head. It didn't slow him. Then she threw a branch and I could see blood, but it just angered him  more. Then he threw a large clod of dirt and hit her directly in the back of the head and she fell.  Then they were sitting in the orchard like nothing had ever happened, both laughing. Like this whole thing had been a game. He said he hoped they hadn't made so much racheous that the neighbors could hear... they might have thought they were serious.   

river testers

I dreamt that I was in front of a house. It was the house I grew up in, but not in the dream. There were jets flying over very fast. I thought it was odd. It wasn't the air show practice was it? I didn't think so. They were a different kind of jet, and they seemed to be flying with a purpose. They flew south of the house and then turned and flew back north of the house. They flew so low that the brushed the tops of trees. I was worried that they would catch on fire. Then they flew above the house and were hovering in the hair nose down. It felt a little threatening like they were in our business. There was also a woman that seemed to be wearing a contraption that made her fly. She had to have her arms and legs out, but she had a footing and places to put her hands. The contraption was a circle with her in the middle... kind of like da Vinci's drawing, but the harness, uniform etc. was black. Her son got out of the jet and started checking my house. He had a baseball cap on that said something about fish and rivers. They were testing places for drainage I think. 

parenting pink hair

I dreamt that I was with some girlfriends talking about kids. These are women that don't ever want them, but in my dream they had them. I said I don't think I would let my daughter dye her hair pink (I don't have a daughter). I said I didn't want her to feel like she had impress people or get attention by doing something to herself. The other friends rolled their eyes. Although they did say no way to tattoos.

blunt sandwich

I dreamt I went to a bar with a coworker DA. I think we were leaving an obligatory event and wantd to do something fun afterwards. It was kind of a dive bar, but one of those ones that has been there forever, near a good location (like near a body of water) and everyone goes to anyway in the nice weather. There was outside seating, but we were sitting inside initially. We both ordered a drink and some sandwiches. Something with bacon, peanut butter and dill pickles, another called a ??Blunt? or?? it was turkey, canned cranberry sauce, cream cheese?? and another sort of sandwich with dill pickle and bacon. We were hungry and looking forward to the sandwiches, although we had planned on sharing them with anyone who wanted a wedge. She ran into some old guy she knew and they had started talking. She liked the conversation so followed him outside to a table with an umbrella. I stayed inside with a friend. A young fella with dark brown curly hair. He and I were having a good time, chatting and joking. We clicked... were good friends, and maybe a little chemistry although he was too young for me. We joked about the age thing, although he didn't think it was a big deal. He was talking about this and that and brought up something called a ?? something teller. I didn't know what it was. He explained... you know those machines that outside of a building. They are low to the ground, you push a button of what you wanted to order, put in your money and it comes out. You order before you get there... when the item has arrived, you are alerted and that is where you pick up your package. I was thinking and then remembered .. ooh.. yes, I think a friend of mine used one of those once. When the sandwiches arrived, we went outside with them. Then it started raining and my hair started going curly and he was making fun of me.

broken milk glass

I dreamt that I was in a new apartment. I felt a little discombobulated in the place. Where were the rooms? Where was North? What street did the back door face? Who was in my place right now and celebrating my new place?

I was in the kitchen. As the room came into focus, I got a little excited about it. I liked how it looked, the glass in the cupboard doors, the light in the room, the glass door leading into another room. I could hear people in the living room as if the party was near its end. I looked at the dishes in the washer. It seemed people were cleaning up for me. There were some beautiful seagreen milk glass dishes and glasses in there. They had been a housewarming gift. I picked them up to get a closer look and a dish was broken, I picked up to of the cordial glasses and they were broken too. I shrugged my shoulders and thought ... nice thought at least, they were pretty for a bit.

A girl was there and pointed to the back door that was at the end of the kitchen. She was showing me the parking. I looked outside to black asphalt and white lines with a number in each space. Her car was parked there and she said she would be there today (she didn't use her car much), but as soon as she moved, that would be my parking spot. I wanted to ask... how do you find the parking entry way, but figured I would find it on my own. I wondered was it my designated spot? or would I need to be lucky and get it?

I went back inside and into the living area. People were still  there chatting. MG was there and being helpful.
Then it was partly a going away party for a coworker EM. She was leaving to another office and there were hugs and tears. People were still crowding the space, but I started to feel alone. Everyone would be leaving and this would be my space in this new area away.

debits and credits

I dreamt that I was with a group of guys. Friends?  We were all together for a short amount of time... like a school year or term. All there for a purpose, living together, hanging out together etc. A test was coming up and I was all of a sudden frantic. It was tomorrow and I wasn't ready. Part of me was thinking... but I always do well on tests. I had done well in this class the whole time, had I not? What was I worried about... let alone I was excellent at cramming. But I was still stressed. I knew the guys hadn't studied. They had spent most of their time partying and drinking. Why were they so calm?  One, MG was trying to ease my stress. Telling me it was just on this and that, you have the notes and so on.  We had a dog or a cat in the house.. it felt like just looking at it for a second made me feel more calm. Then back to thoughts on the test... What was it on anyway?? I had to think hard. I was picturing a bluegreen tray that had bottles and boxes in it. Did I need to know what those were? Then I thought... am I supposed to know which one is a debit and which a credit?  I felt calmer. I could easily cram for this.

brunch

I dreamt that I was at some fancy hotel/restaurant. I was meeting my extended step family for a brunch. I think it was something like Easter. Everyone was dressed nicely, nice music in the background, nice food... It felt nice. I seemed to keep walking around, not quite getting to the food. I liked being in the hotel, around people that might be traveling, around people that had something to do. I didn't feel like sitting and eating. I decided to walk down a hallway. I kept going and it turned into a home of a friend (DF). It was a very modern new home. Very open, light, glass... he seemed a bit cool and collected, in a James Bond sort of way. He showed me around a bit. We were very familiar. He seemed happy. I left to go back to the brunch and everyone was leaving. I was glad to have missed the sit down part. 

smoke and ashes

I dreamt I was with my high school ex JK. He was back to his thin self. I was trying to snuggle like we used to, but he wanted to be side to side. Then we both walked over to a fireplace that needed to be fixed. The bricks were falling off, but most of it was still good and intact. I was thinking how are we going to find old bricks that match perfectly?  Or maybe a hearth could be built over the whole thing?  It would look nicer? or would it? I liked old brick too, it felt warmer.  He was sitting in the fireplace in the ashes looking at the fire while I was saying my thoughts out loud. The smoke was coming in the house. I thought the flue was open but then I pulled it again and more smoke came in. I wasn't sure. 

uninvited guest

I dreamt that I went to see RVB. I was in the UK and was popping over to surprise him. He was staying with his folks. They seemed very sweet and happy to have a guest, someone new to talk to. They provided me with where everything was, how to use the house and so on. He seemed somewhat happy to seem, but also somewhat distanced. He had talked about wanting to see me, but when I was there, he showed me his room... more to tell me where he would be, as he had an office in there. He then walked me back out to a side room off the front room. There was a small sofa there and he said if I wanted I could sleep there. He wouldn't have much time for me... he had work to do, some colleagues to meet, and the kids...  That I should get myself something to eat if I liked. That he hoped I would enjoy my stay. All was with a friendly outside, friendly words, but controlled on the inside, and cool.

orange cat

I dreamt that I was in a college of sorts.. I felt part of it, needed, interested, supported, cared for, known, loved.

I was walking along some stairs and people recognized me and said they wanted my ideas on something they were working on.

I walked back outside. There was a farm as part of the school. My stepgrandma needed something. A group of us headed out to help on the farm. It felt fun, like a team.

One of the old men driving a truck had a cat on his lap. It looked like a leopard, but it was bright orange... sweet. 

repopulation

I dreamt that I was on earth with what was left of it. It didn't seem like we had to tip toe around chemical or nuclear hazard or anything, it just seemed like there were not many people left. I'm not sure why. The group of us hung together, took care of each other for the most part and seemed friendly. Maybe there just were not resources. I didn't feel like there was an internet, any manufacturing whatsoever, production or farming.  So we were hunter gatherers again but with maybe less options and no one else to interact with. We were making sure we had everyone before we moved on from our current location, which seemed to be a watery area. It wasn't a lake, it wasn't a river, it wasn't a swamp, ... nothing green really growing in it. It was actually clear... as if nothing could grow in it.  One girl was missing so we each walked around yelling her name looking for her, all knowing not to go too far from our location. It felt pretty out, it was night, I could see the stars, the air smelled fresh... and I looked up and then felt myself floating up. I wasn't especially scared, because I didn't know what to think of what was happening, until I started reaching the edge of earth's atmosphere at a a rapid pace. I started thinking... so in space do you explode or implode? would it hurt? I just hoped it would be fast because it seemed that I had no choice.

Poof... I was in space.... but then it seemed like I turned upside down and I was right side up. I was coming down to land on another planet, softly.... oddly enough. The planet looked a bit barren, sandy beige dirt that looked hard and dry with some structures on it. The structures were long and tube like. More like a somewhat flattened tube that took the shape of an oval. The whole structure was supported by legs, so none of the buildings touched the ground. Should I hide? Should I be here? I saw a mobile structure come towards me. It was a large vehicle that was much larger than a car or semi... it was more like its own almost two story building, the same color and material as the other structures. It was coming to pick me up... more as if it knew I was coming than if I was something to go investigate. There were normal people on board, but they seemed different than me. They were clear, knew what was going on, on a mission... not friendly and human like on earth. Once in the building they seemed set on making sure I had supplies, clothing, felt comfortable. A man showed up soon after me, looked a little more disheveled like myself. He looked like he had come from some place that had real dirt, plants, moisture... I was introduced to him. He looked disappointed. He said... "This is not what I asked for. I said I wanted a woman that was sturdy, a bit roundy." As he was saying this a vision appeared and was forming as he was describing. "...And brown, ethnic. If we are going to do this again, we need to mix it up. We can't have straight races."  I saw the completed image of the girl that he had described. It was the same one our group was looking for on Earth. I was having an uneasy feeling... the kind you feel when you lie. I could tell them that I know her and where to find her. But then what would they do with me? Obviously they were choosing certain people to repopulate ... this new planet?  I was older than I looked as well. I thought I had just better keep my mouth shut and keep myself from being exported back into space.