the glow

I dreamt that I was with a group of people, some men, some women. Some of the people were from my past and some from my present. Some I thought I barely knew, yet they made an impression on me and some I was involved with more deeply. We were all sitting around quite closely, draped over sofas and all a bit snuggled together. It was as though we were all talking to each other, but didn't really have to say anything. A certain look, a pat with a hand and so on, told it all. It was as though we were all telling each other that we loved and cared a lot for each other, but separately. It was nice.

Then I was on a grassy path, walking through fields. There was a tree and around it were some red flowers, some orange berries and some other colors that made it look beautiful and I wanted to stop and take a photo. I was crouching down to get a good angle and a guy came up behind me. No one I knew, almost a bit annoying for some reason. He said, you might want to focus on where the sun is shining, where the glow was. I was taking the photo in the shade.I was upset at first or my ego was, but then humbled myself. I could tell he only meant well and I would take a better photo because of it.




 

golden nugget

I dreamt that a friend of mine (PC) and myself and a friend of her's (S), were traveling. She was  looking for clues to something... like each clue led her to somewhere else. She was carrying something like a gold nugget, but it had writing on it. We were at some event at a cemetery or something and she spoke to a woman that made her feel like she was on the right track. Then she was in the cemetery and found a matching stone to her gold nugget thing. She started digging and she had the final confirmation regarding being on the right path and something about a son... it seemed as though it was her son although she doesn't have one, but maybe a son like relationship or someone from a past life that was helping her in this one.

skin

I dreamt that I went into this large house. It was dark, with darkened raw wood ceilings and walls. It was spacious with vaulted ceilings, yet it was ? complicated in design or where things were put. There was a woman there and she felt dark as well. She was focused to the point that things outside her almost didn't exist, except for what she wanted to see or focus on. She didn't even see me come into the house, although I didn't try to be seen.  There was a large box made of the same dark raw wood in a room. She went over to it and opened it with purpose. There was a woman in there soaking in water, a fearful woman. She put her hands on the top of the woman's head and split the skin and peeled it off of the woman in one piece. Something about the soaking making it easier. It was awful. I couldn't see the skinless woman, but I could feel her fear and her weakness, and then the strength and uncaring of the other woman which was worse. She then put the other woman's skin on stretching it up over her arms like she was putting on a snug sweater and was completely covered.

razor's edge

I dreamt that I had given my friend the dvd, "The Razor's Edge." I had given him the 1946 version, as I already knew that he liked the newer one with Bill Murray. I was just wondering if he had seen it yet. I preferred the older one, so I was hoping he could see what I saw in it.

prostitute management

I dreamt that I was a new manager at a prostitution house. I had high energy, as a I saw a lot of things that could be improved and had many ideas. Not that I liked the industry, but I saw where things could be improved both for the clients and the workers. I told them we should set different price points as some men didn't want to have a full experience, some men just wanted some pretty company and so on. This would be better for the women as they would know what their expectations were going in and maybe would have to perform less and we would get more customers who maybe would normally shy away from this sort of thing.

odd..

river

I dreamt that I saw a friend of mine, like in a dream. She was in a blank space, so I was just seeing her is-ness... the way she was, flowed, energy? I then reviewed myself and felt I didn't have the same flow. I noticed I had a metal bar was screwed to the top of my head and it curved over the back of it down my back with screws into my spine. Out from the bar, were side bars, almost like ribs going around to about the front middle of my arms. So part of me was experiencing and free and the other wasn't. It felt rigid, I couldn't breath or stretch. I wanted out. I imagined the top screw unscrewing and it worked. the bar retracted into the middle bar on my back and then the side bars retracted in and it was gone, poof! I realized I was a little girl.

Then I was in water. I was moving in the boat trying to make it go and it wasn't getting anywhere. As soon as I relaxed, the boat was going down the stream, then it stopped. I got out and went down a green forested path. There were stone stairs at the end. I felt like there was something I should do, was supposed to do, was wanting to do. I decided to go up the stairs, almost in fear of something would happen, or more not happen if I didn't. As I was on the stairs, I looked to the right and saw more stairs. Should I climb those? It felt like I would just be in the same set of stairs only hirer. I looked over the edge of the first set of stone stairs. I realized I was on a cliff and that I should jump. Really? Couldn't I die? but it was the only thing left to do. I jumped expecting a splat at the end. I ended up only dropping four feet. I was ok. It wasn't as high as I thought. I made it out to be way scarier than it was in reality.

I brushed myself off and water was coming. I was in a boat again and drifting down a river. I started going faster and faster and even holding on to the edge of the front of the boat and putting my face out there in the wind and spray open and ready for what was next. I noticed as the boat was going, I was getting older. I went from girl to womanhood. The boat stopped in some sand. I got out of the boat and stepped on warm sand cover in fir tree greenery. I could feel the warm white sand under my feet. It felt beautiful, like the warmth of love. The greenery felt nice too, but in a different way. I walked deeper into this island and saw a large marble Roman type structure. It was completely empty, clean, a fine foundation, but nothing and no one. I walked up into it and wasn't sure what to do. It was cold, I felt cold. I saw at the end of the room that there were more stairs, same number as the stone stairs. I walked up those and realized there was nothing to do there, no where to go again, so I came back down to the main room. I could feel a presence behind me. It was up on the landing of the stairs I just came down. It felt dark, not like it was a threat, but dark. I thought, is this a shadow experience? do I need to look it in the eye, knowing now that "it" was an angel. No... I didn't need to look it in the eye. I didn't need to run from it either. Even thought it was an angel, it wasn't there to be light and sweet and soft. I kept walking because I was questioning whether or not I should leave this place. Just as I was coming to the conclusion of possibly no, the angel was right in front of me. I couldn't see its face, just that he had dark hair down to his shoulders, a bit scraggly. Although his gown was white, his wings and face were dark and I couldn't distinguish his features and didn't feel it was important too. He was showing me no... I needed to stay. Not knowing what to do with myself in this empty building, I sat down in the middle of the floor and dropped my shoulders and was resolved that I would just see what would happen next. I saw time passing, and red woven rug appeared under me, a warm wooden table next to me with vases, candles, plates, more decorations on the walls, furniture, people, activity and warmth. It felt like a life. It felt good.

Then the water came, calmly and I was off again flowing down a river. The water came to a whirlpool and I was spinning around feeling I should try and get out. I flapped my arms trying to swim, but the more I struggled, the more I would sink down in the water. I let go. I was able to just watch and experience the spinning, the different things I was seeing and enjoy it. The whirl finally let me free and I was at the edge of a river again. This time on soil instead of sand and the same greenery under my feet.

might makes right

I dreamt of a man from the 1940s. He was Irish and it felt like war time. He was singing a little chant...

"We all should have the same values,
You should be like me,
Then might makes right
and we must fight
and make an amputee."


It felt like a song of irony... showing how stupid it all is, we will never all be alike..
and to impress then on another could only be done by force
and then we lose.
 

looking for an apartment

I dreamt that I was at a department store with my new coworker DA. We doing something wrong in the parking lot, something we wouldn't want anyone else to know about, but I'm not sure quite what it was.We went into the store, bought some flowers and other items and as we came out, there was a man in a photo booth that was playing with some photos and film. I looked over and realized he had filmed us and I felt panicked. I went straight to him and asked for the photos. He was holding on to them defensively but with a feeling of ownership. I somehow threatened him enough to get them back. I felt there was not going to be a "no" from him. I wouldn't have stood for it.

Then I dreamt that I was looking for an apartment. I decided to go ahead and look at my old place in a neighborhood I wasn't happy living in due to the distance from the city. I was partly excited though as it was a great space with two story ceilings. As I was going there, I ran into JL (friend from Arizona). It was nice to see him. He looked good, his hair looked a little different. He was on his way to a wedding of his best friend's. His friend looked tortured and stressed. I felt almost that he would have rather married JL then his bride to be. 

vampires

I dreamt that I was a vampire, but there were levels .... There was the upper crust, a middle level and then the lowly vampires that were more like slaves. I was in the middle range. I found out somehow that one of the upper level vampires was after me. He was going to drain me, which meant death.

Real life... started a new job... hmmmm

Elvis

I dreamt that I was at a party of sorts. A guy that reminded me of a guy I went to grade school with (DG - who reminded me of young Elvis in a southern boy sense), asked me to dance. It was an amazing feeling being with him. It felt like pure love.... not romantic, or physical ... like an amazing connection, very peaceful.

seagreen ladybugs

I dreamt that RVB was coming to visit as a surprise. I was in an upstairs apartment. My curtains were open and he and a couple of BW's friends peeked in. I wished that I had closed the window and locked the door. I really didn't want company. They came in and all were nice. I was to go with them all to a party that my friend AS was having. I was kind of happy to see her as I hadn't seen her baby yet. There were many people there, all nice. I went outside for a second. Ladybugs had landed on my shirt sleeve, a pale sea green one with black dots and a lavender one. They were pretty and unique... almost felt like pets. I went back inside. I  could find RVB. I figured he was tired from his flight from the Netherlands and so was taking a nap. I saw his clothes laid out on a bed and realized he was showering. I went back in the room with the others and he finally came out all clean. We were to go to an address where we would stay during his visit. It was in a different part of town. AS seemed to know the place and people that lived around there. I never did see the baby.

I panicked. I realized I had missed a dinner (one I am actually having tonight) do to all of the commotion. I didn't even call him, so he must have been waiting at the restaurant. I didn't have one good excuse. I woke up actually feeling panicked that it really happened.

broken stairs

I dreamt that I was in a house with many girls/women. Our rooms were at the top of the house that had many floors. The stairs seemed to be broken to get to the top. We had to try to get ready in a lower floor without our things or climb up from the outside. There was lots of hustle and bustle as there is with young women. I think we were close, I think we were having a good time.... kind of vague.

horse buggy

I dreamt I was at a house. I think at first it felt like mine and then no. There was an underlying stress feeling like I had to be out at some time, yet at the same time I had a feeling of freedom? power?

I was cleaning or doing something and some friends came over. Then they were gone an older man was there. Older... maybe late 50s early 60s. He was very fit, had on red shorts and a red running jacket. It seems he was interested in me. I think normally I would have been put off, partly by his age, partly his clothing... but he was very alive, very energetic, very excited about life and what he was talking about. Nothing about him seemed old. I liked him.

Then it was time to go. I got in a horse carriage and was on my way. It was a bit more like a caravan of people. We were all going through the mountains. I think others were in normal cars or vans. I was in the horse and carriage with a couple of others. I was able to stand outside the carriage like one of the men who waited on the rich did. We were driving in the mountains along cliffs. It was exhilarating and beautiful to be able to see from this vantage point. I was a little scared, but I had my elbow locked around a pole, so I knew I was safe. Then a semi truck was driving in the opposite lane. I needed to pull my body in the carriage but I wasn't fast enough. I looked up at the driver... he knew it would crush me if I didn't pull in. He looked down and smiled. Not an evil smile, but like a grin... of "I know you are there, this is uncomfortable, I won't hurt you.... but you need to experience this.... you'll get through it."  An all knowing grin.

massage

I dreamt that I was with my new coworker, DA. She and I has both made an appointment for a massage. Instead of a spa type place, it seemed to be at a hospital or clinic. I think there were lots of rules to follow, forms to fill out. We were not sure if we were in the right place or signed up for the right time. She was going back and forth out loud about all the different scenarios maybe we should have done instead, although what we had done might be just fine. I decided to change the conversation to her resume. I wanted to help her find a new job.

transfer students

I dreamt that I was in a building with many international folks. They seemed about college age, but more mature, most likely because they were foreign, travelers and so on. I had been through all of this before, so I was watching while they all set up their apartments and shared kitchen spaces. They were all being very organized, getting systems in place of where they would put their produce, seasonings and so on. I told one of them with a smirk, "you know.... this isn't going to stay this way. I've seen it. By the end of the term it will look like this... " there just happened to be a photo of a past resident's kitchen that was all a'muck. He smiled... as though he was thinking about all the adventures this year would hold for him and how it would change the kitchen... and him. They all used a store downstairs for their groceries. I think it was a little Asian store that just sold the bare necessities. I had been going to a larger store, but thought... how nice to just go to the bottom of the building and visit this store and make relationships with the vendors, even if the products were low quality and the business shady. I was looking forward to this year... although I felt not part of them completely.

Dan Ackroyd

I was at a friend's house (JLash). We were going to go out with friends and  his parents who were all nice. There was an antique odd minivan out back. I guess it was mine? We were about to leave and I saw that someone had stolen the van. Then I friend of JL's was being a jerk.. he didn't like me.

Then I was at another friend's JWM's. There were a lot of people there. We were going to curl up together. I was telling him some sob story about the van being stolen, my job being lost. It turned him off. Then a gal friend of his showed up, some blond. She was funny and he wanted to focus on here. Then he was showing photos of when he was little. She must have known him then as she was commenting on the photos. 

Dan Ackroyd showed up. He was nice to me.

red hair

I dreamt that I was taking a class at a community type college. The rooms seemed a bit dated and hodge podge. We were sat in a U shape around the room and it seemed to be then end of a term. I looked up and saw Elvis' ghost. He was singing. I wasn't sure if he was one of those ghosts that is just an instant in a life replaying... or a thinking/feeling ghost. I decided I would send him thoughts and see if I could get his attention. I got it and we started singing together. Then I was sitting and my professor, who was really my chiropractor (RH) said that he would like to trim my hair. The ends seemed like they needed it so I agreed. He ended up dying my hair a purply red. It wasn't me.... I was upset. I knew that I could go back, but it felt Hercules-esque in that I would lose something of myself by losing my normal hair color. I left the class...

I realized I had left something in there, so I went back up from the outside of the building using the stair case, one that was rarely used. I used a key and got in and another class was being held. I planned to just go in, get my bag and turn around. The instructor, a middle aged brunette, stopped me and said I didn't belong in that class. I tried to tell her that I was in the class before it, but she didn't seem to understand... this was a Jewish class and I didn't belong. I got my bag and left back down the stairs. I sat there for a second going through my bag. It had old dishes and things that I realized I didn't want anymore. I was looking forward to getting rid of them as I felt like they just weighed me down.

Then I went to walk home. I was worried a  bit about my hair and what GH would think of it. I was living in a small home behind a home, which was owned by Oprah. She was nice in letting me live there and gave me a tour of the place, apologizing for the small size. I thought it was just perfect. I had seen it as small initially and realized it had another set of rooms that I hadn't seen. I had my old dog Sophie with me and she said, just no peeing in the house. I think she did pee.

Then I thought I saw some poo too, but it was just an old paper bag rumpled up on the floor.

oddities

I dreamt that I was on a road trip with some friends (JP and RB). We drove down one road that had a sign that said such and such town/village... it ended up being a dead end and there was just one home at the end saying it sold antiques (that they had many shops etc.).. It ended up being just one run down house with trinkets. I looked around for fun.. found some old items. It was kind of fun. Then one girl that we were not with said.. (as though this pile of stuff was mine to take)... are you sure you want none of it? I saw a few nice items in there. Once you look for sure, then I will take what you don't like.

I saw a pretty broach... at least I thought it was one. I wasn't sure of the design, but it looked nice. I couldn't figure out how to secure it onto cloth, but could tell it was still in tact. Then I saw several kinds of nativity scenes. I thought jackpot. My step mom collects them and she had probably never seen any of these, they were so unique. The girl was right, there were treasures. Part of me felt bad if I was taking something she liked...

black clay

I dreamt that there was a new tram being built. It seemed to be able to take you anywhere. It wasn't on ground level. It went over all obstructions and even out to the farming areas. It was close to being done, minus the business end of how to charge and ticketing, so it would be free for now. They encouraged people to ride it saying the more that you would, the faster and more efficient it would be. I was out in a farm area and decided to give it a try. It was so handy and so nice to have. I was looking forward to new opportunities with it. I went from the tram, which seemed to be high in the sky, to a home. It was a large studio type place. I loved it and said that I would like to live in a place like this. Someone else went on and said yes, if you added a room here and there, but I disagreed. I loved it as is.  There were many of us in the room and we were experimenting with a new invention. One guy tried it first. He held some black clay in his hand an kneaded it for a bit, then he sat in a chair, some lights would go buzzing and flashing on a screen that he sat in front of, the chair would spin, and out of his hand would jump a character, a live character. It seemed to have some of the originators personality... or something from him and it danced around. We all decided to try it. We all sat down at the same time with our black clay and spun in our chairs. Out of my hand jumped a character with a very large head and small body. Everyone laughed jokingly at it. I said Oh... it must be from my memory of those goofy sketches people do at fairs making a characture of you  with a large head and small body. The next time we were going to put more though into it...

kayaking

I was in a nice hotel in some foreign place. I think my dad and I were on a trip or maybe it was my friend (BB). I had just realized I needed to check out that day at noon and it was almost noon. I had a TV on up in the corner. I think it was playing the news. I went to the shower which was in the corner of the room. I reached in to get something I had left in there and accidentally turned the shower on and got wet. Not a happy shock. I decided I had to hurry and pack and get out of there. I stopped to look out the hotel window and saw a hill of grass and wood beyond that. Why hadn't I gone out there. I wanted a bit of an adventure ... some nature... It was just a walk to get there. I'm not sure if it was laziness? did I think too much about the how's and when's?  Next time.

I was thinking to myself, I needed to tell people about the peach ice cream I had near the hotel. It was amazing and it felt like a find.

Then I was kayaking, I think with my dad. We were having a good time. I think my step mom showed up too.  We were going along really nicely and I thought I really needed to do this more often. We looked over at a long kayak type boat. It was full of men in blue uniforms, it looked as though they were from the civil war. They were.... They were kayaking next to us, but almost in another bit of water. They were in snow and the water was freezing and their kayak was barely keeping their heads above water. I felt bad for them and lucky that I wasn't kayaking in that cold of water. They all looked a little blue.

We continued on and I looked down at my paddles that looked more like fins. They were flopsy. I saw in the water out front a different paddle end that was more stiff. I was going to toss it and after a second look and thought ... I thought that would be a much better paddle to kayak with. It would be a faster and more controlled ride.