bike

I dreamt that I was living closer to the activity in the city, but the hippy side. I rode my bike to get around and it was nice and freeing. I happened to have some things I wanted to drop by a gal that I had just met. It was early in the morning before work, so I threw on a skirt and tshirt, my hair still wet. I had cookies and ?? I guess something else she was interested in, as we had talked about opening a biz. I had realized I had thought about the same biz long ago and brought by my info. I met her roommate as well who was a gal I worked with years ago, K an editor. She was very nice and vaguely remembered me, but just enough to spark her memory.

I had to get going as I still needed to get ready for work. I rode my bike down a grassy path and parents were biking their kids to school. I felt happily expectant of good things to come.

missed bus

I dreamt that I was with a crew of people. We were in the woods and near some caves that had been discovered and we would be some of the first people to see them. I was very excited as I loved this sort of thing. We were going to go on two separate buses at different times to not over crowd the area.   I was supposed to go on the first bus. I had been ready and everyone else was running around getting their things. I went to go use the bathroom which was kind of in a half open space on a vehicle. It was a little odd sitting while people, men and woman, could sit and chat with you and see your face. JLittle and JimmyK were talking to me, not meaning to be rude. I hinted that it was a little difficult to proceed with them there and they left me alone. I was done and popped outside as I saw my bus leave. I was upset and vocally so. The first bus was also going to perform some sort of ritual. It wasn't weird or crazy, but for those that didn't understand it, it seemed so. I was probably someone that was the most interested in this part and was going to miss this opportunity. The driver of the 2nd bus, JK (MT's stepdad). He was flippant about it and obviously was clueless, or I would have been mad at his reaction.  I got on the second bus and we were on our way. As we pulled up, I saw the first crew leave the cave and I sort of let it go. 

glowing

I dreamt that I was at some hotel or destination place. I was on some large patio/balcony and it was evening. I looked over the edge of the railing and there was a tiger, its cub and a golden lab pup. They looked as though they needed help and I tried to help them get onto the patio. It seemed to have worked but then I had others around me. They all had an opinion of if it was a good idea that I helped them, or how I helped them. I just threw up my hands... I did what I felt was best with what I knew at the moment. I walked away.

Then I was in a room with a man that was very blond, like naturally white blond and his skin was about the same color. He was almost glowing. His clothing was light as well. He seemed preoccupied with something. He was pacing back and forth seeming to do something while you could almost feel his mind working. It was a peaceful mind though. His desires were bringing about good feeling. It was smooth unfolding, not harried. Then I realized it was CG, a boy I had gone to school with. I think I had not noticed him and appreciated him until now.

Then I left because I had some things to do myself. I went out to a black truck and I guess I had to get it to another area of the building as and something else that I couldn't remember. I was in the backseat of the car and had to drive it from there backwards. It was awkward, but I had no doubts that I could do it... just might hit something here and there. 

carving life

I dreamt I was watching over kids of a family. It was a large home in the country. They all seemed different some how. They were all blond, very bonded, maybe I was different.  I went upstairs to check out the place. The family would carve the names of the children into the vaulted walls when they were born. It was very ornate and they carved decorations around them. It was kind of beautiful.  There were carvings all continuing around it denoting their life.  RVB showed up and I was showing him the carvings. He kissed me and we were starting to get intimate and then noticed all of the children had been hiding up there. We quickly got up and followed them to what we thought was their meal time, but then there were many many children and teens and young adults. They were all there at long tables outside. It felt more like a camp, a hidden camp. There were going to be some activities, like musical chairs and drawing contests. It seemed like a fun time for them, but I felt a bit confused. I walked by some chaos at the musical chairs and by then had lost RVB. I went to go get my art supplies case and decided to join in on the drawing contest. I couldn't find it. I looked and looked and then saw that someone had taken it all apart. They were willing to give it back to me, but I didn't want it now. Have of the pieces were broken and it was a mess. 

white cane

I dreamt that I was on the bus or train to the city. My friend JWM just happened to be there too. When he noticed me he came behind me and gave me a hug and a kiss and he was happy and on his way. I had a destination as well. I was walking with a can. It was modern looking white with silver and a wheel on the end. I didn't mind having it with me although I don't think I needed it. I was walking swiftly through the city, cool breeze on my face, down stairs and across streets. Then I realized I was going to be walking around a more hilly area and there was a new escalator, all white and clear parts. You would swing under this bar, slide down at an angle, almost standing and the thing would shoot down the hill and then tilt you back up at the bottom to easily walk forward. I think I had reached my destination. I was in a room with a large half circle sofa and others were showing up. Some felt like that took up more social space than I did. My aunt IV and other family types showed up and then I started looking at my things. I had my suitcase and the coat that had been thrown over my arm, but where was my cane? I hadn't remembered setting it down or letting go of it at all. It should be here. I panicked as I thought someone for sure would want it. I went back to the escalator and nothing was there and then I thought about backtracking. I saw that there was a container with other cane type things at the bottom of the escalator. Was that for people to use, or was that where we leave them and move on?

alien ship

I dreamt that I was outside in the evening in what seemed like a perfectly groomed yard. Life felt sort of perfect... I was lack of any worry. I looked up and had to blink twice. There was a massive space ship moving across the sky. It was flat with many lines and squares in patterns all over its underbelly. I was glad it was passing quietly. I thought... my friend SK sure would like to be here. I looked back up at it and concentrated on it thinking I could get its attention. Then a warm beam of light came and locked on me and I slowly lifted up in the air. I was oddly calm, as this is the last thing I would normally want to happen.  Once inside I was greeted by normal young women. They were all polite and sweet, almost naive seeming. They had all once been on earth or some other planet like myself and were eager to get to know me and make me feel at home. I was in a sort of holding room that until certain things were attended to and I would be welcome in the rest of the ship. They girls seemed a bit stepford-wifey. Their innocence and naivete seeming selves were more like they were knowledgeable but with neutrality. Like they were cleansed of something of themselves so that what was left was just facts and curiosity.

rocky tread

I dreamt that I was getting on to a treadmill, but it was quite large. It was about the width of a lane of traffic and tilted up into darkness. Basically a small structure was built around it and you couldn't see the ceiling of it or the end of the treadmill... or what was coming next. When it was on, it started out like a normal treadmill, smooth black that you walk or jog on. Then a gray cube was on one side, then another on the left, spaced out and easily avoided, but as it went, the tread became more of an obstacle course and you had to jump, leap and climb around the objects coming towards you. I was worried that if I fell, I would get scraped up, but I found that the "rocks" were a dark charcoal foam that although sturdy, had some give. I was moving along doing well, then two guys from high school were behind me. They were very athletic and very tall. At first I was concerned, but they were both there to guide me and help me improve my agility and strength. It was enjoyable and I was looking forward to what might be next.

focus

I dreamt that a man tossed me a chocolate. It hit the floor and slid past me and hit a wall, then another wall and then out the door to the lobby..  I followed it with a knowing that I'm supposed to be out there for some reason., fate or something.  I went out to pick it up and I ran into some salty haired guy going on about acting, his acting ,his voice, etc. etc.

I come back into the room, wanting to roll my eyes, telling my com padres about how actors can be so .... and make a face. Then I immediately feel bad. It wasn't a nice thing to say, and besides, why think of something I don't like and start noticing more of it... Then I went to the sofa in the room we were in. There were windows to a hallway that led to conference rooms. A line of actors were inline waiting for a workshop. I let go a bit and took a deep breath.. look how quickly that worked... I thought of actors and there were 20 more. Focusing it into reality... I'm feeling lucky, good... Now let's focus on something fun, I thought.

nose

I dreamt that a man was walking to a shop, a little old fashioned shop.  It almost seemed like an older time as well.  This man had a long nose, well more like it would grow, like Pinocchio, but then it would shrink back to normal. I thought maybe he was thinking untruthful thoughts and when he stopped, his nose would return to normal, but then his nose grew out into the shape of a fish... then back, then a bulb, then back. He certainly had a problem.

He walked into the shop and headed straight for the counter where there was a small stand holding a card and a basket of more cards in front of it. The card had a a blue line drawing of a basket and if you pulled on a paper tag it would move as if something was going to fall in it, abundance, something good ...

The man had heard of another man that had used this card and his wish came true. He wanted to make a wish. The story went that you would definitely get something from the card, but you wouldn't be guaranteed your wish, so it was a risk. This man was full of anxiety and fear as he chose his card. It was another white card but this time it had a black shiny figure on it who also had a long nose with a bulb at the end. He eagerly pulled the tab ... and nothing happened. Mind you his nose wasn't in some odd shape, but he didn't feel any different. Then out popped a life size version of the black shiny figure with the long nose. The man fell back and was startled and then realized he needed to run. The black figure was after him, batting at him with his nose as he ran.

joke store

I dreamt that I went to a place for meditation.  There was a lady that was leading us and she was looking at me as though the message was mainly for me.  I could tell many were newbies at this. She had us all lay on the ground, then we had to move towards the back of the room and together for some reason. That put me on the floor under someone in a bunk. I was going to just make do, but instead I asked everyone to move and the woman looked at everyone like they must...again that this was for me. She had us watch an old film of someone meditating to show us how it was done and had been done for years. The person on the film was laying on a bed. We could only see the legs and feet through a doorway. The room was dark and there was a soft blue glow of light reflection of the person's white clothing. We couldn't hear anything, but then we saw the body levitate.

I left from there with a group I came with. The instructor led us to a bar. We tasted wine and she instructed again on what foods to try and so on. Again it seemed like she was focused and helping me, observing and making sure my needs were being met. The place became crowded like the meditation studio and I wanted to space, so I walked over to bar seating. It was an odd sitting arrangement, but there was more space and I was right next to some food and wine.

The group left this place and we walked over to a joke store and walked in. I walked around looking and the odd items. It seems I was on a sort of bachelorette night now. Three of us decided to fill out applications for clerk positions at the store. I think we did it as a ruse, as we were there on vacation.

We left the store to go find the rest of the group at the bar,

I turned and went back into the joke store for something, Maybe to do something?
I walked around and had a conversation in my head as if I was in there with a religious conservative man from other country.

Man - "What is this store?"

Me - "Just an adult joke store."

Man - "An adult store?"  horrified of the thought that it was a sex store.

Me - "Nooo, a joke store that is just adult in nature."

Man - "But I think I saw an adult "toy.""

Me - "Sure, there may be some adult toys here, but it isn't that kind of store..."

[End of conversation in my head.]

I walked to the exit and the clerk looked at me as if I was there to steal something. I told him that my friends and I had just been in here and applied for jobs. Then a larger lesbian lady behind the counter said, "Oh you forgot your phone number on the application."  I think that she was just trying to get my number. I quickly wrote my number down as I felt is was my ticket to innocence. I accidentally, but thankfully transposed my numbers.

I went out to join the rest of the girls. It seems the guest of honor, the bride to be, was a blond gal. She and a few others were in line to get into this popular club. The line went down stone stairs and around the block. The bride said "Ya know.. I don't really want to go to this club."  She looked a bit tired and wanted to just relax.  I was relieved as I had been dressed in khaki shorts and a big t shirt. I felt like I was in man clothes and wanted to change. I said "Sounds great, How about we go somewhere smaller, get appetizers, since we each haven't eaten yet. I just wanted to buy time to go get changed. 

woke up to this song in my head - From Eden

"From Eden"

Babe, there's something tragic about you
Something so magic about you
Don't you agree?

Babe, there's something lonesome about you
Something so wholesome about you
Get closer to me

No tired sighs, no rolling eyes, no irony
No 'who cares', no vacant stares, no time for me

Honey, you're familiar like my mirror years ago
Idealism sits in prison, chivalry fell on its sword
Innocence died screaming, honey, ask me I should know
I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door

Babe, there's something wretched about this
Something so precious about this

[Live version inclusion:
Where to begin

Babe, there's something broken about this
But I might be hoping about this.]

Oh, what a sin

To the strand a picnic plan for you and me
A rope in hand for your other man to hang from a tree

Honey, you're familiar like my mirror years ago
Idealism sits in prison, chivalry fell on its sword
Innocence died screaming, honey, ask me I should know
I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door

Honey, you're familiar like my mirror years ago
Idealism sits in prison, chivalry fell on its sword
Innocence died screaming, honey, ask me I should know
I slithered here from Eden just to hide outside your door

underwater fate

I dreamt that I was being "condemned."  In parenthesis because I'm not sure if it was condemnation from something I had done or it was something that just was inevitable  ...

An old weathered man in a gown was holding a staff spitting out words of my fate.  I would have to jump off the cliff that to my back. The part of the cliff I was standing on had red and ice blue posts that would light up with either fire or beams of cold. I couldn't walk left or right, just forward between the posts or I might get burned or frozen, although one of those options was going to be my end either way.  I didn't look for an escape because it had to be and I knew it.

Was I to jump into boiling water of fire or the frozen option?  It looks like it would be freezing to death, I could handle that I thought, not the worst way to go.  I looked over the edge and there was a mermaid emerging out of the water... I looked at her face and she seemed to be beckoning me with a pleasant welcoming look. I thought I had better just do this, so I jumped and plunged beneath the water... I could feel the icy cold and see a bit through the greenish water. I saw my hand and wanted to see how it would freeze.  I noticed I wasn't floating up to the top and I heard the mermaid say to breath in. Was I to die by drowning instead of being frozen solid? I breathed in and found that I could breath the water, I was swimming and not freezing.  But I still wasn't coming to the top, this was my world now.

woke up to this song in my head - Happy Talk

Happy Talk

Happy talk, keep talkin' happy talk,
Talk about things you'd like to do.
You got to have a dream,
If you don't have a dream,
How you gonna have a dream come true?

Talk about the moon floatin' in the sky
Lookin' at a lily on the lake;
Talk about a bird learnin' how to fly.
Makin' all the music he can make.

Happy talk, keep talkin' happy talk,
Talk about things you'd like to do.
You got to have a dream,
If you don't have a dream,
How you gonna have a dream come true?

Talk about the sparrow lookin' like a toy
Pickin' through the broaches of a tree;
Talk about the girl, talk about the boy
Countin' all the ripples on the sea.

Happy talk, keep talkin' happy talk,
Talk about things you'd like to do.
You got to have a dream,
If you don't have a dream
How you gonna have a dream come true?

Talk about the boy sayin' to the girl:
"Golly, baby, I'm a lucky cause."
Talk about the girl sayin' to the boy:
"You an' me is lucky to be us!"

Happy talk, keep talkin' happy talk,
Talk about things you'd like to do.
You got to have a dream,
If you don't have a dream
How you gonna have a dream come true?

If you don't talk happy,
And you never have dream,
Then you'll never have a dream come true!

dark glass

I dreamt that I went outside and the world had changed. Certain ones of us had to keep our existence hidden. We would slip between buildings to go unnoticed, although sometimes we could be amongst the people if we held the right attitude, carriage and clothing.

A man and I were trying to take some boxes to recycling. On returning, we walked through a tall dark glass building. There were stairs going up, corridors that slanted to different levels and elevators, but everything was glass. The only place you could really hide was where the glass curved causing layers of black blue glass to create a sort of dark area.

The man and I went there to rest and maybe sleep for the night. The place was busy with people, but we seemed to be able to be unseen when they were in their mode of thought that was on a different level than ours. We felt safe.

Later in the dream I went to go find my friend WW. He was living in a tent city in the outskirts of the city. He was close enough to be near supplies, but far enough away to not be bothered. He wanted to go on a trip and wanted to borrow my backpack, which was quite large and best for a long journey.