old house and death

Hmm had a dream I was at some sort of camp... just finding out where to live and be etc. I didn't feel safe there or like I could trust anyone.

Another dream. I was visiting a friend, maybe even going to live with her for a bit. It wasn't the best feeling. I felt out of place. She and her husband had bought my mom's house that I grew up in for most of my childhood. I felt funny parking outside and I didn't have full control of the car. Then I went inside and they were showing me where to put things and so on. They had done a lot of remodeling and added on to the house, but I could still see some parts of the old house. At one point it made me cry. I'm not sure if I was happy or sad. It just made me emotional. Then I was laying back somewhere... lots of other people lived there.... and I sort of was sleeping or thinking with my eyes closed. I could see black and then a light wave and I felt high or dizzy. Later I came to and the skinny Italian that lived there said.. you die twice. So I guess I was thinking, well his English is bad, maybe he meant I passed out twice. But then it was that I wasn't breathing and was "dead" twice and then revived. Strange.

Caves and Giant meat

Hmmm....

So the first dream I was in some cave.. it was all men, I was a man. There was some guy yelling at the front, but I knew he was asking all of us if we had ?? a certain something he wanted. I went back to my little nook in the cave an brought out a long piece of meat. I was going to give it to him if it would calm him down. He got what he needed before I brought the meat to him so I quickly turned around. I had actually wanted it for my meal. I went to back to my area and started cooking it on my little fire. I had a little dog (maybe a puppy) hidden there by the fire. I had to keep it close to it because it was the only area that was hidden by stone and I didn't want the other men to kill it. It was really sweet and I liked it but I don't think I realized how much the fire was too hot for him.

Then I was in a more present time, but not in a way. The clothing etc. was in the present time, but we lived by old society standards. I lived in a large home where there were ?? not sure if kings/queens, but they were something important. We (my mother and I) were relatives, but on a lower level. We lived with them and nicely enough, but you always felt the need to do as you were told, to stay out of the way and not to ask for much. It was very frustrating for me. I could see the others my age running around being brats. They really were not good for much. My mother had blamed ourselves for something that had gone wrong so we gave up a gift we were recently given to the family. It infuriated me. I was trying to tell her, but she wouldn't listen. They barely noticed the gift or the sentiment, so why waste one of our few treasures? She was busy cooking and I was outside looking about and noticed a giant and I mean GIANT pan had landed over out outdoor table, balanced by some trees and part of the roof. No one else seemed to care, so I went up and looked inside. It was full of meat. Again, GIANT slabs of cooked ham, sausages and so on. Giant meaning larger in circumference than a car. I was very excited like we had found hidden treasure. I wanted to quickly wrap it up and put it in the cellar to keep cool. Again, no one seemed to care. So I busied myself with getting paper to wrap it and cut it down to size... the other young ones were studying, looking for something to eat and so on. Not sure of the rest.. their father was involved somehow and I had some connection with the boy relative.

film like

Hmm I'm not remembering much. I know that I was watching and was at the same time this woman, very dainty with dark brown hair. I felt I was in the past but at the same time way in the future. Maybe kind of a post apocalypse type thing... where you start from square one. I felt like I was doing ok and knew my way around the ways of things but then all of a sudden I was captured and tied up, high in a town square, in my rags. It was cold, dark and rainy.. and then the colors were like it was being filmed like the movie 300. And the "camera" moved up... closer and closer to me but through my legs ( I was spread eagle) and closer than what a normal person could see..... odd

cowboy theme....

I had some dreams... just don't remember them (I slept in)

I remember one of them though... I was with a cowboy type and he was driving a carriage very fast..... through the night. He had figured a way to break the carriage in half and continue on with the horses to lose the people chasing us. .... that's about it.

germany

Ok.... I had a dream before this...

driving with someone to somewhere..... large vehicle...? ... some stressed involved

some people and I had been taking a class. The class was ?? not sure, but there was a next level. Everyone was asking me if I had bought the book yet and kind of without even thinking, I was looking to buy the book, a little stressed about it and so on. I realized I could have bought the book in the U.S. for much cheaper and here it would be expensive and hard to find. I was reading up in my book, looking at emails and other literature I had bought since in some advanced teachings. In all of the fuss and busyness of looking for the book... I realized that I didn't stop to think if I really wanted to even take the class. I didn't... so I stopped.

Then it went into me talking to other people that I knew back home that had tried to live in Germany. This gay couple I know.... they are super positive, try anything people. They came here and said... no, we wanted to go back home. It just wasn't a happy place for them. Then another friend he tried it. He works in the construction biz but in the dream in architecture.. he said... hmm it is too much for him. He said they are very strict with everything, which is good. He said you have good rules, which make things easier, but he said that it goes into your life. That if you joke about an architect etc.. or are lazy in your home life, and they find out, they said it reflects in your work reputation, and then if that happens, good architects won't want to work with you and if that happens, then you don't get to move up because you are always at the same level and never challenged by good architects.

Then I watched this tiny short woman. She was trying to make it in Germany. She is meeting people, getting out and so on. I think she is a hair dresser. She tries so hard, too hard. But she doesn't care. I am not sure what her original focus was, but now it has come down to just winning. It is not a good feeling to be around her. At one point there is a song playing and she is dancing with a couple she knows. A girl and her Swedish boyfriend. In the song there are words.. "take my hand" the woman puts her hand out to the swedish guy... she is wanting to go to Sweden.

hmmm.... less visuals in this one... more feelings...

next one in germany

ever

Buhdda boy

Last night I dreamt about a friend of mine that went off to a Buddhist monastery for a break in life. In my dream I was walking back to my high school (which is something I seem to have in dreams sometimes). I was initially looking for a parking spot. For some reason I didn't want to drive far. I found a spot, got out, was walking towards the front of the school and there was my friend. He looked much older.... lines on his face, crepe-ing skin, and he was wearing draped clothing and seemed to have a bit of a scraggly white beard. He had his kind of smile on his face... more with his eyes than with his mouth. He looked exhausted, happy, and sad all at the same time. I said "you're back!" I was really happy to see him... and really happy to see him happy. He took me to show me his room he was creating. While at the monastery, he (and maybe them) made a wooden alter of sorts...very nice but plain. He was humble about it and said it had been through a lot, so at one time looked better. A coworker of ours was there and kind of controlling... wanting to label what "this" was... his experience, the room he was creating, the reasons, what he should do next, and so on... I wanted her gone (mind you in reality, a very sweet person).

A previous dream... hmmm I was walking.. but seemed like I walked there before in the dream. I was trying to get home I think, which was a long walk. I was happy, because I was going to get to walk through this mountain area with rock formations. I hadn't been there in a long time. I walked through and the beautiful rock formations were all painted. Not by graffiti artists, but by a land developer. The entire rock was covered in orange and blue shapes and the land around it had new housing that was in between mobile homes and a house. Poor quality... gave me a sick feeling. I walked down the hill and then was with a girlfriend. I wasn't sure where to go.. and I don't think I had any money with me. We walked onto this car wash thing. It was part carnival ride, part car wash. Big and colorful. It was next to this restaurant, more of a fast food type place, so we slid down and went in. There were two men in there who we ended up knowing. One was Hugh Jackman (there is a wolverine poster on the way to my apartment ;)) and I'm not sure who the other one was. They were fighting, verbal and a bit... hmm not with fists but more with their feelings and anger. Hugh then somehow was my boyfriend. So I was waiting for him to be done so we could leave, but there was a nice feeling of not having to worry about anything because he was there watching out for me.

Rozen

Hmm in one dream I was repeating in my head... Rozen Plantz (in which a voice would say "kitty") Doesn't like plantz (and a voice would say Katze)...

I had another dream, I was in place/house/yard living with people. I was in the backyard, I think we were planning to do something illegal. My purse washed away and it had all of my money in it. I asked for someone to catcht it as it was flowing down the mud and they were not quick enough. I ran to the edge of the land where it had fallen and there was a steep jump into water. I was willing to do it, but then my dad said, watch out for the aligator! I looked and there was a huge alligator fighting with a gorilla. It had actually finally killed the gorilla that was down there. I decided not to jump. Then I was walking with my dad and stepmom. They were planning their wedding. We were looking at the places to do it and Charlotte was liking this one place. My dad said.. but I thought you liked the white house. She said.. oh I do.. we'll do it there. There was a party, people were drinking , eating, dancing... I was doing something and my mom was rude to me. I asked her to apologize and she wouldn't and other people thought it was mean of me to ask her to apologize.

Then someone was talking about this girl.. she wanted a different guy and was trying to woo him... they said it from of a guy who thought that the girl liked him. He was hurt... etc. The guy she really liked was hiding behind a couch.

Xmas themes

I think sometime last night after the 3rd or 4th wake up... I realized I would be moving out of this apartment on Dec. 22... so I would need to move right before Christmas... so why the dreams.

First I had a wee one where I was looking in one of the flower stores in germany for a small christmas tree. I was deciding if it was a good idea or not... I guess I decided not because the dream ended.

Then I had a dream... first it was in current times. It was more like I was observing a story between these people, not sure which but there were lovers, friends, relatives... then something happens and I'm walking through the snow... I'm am back in time and there is a cabin in the woods and the people are getting together for Christmas. The skinny Italian character in the present showed up last in this one, and with a british accent, with long hair and a leather daniel boone type jacket, and now with a southern accent. I, as the observer, could only stand at the door to peer in to what they were doing. There was a fire crackling, fur rug on the floor, people cozy in seats around the fire, food against one wall.. I looked at some of it and was hungry, so grabbed a couple of flakes of bread that had fallen off when the bread was cut. (In actuality my stomach had been waking me up all night with noises). An old man saw me and then offered me the bread crumbs. The people were gone now and I came in. I think I was going to sleep there or something but then I looked outside. I said.. Look at the moon! Oh my god, it is huge! He looked and agreed. It also had a picture on it. I was looking for something to put on... bras? I realized they were not mine, although pretty... and decided I was fine in what I was wearing, and went outside. The thing I thought was the moon, ended up being a large purple gray flying saucer type thing but it looked like a raft. Then the actual moon was still huge and very bright with some teen pop stars picture on it.

Another shorter dream... not xmas related... was I was just finishing up at the gym and changing. I saw that I had dropped my running jacket and picked it up and picked up two. The other was not mine, but very nice. I put it on the bench in my dressing room, now feeling guilty that I picked it up. Then I went to try on mine... and it wasn't mine either. :(

nuns, baby penquins and pigs

Ok.. misc. dreams last night

One I was with a friend.... we were at a fancy auction of sorts. Her in-laws have money. So someone was holding up this platter. It looked like trash to me but she exclaimed... "Oh it is a alkdjf!" and walked over to it saying how much she loved that artist. I could see she was getting approval from the in-laws for this, so I was happy they were getting along. I walked over to the next table and there were a couple of nun dolls. I thought.. I'll put my card on these. My step mom collects them and I could get these for her.. Then I picked one up and the nuns habit fell off... I put it back on and I saw the doll was only $2. I was relieved and at the same time confused why the doll was there. A nun and her little nun friend walked by while I was holding the doll. She looked at me as though I shouldn't be holding it, let alone be interested. I explained that my step mom used to be a nun and that now she isn't but she collects the dolls (in reality she was not a nun, just catholic). The alpha nun said with her head up as if she was wearing a neck brace, "she couldn't keep the focus (or something like that) huh?" I said "No, she really wanted to be a nun, but she didn't know herself well enough. And when she knew herself, she realized she wasn't one." and I walked away... Then I was at a work type place. We were in a building but one wall opened to the street. It was someone's birthday and everyone was supposed to go to this new trendy place for lunch. We went and the gimmick was that it was kind of a dessert swap. Every seating had two desserts. Mine were two gooey chocolate doughnuts. Then you were supposed to take one bite.. and then everyone moved to the right... and you take another bite and so on... I wasn't craving sweets and so I sat to the side where kids could sit and looked at the coloring books.

Then I had another dream. I was walking along a neighborhood street, but I think I was in Sweden (no idea what these look like). I was going to look for people that would let me walk their dogs so i could make some money. I was walking along and I saw up some stairs to a house, 2 baby penguins. They didn't look like baby penguins look. They were to balls of feather with yellow beaks sticking out. They seemed to give off an air that they knew what they were doing, but with the door cracked open and how they fumbled down the stairs, I could tell they escaped. I picked them both up and looked through the door... a middle aged couple (the new middle aged... late-ish 40s, early 50s) was inside. He was short and roundish with dark hair and a pleasant demeanor, she was tall and thin with short auburn hair, still pretty, but with more formality than her hubby. They looked over and saw I had the penguins and said oooh bring them in .. (as if it wasn't a big deal they escaped, but they were still thankful). The man looked out the door and tiny kittens were coming up too. He was saying how nice his cats were. Then one hairless was crawling up. I said.... are those tattoos???? The cat was covered in them. He said, no... I have a friend airbrush those on. S0, somehow I knew them in the past and they invited me in.. said I could stay, gave me a bed to sleep in and so on.. I went to go sleep in the bed and an exboyfriend was there. He crawled into bed with me and started to snuggle.. then I realized the bed was full of his computer, books, and so on.... I said .. these need to go or I go. So they went. Then I snuggled up to him and he said.. no. he doesn't like that... So I turned around and he snuggled up to me anyway.

Then I left the bed.. I was in the house but it somehow grew, had more people in it a couple I know, two little kids I don't, etc. The boyfriend of the couple was playing with that blow up clay.

Making little bombs etc... lighting things on fire. Then he would keep putting one by me to watch me run... he would laugh .. and then he would pull the wires out in the end. This last one he didn't get to in time and it blew a slash across his face. I said..it might not be bad but we need to get to the ER. Mind you.. the whole house of people had been milling around and the whole time it was a nice loving atmosphere. So we all start heading for the cars and I walk down some stairs and inside the house is an outside... a huge outside... it is a marsh area with a creak of sorts... The sun was just coming up and it was beautiful so I went to get my camera real quick to take a photo... then I could see the little kids in the water and the light reflecting on them , so wanted a nice pic, not that I could hold the camera still for the photo... it kept getting blurry (and when I looked at the screen I was taking a photo of someone with a white background adn they were wearing a white shirt with black suspenders and black pants... still blurry). Then the kids were running and saying I needed to run. I looked up and all I saw were deer in the creek... I was trying to take photos of them but they ran (I thought due to me). But then all these pigs were coming... I thought.. well then I will just take photos of the pigs.... Then water buffalo, ... so I would just take pictures of them.. they were cute.. Then they started charging at me.. so I ran to where the pigs were.. but they attacked me... full on biting me. One bit down on my arm and wouldn't let go so I ran and hit it and its head fell off and its body was in pieces. I didn't realize pigs disassembled so easily.. .

Cell phone soap pumps...

I had lots of dreams last night...

One I was in a new town. I thought I knew the streets better than I did.. I was walking around at night and then went into a grocery store for something to do... then it was a restaurant and I was trying to find the exit. I ended up in a blue truck with a mexican guy who worked at the restaurant. Apparently I had too much to drink at one point and gave him the idea that I liked him. Oops. So then I was asking him to take me home etc.. and it kind of faded from there.

Then I was at another restaurant in a different dream. I was going to meet this woman I had met in a class. We were going to discuss figuring out your mind versus your gut. I was excited to talk about this with her, but then she said she had plans with someone else and I would have to meet with her later.

Then another dream I was living with my brother and his friend (I lived with both of them about 19 years ago)... The one guy was getting frustrated with his cell phone. I asked him to show it to me and at first it was tiny and metallic pink. Then it seemed to grow into something that looked like a children's toy spaceship (still pink) with a clear pump on top. He said..."yeah... it reminds me of a soap pump." Then he started pumping it as if it was a soap dispenser and I started laughing at how ridiculous the phone looked and then I started laughing at my own laugh because it didn't sound like me.

hair dresser, surgery and mini horses

My last dream, I was at a hopital. I was there to get some sort of odd surgery on my heart, although there was nothing wrong with my heart. It was more of a preemptive surgery. I was pretty calm about it. I went in and my doctor was the one I had when I was little, Schluderman. When I was young he was very straight, very serious, never broke a smile. A slim blond man with a colorless face that smelled like soap. In this dream he was a little more "creative." He still didn't smile, but he was into "alternative" medicine. He and his nurse were telling me what to expect pre-surgery, giving me a little plastic device and telling me what to do with it and at what time. Then they were off behind the curtain to another patient. They told me the information so quickly that I didn't remember half of it. I looked down at the plastic device they gave me and I was thinking... I think they wanted me to pee in this... but today or tomorrow at 9? So I went through the hospital looking for him. I found him and my old boss in a room. She was getting the surgery first. I was trying to ask her what I should do next, but she was already gone on whatever they gave her to kill the pain. She was saying "those XX really worked.... I wasn't stressed at all!" etc. Then I looked around and there was a big spider on something I brushed off. Schluderman made a face. Then some baby pigs walked in the room, chickens, gray monkeys... I looked over to my friend Penny and she said..."oh... don't you remember. He works with animals, it is a new thing. It worked so great with me." The animals were supposed to be part of the treatment and heal you. I was like... "oooh... " really hoping that wasn't any part of my surgury. A nurse came over to me knowing what I wanted and said.. yes.. you should pee in that now.. your surgury isn't for another couple hours, but it is ok. Then she openned it to find that device was much much smaller than it looked and I had no idea how I was going to accomplish it. I decided to go back to the hotel where I was staying to complete the task. I had time. As I was leaving the room I could hear a little old lady talking about the cute little mice. She came through the door and had a little mouse in her hand (that actually looked like a little poodle). She swung back a curtain and put the poodle mouse back in its cage. I saw other little animals inside. They were all "dressed" like poodles. There was a tiny horse too... think the size of a plastic horse. I took that one for my walk back to the hotel. Since that is what the animals were there for, comforting. Then as I walked back.. I was outside and it looked like nyc, with the large sidewalks and tall buildings. Then I woke up...

Before that I dreamt that I was in some sort of school. A hairdresser I used to have was teaching a class there, but on photography. I was barely in the class or doing any of the work, so I wasn't feeling like I would pass. All of the other people were looking on some wall. It looked like the old report cards I would get in junior high before the official one came out... with hand written grades and observations. I looked for my name and I had an A. I went back to find the instructor (Scott).. and he was in bed in the classroom. I got in with him and took a nap. Then he had to go and I went to get my pants and he had left all of his clothes there... I was folding them up to take to him and .....

Solitary Man

woke up to Neil Diamond's "solitary man"..... I'm really not needing that as my motto this morning.

Dreamt... will have to see if it comes back to me .... I think there may have been a dog or some friendly animal that could think... that is about it.

Neil Gaiman... Killer dream

Ok.. I usually don't dream about torture or murder, but I read a short story by Neil Gaiman last night... "Queen of Knives" and I had a dream where I was the killer's "helper."

I was in a larger two story apartment (kind of posh) and there was a man in the place. I knew of him as a "boss." I needed to follow orders and stay on his good side. Part of me felt that this was all until I found a way to escape, so it wasn't that I was loyal to this person. I was following orders out of fear.

I was in the living area and organizing his things (he was a bit messy). Putting the remote controls in a line, moving papers in piles, tossing old receipts. There was movement of two people and conversation going up the stairs. Either this was an aquaintance, in which case it was better for me to be not seen or heard, or it was his next "project." If the latter, I needed to be at his side handing him what ever materials he needed. He yelled for me to come up... it was the latter. Dutifully, I went upstairs to see what he needed. Before me was my superior, kneeling on the floor putting tubes together. He looked like an ordinary man organizing wires to set up his new stereo. I looked beyond him and there was a blondish man in about his mid 40s. He was on his side, hands tied in front of him, feet tied in back.. but no gag. It was if he didn't realize what was happening to him because he didn't put up a fight. He just continued conversation, maybe explaining some better ways of putting him down besides Draino through a tube. My stomach turned.. what a horrible way to go. How could I be here...? My superior gave him a handful of pink chalky disks... The man ate them... I think it was to keep the acids down so he would continue to take the liquid. His mouth was foaming as he ate the pink disks...

Then I woke up.

marriage, hotels and undies

I know it was longer but I remember it starting here... it was like I woke up and I was married to this guy. We had just gotten married actually, and were with a group of people at his folks house I'm thinking. The group of people were either co-workers, from a class project, or something similar. We were finishing up a project and deciding how to divy up the duties until we met up next time. Someone had openned chips and chocolates... I asked someone to take it with them because it would go bad before we met up next time. This hispanic woman and myself decided to create a sign up sheet for next time as well. So we would have to have long discussions about who was doing what. She wanted to have it because she wanted dibs on cleaning the floors. So back the marriage thing. I was asking myself ... how did this happen?? I'm sure he is nice, but am not in love with him, I don't think it was physically possible to "consumate" the marriage due to his large overhanging belly. I was sick to my stomach and wondering either if I should a) go through with my decision and just buck up, or b) find the quickest way out. I didn't have to figure it out because I woke up to my next dream. I was in a hotel with an ex co-worker of mine, Danny (a male). He was staying at this hotel where it was just one room, the beds all against the wall, everyone had their own bathroom and there was a continental breakfast in the morning and computers with internet access lined up along the window in the room. He said he loved this hotel and wished more were like it. In the dream I partly thought it was strange, but then partly thought.... why not have all the beds in one room. You are sleeping anyway, so it made sense. I happened to be in sheer pink undies with black lace trim, a black bra and no shoes. I felt a little underdressed. I went to the computers to look something up, but the wires kept getting intermingled with other people's wires... I got up to go for a walk. I felt uncomfortable and a bit sleezy walking down the nice cafe laden street in my underwear... I was telling this to my friend Jason who was walking with me. I said.. you know what would work.. If I had perfectly fitting white oxfords on and my hair was just so.... then it wouldn't look so bad.

traveling dreaming

Had a ton of dreams while traveling, but didnät write them down.

last night a dream that included some sort of video game. I was at a big?? farm-wedding thing and one room had really big video game contraptions that felt really real, but then we ended up doing some reality activity that was partly dangerous? Then I was in a theater with someone new that I just started to like... and then I think I woke up...

Oh and had a dream that Sascha was right outside my door where I was sleeping... lightly saying my name to ask a question.. and trying and trying to wake up.... finally did to realize it was just a dream. But then checked my clock and he was just awake.

old dreams (spring 09)

Found this one on scratch paper.

Dreamt I overwatered my plants... my favorite plant that had lived the longest came out without its roots.

Then met this guy, work related, chubby, nice. I picked up my friend from Chicago in a small white car with the top down. We were driving downtown at night in it. Something about a concierge... Her luggage barely fit in my car. She complimented my luggage to the chubby guy. He was ready to compliment me on everything.

3/13/09
Woke up with the song Auld Lang Syne in my head. Looked it up.. had no idea it was Scottish.

I dreampt about working and being able to see a parade from the office window. Everyone was celebrating. I was leaving for lunch and was going to find some nice or special place to go. Then this quieter woman in the office got my attention. A small older black woman. She said the sandwiches in this shop are nice. I cringed on the inside because it looked like a cheap little corner market, but I went inside because I didn't want to hurt her feelings. There were all kinds of white bread sandwiches cut on the diagnal so you could see what kind they were. Ham, turkey, chicken salad etc. but they all seemed to have red jello in them. Then I spotted and egg salad with no jello. I found myself excited to eat it, having forgotten how much I liked egg salad. And then I thought ... what a nice, simple and affordable thing to like.

Then I had a dream ... I remember a dad ... a young girl I was helping.. and walking down stairs..

3/17/09
Had a dream about Sascha (friend from germany). He and I traveling. We saw Daryl Hannah with her mother. I was pointing her out to Sascha. Another about an ex's Dad.. he was smoking pot... Another I was working in a company. Mechanic?... Felt nice... family like
3/23/09
Dreamt that I was in some tiny car on a rail. Almost like a ride or old coal mine. I was with a child and we were heading straight for a wall... very fast. There was nothing we could do. I put my arms around the child to protect it as much as I could and at least to hide its eyes. Just at impact, we rolled some other way, we were fine. I started crying out of being scared/shocked and happy.

3/25/09
Dreamt that Michele (Italian guy) was an Oak Tree and I could felt close to him as a tree and love him. Also had a dream this curly haired blond guy was trying to get me to do yoga saying it was important or things would not go well. And then spiders (2) came after us. Then when I woke up, I looked at my white wall and saw a dark shadow about the sie of a small apple crawl up the wall. FREAKED me out!

4/3/09
Dreamt that I saw Peter (old friend of mine's husband) and was "ok" but funny feelings. And Dan, a guy that worked at Rodgers. I was topping by to say hi and they were looking at me like "get over it"..."move on" ... "We have." (this was after I had been going through a box of old letters and cards)
6/12/09
Dreamt this friend from NYC (d.j. anthony), was trying to get cozy with me and I didn't want to - so he thought I wasn't interested... Another ... was given a blue bird and it was so sweet. It was round and fluffy and snuggled right under my chin. I was looking for a place to put it but there was just a cage with a parakeet and the parakeet was mean. I thought they would fight, but the parakeet became sweet when it was around that bird. ... Another ... some unknown thing was pulling my blankets away but then grabbed me - wrapped me in the blankets and was moving me from one room to the next. I tried screaming and no sound came and then finallyh it did and I woke up. Rare that I can scream in my dreams.

Paintings, play and new sun hat

I think my dream started in some sort of class... but I know there was?? some guy there too.

Then I was walking on the beach at night, flipping through a painting book (like a book you would paint in or something...). I was looking at paintings of scenes in the rain, people in the rain... it was a bit abstract/stylized. I was thinking .. did I paint these??? Then I was meeting my brother and his wife just off the beach to go to a play. These young, hip Japanese people were outside saying... "great play, you should really go..." So we went inside to buy a ticket. I was wondering if I looked ok since I was walking on the beach and in my dream I was unaware of what I was wearing. I looked in a reflection and saw I was in a nice dark plaid wool coat and a wool cap and my hair actually look stylish. Then we went in the building and we were looking for the actual ticket counter since part of the building was a library and part was a museum. The book of paintings turned into a newspaper and I was looking around for where I could rcycle them, but couldn't find a place.

At the end I was with Tessa and I was all excited because I was wearing my new sun hat. It was white and actually fit. It was almost loose... but.. fit. ;) (I just bought one online last night... I have a big head). ;)

Baby food

Dreamt I was moving and my brother was at the same time, somehow from the same place. He wanted to pack stuff in my moving trucks because he didn't plan ahead and get one. I was like..."no, mine's packed." It wasn't but it was getting there. And I was a little irked that I should have to give up a convenience that I worked/planned for when Mr. Grasshopper didn't. My mom was with us and doing some ..."remember this?... and remember that?..." Then I was at the ocean with my dad and step mom. It was very steep to get to the actual water, but it looked so nice and I was excited to be in it. There was one section that the water came up higher in a safeish area, so I went over there to dip my feet in. There were things that would get stuck in these posts that were stuck in the ground. Some old swim suit catalog etc. Then I was with my aunt and she wanted me to help feed this baby (who I guess was my cousin's baby). So my aunt took hot water off the oven and poured it over an adult flake cereal and mixed lettuce. She also had some over ripe apricots cut up... in case the baby wouldn't eat it. And then a bowl of a left over mexican chili bowl, if the baby didn't eat those. Was horrible. The baby wouldn't eat it. I dumped it all in the garbage and was going to make at least just mushy flakes for the baby. I went upstairs to do something... came back down.... and it was like the house was a bit of an office (almost police/fbi). The agents were all over. I worked for them in a way since I worked in the house. My aunt saw me and said she was amazed that I got the baby to eat. I decided to zip my lip. The baby would make it known when she was hungry later. I left on my way... Which ended up being some sort of office in a big building. I shared an office with a couple other guys. T-shirt and shorts wearing, not focussed on work, kind of guys. I was about to leave for lunch or something and one of them followed me. I could tell he wanted to ask me out, which made me want to walk faster down the stair well.... he put me in a headlock and half dangled me over the edge of the stairs and then asked me out. Hmm... I was very stern and said "not funny!" And didn't talk to him the rest of the way down. And was a bit happy inside now that I had the perfect excuse to say no to him. On the way down the stairwell, there were locks on each rung of stairs. They were made by artisans at a local college. We were unlocking each one as we went down. Some girl came down behind us all annoyed. "Do we have to do that now?? I haven't unlocked locks here in 20 years." Then I was even happier and just ran down the stairs to the floor where my car was parked and... woke up.

Shed, bulls and mini-scalp

My first dream ... I saw a group of people (like 4 or 5) all huddled together and they were being pushed together by bulls. The bulls completely surrounded them... A bull from a distance was getting ready to charge the group which would kill them all.. All of the bulls had large horns (that no real bull would ever have). They had the lines of a ram and they encompassed the top part of the head. So the bull starts charging and then a different bull comes up just before he is about to hit, and jumps on top of the group, protecting it and rams the bull away... the people are so squeezed in... one woman comes out of the group from under the bull... and squeeezes out. Almost seems like childbirth... And it is a nice feeling to be free but at the same time a painful one.

Next one, I'm in a town, it is darkish. I group of men are walking down the main street (dirt road). All of the people in the town have already been killed. These men all wore black, long hair, and appeared to be native american... but some sort of dark group/gang. I knew if I stayed where I was behind a building... they would be able to easily catch me and kill me. So I needed to go out across the street and up this hill. In doing that, I would be seen. So I ran across the street...and I could sort of think myself up and fly a bit. So I did this awkwardly up the hill until I reached the top and ran into a house. The main guy was already up there and had me cornered. I knew I was going to die, so we walked towards each other. He was very tall.. I came up to his chest. He pulled out a large knife and said "I apologize that I have to do this" and he took the knife towards my head and cut off a piece of skin and hair... It was all bloody. He had done this to save me.. make it looke like he killed me. Then it was like we (he and I) moved into another world where we traveld together, went to some old market. I was looking at beads and kept rechoosing. Talked to some other people and they were talking about schooling etc. I don't remember much... but it felt like just living ...

The last one was of my highschool boyfriend. I was going out to meet him. I was in his house and he wasn't there... he was outside and knocked on the window for me to visit him in his workshop. I walked in and he had this large workshop... and within it a little raised shed of sorts with sliding glass doors on both sides (almost taking up the whole wall) and windows on either end. He would sit in there and talk to friend, work on little projects.... hide away

misc. boys

I dreamt I was in some sort of cafeteria. It seemed a bit hosipital/retirement home-esque. There was a guy there I was having a bit to eat with. (In reality I have never met this person, but he is some guy that requested to be on my facebook... who I haven't accepted yet....).

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Had another dream I ran across a guy I haven't talked to for about a year (for good reason). When I saw him though I really wanted to say hello and see how he was doing. I didn't get a chance to though.

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Dreamt that a friend of mine (who in reality recently met the man of her dreams)'s boyfriend was seeing another woman behind her back. I was looking for a mutual friend of ours to tell her and see what we should do...

satellite moon

I dreamt that I found out the moon isn't what we think it is. It was a round satellite that was sent out a looooooong time ago... made of metal, hollow.... etc. The surface has collected dirt and so on over the thousands, if not millions of years. It was originally sent out to reflect the sun for our evenings, but before the moon, we had only stars. It was kind of a sad thought for me in the dream. I hadn't realized how romantic and beautiful I thought it was until I found out it was a satellite.

You look way older ......

bits of my dream are left, but towards the end I went to some fancy new dessert place with some friends. They were selling a ? "find grind" gourmet rice crispy type thing. It was like they crushed the crispies first... flavored them.. then did a thin layer on the bottom of one flavor, then the top was another flavor and they cut them in long narrow rectangular shapes. Everyone seemed to like them.. they gave you special spoons etc. I walked over to the counter for some reason and the girl behind the corner and I were talking. We realized we were the same age and she goes "you are?!?!?!???" I was thinking she thought I looked so young for my age and then she said.... "you look soooo much older than me!" Hmph Then she went back in the kitchen because she was embarrassed... and started talking to the blond bearded chef .. and he said.. "say you mean to say younger etc..." And I told them... sorry... heard it, no problem.. and laughed...Then I went out of the place to the rest of the ?? mall ?? or and shopped at a nice store for a suit. I tried it one and it fit so good..... , but then when I went by some reflection it looked like my body changed. I left and went to put the clothes back and leave and then I woke up.

hairdresser and ratios

The night before last I dreamt that I went back to a hairdresser I used to go to. I wanted him to cut my hair. I sat in his chair as we chatted and he stood about a foot or more away from the chair and kept twirling it and would touch and fluff and spray my hair as I spun. It was like I was a lump of clay on a pottery wheel. When he was done I noticed he didn't cut anything... He said he thought it needed to grow.

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Last night I dreamt that I was with my Spanish friend Tomas. We were going on a picnic of sorts. He was driving an older station wagon, something that felt practical but good, and we stopped in the country somewhere. Some open field, grass etc. Then three guys came buy... a blondish guy who was Italian, an older Italian man and then a taller man with dark hair, cut very close but he didn't say much. I only saw his back. The blond guy wanted me to come with them. He was saying we should be together, get married etc., the older man just wanted to talk... , sit, relax, eat and talk some more. I told the blond guy that I wouldnt' go with him. I was here today to have a picnic with my friend. He was disappointed but then left with the tall guy. The older man sat down with us and talked about a discovery. He was talking about the numbers 666 and how all this time we had confused these numbers for something they were not. He kept saying .. they are a ratio... like three dimensional (or something like it) ratio of sorts and that it has a lot of power. He said.. I broke a dish and used 666 to ?? capture/use the power of the breakage...

then I woke up.

Guns and ??

I dreamt that I was in some war zone in another country... it was where life was still happening while the war went on around us. I was in the wrong area... the ones being attacked ... or the ones not in the lead at least. I was trying to spy and find out where the weapons were, what kind and so on... I had photos.. one was of a pistol from WW II. (I had watched a video about a month ago on guns....). This old man (enemy).. took my photos... I tried to play dumb saying my dad would love to see a picture of this old gun etc... so I could get the photos back. Then they started showing me that the cost of the war was mainly due to bullet production.. guns were significant etc... but they ran through bullets like they were a renewable resource... and they would claim that you needed different bullets etc.. for different things... anyhoo....

The other dream now is just about gone... hmm.. was related to .... hmm was at a friends house uninvited. They were waking up and started making breakfast. Then some of their relatives came over... I felt in the way. I left with an unrelated friend to some culdesac to see some garage sale. I picked up some glasses and put them on my head... then walked around and they had some amazing items.. then I realized that this woman was an estates person and held auctions frequently... some items were pretty nice, but I felt in the way there too, so left.... don't remember much else...

apartments malls etc...

I had a dream that I had married a guy I went to highschool with. No one I had dated in the past, just a guy that was in some of my classes. I was visiting my mom and she was living in some sort of house/apartment where the back of her house was next to a walk way that went around a lake. It was pretty nice. There were lots of ducks. Then the place was kind of mine, and I kept wanting to show them this one spot in the lake where I had put a cute tiny lobster and some other cute fish and for some reason they just stayed in that little area like they were family. The first time I showed it, I jumped in the water. Not right at the edge, but jumped far so I was in the middle. The water was warm and nice. The next time I showed the area, I was having a harder time finding it and then it was like it was connected to a very very fancy mall. Only high end stores and a store per brand instead of department type stores. I walked up to one and the outside had a table with a cabbage and a knife. I picked up the knife and was able to chop the cabbage very easily and I really wanted the knife. Then this old man was next to me started giving me advice. Saying it wasn't the knife, it was how you use it and then how you take care of it. Then I started walking through a baby clothes store and I could hear my mom and a friendn talking, so I kept walking to be a little ahead so they wouldnt' find me (not sure why). I was still thinking about the idea that I was just married and was very unhappy about it. Why had I married him? I didn't want to and now I wanted out. I was thinking immediate divorce. My mom told me that if it is within 4 days of the wedding, I could just sign a thing and would be divorced. Then I just had to do it and tell him. He had already planned to move into my place, and then I had this other gal living there too. No one I really cared for. It was a nice apartment and I had a closet where I could actually hang bras and underwear (it was kind of nice really). And I started to go through old lingerie that I had never worn and decided to give some of it away. THen this friend of mine was asking how the to women (the one staying at my place and another that had just shown up) were getting along. I really didnt' care, nor did I want them in my place. I decided to move. THis move would take me farther away from downtown, but would get me away from having roommates. I was kind of excited. Then I talked to the landpersons about it and then I didn't want to move. Hmmmmm.... that was about it.

April 07 dream...

moving paintings around for a painting exhibitone guy/dad like figure was saying paint , be creative.. paint down what ever comes up in your mind...so at the same time.. he was painting an apple.... and the guy right next to him was painting a very similar picture w/ a diff medium (chalk on suran wrap)..;)
he said something like ...unless you are happy, you never reach full peace... which it is this energy that you want to spread.

Then there were parts about Ken (artist friend).... him visiting another blip of a radio saying.. check to see if he knew her number before.. blah blah blah ... this girl there saying thank you to me for being a good friend, moving around "pin" boards to place the art on. I was organizing... everyone else was painting

Song in head on awaking - April 07

I woke up with this song going on in my head ... and the same thing happened another day

Tongue-tied,
(I'm) short of breath,
don't even try Try a little harder Something's wrong,
you're not naive, you must be strong
Ooh, baby, try Hey girl, move a little closer.
You're
CHORUS:
Too shy shy Hush hush, eye to eye
Too shy shy Hush hush, eye to eye
Too shy shy Hush hush, eye to eye
Too shy shy Hush hush

Modern medicine falls short of your complaints
Ooh, try a little harder
You're moving in circles, won't you dilate
Baby try Hey girl, move a little closer 'Cause, you're

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This one on another day...

Come take my hand
You should know me
I've always been in your mind
You know that I'll be kind
I'll be guiding you
Building your dream
Has to start now
There's no other road to take
You won't make a mistake
I'll be guiding you
You have to believe we are magic
Nothin' can stand in our way
You have to believe we are magic
Don't let your aim ever stray
And if all your hopes survive
Your destiny will arrive
I'll bring all your dreams alive
For youFrom where I stand
You are home free
The planets align so rare
There's promise in the air
And I'm guiding you
Through every turn
I'll be near you
I'll come anytime you call
I'll catch you when you fall
I'll be guiding you
You have to believe we are magic
Nothin' can stand in our way
You have to believe we are magic
Don't let your aim ever stray
And if all your hopes survive
Your destiny will arrive
I'll bring all your dreams alive
For you

other planets... and floating

Ok.. I guess it has been a while since I have written down some dreams.

1
I was on another planet with a coworker. We were both digging in the soil looking for signs of life on that planet. He wasn't coming up with anything but I found a cookie tin and other things... Then a man showed up... he told us to follow him back to ??? I told him we were not from there. He looked at us funny. I said we were from Earth... He didn't seem familiar with it. So we follow him back to what seemed to be building... almost like a business park. We went inside and there were all of these researchers, some computers, lots of windows etc. A very nice feel in the office. There didn't seem to be a ?? well... no competition, political stuff going on. Everyone was working towards the same goal peacefully. It was nice. So I talked to another guy who looked like Seymore Hoffman. I told him we were from Earth and had he heard of it. He said yes... just some of the people there were not and had never been. This planet was being used to grow crops etc. and either be a resource in the future to Earth or a place to move to in the future. BUt it was very controled and protected. They were doing tests on what could grow there and what couldn't etc. I offered to help and they were going to give me some paper work to do. Then I ran into my old choir teacher from grade school. I said ... Mrs. B@@@@!! Is thatyou? She said no.. must be someone else. But I was sure it was her. Even had the same Boston accent. I didn't feel like she was lying but it was almost like her past was erased.

2
Another dream that I was going to take a ship up to another planet. We were all getting schooled on how to "be" there etc. Others were almost ?? "followers" of sorts. They believed something would happen to them (good) on the planet. I wasn't one of the followers and was asking for proof and facts of these good happenings. Then I woke up.

3
Had a dream I was floating out of my body. It felt really real. I was floating from where I was at the time of the dream. I could see myself sleeping in my bed, it being dark etc. I kept trying to get back to my body. It was a very scary feeling. I finally made it then I woke up.

4
I dreamt that I was shopping with some friends and then we went to the very top of this sky scraper. We were going to have lunch up there. Then I felt the building move. I asked if they felt it adn they said no.. that I was just probably dizzy or something. Then it happened again where the building swayed and they noticed it. Then the swaying became more and more dramatic to where we felt like the building would collapse. The building's top was getting close to the ground so I took a chance and jumped and landed in the river. I thought it would be better to risk hurting myself falling then with the building collapsing. I made it fine etc.. don't remember the rest.

School and Work

I dreamt that I was a nanny or house manager for this couple. They were a nice couple with one child. All with dark shiny hair. I was doing things well and they liked my work and me. At one point I was sitting on their bed with them and we were all calling a number to have something fixed.. the guy leaned over to pick up the phone but it also made it so the wife could not see my face and he kissed me. I quickly jumped up and said I had to attend to something else and left the house. When I left I was near some chain link fence near a school. It was the first day and I did not sign up for things correctly or missed something so that the day of school started and I wasn't prepared. I was running around wanting to figure things out, where to sign up for classes, where the classes were located, etc. Then I saw a class going on by a swimming pool and thought.. I don't know what my class is, but this one looks nice so I will just sit and take it. Maybe later I could change my morning class to that one. I sat there on the cement next to the pool and watched the instructor on the far side of the pool. He was instructing the class to do different floor exercises. I didn't much care for the instructor, but I was enjoying the atmosphere and people using their bodies. Then an instructor's helper came buy. A blond guy with not the shortest hair, but not long either.. he seemed like an energetic and happy person. I saw that he kept doing things with the pool and always around me. Then finally he sat down on the cement and did the exercises we were doing but kept looking over to me to see if I was admiring his skills. It turned out he liked me. I was thinking .. why me out of all the women there. So then somehow we are (him, myself, another couple, some other people) all at a house and going to stay there for a holiday. And he is very sweet to me, listens to me, plays and snuggles, etc. Was a nice feeling.

Then the next dream, I was on some sort of retreat with the people i work with. It was at a very fancy hotel in vegas (but nothing that exists). The hotel was beautiful and dark. Lots of dark red velvet, beautiful wood work, old style furniture etc. Our team would meet downstairs daily in this parlor. We had chairs all in a circle. We were given a project to come with a disertation? on a problem that needed a solution. We would meet for dinner regularly, have scotch after dinner in the cozy parlor, it was all very nice. We were in the dining room at one point and I needed to leave to use the bathroom. I went to the bathroom and it was all marble. All the stalls were busy though it seemed and all had men in them... and they were showering. So I thought I would try the men's room and found the same. So I went back and decided to go up to my room. I needed to go up a large staircase (very wide) but they were currently doing a fashion show/dance presentation on it. If you waited on the side you could be allowed to go up between dancers. The dancers were all very regal and confident, even the very young ones. A girl in a green dress went up successfully before me, but when it was my turn, it seems more dancers kept coming. I tried going up the side behind a man in the tuxedo who seemed to be in charge of the presentation, but for some reason my legs were not agile enough. I finally was able to go up because one of the dancers grabbed my hand to pull me up. He left his performance to talk to me upstairs. He spoke with a russian accent and wore a green full body suit with swirls of color on it and had a painted face. He was seemed unfulfilled in his work and then he looked out our hands. He said that hands were one of the oldest languages. That you could understand and communicate so much through the hands, but people have forgotten and they try and use intellect instead, which doesn't work as well. Then we spoke of things he could do to bring awarness back about hands. Later I went back to the parlor. There was another group meeting next to us that were all very nice looking men and all gay. One looked just like Tony Curtis and I wanted to tell him he should really play him in a movie. So I went to sit down with my group. Fritz (a current coworker) was supposed to be there, but he was on the second story of the room looking out a window and had some campy hat on. I didn't really recognize the others at first. I was sitting next to an older woman and she was very helpful and had good advice. She was also very calm like she knew herself well enough that no request of her was about failure or success, she would do what she her abilities would allow and that had to be ok. If it wasn't, it wasn't her problem. None of this in a rebellious or stubborn way, more of like it was a "truth." Later Kim (another current coworker) came down and she was very very nice. Also in the same mode as the women, but less so. Then I woke up.

landing on my feet

I was in some building and a guy was doing a performance. He was pretending to be a ventriloquist's dummy. He was very strange. Then I need to escape because I realized I was with bad people. I started to run and they ran after me. I picked up something that had fire on it and threw it at them and they guy said "great... now look what you did, it is too late now..." and I saw that there was gas leaking in places and the whole place was seconds from exploding. In my dream I felt like I was about to die... but I ran anyway. I ended up making it out of the building but then right out into more chaos. There were people running everywhere. I think the explosion caused some sort of damn or something to break and a wall of water was coming our way. Again I felt as if I was about to die but I ran anyway. I kept running over piles of broken pavement and rocks and I made it. Then I was running beside everyone else and there were these two girls I guess I was partnering with. We stopped and I took out a syringe. They looked at me and said.. I knew you were going to poison us. I was thinking .. huh?? But there was some agreement that two of the three had to die, we were going to choose who on the way and it was just accepted.. but I ran again... and made it.

Bombed building...

Old dream I found on some scrap paper...

I was in an old bombed brick building being taught a class. I was sitting on broken dishes and on pillars. We were watching a film through a broken wall. We were "inside" and we were looking through the wall to the outside where the film was projecting. I had to move material that was hanging from the ceiling out of the way to see the film. We had a bathroom break, so I went to use it and was in the handicapped stall. There was a security camera in there that was for in case anyone was hurt while in there...

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I was in Venice ... floating on a slab of cement in the canals. I didn't have much control of how I was floating or where. There was a floating ?? memorial of sorts. It was draped in curtains and there was a coffin inside. I didn't want to flow through because you were so close to the coffin and the dead girl inside. This girl was saying I had to go through it. .. yeesh.....

dream from 12/6/05

first I had a dream that we knew the world was ending... something about the sun... it had either been orbiting at an unmeasurably slow rate that we didn't notice and was just getting closer... or something similar... not everyone knew though... my first thought was to get a hold of some sort of drug to kill myself before it got here.. it would dry up crops first (quickly) as well as make the air unbreathable etc....
then I had a dream about another person from the ex's group... kind of the group ?? idiot?? he was sweet though and married a little gal that was fitting.. but anyhoo.. saw him and her in my dream in an Irish sort of pub and had beers with them... was nice
then had another dream where I could fly.... I would hold on to my soccer ball?? (or maybe it was a volleyball) and just think in a certain area and would go right to it. If I doubted my abilities or thought about it too much... like how it worked etc.. I would fall... but if I just focussed on the end point.. would make it there no problem... I flew up first and saw two different games going.. one soccer game.. but some sort of ultimate soccer .. HUGE field.. something like 4 teams.. for different goal nets etc... then another that was a huge soccer ball, smaller court... and like 2 players... then I flew towards the hills.. trees, forest... between homes... villagers...etc. landed near this home... walked by these motor cycle riders (that in the dream were my friend Matt's ex's friends)... then into an old victorian house... saw a woman there and she asked if I wanted a 9 card reading.... thinking she just wanted money... I passed.. and said I would like to rent a room. So I went into the room with pillows.. blankets etc.. took a little rest and then a visitor came.. a man who was a travelor.. I knew him from something and wanted to know more about his travels and who he was... then I left.. (and woke up I think)

Dream I had 7/8/05

these zombies.. as long as you fed them or kept them busy on an acitivity.. they wouldn't eat you.. but they would lose track a lot so it was constant attention.. so I decided to leave.. and went down the street.. and realized no one else was taking care of their zombies like I was... so they were all pretty focussed on attaining my brains I guess... so I was running.. and this gal falls off her bike and has blood running down her forehead.. so I thought she was a zombie and was about to shoot her and she screamed not to.. so I didn't
then this other gal.. a jogger (and I think her friend) was walking up.. and the gal didn't see her.. and I saw she was going to be a zombie at one point or other (and she looked high maintenance)... so I shot her in the neck... (very good shot I might add)
so this jogger gal.. was holding her neck and making gurgly noises... and her friend walks up to her and goes.. oh... man I had that same thing happen last week (having no idea that she was just shot and thought she was having flem issues)
I actually started laughing in my dream...

dream I had 1/25/05

one I was in the army or service of some sort.... was at a gathering thing... with my old boss and this big guy comes by and is checking in on us.. he seems very macho/authoritative and so on... dressed a little different etc... he had on tennis shoes with a copper color in them.
at one point he is getting after us... for something... always disappearing at certain times...
then I get someo sort of flashback.. someone was killed in the water.. he jumped in the boat taking his place (not being part of that regiment)... and just lived off the base ... posing as a soldier ... anyhoo

another one I was in some magical seeming place... was a hotel.. but very modern, lots of glass... the bathroom was HUGE... many different kinds of tubs and showers and spa type things in it.. and the actual toilet was in a completely different room... all blue, green, clear and frosted glass.... my dad was staying there.... or something... then someone had a baby and it was no bigger than my little finger... was very strange... then I was walking through some ritzy mall... and some woman was a cleaning lady but stealing boots... then walked through another area.. adn they had actual sleeping babies as the display decorations (strange)

exploding heads, flower heads, roses for bunnies

Ok.. couple nights ago had bit of a disturbing dream... was in a bar with some people... everyone had a little too much. I think we were waiting for someone so we could get going and then we heard this man in a little area next to us. We thought he was throwing up, but it ended up that his head kind of imploded or exploded... I guess im.... since his skin structure was still intact, but his head was like a deflated balloon.. ugh .. it was awful...

Then I was with this guy.. he was eastern european.. he was trying to hit on me in a perverse way. We drove up to some park that had a firepit in it and I was sitting on a log and he stood up and exposed himself.. Oh thrill... I was trying to think of a good response. One that wouldn't get me stuck alone at night with no ride home, but one that was clear I had no interest. Then he moved and his penis was like a multiple... kind of like a flower... many of them all attached to the end.. ack! So that was an easy out... ugh..

Last night I dreamt about some country or island I was visiting. The people were nice, very tradtional, tight families etc. I visited one of the daughter's homes what was part of her parents' property.. It was a neat octagon house and she had lots of feminine yet whimsical things in her house... She had these cat figurines that were calle??? something cat... don't remember really.

Then I left there and was going to get my hair done. One gal was going to wait for me while I did it, then it was like all these people were waiting for me in a truck outside the salon. I needed to use the restroom so I walked in and it was one of those holes in the ground with places for your feet.. :-s... But I had first walked into the men's room and left. I was still waiting for my appointment and one of their displays was all a mess, so I organized that while waiting. I also so these swatches of hair and color.. and I saw the one that I was and thought it was good.

Another part of my dream I was in some mall. I worked in one tower if it and it was connected to the other tower via different rooms. I checked out this one place for an appointment. There were a lot of fun people there I had never seen and we were getting on well. I was thinking oh.. these could be some new people to hang out with. Then they had these freebies on the counter. I took the whole pile of chasmere scarves... I dont' know why I did... was thinking I could give them to other people I worked with and saved them the trip, but at the same time it felt wrong to do. I even said outload to them... I don't know why I just grabbed all of these and left. I stopped in another area for breakfast.. and one of them saw me and snickered to a friend and I knew they were talked about me taking all the scarves. It felt awful..

Then another part of a dream I showed up to work and there was a huge bouquet of pale yellowish pink roses. I couldn't think of who they would be from, but felt nice either way. Ends up there were from some bunny rescue place and I had sent some emails around and found this one a home. They were very grateful so sent me roses.... I was a little disappointed. Wanted them to be from a boy. ;)

Games, planes and purpose

I dreamt that I was getting ready to go see a movie with a group of my brother's friends. They were all going to see Sex and the City. Before the movie, everyone was playing board games (something my brother is in to). Then it went from being there to me catching a plane. I was trying to get to the plane, but there were some issues with enough space. Finally this man let me on the plane with my friend from Philli. We had to climb up a pile of gold couch cushions to get to the door. Then once on the plane, it was kind of cramped and uncomfortable. I was next to this older woman. She was still attractive and took good care of herself, kind of classy. She asked if I had a boyfriend and I said no, I just kept meeting guys that I would help get to their next situation. She said that was my lot in life. I left feeling partly relieved and partly upset. Nice to know the reasoning behind my life, but at the same time sad to think I would never be with anyone.

Nice dresses and sex offender

Ok.. first had a dream that I was with some girls and we were in our late teens/early twenties. We were all preparing to go to some event that was girl related and/or association realted. We were all in nice dresses but more like from the 40s or 50s. I was wearing some flowery green and blue dress. We had some sort of head mistress person who was in charge of getting our group together. We stopped some where on the way (I think we were traveling by bus) to get some breakfast or something. The building was very white inside. Everything was white... that is about all I remember.

Next dream was involving women again but older. I was in some sort of hospital and we found out this one guy was a sex offender. All these women in the hospital had been his victims (coincidentally enough). One doctor was gathering all the women in this one hallway. She wanted him to be confronted by all the woman at once to see if it would shock him or change/fix him etc. They finally all gathered in one spot and the doctor had them all go in a room to wait. Then I woke up...

gallery

I had a dream about a friend of mine last night. I was in this big shopping center and she had a gallery in it. It was small, but open space, so felt larger. It was after hours and she was doing two huge paintings. The canvases were both on the floor and that was how she painted. She was talking about some gal that had a store next door. Kind of an artsy/nature-ee/whimsical type. She was about to have to close down her shop. My friend was saying, ... really, all you have to do is the basics, show up, be dependable, etc. and you can keep a shop alive, but she wouldn't show up to her shop half of the time. Anyhoo.. one of my friend's paintings was purple, red and black and the other was blues, yellows, greens and white - both abstract.

Fish....

Had a dream last night that I was sitting on the floor with a group of women. One was asking everyone their signs. I felt like I had just joined their conversation, so was the last to be asked, but I also knew that most of them that had answered had said pisces. She asked me and I said my sign as well as dob and time.. since this seemed to mean something to the woman. She wasn't very friendly... kind of assuming and ?? wasn't how you might normally feel around a bunch of fish.

I had another but it was that I went to the gym (have been trying to get myself out of bed to go)... so only really went in my dreams. :-s

New Office

Ok.. in reality, the company I'm working for is moving office in a week. So last night I had this dream that I was going to some warehouse, although some of it felt like a place maybe you would have a half outdoor/half indoor wedding or festivity/corp. workshop. Everyone was going to station #1, which was kind of set up like the odds n ends department at Ikea. They were all running around getting the parts they needed (screws, washers, tools, pieces) and it was like they knew what they were doing. I felt a little out of it, not even knowing I was supposed to be there, let alone what I was supposed to be searching for. Clarence (love that name), one of our youngest engineers asked me what the other thing was he needed with a bolt and nut, and he needed a 5/7ths size (??)... I was like washer? Yeah, that's it. At that one moment I felt helpful and that maybe I could catch up to everyone else on their unknown project. I still had no idea what to search for, so I was looking for a reference list or something and followed my coworkers into the next room. Two of my old officemates were in their own section building desks. (in reality, we just learned how our desks would be in the new place, and honestly, it stinks...). They had those things mechanics use to roll under cars with and they were under their desk hammering and screwing in bits. I felt even more lost at this point and it was getting close to evening where people were leaving so I figured I would work on it another time.

Had another dream I was having a get together at my place. In my dream it was sort of my mom's place too but she was on vacation or something. I had candles burning everywhere, drinks, dim lighting, lots of folks, everyone having a good time. I was a little anxious though because I felt at any second she would come home (mind you I'm 36). My brother was there too and he was messing with stuff and I was trying to get him to just visit with people, I needed to keep the place together as well as I could in case she arrived. There were 4 or 5 leather purses on this table behind my couch, all my mom's. and I was dumping them out for some reason to see what was inside... out of curiosity and boredom more than anything... Then I think she showed up.

Been a while....pirate ship

Had a cool pirate dream a while back. I was on a ship in the ocean and there were maybe 3 to 4 guys manning the ship. We were very close to the coastline (in reality, impossible) and we needed to turn the ship around quickly (also in reality impossible). I was holding on to a rope and hanging out over the ocean. The ship spun around so fast that it whipped me around and I kept swinging out and crashed through waves. I was yelling at the guys to help me, but no one paid attention. Then I saw this woman in a black dress walking on the shore. She was a ghost... and the story went that if you see this woman on the coast.. you would be the next to die. Then the next "scene" we were walking on the sand and looking for a pirate friend that had been captured. We were going to find him and free him. We walked up to some crates and he was inside.. there was a monkey too.. and in the dream I was thinking.. oh good cgi...

Anyhoo..

random ireland

Had a dream about a friend (last name ireland) last night... I'll be seeing him in London. I had a transam of all things and he asked to park it in the house. It was greasy underneath and I was worried a bit about the mess, but it seemed rude to not let him park inside the house (as odd as that sounds). His car also had an OR license plate, although he is a UK fella. Hmmm so we met, we ?? I really don't remember the rest, but that I really felt like he was in the room with me.

Dream before this, I was camping in an odd camp site. Each site had a little fence around it, a metal shed and grass. I was packing up my stuff and some guys that were macho was telling me I was ticking him off... and I needed to leave or he would mess up my stuff. He thought I was a gal named Amy (who is someone I work with in my new job). I said that I wasn't her and why was he mad at her? (she was coming to the campground next and I wanted to give her enough warning) He said he was mad at her because she made wigs... I asked what from? He wasnt' sure, so basically he was just angry. I was worried about Amy and also that Amy's brother might come too and want to beat the guy up. I didn't mind if the guy would get beat up, he just had a lot of guy friends there and her brother might get hurt. I went to go pick up some crates that were full of food and bugs were crawling all over them and I just dropped everything and tried to get out of there.

archeology....

Ok.. so was aware the dream mid-story. I had a metal object in my hand and was cleaning a groove of a wood box with it. It looked like the inside of a pen.. the metal part that holds the ink, but it was thicker and had a weird triangular shape at the end. I picked up another box... some relic... it was odd shaped, had some cut outs on it and I figured out that the metal object was a key. Although they were using it like a tool and?? a something that could be thrown away. I put the metal object down a long hole in the box and turned it.. the box openned and flat metal pieces of gold fell out. They were stamped into different shapes. They were images of gods or ?? god or ?? I was thinking it was spanish... so christian/catholic.. maybe jesus. I knew what ever it is I found, I wasn't supposed to have found. The box had been locked for a reason etc... the objects had some sort of message with them.. (not written).. but you knew what it meant. Something that would reinterpret religions of today... A mang started coming after me (think someone that looks like a musketeer)... I ran across a creek and tried to get away (oh, this all happened outside)... and that was the end.

I had another dream that I was selling my house (one I owned before) and that my ex wanted half of the $$. I was trying to figure out how much he actually paid on it, if any.... but I remembered that he helped work on it.. . it was stressful. Kind of an ... I owe someone something that I didn't feel like I owed thing.... hmmmm

couple of older dreams...

I haven't written my dreams in a while. I have had a few, but I don't remember them all. I have been jogging a lot more, getting up earlier, so maybe I'm not having more normal dream time.

1/4/08
I had a dream a friend (Sascha) of mine was going to his work or class or something and he kept stalling and/or forgetting things. I was looking through a pile of papers that we had both worked on. But they were all paintings, not good. Then I turned into an invisible person.. people were going through this house that was mine and my family's (but it wasn't my "real" family). I think I was one of the parents and not sure if I was the father or the mother.

1/6/08
The last part of my dream I was choosing bread. Then a guy came up and looked lost with the bread so I was showing him the different kinds I liked. I think I had many other dreams though. Oh. I remember another dream. I was on a bus or something with a group and we were going on some field trip. There was a guy there I was in love with and he with me. Then I told him some things that I was reading about. I think they were mystical etc. and he didn't like that I was even thinking about reading these sorts of things, and he thought I was odd, so he quit talking to me. I was very upset and hurt and just ran away and hid. Then once they were gone, I just kept walking.. through the streets, then I found an outdoor market of sorts with artists and things. I walked around for a bit and then was looking at this woman's art and accidentally spilled water on the table. It didn't hurt any of the art, but it just made me feel worse. Another artist and the floor near her made glass snails. I decided to sit down on the steps...

Maggot hunting and psychic counseling.... :-s

Ok.... first the dream started out like I was watching a new romantic comedy. It was going to star Meg Ryan (older... ) with?? forgot who. It showed her as a hick-type person falling for a more pristine type guy. The beginning of the movie has her in overalls yelling down to her brother (woody harrelson) who is inside this old hollow tree that goes down under ground. She is yelling at him to get out of there and was saying to hold on, he just wanted to eat a few more... he hadn't had these in soooooo long and they tasted so good. They being maggots. :-s..... special kinda i guess. He went down there initially to see where they were hiding so they could exterminate them. The camera panned down inside the hollow tree where you see all kinds of white wriggly things.. and then the back of woody's head and overalls as he is talking and eating. Then he lights a match down there and takes off and the tree burns up. Then I'm following them back to a house. It turns into me walking behind some women that are all dressed in black. A couple in perfect black lace bodices, perfect hair, makeup and so on. They all seem pretty mean. One of them had a tattoo on her back that was hot pink and I complimented her on it (it was unusual). Then one turned out to be Reese Witherspoon. She seemed mean but then had me follow her. Her hair was blond but she had about a couple inches of brown roots. She was a psychic and so was her sister. She wanted me to go to a counseling session with them. I went into a room that was all white with white furry floors. They sat on the floor and wanted me to join them. They kept talking to each other. They were treating me like I was "special." I had picked up something and was pushing the "right" button or something. Then two guys came in and they were also wanting to ask me questions and see what I was made of. It was odd. One was really nice to me and the other one was more into pushing my buttons to see if I would break. It was kinda of strange.

Cat Icons, super power school and new house

First one, a friend of mine was flying a plane around these ruins. The ruins were huge, like tall as skyscrapers and built around rock structures. They were very amazing. then I noticed the statues. They were all of cats, very stylistic. All different kinds of cats. In my dream I was really wanting to get down there to study them and more about the significance of the cats. Penny kept almost running into the rocks and structures though and laughing, so I wasn't sure I was going to make it to ever see them. Then we landed somewhere .. there was water. I was talking to some old man and we are talking about boats. He had me take a look at three that were on the water (like go and be on them and take a close look). I went over and he asked me what I thought of them. I said well this one isn't good but these two are not bad. I could tell because the ship had teeth around the edges (actual teeth) and you could tell that the one boat wasn't cared for. In the dream I meant cared for in a deeper sense. Like not just washed and kept up, but it wasn't loved. The person who owned it was empty.

Then I was in another dream where I was walking in the town I grew up in. I was walking near this park (which is actually where my grade school was). It was really pretty. It had a rock formation and was covered in ocean (although it was all confined to a park). People were out on boats and playing in the water. It was really nice. Then I saw this seal and her pup. They came over to me and hung out with me. Then I had to walk to school. It was a high school of sorts, but the teachers and students had powers or special skills. I was in a prep meeting for the teachers. One of them was new and she was invisible (she was also Glen Close). There was another instructor there that was invisible and as she walked by, he snipped off a piece of her skirt so he could study it and see how she was doing it. Chevy Chase was an instructor there too and he was at the front of the room with all the kids. He was filling his head with air and making it big and small to the beat of some music to make the students laugh. The students all had powers too but were learning to bring them out and/or refine them. I could float around everywhere and knew what everyone was thinking and doing.

Then I had another dream that my mom bought a house, but a wreck of a house. She sold a brand new one she had to buy one less expensive thinking it would be better and she could pay off debts. All it really did was make it so she had to spend more fixing up this place and/or buying things to make her feel happy because she wasn't.

Kitty hugs and 2-story tents

One I was with a little boy and he gave me a hug sort of. But it is like what a cat would do where they rub their face against yours. So he came up and rubbed his cheek against mine. It was sweet.

Then I had a dream that I was going to the beach or camping or... Well first I was on some farm, then a party was going to be held there for my birthday. My dad was there and he said he had a surprise for me. Then all these horses came and he said I could pick one for myself. There was a beautiful horse there that was gray, so I picked that one. Then came the camping thing... I was helping unpack the car. My dad/stepmom etc. were there and some friends of the family... a mexican family. They had two little girls and a boy. The tent was actually a house that you blew up like a balloon or a raft. It was two stories. The bottom floor had a couple rooms and a kitchen and the top floor had 3-4 bedrooms. The floor of the top floor in the landing/hallway was made of clear plastic and so was the roof, so light could be let into the bottom floor. Was kinda neat.

No idea what to call this one... long

was taking some boxes to this antique's estimator person.. and I had one box that was light blue/pink/lacey... kind renaissance-ish with odds and ends in it.. another very plain black box with an old flag and some things in it. She was going to see what everything was worth. Then I thought what a neat job to find old things and do the research of their history. Then I was seeing some guy. We were at the pool behind the house and there was white wool shag carpet all around the pool. The guy I was seeing was blond. He walked over with a bottle of red wine and poured a spot on the carpet near me on purpose to see if we could get the stain out (to see how careful we needed to be with the wine). Then I was telling him how to get the stain out. It finally all came out. Then we were swimming in the pool and there was a cartoon movie playing on the wall next to the pool (huge) and he was going on and on about how special this cartoon was to him and what the real meaning was behind the cartoon (which I don't remember). Then he had two kids all of a sudden and I was watching his kids at the pool. They were saying (now the pool had people all around it) that this lady had taken my towel, adn some other things of theirs. So I went over to confront the lady and she said.. boy that movie you were just watching.. that is worth hundreds and hundreds now.... I would sure like to borrow it. (she was really creepy and manipulative). Then I went into the house to get my boyfriend and in looking for him to tell him to make everyone leave the pool, it started another part of the dream. The house was huge. It used to be his parents. Lots of antique type things. The kitchen was really old, but the finest of everything at that time -type old. THere was an updated part of the kitchen and then I went around the corner (I was going to steam some potatoes) to look for a big pot and there was even an older kitchen with an aga (one of those ovens that stays on all the time). I came back out and there was an old man sitting and eating w/ the llittle boy kid. The little boy was eating bacon and sausages. Then there was a knock on the door and it was a woman wanting to be hired as a cook/maid/nanny. She seemed nice enough but there was a woman behind her that was miming her every move and at first had weird clown clothes on but then they turned into renaissance clothes. She was kinda like the woman at the pool. She was really cooky and we wanted her out. Ends up she was my bf's sister (which my bf changes later too). THen the next part the kids are walking home from school from across the street. There is a woman again (I think the same just dressed different) and I think she is like a cross walk attendant of sorts and a mom or teacher from the school. I see her daily and then one day the kids come in crying. This woman was telling them that if they don't find jesus and promise themselves to god they would go to hell etc. etc. So I went out and gave the woman what for...etc. Then there is sort of a gathering/party in the livingroom. All you guys are there and my brother and jean-luc and and and... and my bf is now a longer haired Tom Cruise ( I probably feel about tom cruise how you do about bill pullman). So everyone is sitting on this big couch (kinda like the ace hotel) and there is a huge almost imax screen in front of us and we are watching one of those "earth" nature films. It was really cool on Imax because it felt like you were falling off the edge of teh water fall.... or bobbing in the river and stuff. Jean Luc had us all stand on the couch so we would feel even more "there." and he would bump us in parts where it seemed appropriate. My bf went in the kitchen and I went in after him. He seemed to have the same affliction of his sister and he started going a little nuts and was trying to stab me with porcelain knives and then about any one he could find. No one was coming in to help, but then this old black man did. I ran to get more help and then the black man came out and said everything was ok. He had punched him in the stomach which woke him up a bit. THen he came back out in the living room trying to be all normal again, but he gave me the creeps. Whew.. that's it.

real estate

I had a dream last night that I was being driven around to look at homes for sale. This one was supposed to be magnificent and somehow in my price range. I went to go look at it and it was in a nice old neighborhood, up off the street and old and beautiful. Then we went inside and the whole thing had been gutted and turned into some sort of spa but.... not in a pretty way. I was kind of disappointed and was looking to see if I could turn it back to its original condition. A business was still going on in there and so I was also thinking maybe I should just leave them there and rent it as before and hold on to the property. They were all talking about the biz owner there and how wonderful she was. Like she had a magical personality and was an excellent manager. I saw her and she was a bit hippy-esque. Sparkles on her cheeks, a bit of a bud-induced-grin and she was in a dreamy state cleaning all the glass surfaces. It seems that she was checked out but she was actually going with the flow and her gut on most of her decisions and not worring about a thing and that is how it all went so successfully.

Inner Outer

Ok.. before I went to bed last night, I was thinking about how sometimes with people I don't know well, I can knee-jerk into people pleasing mode. Not in a servant, what can I do for you - kind of way, but in a... I can see how they think, know what they like, put myself in their shoes... and so I put my opinions on hold and kinda see their way for a while. In doing this, no one really meets "me." That is not why I do it, but that is an unfortunate result of it, besides spending a lot of time not being me.

Soo... my first dream I was in the late 17th century (going by clothing etc.). I was not low society, but not high society... I could mingle with the higher ones, and was friends with the lower ones. It seems in this dream I left my lower ones and grabbed the hand of a man that I would meet only to gain social status. But when I walked with him and talked, he was wearing scrubs and he ended up being someone I was very close to. He said things to me that were things we used to talk about years ago. It really touched me to where I started crying (and it actually woke me up). It was the kind of thing that was so touching and sweet that it made you cry.

The next dream I was with all these actor types. We were at some fun park of sorts or resort. All of us were staying in hotel rooms. I was the "dork" of the group. I wasn't as pretty, thin, witty, etc. etc. I was reacting off everyone and so was bobbling around never quite feeling myself. Was kind of a miserable feeling. Trying to see what they might like or want and catering to it... while on the outside, being myself.

So these dreams were kind of photo-negatives... the first one - my actions where against who I was, but I was completely steady on the inside. The next dream - my actions were who I was (in the dream) keeping to myself etc... - but I was all a jumble trying to see where I fit - on the inside.

Hmmm....

rock house

First I had to be in the lobby to make sure people were greeted when they came in the building. This was a boring job. Then I saw this girl that worked for us (in real life, I went to first grade with her, then again in 6th grade - she wasn't a nice girl). In this dream she had a medical condition that made her stomach get big. Then I was at an outdoor ?? festival/concert of sorts, but it was at a strip mall and in the street. We were talking about concerts that we had been to lately, and I said I went to Joan Jet and the Blackhearts. Then I needed to drive in a truck somewhere and a guy in a skateboard showed up behind me holding on to the back of my truck. Ended up I knew him. He was someone I went to high school with. I saw him in my rear view mirror. We had instant chemistry, a very nice warm feeling. Then he got in the truck and wanted to show me something. So we drove kind of out in the country, but it was more like the desert hills. We drove up to this house and went inside, it was a different kind of house. It was built into the mountain and rock, so that the inside walls against the mountain side were actual rock. It was pretty. We made out a bit and then his mother and brother and little cousins (little girls about 2 and 3) showed up. We got up quickly to make it look like he was just showing me the house. The mom started talking to me about her son, and why did I ignore him when I was in high school. I told her he had a bad reputation etc. She was trying to get us together. Then I looked around the house and they had this christmas tree that looked a little scraggley. It was where the whole family would come to spend Christmas... that was it.

oil slick and shoes

I had a dream I dressed up as an oil?? well more like the rainbow colors of oil for Halloween. It was kinda pretty.

Had another dream that I moved into some sort of living situation where many people lived in one building. You had rooms, there was management, curviews, etc. My mom worked there but she and I no longer acted like relatives. The walls of the rooms were all movable (sliding) and kind of like rice paper, but a little stronger. She had moved this guy next to me who in real life liked me but turned kinda sour since I wouldn't date him. He was kind of a pain in the dream. Later my mom dropped off a pile of shoes (shoes I guess I had left at her home a long time ago). Some were pretty neat, but all of them were too small. Some kind of?? less than classy gal came by my room and wanted all my shoes. I knew they would fit her and not me, but something about her thinking she could just have them bugged me. At one point I was taking a shower and was still on shampoo mode when they turned off the water. I wasn't even able to rinse. ....

hopefully today goes better than my dreams

Foot Long Penne

I was getting ready to go on some trip. I know I needed to pack, but I had no clue what time my flight was the next morning (not very me). I had a ride.. gal from my last job. I was in the bathroom taking my last pre-trip shower. I felt something in my nose and it was some penne pasta sticking out.. took up the whole circumference of my right nostril. I pulled on it and it kept going and going. When it all came out, in one piece, it was about 1 foot long and covered in some cooked spinach (ack). Then I saw something in my eye. It was spinach again (this time fresh) and I kept pulling out lettuce leaves, enough to make a side salad. Was kinda nutty.

Then I was hanging out with this guy that was an ex-boss (and my best friend in highschool's bf). It was kind of magical. Not romantic so much, but we just could sit and talk and we got each other.

Sara Jessica Parker

Dreamt that I was either driving to NYC from the west coast or driving to the west coast from NYC. Sara Jessica Parker was my good friend and she was giving me all these going away gifts (perfumes, trinkets, clothes, etc.). I kept looking at my watch because it was getting towards noon and I didn't want to be driving so late.

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Another dream. I was at my brother's house (but not really his house). He was having a couple friends (both girls) over for dinner and games. We were talking about who we knew in common.

Babysitting

Dreamt about a family gathering of sorts. I remember my dad, step-mom, his brother and sister, a field and organizing dates...

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Had another dream where I was watching a friend of mine's dog (a little min-pin-mix that looks like a chunky chihuahua). The neighbor woman (I was on a 2nd level of a low-income apartment plex) was Mexican and a single mom who had a little girl about the age of 5. Her daughter was supposedly scared of the dog, but turns out she did it for attention. I ended up watching her daughter for a bit and she was fine with the dog when her mom left. I wanted to keep her busy so was going to have her watch a movie while she colored (what a way to promote ADD eh?). I had a video of the Parent Trap (the original version) or some Disney cartoons. I decided on the movie because I don't think I could handle all the signing on the toons. She wasn't interested in watching it but was happy with the coloring. I played with her hair a bit and was twisting it on top of her head. She had the kind of hair you find on cheap off-brand Barbies... Bangs with a lock of long hair just glued to the perimeter of the forhead. I said "I should probably put your hair down so your head doesn't get cold huh?" and she nodded. ;)

Victorian Days ...

I think it was in the Victorian days. It was summer and people were wearing white (men white suits or shirts and pants, women white dresses). I had a boyfriend although I don't think I saw his face. He was blondish. He was in college and finishing things. He also had a masseuse "permit" and he hadn't massaged enough clients so it expired. He was unhappy about that. We didn't get much time alone probably partly due to his schooling and partly due to not being married and our financial status. This day we were having a nice time kissing and he told he had rented a room in a nice inn in the country for us. I asked if we needed train tickets and he said that we would roller blade instead - it was only 5 hours! I asked if he was joking, but we kept on roller blading and then realized it was a place that was very close. It was a big white house with different rooms you could rent. You also had an insurance fee that made it expensive. They said though that now that the government was paying some expenses it would be less. We had a room on the top floor and it was tough to get up there. ...