flamingo

I dreamt that I was along a river. I was going by it in some sort of vehicle that would make us go up high. It could have been a plane or helicopter, or it just could have been a train that had rails up high. In my head was some sort of commentary about what we were about to see. There was a double water fall and a windmill that one could only see from this vehicle. So many people hadn't seen this spectacular view. The odd thing was is this way of transportation was more affordable, easier and more beautiful than any other way of getting around. Why didn't people take it?

My dad was with me. We were watching some people "ride" the water falls. This was something more dangerous and uncomfortable than fun. They would have this so called badge of ?? honor? or... looked what I can do type feeling, from traversing it, but they would miss this great view, be in pain, and why put out that effort. My dad spoke to a girl who was doing this. He said it wasn't fun to do the jump through the water, it stung. This girl was doing a hard route to get tougher or?? He said why would you want to put yourself through that. What was hard was waking up every day at 4 am, studying, drills etc. (he was in army)... why would she want it even harder?

I then dreamt I was taking classes. A guy and I and a girl went in, they were telling people something in a crowded house, offering us iced tea etc. I took some to be social. One girl broke her glass three times and was laughing about it.  two girls were talking about retaking the test, and had they studied. The guy was talking about what he should do with his life. I said what you do is really cool. Managing everything that is going on (for a play), making sure it happens. He was like really? I said it is exciting and then done. Mind you ... stressful. and no product at the end... like if you were a set painter, or script writer etc. etc...

I had to sew a piece of cloth for the play. The guy kept trying to help me with the machine, fixing it. I kept trying to do what I can do, sew. As the play was going,  I kept trying to sew the two pieces together etc. finally managed it and play was over.

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dreamt walking in old hut? several stories, up narrow stairs,each doorway would get smaller as you went up. I felt I could barely get through the first doorway. Many of us going up. It made me feel claustrophobic and scared. But I thought... I'm a girl, there are guys going up there, there must be a way.  I looked out to the 2nd floor.. I saw it opened up into the main room on the ground floor and each "floor" was  just a little landing with a place to be that opened to that main room. I decided to get out then. Mystery solved. I also saw that there was a ladder that could take you down to the main floor again instead of the uncomfortable narrow stair case. Then we were all there. This place was at the coast. I was there with many women, people?? none that I knew, but in the dream I was friends with them. A few would doll up and go down to the town. They were younger. A girl and I stayed and there was a big dog? cat turned toy? etc.???

The girls came back again to grab more girls and go out again. Again we decided to stay.

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I dreamt of a man that was a flamingo. First I just saw a flamingo being strange... acting cartoon like then coming right up  to me. Did it want food? to peck me?  Then it turned into a tall Englishman with a large nose is a somewhat casual tuxedo. He was saying doesn't it make sense that he is a flamingo? I found him charming. Then further on to the conversation he said, your friend there (PC) turns into a cat, and she nodded. Then I realized I also turned into a rabbit, just never in public. A big rabbit... rabbit was strong and fast, not about meekness

Then dreamt that I was pregnant... but for what ever reason, it was my brother's (magically, not incestuously).... and that they wanted a baby, and it just made sense that they would get it. I told my sister in law and she was very happy. Then she told my brother, he was happy. My mom was somewhere in the background with her boyfriend. It all made sense at first but then I was thinking... but it is half my kid... I'll want to see her, what if I don't like how they raise her and so on and I wanted her back....in my mind. My sister in law's family was there, her dad, who is deceased. I was walking and realized I had to use the bathroom, I was having a miscarriage. I was relieved... they had two kids already (in my dream) and didn't need another. Her dad was happy to see their baby ...

There was a toilet box in the center of the room (a disposable toilet type thing). I was going to use it,  but they were packing it away... Then I saw a little girl crying... I think it was my sister in law as a little girl? Was it because her dad was leaving? Her dad was crying to and was sad to leave.

something about pine cones... highest yield...

new me

I had a dream I was at some sort of event. A reunion? coincidental reunion?  Some guys from my high school were dressed like bikers, others like pirates and so on

It was a big event and all costumed, but myself. Why hadn't I dressed up? I loved Halloween. As I thought this, the feeling left. It was as if I was observing someone else's old feelings. It wasn't me anymore and I was just having a knee jerk reaction. Now I suddenly didn't care.

I was wearing a long dress. It was kind of hippy/dumpy, but feminine. A guy that came by said he liked it.

Then I was in a house (in reality a house down the street from where I grew up, that a friend of my mother's lived in). I went inside and found AT, MT and M were going through the house for things to take. Maybe they were just doing laundry and taking their own clothes. It felt strange though.

I had been trying to clean the house before my mom came home.... I had thought the house was clean enough until I had thought of her.  Stuff started oozing out of the place when I thought of her.

Then I was working in a costco type building. The gal from who's the boss was the boss. She was interviewing me and was hard core, I didn't care. I knew that I could do the job. I wasn't afraid of her and I think that she liked that. So I started working there. They paid barely anything and had a  poor work environment. SK worked there.. I decided to leave, walk out without pay.. I didn't care, not apathetically, I just felt I "knew" better.

My dad, step mom, and brother were outside the building to meet me. It felt good. We were going to go somewhere nice.

grandma

I was in an apartment or house with others. There were weight lifter types down stairs... kind of neandrothals. AMS from New Orleans was visiting. BW and it seems other guys were there from my past? I think it made AMS feel uncomfy...
I don't know how I felt about it. Normally I would have cared about someone's feelings, but I don't think I did.

My grandma (IC) was next door. I had to take care of her, but this wasn't a bad thing. I loved her and enjoyed being there for her.

I went to a concer, some platinum blond gal. My friend AL-S was there and I had taken my grandma too. She liked to get out. I walked right into the concert and straight to the best seats even though I didn't have a ticket. I didn't have the normal fears you might have getting caught and then getting kicked out. I felt I had a right to be there. Not so much entitlement, just a feeling.  The concert was over, so I went to the bar in the lobby and met up with AL-S. She was having a bloody maria. I was trying to think of what I wanted and decided to pass on a drink. Another friend was there, SK. As we were all leaving the conert, my grandmother  had left out before us. I couldn't see her, so SK went out into the parking lot to find her.

There were grand steps leading away from the concert hall. They looked icey, so I went to stand up on some decorative boulders for a better view to find my grandma. The stones were in the grass at the bottom of the stairs. I turned back to look at the steps that now looked made of hardened clay and they collapsed.

I found SK and my grandma. I told them that they should have called to tell me that she had been found.
Then I was visiting a doctor's office. The office seemed a bit victorian, all dark wood, velvet uhpolstery, etc. A French man was coming out of the examining room. It seemed he was getting an enima. I had been reading a nutrition book and it seemed we were both doing the same plan.
He spoke French to me, I didn't understand him much. I felt he was a nice man and nice with his wife.

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Then I dreamt that I was on some sort of ship under water. It felt futuristic, but a little steam punk. The ship was movign under water. We were headed to a destination. I was working under the "carriage" of the ship. I had to be outside of it and it was dangerous. The others on the ship were not aware of how dangerous it was and what I was risking. We reached our destination, some sort of dock of sorts. We didn't have a lock for our ship, which was now the size of a van. We left to go get supplies and then realizing there was no lock, went back for some of our valuables.

retreat

I dreamt that I was at some retreat or school at the ocean. We all were there to have some outward bound experience or schooling that included some sort of credentials. Something to make us better in one way or another. It felt like a far off place that not many people get to go. Not a resort, not paradise, but just something special away from the hustle bustle and social norms. We were starting something new.

I needed to get back to a building so hopped on the tram. A young girl was on it with me and I alerted her to hold on, as this was a crazy ride more than a tram. It was a lot of fun, but you could get hurt if you didn't hold on.

Then I was out on a dock. Some friends of mine and I were finished with our program. There were just some festivities left and then we would all go home. It felt like many had left already and our hearts felt a little sad or empty. I large sword fish jumped out of the water and we exclaimed how beautiful it was. The guy was trying to get us to go to this party where we had to wear swim suits... it was the dress code similar to a black tie. He had my friend try on some and then said I should look at a one shoulder suit. He thought it would suit me. It did... I looked better than ever really and was wondering why I put myself down so much. The girl said she would be leaving tomorrow and most likely wouldn't come back. I was sad. I think I was trying to ride out the place until the very last event so it wouldn't end.

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previous dream lost teeth on left side  :-/  was worried at first... mercury... then not

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I dreamt that sent personal emails to the president of the company I'm working for. I ran to delete it from his computer and he said that was not ok to do. I was trying to explain and he kept saying no. Then he kept singing.... not like him.

I was wearing a tshirt that had two words on it.. they meant something intersting... can't remember.
 ?? flux? or ... two words

Then I was at some fancy house.. JLB was there... I was on the stone steps.. felt old.  Some other french guy was there that didn't seem mentally all there, but then he seemed intelligent.

follow the rules

I dreamt I was in some sort of futuristic vacation place. Everything was perfect... all needs were met it seems (food, location, services), if you follow the rules. I don't think any of it was real. I walked out to a ocean area.  I could see where others had already found a nice spot to lay "outside." I walked back into a buildign. There was a 3D holographic film playing in the center of the room. The space for the holograph was like a big tube in the middle of the room. The movie was about dinasaurs. I saw past the holograph to another door and went to that. It seemed to go to another outside area. I saw a tram type thing that you might see at an amusement park. There was a tricky intersection you had to get through to get to the road where it was. There was some sort of water wave thing that you had to get by so it wouldn't pull you under. Was this an exit from the unreal world?? The tram became a boat and there seemed to be some left over food and drink there, all in packages, but older.

Then I was at a hotel that I knew but in the dream had closed down. It could be rented out for different events now. It was sad that it had closed and now looked not as nice as it used to. Sad that people could take something good and make it worse.

Then there were aliens in the building. One was chasing another one that was invisible. He had a blue light at the side of his eye that he could scan a room with and find it. He saw it and continued chasing it. I just wanted to go through without being seen, but two aliens caught me. One held me down and or drugged me and the other pressed something into my temple. It was a light like the other alien had. I felt that it would tune me into their thought processes and possible convince me to be like them. I didn't feel anything too different, so I decided to play along so that I could buy time to escape. They didn't feel friendly at first but then they seemed to ease up once I had that thing in my temple. One was an odd shape with a woman's head.. the other a horse type alien.

without love

woke up to this song in my head (just the chorus really):

Doobie Brothers Long Train Running Lyrics


Down around the corner half a mile from here
see them long trains run and you watch them dissapear

without love where would you be now
without love

though i saw miss lucy down along the track
she lost her home and her family and she won t be coming back

without love where would you be now
without love

well the Illinois Central and the Southern Central Freight
you got to keep on pushing mamma you know they're running late

without love where would you be now
without love

well the Illinois Central and the Southern Central Freight
you got to keep on pushing mamma you know they're running late

without love where would you be now
without love

when the pistons keep on turning andt he wheels go round and round
and the steel rails are cold and hard and the moutains they go down

without love where would you be now
without love

change of luck

I was with some friends and their five year old twins. It seemed like the future. We were living in an odd apartment in the city, but a different city foreign to me. The showers were different, so I am thinking we were in a foreign country. They were rushing around as usual getting ready to go somewhere. The kids were all over the place and I kind of just stepped aside while they did there thing. I wasn'g going to be going on the trip. I would be staying at their apartment... our apartment?? It was kind of a dark apartment and there was a shower in the hallway. As they were passing to and fro, my eyes were glazed over looking in the shower. It needed to be cleaned. JLB laughed and asked what I was doing and I said I was watching the hairs at the bottom of the shower drift around as they walked back and forth through the hallway. I figured it would be best that I did nothing proactive until they were all out of the house. JLB was going to leave a bit later to the airport to change a flight. They finally left and I decided to plop down in front of the tv. I fell asleep and then woke up to the door buzzing. I went to look and they had tiny orange glass square windows so you could just see who was at the door. It was JLB back from the airport. I tried to yell so he knew I knew he was there. I could hear that he was on the phone with TB telling her that he was back home trying to get in. I went and got a robe and then let him in. He was wearing red and white striped pjs and an overcoat. He was all hustle and bustle talking about the airport. He was laughing and in good spirits.

Then we were watching a movie with TB. TB had seen it, JLB, not. He was asking questions...I was saying you will see, and TB was telling him some of it. It seemed partially animated and had a squirrel in it.

Then the twins and I and JLB were in a playground swinging. He had pushed the kids and I was swinging on my own. He went to push me and I was a little nervous because I was already swinging high and it felt a little out of control. Then I just went with it and put my arms around the ropes and crossed in front of me and felt more secure. The twins wanted to swing that high too.

Then I was helping my dad's side of the family. clean up after a dinner. I was trying to help and then my step mom said that I had loaded dishwasher all wrong and was reloading it. I wanted to just get out of the kitchen to be out of the way. She said, "no no, we want you here, it will be a long day celebrating." ... easter?

Then the people had left and there was one woman left. She had been hired to talk about metaphysical stuff. She asked if I had received my image from my numbers? I said I missed it. She looked annoyed but then looked it up for me. My image was a??? which meant?? I know in the dream it all made perfect sense. I told her that I had been seeing repeated numbers in my da (1111, 1212, 333, 444, etc.)  She said I was very lucky... now is the time to do things and/or?? something lucky would happen for me.

out of control

I dreamt I was driving on a backroad with a friend (CK). It was dark and I felt out of control. Obstacles in the road kept popping up in my way that I couldn't see until we were close. We came to a dead end of sorts and I tried to stop the car, but the breaks were not working. I think she thought that I had been too tired to drive or on medication/alcohol. I wanted her to know that I wasn't. I just didn't have control of the car or my environment. For some reason there was a need to still move forward at a quick pace even though there were obstacles and things taht could ruin me. I don't know if it was a run away, or more of a need to "get done." Maybe the latter. We finally stopped by smashing into a car. It was on the edge of a hole, and we were on top of another car. If I leaned to my side we would fall in. If we leaned to her side, I thought would be better. She leaned to far and the car over turned. We got out and some guys that had pushed the car over were upset. One said we ran into his dad's car and would need to pay, he was going to call the police. I told him not to worry, I would pay with my insurance. I was afraid of him calling the police because now I was doubting myself on whether I had substances in me or not.

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Then I dreamt that I was at some sort of party, maybe a reunion. It felt like there were people there that were happy to see me, like a guy (WF) that had a crush on me through my school days. It felt like a warm and inviting place. There was a large buffet and I was hungry. I knew I wanted something healthy, but it seemed there was mainly things like cheese cake and other rich foods. People were leaving, I wanted to go home as well. I was supposed to go home with a friend (SK), but she didnt' want to rid ewith me. She thought that I had drank.  I don't think I had, but again was doubting myself due to others. In both dreams I did have a feeling of lack of control, but it wasn't due to chemicals. It was again some pull to do something, to get something done, check off a list. I drove home and she was judgemental about it. At home, was actually a woman's home that was a friend of my mom's when I was young (SL). It always felt safe and nice. It still did, but it seemed people were coming up to the house that made it feel less so.

train porter

I dreamt that I was in a modern type apartment. Something about it felt not settled. Either I had just moved in, but wasn't sure about my "ownership" of the place, or I was moving out... Although everything looked good, it didn't feel good.


Then I dreamt that I was an a railway car. It was like a flat bed cargo car with wooden benches on it for passengers to sit in the open air. My dad, step mom, brother and sister-in-law and I were on our way to Italy or the souther part of Italy. It was a sunny day and the train was moving along the beach. Pretty much directly on it. My brother had two suit cases and wasn't really taking care that they were in a stable spot. The rumble of the train bumped them off of the car on to the beach. Without a thought, I rolled of the train on to the sand to retrieve his suitcase. I was successful, but the train kept going and I would need to catch up with them later. I didn't mind. I felt good that I cought the case and liked the idea of an adventure on my own.

Where I had landed was in an old small village. I walked up to the train station that had the normal train and walked through the little buildings, hoping to find a ticket counter. Each room I entered was some sort of shop. One, a trinket shop, another, a high end sports clothing shop. I went back outside and found a phone booth. I realized I didn't have any money on me as my suitcase was still with my family. I saw next to the phone they had a small bowl with complimentary change to use. I didn't know who to call, and I saw that the bowl had  2 dollar coin in it. I took two of them, feeling a bit guilty, but I would replace the money once I had my things. Instead of making a call, I walked onto a train that was headed to our destination. I was looking around for a porter to tell him my story. It seemed I walked onto a dining car. It was nice with white table cloths. The train started moving and I was half happy that I was on my way and also a little nervous, because I didn't have a ticket. A man walked up behind me and accused me of stealing a tube of toothpaste. He was on the shorter side, dark wavy hair and looked annoyed with me. I went on about why would I steal a tube of toothpaste. I told him a bit of my story and he believed me. He then softened his face a bit, smiled and asked if I would join him. He had the next three days off and would be spending them on the train. He lead me to a suite that he lived in. It had two large rooms. One with a king bed, and one with a queen and two doubles. He removed his uniform and plopped on the queen bed facing the tv. I looked around not knowing what would be appropriate. Sit on the double? or would that be too distant, join him on the queen, or would that be too provocative. I think he knew I was a bit lost. He got up to invite me over, smiled sweetly and said "you know I love you." It felt real and sweet.

scary man, train bed, have to get home

I dreamt that I was in a house. It felt like the farm house my dad had when I was little, but more modern. It was dark out and the house felt empty, not just of people, but of light, furniture, sheet rock, and so on. I could see a man in the back field. He was skinny, naked and old with a balding top and long white beard. It was what you might think father time would look like with a bit of a hunch back. He was coming towards the house, coming for something in the house. I don't know if it was for me, for money, for food, but it felt terrifying. The windows were just big square cut outs in the siding, so there was nothing I could do but run or hide. I was looking for where I could run to, but then it felt like another man was coming from the other side. This one was younger, 30s, and dressed in dark close. He also felt like not a good man.

When I think about the old man now, he felt like details, worries, like they are maggots that eat at your life. The house felt like something that we think can protect us, but is just an illusion.
The younger man, he felt like "now," maybe still dark or scary, but much easier to deal with.

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I dreamt that I was on a train. It was strange, some part of the ride you are in tiny half beds. Half, meaning the length, not the width. So you were all curled up uncomfortably. Next I was able to sleep in a "normal" bed, normally it would be considered uncomfortable, but after the half bed, it felt so nice and like luxury. I felt they almost did this on purpose so that you would enjoy it more. I really didn't care, it just felt good.

The train felt like change, like a new world was about to reveal itself. The half bed felt like self imposed struggle and then the normal bed felt like letting go.

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I dreamt that I was out with some friends or something. It started that I was near my home I grew up in in FG. I lived a block away from a park. A friend of mine (ASh) and I were hungry, so we decided to order take-out Chinese. I thought I remembered where the place was, but didn't. We saw some guys, or they saw us, so one of us asked them where it was. They said they would take us, but I didn't have a good feeling about them. They felt like trouble makers. While she was talking to them, I looked up the address on my phone. I saw it mapped out and remembered where it was then and talked her into ignoring they guys.

Then I was at the house in FG. I was there house sitting or?? and with some other people that I didn't know. They were hipster/punk/?? types... and they wanted to go drive around. I took them over to a house. I think one of them lived there and needed something. It was a house where my exboyfriend (BW) was going to be. They went in... got some things, we talked to some of the people we hadn't seen. It actually felt nice, but then we had to go. I guess my friends took the car, so I went with my ex and his house mates and friend in a big Scooby Doo style van. I had to sit kind of squished up against my ex. It was a little awkward at first because we hadn't seen each other in a while, but then he was nice. It felt nice. I missed him. I realized that I really needed to get back to the house in FG before people came back so that I could make sure it was ok.

My friend (ASh) felt like doubt or the need to attach to someone or something to make it... training wheels, when you don't need them. Taking you where you might not want to go and awkwardly.
The Chinese food activity felt like something to do... something to fill time, so not to feel like I'm missing something.
They guys felt like where I didn't want to go, the evidence of not trusting my gut.
The house in FG felt like old attachments, old ways, old responsibilities that keep my mind tied down.
The friends felt like...nice... they felt like something I would normally not do, but when I let go and did spend time with them, it was positive, nice, ....living.
The other house felt scary.... heart scary, facing something that is uncomfortable.
Then BW, he felt like the thing scary to face, but the fear was all in me, not real, and then was nice when I let go.

tribe and apartment on the canal

I dreamt I was part of a tribe from long ago. We lived near a river and a rain forest. Our clothes were mainly of grass skirt type things, arm bands and head dresses. I did something by accident that offended the tribe. I didn't know it was something wrong to do and I felt like they were mistakenly interpreting my action. They were going to put me to death, and something told me it was going to be long and painful. They didn't fear I would run, as it seemed that people in the tribe accepted their duties and rules. I on the other hand was looking for a way out. I took the boat down the river, but still within the village, looking for someone to help me. An exboyfriend of mine (JBDS) was there and I was asking him for help. I could see that he felt the same as the tribe, not that he didn't care, but the rules were the rules. I kept going down the river hoping that something or someone would pop up in my mind that could help me, even if it was just more humane way of killing me. I was also thinking of how I could possibly flee, but that wasn't ideal. I wanted them to understand that it was a mistake, I just didn't know. As I was rounding a bend in the river to a little island in the middle, I saw that someone, no one I knew, had gone to the elders about my case. I could feel that they had gotten through to them and I had hope.

I dreamt that I was moving into a new apartment. There were three rooms, one larger than the other. I was to get the larger one as I was appointed some sort of manager or something. My exboyfriend (BW) was to be one of my roommates and some large woman who was a bit of an alpha. I was glad that I was appointed and that it wasn't to be questioned, because I think she would have been difficult to deal with otherwise. I saw a bird's eye view of the place first. It said it was a lower lever apartment, which at first I wasn't happy about. But then I saw it was also near water. I walked into the place and it was beautiful. All of the rooms were rather large, with ornate woodwork, domes with intricate moldings, high ceilings, a library and so on. I went to the back of the apartment to the patio and we were on the water. There was some grass and then a canal. It was beautiful, more so than I could have imagined. I felt very lucky and excited to experience this place. 

old boss being nice

I dreamt that I started working for a company I used to work for (bpm). I was kind of excited to get started there, although I felt like I left the job last time being tired and ready to move on. It felt new and fresh as I walked in. Lots of hustle and bustle and young people working there. The boss came in, which I have never been close to and quite honestly avoided when possible. He smiled gently and was asking me to do a project for him. I listened and as he was explaining things he held my hand. It was sweet, like he was fatherly and trying to be nice. Then I went outside to go to another building. It was as if the business was in several houses and they also dealt in real estate (homes). I went into one of the homes and up the stairs to look around. It was a model home and felt fresh, new and light. I walked back down the stairs and two well groomed young  men were there to great me. They said that they were part of my team. I felt good about it and them and continued to walk outside to see more of the place.

roommates

I dreamt that I was moving into a new place and possibly new city. I was to have roommates and it felt sort of like a college campus. Lots of people home during the day, laying in the grass, hanging out and all of them were youthful. The buildings were all clustered together and felt connected in some way. I was walking through the places feeling like I knew where I was going, but in reality had never been there before. I guess I was trusting my instincts. I kept walking and was on the second floor of one building, then walked down to the ground level where some people were partying and then walked down some stairs to a basement type place. I knew my apartment number was 11.11.11. This place felt safe, although a bit messy and dark.

werewolf and star trek spoof

I dreamt that this man that interviewed me recently for a ghost writing position, was a werewolf. It was as though he was sucking the life out of others, but it was out of his control. He was so drawn to his subject and   his ideas that he couldn't see what he was doing.

I dreamt that an ex-coworker of mine (DM) was doing a sort of spoof/commercial video for the company we used to work for. It was using our coworkers in a Star Trek situation. It was pretty funny, but I realized I wasn't in it. At first I was sad possibly or felt not thought of, but then it felt right. I didn't fit in with it.

symphony and drag queens

I waited too long to record this one....

I dreamt that I was with my brother's best friend (L). He had a job for me.... in the dream I realized that I shouldn't worry about which career I choose. It was like playing one note on a piano over and over. Instead,  my life could be like a symphony, playing many different notes.

I dreamt that I was with my sister in law. We were having some sort of mulling spice drink and were free of the need to have alcohol or other things to relax.

I dreamt that I was in a room full of drag queens. It was a documentary of sorts. They were all sitting on the sofa. Something about the sofa.... sitting, waiting, felt like death or going towards demise.