lead the way

I dreamt I was in this large department store (Fred Meyers). I think I was supposed to be working there or going to a conference there. It started out feeling like a large department store, but then kind of had the corridors of the middle school I went to. They were arranged with octagon type rooms and halls that circled around and inbetween them. I was walking towards where I needed to go with a friend or coworker. We were both dressed somewhat like airline stewardesses, very coiffed and put together. We walked through the door of the room we were supposed to be in and I saw the people we were supposed to meet sitting at a table. Then I saw someone else at the table (DK). He was a friend of my ex and I hadn't seen him since 2004 and really didn't feel comfortable seeing him now. I quickly walked out of the room making some excuse. He didn't see me luckily. He looked older. It was strange to see him. I went to go find a bathroom and check how I looked. I knew at some point I needed to go in there. I walked into the bathroom and it was horribly dirty. It was disgusting, like they had never cleaned it and I don't even want to go into the rest of the disgusting things. I kept propping open stall doors hoping there would be one that was somewhat clean but there was nothing. I left the room and went to call the company to complain. I was couldn't believe that thought that was ok and that they would let their employees have to be in such conditions as well. ... I dreamt that I was sent to do something for work which required a drive down the west coast. I was driving to either San Diego or LA. I was excited and felt free. I think I was driving a convertible. It was sunny out and just beautiful. I was driving normal at first and then would go extremely fast now and again to pass groups of cars, then quickly slow back down because I didn't want a ticket. I had a little dog with me. A friend's dog Olivia. I looked to my right and saw a beautiful park with trees and sunlight trickling through and water just on the other side sparkling. I thought I should stop so I could take Olivia for a walk and maybe put some gas in my car. At that point it seemed there were other people on this trip with me in other vehicles and they were ahead of me leading the way of where to park. I felt glad that I didn't have to think about it and followed them.

hypo

I dreamt this guy I have dated (GH) told his work he was very busy out with clients that day. I thought he was too. We were at a golf club, but it turned into more of a place to hit balls (although there was no place to hit them too, just a circle of grass to hit them from). When I went to him I was wondering what was going on... He said he was just going to hit balls that day. I asked where his clients were, he said that was just to keep work off his back. I was confused. I knew he wanted to do good and had just criticized his coworker for not working hard, his other coworker for criticizing him because his numbers were down, but yet he was going out to prove them right in their criticism and make himself a hypocrite.

blind leading

I dreamt that I was "given" some people to help. I was kind of nervous because I didn't feel like I was ready for this and didn't know what to expect. But I was also very excited to help people solve their problems and had faith that answers would come. The first man that came to me was in his early 50s. He looked deflated... like he had been on a very long journey, had not given up hope, but had also lost his way and was tired. I asked him what I could help him with. He replied.. "I have never known what I wanted to do..." Ugh.. how could I help him with this??? This was my problem. But I knew I was gifted at helping people find what they need so I started in on questions. I asked him if he had ever done anything in his past that he would get lost in... even if it was as a little boy playing in the mud. I thought we could start there... and maybe recreate that feeling. The expression on his face didn't look fruitful. I felt like he had spent so much of his life looking outwardly and forward for his answers... that he had detached from himself.

shorn

I dreamt I was cutting my hair. It felt freeing to let go of my old look and start over. Then I realized my bangs were not straight so I had to cut more. I had two friends there with me. They seemed supportive and yet tentative about what I was doing. I pulled my hair up to see where the shortest length was and cut, knowing I needed to make it even and it would grow back. I looked in the mirror and was disappointed. I told them I hadn't had bangs since I was about 11 or 12... and for a reason, it just didn't fit my face. I reached to the back of my head to pull my hair to the front and the texture felt odd. Then I realized I was with a coworker (BG) and he had cut all of my hair off... the kind of cut you picture when you think of someone cutting someone's hair short with a knife instead of scissors. I started crying uncontrollably. My friends watching me and me not being able to stop. I normally wouldn't want to cry in front of them but for some reason I wanted them to realize how much pain I was in so they would understand. I wasn't upset about the hair as much as someone doing something purposely mean to me. I had trusted him and he had just been mean. --- I dreamt I was at a hotel or resort. It was for a work function. I had a room next to a coworker (BG same as above). We had shared a bed the first night and both felt funny about it. I was always playing jokes on him, so for some reason, I gave his room to this guy in a wheel chair. He was very upset about it.. I tried to calm him telling him it was a joke and I could see that the guy was getting uncomfortable and he stood up. We both looked at him and then BG said he would turn him in. The wheelchair guy had been going to college on a scholarship for disabled people. He was just finishing that month with his degree. I asked BG to just let it go. He was almost done and this would ruin him. He left to go turn him in. We found out later the guy was able to say he had some temporary disability that only temporarily took away his control of his muscles and he was able to finish his degree. --- I dreamt that I was out with a coworker (SB). She and I were in NYC for work. We had gone out bar hopping and dancing. At one point we were in a room with a guy and his son and some other relative. Then I remember it being dawn and being surprised at the time and knowing we needed to get back as our plane departed at noon. I noticed I had a baseball cap in my hand and told her we should get it back to the guy. Not meaning at that moment, but to ship it to him. She gave me a dirty look and told me why...?? he is an as$h0/&. He beats his wife. Then I got the gist that I had kissed him and then felt awful. I had been drunk and friendly with someone I didn't like. Ugh... I tossed the hat. We got in a van was I thought we were driving back to the hotel so we could gather our things for the flight. But she changed into a pretty white dress and we were in a van with a friend of mine (K) from Berlin. She was getting married and had put up a notice to everyone that the wedding was that morning. I hadn't seen the notice and was not ready. They were whispering to each other and talking about me... it was more that she meant for me to go, but it still didn't feel good and I felt like an idiot.

floppy waffle

I dreamt that I owned a cafe. I had forgotten that I had rented the space for it. I had an employee and maybe one or two items to sell. I was trying to reassure them that it would all work out, I had just been handed the keys, so I hadn't been able to really get things going yet. We were near a park, so I knew we would have some business. Initially I was thinking nicer foods, but then I realized mainly people that played basketball were at the park, so they would want easy snacky things plus coffee. I looked over and saw remembered that I was very close to a mini-mart. I figured families would prefer to come to the cafe and I could get other clientele. I also had a parking lot, so I was thinking I could get high end carts there and mainly serve beverages and provide seating. I also had an idea about a certain kind of waffle, but it wasn't a waffle, more like a pancake, ... a floppy waffle. I had it figured out. ----- I dreamt that I was taking care of some paperwork. I needed my passport renewed as well. I had been standing in line and going from desk to desk. I had two more stations to go through and I realized I had forgotten my expired passport. I could leave and come back to the same position. My mom had been with me and so we both went back to our house. I had to get this done that day or I wouldn't be able to go on my trip. She was cleaning and doing other things. I was telling her how important it was that I go now and that the place was about to close, but she didn't seem to care. I decided to go on my own. The house was open air, like we lived somewhere tropical. I noticed some people moved to the edge of our land. It was a black woman and her little girl. They were digging a ditch and building a roof to cover it. They were singing.

twisted blinds

I dreamt I had just moved to a suburb. It wasn't a place I had planned on living or hoped to live. The bonus was it was walking distance to work, the apartments I moved into had high ceilings, nice layouts and lots of trees throughout the area. I had left from my car back to my apartment and realized I didn't have my wallet. When I returned to the apartment I realized I was missing other things as well, including a camera. I was wondering who had access to my place. I decided to start organizing my place hoping to run across some of the items. The blinds in each room were all tangled. One was twisted on purpose into a spiral. It looked kind of neat, but they were dusty and I either wanted them normal or off the window completely.
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I dreamt I was at a friend's home. It felt like another country and another era. The cupboard doors were really dark wood. But they had been covered over the years with different colored foil. The top foil was silver, the next foil was colored with a yellow marker, the next with green and the last one was multi-colored, red/gree/yellow/orange etc. There were foreigners at the party too. I was taking some foil and drawing yellow lines. When I did this, a one inch high wall of water would form where the line was, then sooner or later it would turn back into a line.  

wine stains

I dreamt that I drank wine with friends. There were two different situations happening simultaneously. I was with one friend (PC) and she had left and I had spilled wine all over her floor. Then there was a couple (S&CK). I had gone upstairs to their attick and spilled red wine all over their white carpet. I knew I could get it up, but I wanted to before they were able to see it. It was too late and I was fumbling over my words trying to explain myself. But there was nothing to explain. The evidence was there.

cat mouse spider

I dreamt I was at a picnic of sorts at a wealthy home. I saw a cat playing outside and I realized it was chasing a mouse. I didn't want it to get it because it was cute. Then there was a spider running around to complicate things. It looked like a huge daddy long legs. I wanted the cat to see the spider so it would leave the mouse alone. The spider seemed to go this way and that just out of the vision of the cat. Then finally it ran up on the cat's forehead and that cat noticed it and the mouse was safe. 

air fish

I dreamt that I was looking for apartments. I was so excited because I found some very affordable once and this was great because I was wanting to save money. I found one for only $322 a month. I was going to look at two more that were around $400. I went to see the $322 first. It was fine and had everything it needed. I felt like it was a bit of a beach atmosphere or at least casual and warm. I thought I had better look at the others as well. I went to see the $425 one and it was soooo much better. It had rooms instead of just being a studio, high ceilings... I loved it and wanted it because it was only $25 more than what I was currently paying. Then I thought.. the whole goal was to lower my expenses... not get exactly what I wanted. (typing this ... oy.. I want to say always go for exactly what you want.. ). I wasn't sure what to do. I had some errands to run and I thought I had better do that and think about my decision before I did something stupid. I went to some strip mall, but the stores were closed and I was on my way to somewhere else. It felt uncomfortable outside... too hot, dry, flip flops... then I saw some plants. They looked pointy and uncomfortable too, but I walked over to them because I thought I saw some flowers. They were fish swimming in air around these plants. I think it was the only place they could swim and survive. The friend I was with pointed out one that had a hurt fin. It had but cut by the blades of plant. I thought they were amazing and sad at the same time. They were so beautiful but they were stuck living around these plants for sustenance, between a strip mall and the parking lot.

Xmas tree ornaments

Dreamt that my friend said he had purchased all new xmas ornaments and redid the tree. I was worried his wife would be upset.

34 or 44

I dreamt that I was going out with the VP of the company (that I'm in the process of leaving). He was appropriately nice... being polite and paying for things, but I could tell he didn't want to be there. I remember two places that we went. We were sitting at the bar of the second place (after having dinner at the first). We ordered some drinks. I think I was going to get a coffee drink and he sneered at it. Then we were going to go dancing, but I didn't remember the evening because I drank too much. We had gone to 4 more places. Not sure how I knew that. I know some hair was falling out again... I remember thinking... well at least it is less than last time (ponytail in hand - dream). I was just getting home in the morning. For some reason my mother was there. She had called friend of mine and him to find out where I was. I was so upset that she would call people because I was home late. It was my business, I was fine, she had never been around before... She said.. well I was worried etc. I could understand, but I told her.. I'm 44 years old! I've handled myself this far, I think I can continue. I thought it was odd I told her 44, because in the dream I was 34.. (which I am neither). 

young eyes

I dreamt I was sitting on a porch of a house. It was sunny outside. A guy that I knew (CM) walked by outside. I didn't want him to see me because I didn't feel like talking to him. I went back inside to sit on the couch. I realized I was in my exboyfriend's parent's house. A middle aged blond women came in. She reminded me of the outspoken blond character in the movie Bridesmaids. In this dream she was a little older, little heavier and a little less refined. She was talking to me about work and life. Then other people were walking through the room. My exboyfriend, his brother... a friend of the group. It uncomfortable and comfortable at the same time some how. 

Then I was on a bus on a trip. I had to sit on the "singles" side of the bus. An old friend of mine was on the married side. He asked if I would watch something for him and in exchange, he would watch my camera and purse. I was also watching someone's littler girl while people went to the front of the bus for refreshments. She was very sweet and cute. We arrived at our destination. My dad was there and other family members. I had the little girl with me and she was enjoying all of the fun sites. It was nice to see everything through the eyes of a young person and I was enjoying it too. Then my friend contacted me saying he forgot to watch my purse ... I went back to the bus and it was gone. I was a little frustrated. I take very good care of other's things, maybe even more so than my own. I was upset that I couldn't trust someone else to do the same.

zombie camper

I dreamt that I was in a van and there were all of these kittens. I had to make sure they were all accounted for. It was more like I wanted to make sure they were all ok. I would have a good count one second, and then the next some would be missing. It was a little stressful.

Then I was running away, looking for shelter. It was dark and I was in a street and then running between buildings and movie campers. I found one that was empty and no one was around to see me go in. I jumped in and locked the door, kept it dark and sat down to take inventory of what supplies it had. I was running away from zombies. I had to make sure I didn't make much noise or create too much light. I also couldn't let anyone "normal" in because I couldn't trust them to be quiet enough and not get us both noticed or killed. I put a movie on and just sat in the dark. I was anxious but felt pretty good about my position.

ponytail in hand

Last night I dreamt that my hair was coming out in handfuls. Somehow neatly and all the same length. I ended up with a handful of very healthy hair in my hand. I didn't remember being able to hold a ponytail of hair that thick when it was on my head. I was kind of impressed with the amount more than I was upset that my hair was gone. I knew it would grow back...

Then I dreamt that I was getting manly whiskers on my chin... like all over, prickly and blond... this I wasn't as at ease about.

forced opportunities or ...

I dreamt I moved into a big house. It was a loft type place, two story, and pretty amazing. I was sharing the house with an older woman that seemed nice enough and intelligent. For some reason, once a week I had to climb a wall in order to keep it. I wasn't really a climber. I turned around to look at the wall. At least it was brick so I could get some footing. I thought I could possible do it, but felt weird that I had to do that to live there. I also had to pay out the nose to live there. I couldn't believe that I signed the contract!!!???  I had a good thing going where I was and could pay off some debts...

Then I left and was getting ready for my new job or new training. I was going to be a police officer. Think more of a British police officer with button down shirt and short sleeves and tie of sorts. We had to wear a specific uniform for classes. My brother was going to the same class. I was doing it because it was the thing to do I guess. I needed money, the training was available, I was qualified.... I guess basically I was doing it because it was easy, even though I knew I didn't want to be one. I couldn't find the shirt I needed to wear and was running late and was thinking... maybe I could skip the whole thing.

Then I was on a cruise ship. I went out of duty I think for a friend... or for social duty reasons. I walked over to a class we were supposed to take. I was going to help sew costumes. I didn't want to do that either. I went to leave and my friend was disappointed in me that I didn't want to do what she wanted me to do. Why wouldn't I just go along. The costumes were for a play. I was supposed to be in it as well. As I was walking, I was thinking.. I know I'm supposed to sing in this. I don't sing.. will I do ok? ... I can still get out of it... but what if I do good? .... what if this is my thing and this is my opportunity to be forced to do something I'm scared to do so I find out my hidden talents...

role reversal

A guy I was seeing (in dream only... actually a blond actor guy I'm not that in to) were getting intimate. I said something more masculine about us just having sex as apposed to being loving. He made a face and walked away. He didn't like that I wasn't being loving... and that I was being more cold and factual about it. I watched his reaction. Although I didn't want to hurt him, I didn't feel like I did anything wrong as I didn't feel anything loving towards him. 

saved seats

I dreamt I was sleeping on a small futon or hide-a-bed. A guy was trying to make sure I had a tv to watch. He balanced one on the arm or the frame... it was very big but some how it balanced enough to be stable. He wanted to know if I wanted something bigger. I told him that I didn't really watch tv in the first place and this would be more than fine.

I had another dream where we were eating in a ?? beer garden of sorts. I met some guy there, he was nice, I liked him, he liked me. I don't know if we fully understood that it was mutual though. We just made sure each of us was taken care of... he looked out for my needs and I looked out for his. We saved seats for each other and so on.