shorn

I dreamt I was cutting my hair. It felt freeing to let go of my old look and start over. Then I realized my bangs were not straight so I had to cut more. I had two friends there with me. They seemed supportive and yet tentative about what I was doing. I pulled my hair up to see where the shortest length was and cut, knowing I needed to make it even and it would grow back. I looked in the mirror and was disappointed. I told them I hadn't had bangs since I was about 11 or 12... and for a reason, it just didn't fit my face. I reached to the back of my head to pull my hair to the front and the texture felt odd. Then I realized I was with a coworker (BG) and he had cut all of my hair off... the kind of cut you picture when you think of someone cutting someone's hair short with a knife instead of scissors. I started crying uncontrollably. My friends watching me and me not being able to stop. I normally wouldn't want to cry in front of them but for some reason I wanted them to realize how much pain I was in so they would understand. I wasn't upset about the hair as much as someone doing something purposely mean to me. I had trusted him and he had just been mean. --- I dreamt I was at a hotel or resort. It was for a work function. I had a room next to a coworker (BG same as above). We had shared a bed the first night and both felt funny about it. I was always playing jokes on him, so for some reason, I gave his room to this guy in a wheel chair. He was very upset about it.. I tried to calm him telling him it was a joke and I could see that the guy was getting uncomfortable and he stood up. We both looked at him and then BG said he would turn him in. The wheelchair guy had been going to college on a scholarship for disabled people. He was just finishing that month with his degree. I asked BG to just let it go. He was almost done and this would ruin him. He left to go turn him in. We found out later the guy was able to say he had some temporary disability that only temporarily took away his control of his muscles and he was able to finish his degree. --- I dreamt that I was out with a coworker (SB). She and I were in NYC for work. We had gone out bar hopping and dancing. At one point we were in a room with a guy and his son and some other relative. Then I remember it being dawn and being surprised at the time and knowing we needed to get back as our plane departed at noon. I noticed I had a baseball cap in my hand and told her we should get it back to the guy. Not meaning at that moment, but to ship it to him. She gave me a dirty look and told me why...?? he is an as$h0/&. He beats his wife. Then I got the gist that I had kissed him and then felt awful. I had been drunk and friendly with someone I didn't like. Ugh... I tossed the hat. We got in a van was I thought we were driving back to the hotel so we could gather our things for the flight. But she changed into a pretty white dress and we were in a van with a friend of mine (K) from Berlin. She was getting married and had put up a notice to everyone that the wedding was that morning. I hadn't seen the notice and was not ready. They were whispering to each other and talking about me... it was more that she meant for me to go, but it still didn't feel good and I felt like an idiot.

floppy waffle

I dreamt that I owned a cafe. I had forgotten that I had rented the space for it. I had an employee and maybe one or two items to sell. I was trying to reassure them that it would all work out, I had just been handed the keys, so I hadn't been able to really get things going yet. We were near a park, so I knew we would have some business. Initially I was thinking nicer foods, but then I realized mainly people that played basketball were at the park, so they would want easy snacky things plus coffee. I looked over and saw remembered that I was very close to a mini-mart. I figured families would prefer to come to the cafe and I could get other clientele. I also had a parking lot, so I was thinking I could get high end carts there and mainly serve beverages and provide seating. I also had an idea about a certain kind of waffle, but it wasn't a waffle, more like a pancake, ... a floppy waffle. I had it figured out. ----- I dreamt that I was taking care of some paperwork. I needed my passport renewed as well. I had been standing in line and going from desk to desk. I had two more stations to go through and I realized I had forgotten my expired passport. I could leave and come back to the same position. My mom had been with me and so we both went back to our house. I had to get this done that day or I wouldn't be able to go on my trip. She was cleaning and doing other things. I was telling her how important it was that I go now and that the place was about to close, but she didn't seem to care. I decided to go on my own. The house was open air, like we lived somewhere tropical. I noticed some people moved to the edge of our land. It was a black woman and her little girl. They were digging a ditch and building a roof to cover it. They were singing.

twisted blinds

I dreamt I had just moved to a suburb. It wasn't a place I had planned on living or hoped to live. The bonus was it was walking distance to work, the apartments I moved into had high ceilings, nice layouts and lots of trees throughout the area. I had left from my car back to my apartment and realized I didn't have my wallet. When I returned to the apartment I realized I was missing other things as well, including a camera. I was wondering who had access to my place. I decided to start organizing my place hoping to run across some of the items. The blinds in each room were all tangled. One was twisted on purpose into a spiral. It looked kind of neat, but they were dusty and I either wanted them normal or off the window completely.
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I dreamt I was at a friend's home. It felt like another country and another era. The cupboard doors were really dark wood. But they had been covered over the years with different colored foil. The top foil was silver, the next foil was colored with a yellow marker, the next with green and the last one was multi-colored, red/gree/yellow/orange etc. There were foreigners at the party too. I was taking some foil and drawing yellow lines. When I did this, a one inch high wall of water would form where the line was, then sooner or later it would turn back into a line.  

wine stains

I dreamt that I drank wine with friends. There were two different situations happening simultaneously. I was with one friend (PC) and she had left and I had spilled wine all over her floor. Then there was a couple (S&CK). I had gone upstairs to their attick and spilled red wine all over their white carpet. I knew I could get it up, but I wanted to before they were able to see it. It was too late and I was fumbling over my words trying to explain myself. But there was nothing to explain. The evidence was there.

cat mouse spider

I dreamt I was at a picnic of sorts at a wealthy home. I saw a cat playing outside and I realized it was chasing a mouse. I didn't want it to get it because it was cute. Then there was a spider running around to complicate things. It looked like a huge daddy long legs. I wanted the cat to see the spider so it would leave the mouse alone. The spider seemed to go this way and that just out of the vision of the cat. Then finally it ran up on the cat's forehead and that cat noticed it and the mouse was safe. 

air fish

I dreamt that I was looking for apartments. I was so excited because I found some very affordable once and this was great because I was wanting to save money. I found one for only $322 a month. I was going to look at two more that were around $400. I went to see the $322 first. It was fine and had everything it needed. I felt like it was a bit of a beach atmosphere or at least casual and warm. I thought I had better look at the others as well. I went to see the $425 one and it was soooo much better. It had rooms instead of just being a studio, high ceilings... I loved it and wanted it because it was only $25 more than what I was currently paying. Then I thought.. the whole goal was to lower my expenses... not get exactly what I wanted. (typing this ... oy.. I want to say always go for exactly what you want.. ). I wasn't sure what to do. I had some errands to run and I thought I had better do that and think about my decision before I did something stupid. I went to some strip mall, but the stores were closed and I was on my way to somewhere else. It felt uncomfortable outside... too hot, dry, flip flops... then I saw some plants. They looked pointy and uncomfortable too, but I walked over to them because I thought I saw some flowers. They were fish swimming in air around these plants. I think it was the only place they could swim and survive. The friend I was with pointed out one that had a hurt fin. It had but cut by the blades of plant. I thought they were amazing and sad at the same time. They were so beautiful but they were stuck living around these plants for sustenance, between a strip mall and the parking lot.

Xmas tree ornaments

Dreamt that my friend said he had purchased all new xmas ornaments and redid the tree. I was worried his wife would be upset.

34 or 44

I dreamt that I was going out with the VP of the company (that I'm in the process of leaving). He was appropriately nice... being polite and paying for things, but I could tell he didn't want to be there. I remember two places that we went. We were sitting at the bar of the second place (after having dinner at the first). We ordered some drinks. I think I was going to get a coffee drink and he sneered at it. Then we were going to go dancing, but I didn't remember the evening because I drank too much. We had gone to 4 more places. Not sure how I knew that. I know some hair was falling out again... I remember thinking... well at least it is less than last time (ponytail in hand - dream). I was just getting home in the morning. For some reason my mother was there. She had called friend of mine and him to find out where I was. I was so upset that she would call people because I was home late. It was my business, I was fine, she had never been around before... She said.. well I was worried etc. I could understand, but I told her.. I'm 44 years old! I've handled myself this far, I think I can continue. I thought it was odd I told her 44, because in the dream I was 34.. (which I am neither). 

young eyes

I dreamt I was sitting on a porch of a house. It was sunny outside. A guy that I knew (CM) walked by outside. I didn't want him to see me because I didn't feel like talking to him. I went back inside to sit on the couch. I realized I was in my exboyfriend's parent's house. A middle aged blond women came in. She reminded me of the outspoken blond character in the movie Bridesmaids. In this dream she was a little older, little heavier and a little less refined. She was talking to me about work and life. Then other people were walking through the room. My exboyfriend, his brother... a friend of the group. It uncomfortable and comfortable at the same time some how. 

Then I was on a bus on a trip. I had to sit on the "singles" side of the bus. An old friend of mine was on the married side. He asked if I would watch something for him and in exchange, he would watch my camera and purse. I was also watching someone's littler girl while people went to the front of the bus for refreshments. She was very sweet and cute. We arrived at our destination. My dad was there and other family members. I had the little girl with me and she was enjoying all of the fun sites. It was nice to see everything through the eyes of a young person and I was enjoying it too. Then my friend contacted me saying he forgot to watch my purse ... I went back to the bus and it was gone. I was a little frustrated. I take very good care of other's things, maybe even more so than my own. I was upset that I couldn't trust someone else to do the same.

zombie camper

I dreamt that I was in a van and there were all of these kittens. I had to make sure they were all accounted for. It was more like I wanted to make sure they were all ok. I would have a good count one second, and then the next some would be missing. It was a little stressful.

Then I was running away, looking for shelter. It was dark and I was in a street and then running between buildings and movie campers. I found one that was empty and no one was around to see me go in. I jumped in and locked the door, kept it dark and sat down to take inventory of what supplies it had. I was running away from zombies. I had to make sure I didn't make much noise or create too much light. I also couldn't let anyone "normal" in because I couldn't trust them to be quiet enough and not get us both noticed or killed. I put a movie on and just sat in the dark. I was anxious but felt pretty good about my position.

ponytail in hand

Last night I dreamt that my hair was coming out in handfuls. Somehow neatly and all the same length. I ended up with a handful of very healthy hair in my hand. I didn't remember being able to hold a ponytail of hair that thick when it was on my head. I was kind of impressed with the amount more than I was upset that my hair was gone. I knew it would grow back...

Then I dreamt that I was getting manly whiskers on my chin... like all over, prickly and blond... this I wasn't as at ease about.

forced opportunities or ...

I dreamt I moved into a big house. It was a loft type place, two story, and pretty amazing. I was sharing the house with an older woman that seemed nice enough and intelligent. For some reason, once a week I had to climb a wall in order to keep it. I wasn't really a climber. I turned around to look at the wall. At least it was brick so I could get some footing. I thought I could possible do it, but felt weird that I had to do that to live there. I also had to pay out the nose to live there. I couldn't believe that I signed the contract!!!???  I had a good thing going where I was and could pay off some debts...

Then I left and was getting ready for my new job or new training. I was going to be a police officer. Think more of a British police officer with button down shirt and short sleeves and tie of sorts. We had to wear a specific uniform for classes. My brother was going to the same class. I was doing it because it was the thing to do I guess. I needed money, the training was available, I was qualified.... I guess basically I was doing it because it was easy, even though I knew I didn't want to be one. I couldn't find the shirt I needed to wear and was running late and was thinking... maybe I could skip the whole thing.

Then I was on a cruise ship. I went out of duty I think for a friend... or for social duty reasons. I walked over to a class we were supposed to take. I was going to help sew costumes. I didn't want to do that either. I went to leave and my friend was disappointed in me that I didn't want to do what she wanted me to do. Why wouldn't I just go along. The costumes were for a play. I was supposed to be in it as well. As I was walking, I was thinking.. I know I'm supposed to sing in this. I don't sing.. will I do ok? ... I can still get out of it... but what if I do good? .... what if this is my thing and this is my opportunity to be forced to do something I'm scared to do so I find out my hidden talents...

role reversal

A guy I was seeing (in dream only... actually a blond actor guy I'm not that in to) were getting intimate. I said something more masculine about us just having sex as apposed to being loving. He made a face and walked away. He didn't like that I wasn't being loving... and that I was being more cold and factual about it. I watched his reaction. Although I didn't want to hurt him, I didn't feel like I did anything wrong as I didn't feel anything loving towards him. 

saved seats

I dreamt I was sleeping on a small futon or hide-a-bed. A guy was trying to make sure I had a tv to watch. He balanced one on the arm or the frame... it was very big but some how it balanced enough to be stable. He wanted to know if I wanted something bigger. I told him that I didn't really watch tv in the first place and this would be more than fine.

I had another dream where we were eating in a ?? beer garden of sorts. I met some guy there, he was nice, I liked him, he liked me. I don't know if we fully understood that it was mutual though. We just made sure each of us was taken care of... he looked out for my needs and I looked out for his. We saved seats for each other and so on.

violin vs cello

Last night I dreamt I was at a party of sorts. Lots of people were there, food, music, disarray...

I didn't feel quite like I fit, but even more so when my exboyfriend showed up (MT) with his daughter (in reality he married and has a baby boy). He looked so much older. I realized it had been 7 years since I had seen him last, but he didn't look the same at all. He had the same pleasant, easy going feel about him though. He had a large cello in his hand. He must have learned how to play after we broke up.. which was funny to me because I was learning the violin. I almost told him that I really wanted to play the cello (which was true)... but decided against it and that he didn't really need to hear about me. I decided it was a good time to my things and quietly exit the party, as neither of us expected each other to be there, nor had any business being in each other's lives anymore.

carpool

I dreamt I was driving to work, but I worked in a different city and at a different job. I tidn't even feel like me. It was like I was in a life that would have happened to me if I stayed with a company I worked for years ago. Everything was secure and fine and nice enough. I had good health, decent income, decent transportation, decent relationships with my coworkers, but it was almost as if I was not there... like half of my body's switches were turned off.  I was driving to work with someone. I think we were to go to an event of sorts as well. A friend of mine (PC) was in the car with me, but this time she was driving. One of her necklaces fell off, I was trying to save it for her as the beads were made of glass and knew she really liked this necklace. I grabbed what I could, but she backed up over the necklace and broke many of the beads. I let her know what happened, but she didn't seem to care. Then I met someone... a fella. It felt like we worked together, or were supposed to soon. That part was a nice feeling. 

track

I dreamt that I was going to a track event. I think I was supposed to run, but not sure. There were not the usual events. We were waiting outside near the track. It was dusk. I think I had to use the bathroom, so I walked over to an old building. It looked like it has been there for years and been used for community events. It wasn't quite fresh smelling or looking, but was kept up for the most part. I went into one of the stalls in the bathroom. I could see a wedding had taken place the weekend before. Someone had left their guest gift in there. I picked it up and it was a bag of money. I thought hmmm... well they obviously don't know it is here and won't be coming back....   Then I found more. I thought.. my lucky day. It didn't feel wrong to take it, but it did feel a bit stingy.

Then someone came in the room. I decided to leave all of my new found loot and go back to my track team. In the short time I had left, the weather had changed and it was dark out. There was a dusting of snow on the ground and people were moving into another small building, more like a cottage. One of the volunteers, an older woman, told me that there had been more snow, but this is what was left. She guided me to the building where all of my friends were. People were on the floor in front of a fireplace, some in blankets. There was one little kid next to an adult and she had half asleep, curled herself as close to him as possible. Everyone found it cute. The ability to go for what you want without permission, apologies or explanations.

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I had another dream were I was visiting some home. I ran into old schoolmates (AH) and my cousin (T). It was nice to see AH and I had dreamy feelings about him. I had a crush on him in junior high and we had chemistry again. It was nice to feel. He was very athletic looking in the dream, not normally what I go for, but it was attractive. My cousin came to the door and wanted something...? Keys? or maybe he was dropping them off. Then his mother came by and had some more items for me. I ran after her at one point to get something else... kind of a blur now. Mainly the nice feelings with AH. 

Snow House

I dreamt I was staying in a very very nice pent house. It was not new and flashy, but money had lived there for many many years. There was old style furniture that really didn't go out of date due to the quality.

It was dark, and really not my type of place. I think I liked the idea of it or even that I had that opportunity, more than it was that I wanted to spend time there. A guy showed up in my place. I think he was the son of the owners. He acted like he had a right to be there, but he didn't because I was paying rent. He was walking around like he owned the place and had friends over. They were all a bit boozy. I had ordered a pizza and it would be coming soon. I went back to one of the rooms to get my things and put them all in one room. I wasn't about to argue with a bunch of people that night. I went in one room and someone was sleeping in there. I felt upset and not respected.

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Then I dreamt that I was working in a shop. A cute garden shop of sorts. They were giving out cider and cocoa and it was done very nicely. There was an outdoor area with an old wood fence where people could leave with their greenery. I overheard two women talking saying that such and such product was back but they are only selling it at the Snow House, a shop down the street.

I decided I would take my break and go see. I walked by many cute little restaurants and stores. I think I was hungry because I was eyeing a quick food place. I walked into the Snow House and they had very nice things. The lighting was warm and the clothing was displayed nicely. I never ended up seeing the product the ladies were talking about, but I was enjoying looking at everything else. I saw a nice blouse... it was sheer and short. I thought maybe it is a dicky, since the collar was fancy and would look good out over a sweater. Then I looked at the back and it was laced. I then realized you could wear it over something. Either way, I liked the idea of both.

movie crew

I dreamt I was walking towards and through pretty trees... a forest?  I was very in the moment enjoying the experience.

Then I was riding around on a foot scooter. Then kind that you push with one leg. I found that I didn't need to move my legs. I could stand on it with both feet and lift my toes back and forth and the motion would cause movement forward as well. I thought it was kind of neat and less tiring.

Then I was flying to a location. It was first class all of the way. I was part of a crew for a big movie that was being filmed. The scene at the moment was being filmed in a fancy restaurant that had the feeling of the 20s.
I felt like I was part of it but not. It was like I was dating someone in the movie or part of a support piece of the movie, but not the main important group. I was walking up the stairs in the restaurant to get some me time when I realized they led to no where....
I wanted to get away...

I ended up walking around the set. The odd part was.. even though I didn't feel part of it.. I knew I was appreciated, taken care of, and loved even. There was something in me not letting it happen or letting it in.

Then I was looking through cases of makeup... stuff they bought for the shoot they didn't need... false eyelashes, samples etc.... I was looking through it, but then all of these young girls starting going through it and I felt uncomfy about going through them. I felt as if going through it was being greedy and cheap. 

candy

I dreamt I was staying in a home. It wasn't mine, but my space was my space. There were people there that I didn't feel so at home with, but they were nice enough. Some little girls had been up in my space and were taking my candy. I shouldn't have cared, as I didn't really want it, but I didn't like them messing with my things either.

dehydrated fish

I dreamt a friend of mine (CK) bought new shoes. They were red and black high heels. The heel was black and the shoe was red patent leather. That is how they looked on the inside. The outside view... they looked like sneakers. She decided she didn't like them when she realized they looked that way.

Then I dreamt I was given an iphone for my birthday from my dad. It looked more like a car stereo's removable face plate. I was out taking photos with it. I was trying to get photos of ice cycles. Some were vertical, some perpendicular... It was strange until I realized they were ice cycle xmas lights that became longer due to ice.

Then I went for a walk on the sand near ocean. I was on some sort of trip. There was a weird tunnel made of sticks.  I could see the hotel we were staying at from the beach. We went back to the hotel because my dad needed to get ready for something. He had fancy purple cowboy boots. He was a bit hovery, asking me questions and it was stressing me out. My step-mom seemed sad and a bit lost.

From the window I saw a cloud ploom. Was it a volcano? I went down to see and it was some old way of freeze drying fish. They would put the fish inside an icey dome and then poor boiling water over top... creating the ploom.... this would dehydrate the fish somehow...??

I couldn't find my phone... wanted to take a photo

baby stories

I dreamt I saw my ex-sister-in-law (brother's ex-wife). She had to children after the divorce. She was talking to me and she said... you were only friends with me to (don't remember exactly what she said but the jist was that she felt I was being false to her... nice only to get by, or get something). I didn't feel mad....It made me wonder and then I realized she was right. I didn't dislike her, but we also didn't really click. I was only surface nice to her.

Then I dreamt about an old coworker (DB). She was someone that was always kind of hmmm... overly nice. Kind of syrupy nice. It was like she had some sort of magic over men. I thought she was nice enough, and had a good heart, but I didn't care for that part of her. In my dream she was pregnant. I was happy for her situation and it was if I was viewing it all from the outside. Them viewing me... still single etc. and me viewing me viewing them.

Then I dreamt I was talking to my friend (SP). He was saying that he had worried that some day I would be in a situation where I was alone and pregnant and he was happy that it never happened. To me it seemed it wouldn't be a problem, although I could see his point.

cautious rat

I dreamt I was at a beach house, a very nice beach house. It was being finished. I looked through a window in the door of the garage. I could see plumbing fixtures in a box. Everything was very clean and new. I was on the cement that was between the garage and the house near the front door waiting for a guy friend. We were closing up the house and leaving to go do something fun. I felt a little rushed, a little excited to be with him, but also a little like it wasn't right. Just as we were about to go, my boss walked up with a colleague. I was nervous. It felt like we were not supposed to be there. He was completely polite and nice.

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This may have been the same dream... as we were leaving the house. This actor who plays Zeus in the recent movie Immortals, he was after us. He was angry. It was strange though because I wasn't scared. If anything I liked that it was out in the open and I was ready to meet him head on.

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Then I dreamt that these cute little brown mice were playing. They were light hearted and having a good time running around without purpose. There was a rat there too. You could tell he wanted to play and be care free, but he held back. He was watching their moves, seeing how they played... seeing if he could trust them so he could play too.

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Then I dreamt I was going to Vegas with a guy friend (GH). He was wanting me to get everything together properly so we could go have a nice time. It was as if he was excited to be going and with me. There was something in me though that hmm not that I didn't believe him, but I did't trust it.. trust the whole scene....

point of view

I dreamt I was at a gathering. My grandma brought a pasta type dish. I was taking it and arranging on the plate the best I could the way she had it in her carrying dish. There was purple cabbage in it. It was initially green, but was "purpled."  Another woman in the room wouldn't "purple" her cabbage... she always just bought purple cabbage. My grandma was very particular about having to do the "purpling" or it wasn't right.

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I dreamt that I was driving with a coworker (FB). We were delivering some ipads for work. We were driving in a very pretty area, almost fantasy like and tropical we were getting near a hill and I was trying to push on the gas but was having trouble. I realized there was a blanket under the gas pedal. I saw a pretty view on my side of the car. Blue pools of water and white tents and trees.I was telling FB that she should look because it was so pretty and unique. She acted like she understood what I was saying, but it was obvious that she didn't because she didn't even turn her head. I really wanted her to see it. I looked to her side and I saw an equally pretty view and figured she didn't really need to see mine.

payback

I dreamt that I was telling my boyfriend from high school that I never intended to not pay him back money he lent me. That although I'm working on something now... it is always on my mind and he will get it back. I'm not sure he was convinced. I think he felt used. 

bottom floor

I dreamt I was on my way to a function and had to go through a neighborhood I had been to before (dream only). I hadn't visited since the 1980s. It felt strange to visit that time in my again. I had some nice associations and it just felt like another lifetime and maybe even another life. I went down one street and I remembered that the were old homes that were turned into condos. At the time, one of the owners had suggested to buy both bottom condos and make it into one. I could see that she had accomplished her mission, as all of the condos on the bottom were now large. I was thinking they made a lot of money on this deal and in a way it was unfortunate because it was such a pretty neighborhood and now less people and only the wealthy could enjoy it.

There was a blond man there. He had been there before too. I had never known him, but had seen him from time to time. He recognized me and invited me in. His condo was three levels. We were on the bottom. His friend told me it was ok to check out the other floors.  As you went up the stairs, each level was much smaller than the first. The third level was barely there, maybe room for one person uncomfortably. I wouldn't go up there. I just looked from the stairs.

I was feeling a little stressed because I knew I had to get to my function, but I thought it was nice to get to know this man too.

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Had another dream I was in a building. There were women there that had been older than me in high school. They were all popular or sporty types. They were all dressed fancy and had just finished there masters... all together, same program. They were high-fiving each other in their sparkly dresses. It felt like empty progress. Progressing to progress.

my space

I dreamt I was going to see some concert. I had been a few times at this outdoor venue and had always sat in the same area. I decided to sit somewhere else this time for a change. I walked by my normal spot... then looked at the place where I would normally set my things. I had a bit of a fear feeling.... should I just sit there? should I place my things there just in case? What if I don't find a new good spot?  Then I decided if I did that... I would just either go to my old spot, or I would be half in one spot and half in another, which would be stressful. I decided to just take a risk and find a new spot.

Then I dreamt I was at some hotel. There was an event that had happened or was going to. The basic feeling of people millling around, needing to get somewhere,  a bit of excitement in the air and confusion and everyone was dressed nice. I needed to get to the lobby, so I got on an elevator with a middle aged man with dark glossy hair. The kind you would see on a newscaster. He was kind of chubby, had money, seemed not relaxed, not authentic, probably high level job due to kissing hiny and being political. The elevator was unique in that it moved horizontally across the building and downward... then back up and then down again. It felt kind of fun because it was fast, but also wrong, like a waste of time and going in the wrong direction.

Then I dreamt that I was walking up to a nice house with some women. They were ?? girls' girls. Kind of think J. Lo-esque... all had long hair, perfect make-up, cute little dresses, accessories, nails.... the works. I'm not sure why I was with them. I felt like I was part of their group, but I didn't really have the same values, but I could get by. The main girl was rich. This had been where her family went on vacations. Basically a small mansion on a hill, that they used occasionally years ago, but now was just there for the kids to throw parties. Her brother had used it the most and it was a bit dirty and trashed. As she was touring us, she had this glow and smile to her face. Kind of proud of the house, her status, her place in life, but no real connection to us.

Then I dreamt I walked up to some large building.. but it was more like a university or ?? with a campus. The buildings were all one story. I had rented a space there for my company. I went into the room for the first time and I was a little disappointed with the arrangement... a sink in an odd spot and odd structures. I figured I could work with it though and make it nice. I started arranging things .. then went outside. There were kiosks and tables being set up for some outdoor event. It was like a fair or something light and fun. I was walking around and then saw Mike Dooley. He was doing a performance. He didn't have anything on his body but yellow makeup. There was a track going on along with his performance and it was saying messages and he would move to it. Each time he would press his body against something, a layer of makeup would come off revealing colors, designs that were a message of sorts. I was glad to see him and wanted to talk to him, but knew he was too busy right now. I walked back to my space and there were two women in it undoing my organization and setting up for an event. I was upset. Why were they in my space... ?  I then realized I had paid for the next month, they were just letting me in early and so they could use it. It still didn't feel good.

outsider

I was at a brunch or something similar with work mates. They were miscellaneous work mates from different times in my life, some nice, some I didn't care for. The restaurant was nice, the food was nice, the lighting was nice....  but I was uncomfortable. I didn't fit, didn't want to be there, so put on a show to get by, to fit in.  SP one of the women, brought tray of different desserts. They had been a dessert from each celebration the company had had. They were all ooohing and aaahing like it was something special and something good, something worth all of this pretending and stress for.

Then I went into another room. My mother was there and she was introducing me to people. More people that I didn't care about, didn't fit in with, she didn't fit in with, but one must be polite.

I left the function and was driving home, I think with a coworker. I was looking out of the window, we were driving along a river. I forgot how pretty it was and thought I needed to make time to go there and appreciate it. There were a bunch of people there dressed in costume. Almost old European costumes and war suites. They were shooting fake canons as part of some holiday. I had forgot about that too. It was very festive and nice to see.

Then it seemed the group of workers were all at some sort of retreat. I think we were all staying in a very large home of some sort. People were leisurely getting ready, chatting with their spouses or enjoying themselves. I was the only one running around doing errands, making sure things were taken care of. It bothered me and I wanted to stop, but my mind kept urging me to finish.... just finish this and you will be done.. and then that.. and then the next time the boss sees you what ever he asks for. I looked in the mirror... I noticed almost the whole top of my head was almost bald. I thought... well good to know... means I must be stressed, I should do something about it before it takes real affect.  Some people were about off to go do something fun and festive. I heard someone ask if  was coming. Some kid said I couldn't make it because I was "owned."

Then I dreamt that this guy I met in the Netherlands (RVB) was talking to me. He was showing me a calendar. One line showed a date that had past and then a future date a year later. He said... so... I guess we will get together in a year then?  I told him he had said the same thing last year... and it didn't happen.

focus

I dreamt I had an ah ha of sorts. I was being told from somewhere a "key" to life. It was about focus and how it affects your life. It is almost as if each of is a remote control. If we push the 1 button... we will call up all things/channels/events dealing with one. Let's say you do not want one. Talking about how you don't want it... is still pushing the one button. Thinking about how you want to let go of one... pushing the one button. Saying over and over... I will release one.. it is gone... or say... thinking of the absence of  one.... is still pushing the one button.   So, focus on something else, something you like, something you want, (of course something means anything... not just an object).  Let go of fears, worry and so on...

So then as if I needed to be shown an example, I was with some friends. We were all taking classes and I had been going to the morning classes and doing very well. All of a sudden I realized I had totally forgotten about my afternoon classes. Grades were about to come out and it was much to late do do anything about it. I quickly called the school office to face what would happen with me, the classes and so on. There was a recording of a woman telling me that if you miss your classes, don't worry about it. The fact that you didn't go, means you didn't have it on your mind, means you didn't worry about it, means that it doesn't matter, and it won't affect me. I was thrilled.

Then my friends and I were eating... Chicken and something else?? I realized I was eating but wasn't hungry. Kind of another example in a way... You focus on what is in front of you ...

stress

I mainly dreamt that I rented out an office and then panicked that I did and misc. other stressful things.

ghost movie

I dreamt that I was telling a friend about an actor. I was saying... don't you remember? He was in that movie where he was dad and alive. I'm not sure if he was a ghost or an angel but his non-physical self was talking to his real self in the movie. You could tell who was who because the non-physical one had no wedding ring, but the physical one did.

doc appointment

I dreamt that my boss had rattled off a ton of different appointments to make and some just numbers of docs that he might be seeing. The next day he was asking why I hadn't set certain appointments. I knew that he hadn't told me to, but I acted like I forgot and was comical about it. Surprisingly he laughed and was good natured about it too. It was nice to see him be human.

beautiful dream

I dreamt I was or felt like I was in Italy. The colors were sunny, the dirt was light colored, the place was simple and so was the life. I felt as though I was at a relatives... maybe a grandmother, maybe an aunt. I felt relaxed and at home, more so than I ever have in reality.

In the dream I had a best girlfriend. One I could really trust and feel at ease around. Something I also haven't experienced in reality. We were in the house at first... talking and sitting on the couch. Our clothes were light colored and airy. The weather was lightly warm and lightly breezy.

Then we were outside, where the laundry would normally be hung on the lines. We laid on our backs and looked up at the sky and talked. We were youngish... just becoming women. We were making fun of our bodies and how skinny we were and laughing.

Then we were walking through town. The streets were part dirt, part cobble stone. It was quiet, like a Sunday. I was walking next to the buildings, and watching how the sun moved across the grain of wood and along the worn tile as I walked. I was thinking how excited I was to get a recording soon... (in my dream I was imagining an old camera... but also was aware I was getting a new iphone soon).  I was also being told to take videos.... take the camera where ever I go.... record the handsome men I meet, record the beauty... record the romance....show him/her to please and entice ....I couldn't wait to capture all of the beauty I was seeing.

I was missing a friend (MG) or a boy.... I was to send him or her the videos to give them a nice feeling.

We saw a woman leaving a wedding. It looked like the wedding was over, as she looked a little tussled. She was tall, slender, beautiful, dark hair, long dress.... she had a video of the wedding... or something.

We watched.. two old couples doing fun things... laying at the edge of a cliff by the ocean.. heads hanging over the edge watching the sea upside down, feeling the sun and enjoying life.

During the dream I could hear cello in the background.

Booty

I dreamt that I was at some retreat or armory where there was an event, but I felt that I knew everyone pretty well at that point and they were not family, but felt close.

I think it was nearing towards the end of an activity or the end of the event all together. Then it seemed like we were in a small market. A couple of men came in with guns to rob the place. I think we were scared a bit and a bit not. He was very friendly. He was focused on what he needed and very calm and cool and pleasant about it. I had a bag of Pirate's Booty in my hand and was concerned about making noise. I didn't want to draw attention to myself. He did notice though and was walking towards me. In my dream I had popcorn breath, and didn't want him to smell it either to notice me more. As he was walking towards me I was actually starting to get a smirk on my face and he was too. He was just coming over to kid me.

Then we were all back to the armory type place and cleaning up. At first there were a bunch of folks milling around. I went to the basement to go to the bathroom and retrieve my things. I had noticed the management had left a lot of toiletry kits on a shelf for people to take. I wondered why no one had. I picked a couple of them up to look at them. One was all foot care related and I'm not sure of the other one. I thought about taking one, but then thought against it. I partly wasn't sure I wanted more stuff, partly would feel guilty that maybe I was taking them without the others being aware of the bounty that they could have ... The bathroom was decorated kind of like a grandma's from way back when. It had a fluffy pink toilet lid cover, and cozy fluffy things around for decoration.

I went back up stairs to help with the clean up. A lot of folks had left, but I think were supposed to come back for one more activity. I was looking to move some tables. One girl I had gone to highschool with but did not hang out with had already cleaned the dishes (TR). I felt bad I hadn't helped enough. I continued to help and then an Indian woman came to me saying that someone had knocked on the door, but she was scared to let them in because she was alone. She could see it was a young teen. I told her that I would go with her and that maybe we should wait until the other arrived.

Something else happened with a guy I know that moved to Australia from the Netherlands... but I don't remember what exactly. Just a nice feeling left.

First I dreamt that I was at a gas station. A couple of us had campers or caravans an we were getting some food. I think there was a fast food place there. It all felt kind of fun.

Then I found a stone. It was black with a texture of pokey crystals. I was supposed to carry it with me. I was talking to someone in "the know" and they suggested a ring. One just happened to pop up out of no where that had a setting large enough for the stone and other stones, which I just happened to have as well. I was filling it up and then she said that the stones I was using were too primitive (one was a shell from St. Helena, a rock and  other items). So I found some crystals to put in there.

Then I dreamt I was camping on the beach with a friend of mine (SA) and his brother and son (HA). SA and I were sharing a blanket but my feet were at his head and visa versa. I think we kept on accidentally kicking each other which ended up making us laugh. Then SA was saying that we needed to find the date for the "day" of Aquarius because we needed to throw a party on that day.

bathtub

I dreamt that I was staying at an inn? or sharing a home? or?  Not quite sure, but many people in the same home. There was an old couple, white haired, seemed to have been travelers if not still, a couple in their 60s and? possibly some other people. The dream is kind of foggy. I know there was some cooking and conversations about each other. The 60s couple and I were talking about the gray haired couple. They were supposed to join us for something but we were not sure where they were. I think we were joking or maybe being serious saying that one of them had killed their previous spouse and this one was their second. That it is why he or she traveled. I think there was a dinner or something people were cooking for??

For some reason myself and the old couple were getting in a big bathtub. It didn't feel weird at all. More like we were sitting down at a table to talk. The intent was to talk and workout some solutions... I think I was there to help them more than the other way around.

middle floor

I dreamt I was in a very large nice home on a large estate. There either was quite a few different people living there or they were all one family. I felt like an outsider but part of the family at the same time.

 There were three levels that I was aware of. A basement type, the middle floor and the top floor or attic. I felt like the "adults" lived in the attic or top floor. I felt the need to appease them and follow their rules. They were not bad people but for some reason I had a small fear in my belly about them and the rules. There had been a little blond girl on the middle floor. She was leaving now and it was going to be my space. I almost felt like she was going to the top floor too. Like she had reached a certain age or "level." I guess this is where the not feeling like part of them came in. I felt like I was not part of their "moving up" or getting noticed. I was just there. Kind of like a ghost... they might be aware of your existence, but they walk right through you. The middle space was large. I seems like there was a lot I could do there, but I wasn't sure what. When I started moving things around, nothing seemed to fit right, the furniture was dirty or missing pieces. I was staying because I was told it was my space. Some musicians from the basement started taking over one of the spaces at the end and I went over and told them no.... this is not your space. You have your space in the basement. So they left. They were all kind of dark, grungy, chubby, dark curly hair types. Then I think we were all going to a wedding of some sort. Everyone looked very nice and dressed up and were on their way. I think I was making sure everything was locked up. The place was so open, and no one seemed to watch out for the house. The people had all gone, but then I heard a noise. I ran to some grass and bushes and laid flat. One of the men had a flashlight and found me. He picked me up, but it was as if he put his hand inside me and was able to pick me up by my heart, which was black. They were not mean, but they were there to steal and I had to do what they told me. Then the dream moved on to the people being back and a dinner being cooked. My aunt (IV) had microwaved or boiled? some potatoes and had left. They were done and I wasn't sure if I was supposed to peel them, but I did. I had made a salad to go with the dinner, but it was odd... noncooked potatoes and beets but you soaked them in some sort of liquid marinade so long that they became edible. I wasn't too sure about the texture. Someone was to have cooked turkey, but everyone forgot, so someone cooked chicken. I went to walk around to pass time and there were many people on my floor at the end... the end near light were I had wanted to set up a seating place before. They were watching a football game. I walked around the edge so they couldn't see me so I could get to the basement and look around.

back to school

I dreamt I was in the parking lot of a school. It was one that was in the town I grew up (although this actual building and place did not exist). I saw old school mates that were all grown up now. We were all headed back for something. I almost felt like we were taking similar classes. I think I had some sort of English class first. We were all outside and talking. I had put my carry-on suitcase on top of someone's car. Then I was talking to some other people I used to know. It felt cozy and nice although I think I was being annoying some how. Maybe joking too much. The time had come to go to class. I went to the admittance office as I wasn't sure where my class was. Kevin Cline was standing there and in my dream was one of the instructors. I think I was trying to joke and talk to him too. I found my class and went in. They classmates were all familiar. The seating were old tweedy beige plaid couches. I sat next to (JV) a tall blond guy. I felt partly like I knew what we would be covering and I wasn't stressed, I was just be happy to be doing something.

microwave cookie

I dreamt that I was buying a house. It seemed as if it was almost given to me or that someone cut me a deal on the pricing. It was a home of someone I used to work with (JB). A photographer friend of mine (CE) and JB were helping me move in. One of them put my bicycle on the porch. They were telling me that I should put it away so that it wouldn't get stolen. One of them had given me the bike and I was thinking as soon as they left, I wanted to change the handle bars. The kitchen was yellow and I was thinking of what color I could paint it. It excited me to be able to choose the colors for where I live again. The kitchen appliances had also been given to me by someone else. They were not new, but they were still nice although outdated in color. Then I dreamt I was going on a road trip with my dad. There was a box of silverware and plates in the back of the car. I was looking through it and there were children's silverware in there. I had two chocolate chip cookies and my dad wanted me to microwave his so it would be warm. The microwave was also in the back. I handed him his cookie and then thought it was odd that mine was warm too. Then I realized I had taken his microwaved cookie and given him my cold one. We were parked next to a lake and there was a huge crane or tractor in it. We saw it starting to tip over and then the whole thing submerged in it. No one was going to it or concerned. I was worried at first, but then thought.. if no one is running, then there must not be anyone inside the tractor. It seems they were building a bridge across the lake and there were huge rectangular rocks they were using for the foundation. I looked in the lake and then saw a man float to the top. My heart sank but then he moved and was still alive. Then I was in my friend's (PC) house. It wasn't her real one. A friend of ours was over (BM) and he was telling us about a new project he wanted to work on. It was similar to what he started doing. They were photos of people or women, but it wasn't about the outcome of the photos but about breaking your shell. They would pose in ways or make faces that were out of character to stretch their boundaries. He was really excited about it. He was also fixing a desk area in PC's house. He wanted to make it simple. It was a tiny tiny desk made of glass, metal and mirror. The more he moved it the more it became simple. It had curly metal legs and a box top and another piece that was a box that sat inside. Then I dreamt that I was getting ready for school, but I was late. I was questioning if I should go. I had math first and I knew it already, so it didn't seem important. I was wearing clothes not of my taste... white shoes, long ruffly skirt in denim and a pink and white top that some how all looked good together.

caves

First I dreamt I was waiting for a ride to somewhere. I think my aunt (IE) was going to pick me up. I was waiting near a junk yard of sorts. More of a piles of well used items yard. It wasn't smelly or gross, just lots of things in one place in a disorderly fashion ... and dirt. Then I was walking back through the living spaces. There were some people there I didn't quite know, but knew in the dream. It felt like caves, but caves that had old tree roots growing through them like you see in some tropical Asian countries. I was trying to point out some things I had seen to the guys. I think I was looking for statues or other symbolic old relics. Again, it was kind of dirty, but not smelly, gross or horrible. It was more earthy and interesting and I wanted to see more.

journey

I dreamt that I spent a day with this woman (MS). She isn't someone I know well. She is a doctor, smart, reserved, nice .... but neutral. We have never spent much time together so there is nor good or bad chemistry... I spent they day with her going places. We walked in a park, drove in a car, ran errands. I wasn't sure why I was driving her around. I was trying to be nice? or helpful maybe? But I didn't feel like I was going out of my way nor did I feel that warm feeling you can get from helping someone. I just felt like time spent, with no emotion, activities done, with no emotion. Nothing good, nothing bad.

molds..

I dreamt that for who knows why... someone made molds of my nipples. I had no feeling attached to it although possibly just that it was odd. I saw a few of them on a table.. well the objects that were made from them. There were several other people's on the table as well. I recognized mine immediately which I also thought was odd, because they are not something I study per say.

hair clip

I dreamt I was with this guy (GH). My hair was up in a hair clip and a little frazzled. The guy took it out of my hair and broke it. He said.. "who you trying to be? Debbie Gibson??" I was upset with him and asked him why he would do that and why did he have to break the clip. It really hurt my feelings.

suitcases

I dreamt I had been looking in a catalog for suitcases. I more or less knew what I wanted. A carry-on that was high quality (wouldn't fall apart). I woman came in and I got excited because I recognized the suitcases as some that I had seen in the catalog. It was a package deal where you would get several shapes and sizes of suitcases, in multiple colors, but the quality wasn't so great. I was worried that after having shown excitement, my mom and others would think that is something I wanted. I had no way of letting them know because the woman was still in the room and I didn't want to hurt her feelings.

arrondissements

I dreamt that I was showing my mom a cabin. It was dark wood inside with peaks and many rooms. I think we planned on staying there. There was a woman that was showing us the place. The place was nice but it felt awkward, too many rules, too many people and their "ways." Then there was a train. But although I was in it or thinking of going in it and on the journey, it was like I was watching it move from above on a map. I could see how the city was arranged. The train stopped in the middle of the city, and there were 5 sections. Each section touched the train track. It was as if you lined up 5 rectangles in a row and then placed a stick so it ran down the middle. In my dream I called the sections rende(douce)ment (rende=make, douce=soft, ment=ly in French).... although I think I meant arrondissements (which is districts).

pumpernickel mouth

My car was parked next to a park or green space. I was looking through the trunk. I had some old papers and memorabilia stored in there. I took a pile and sat on the ground and looked through them. Some of the items felt valuable ....worth money due to their age etc. and some I wondered why I kept... and why I kept multiples. I had a collage I made of different colors.. light blue with a gold structure and a pink color. I had three versions of it. I thought it was nice, pretty, made me feel good but why did I make three versions of the same thing? I decided to keep them. And after the decision was again wondering.. why am I keeping them and why all three again. After not seeing them this long and forgetting that I owned them... Then myself and some guy were going somewhere. Down the street? something felt lost, late or confused about it. Then I was in my friend's (MB) apartment. He had a new roommate and I was finally going to meet him. He had told me the guy was a redhead, but he ended up being a very petite Indian guy. He was very nice. He had a fancy espresso machine set up in the kitchen. I knew my friend didn't like it but I found out how it would be beneficial to him, so I was excited to confirm it with the new roommate. The old kitchen sink had been removed to hold a small bar sink. I had asked MB about it and he said it was his other roommate that put it in right before he left, and he would switch it back later. So I walked around the counter where he had installed a temporary large sink. MB was going on and on about how the pavement outside was the strongest pavement out there right now. It was a lower grade, but it was like he was defending it. It was between the pavement and the Formica... that was the strongest this and that. Then I was in kind of a nice home. It had a really nice outdoor/deck area and cozy inside. It was also well equipped. It felt nice to be there. I had a boyfriend in the dream and he was nice also. Very caring and sharing. Then his mother came home unexpectedly. It was actually her home. She was pleasant enough but also there was a bit of fear I felt around her. Nothing outwardly, but I knew she could change things for he and I in an instant with her comments. My friends MG and PC stopped by as well. It was a pleasant visit and nice to see them but I almost felt about them like I did the mother... well one of them and the other was the "nice" one. - - - - Then I was dreaming of some woman that seemed out of the 50s but from another country. Kind of a simple minded busy body. Chatty, smiley, not easily understanding things... she was supposed to learn a new language and needed to get on it quickly. There was a human head on the wall.. it was hers... almost? and talking to her as well. It was telling her of what she needed to get done. They eyes kept trying to follow her, but they kept going in the opposite direction from where she was standing as if the "mechanism" wasn't working and/or was connected backwards. When I first saw the mouth move, it looked like the little rye rounds for finger sandwiches... almost like a muppet, but then she was human again.

rencontre

I dreamt a friend of mine (TB) was writing to her old boss in email. She was telling him what "rencontre" meant... The email had a black background with chalk lettering. The feeling was uncomfortable. It was like being in a place I didn't belong or didn't fit in or didn't understand and it didn't understand me.

freedom

woke up with this song in my head this morning: Freedom George Michael I won't let you down I will not give you up Gotta have some faith in the sound It's the one good thing that I've got I won't let you down So please don't give me up Because I would really, really love to stick around Heaven knows I was just a young boy Didn't know what I wanted to be I was every little hungry schoolgirl's pride and joy And I guess it was enough for me To win the race? A prettier face! Brand new clothes and a big fat place On your rock and roll TV But today the way I play the game is not the same No way Think I'm gonna get me some happy I think there's something you should know I think it's time I told you so There's something deep inside of me There's someone else I've got to be Take back your picture in a frame Take back your singing in the rain I just hope you understand Sometimes the clothes do not make the man All we have to do now Is take these lies and make them true somehow All we have to see Is that I don't belong to you And you don't belong to me Freedom You've gotta give for what you take Freedom You've gotta give for what you take Heaven knows we sure had some fun boy What a kick just a buddy and me We had every big shot good-time band on the run boy We were living in a fantasy We won the race Got out of the place I went back home got a brand new face For the boys on MTV But today the way I play the game has got to change Oh yeah Now I'm gonna get myself happy I think there's something you should know I think it's time I stopped the show There's something deep inside of me There's someone I forgot to be Take back your picture in a frame Don't think that I'll be back again I just hope you understand Sometimes the clothes do not make the man All we have to do now Is take these lies and make them true somehow All we have to see Is that I don't belong to you And you don't belong to me Freedom You've gotta give for what you take Freedom You've gotta give for what you take Well it looks like the road to heaven But it feels like the road to hell When I knew which side my bread was buttered I took the knife as well Posing for another picture Everybody's got to sell But when you shake your ass They notice fast And some mistakes were built to last That's what you get I say that's what you get That's what you get for changing your mind And after all this time I just hope you understand Sometimes the clothes Do not make the man I'll hold on to my freedom May not be what you want from me Just the way it's got to be Lose the face now I've got to live

baby hippo

I was in a classroom right before class was to start. I was stressed and I think I was about to either start a paper, hand in a paper, or take a test. I knew I wasn't doing well in the class, but I couldn't understand why. I was smart, I always did well. I talked to my instructor to see how well I was faring. She was not warm and fuzzy about it. She showed me a paper that said C+ on it. I was upset and said C+!! Really? How???? I walked out the front steps of the school. I was telling a friend the story and I was still upset. I ended up laying in an air mattress in the fountain near the steps. It was a square pool of water. There was a hippo in there. I had always thought of hippos as cute and nice. It was rummaging around and I felt safe enough. But then as I was flipping through some papers from the class, and I saw it eyeing the papers and it came over and snatched one and started chewing. I was getting nervous as it kept circling me, so I decided to get out. Then it saw my flip flops on the far side, so I raced it there so it wouldn't eat those too. It seemed to be gobbling up my "me" artifacts. Then I was talking to a couple of friends (PC, RP). I told them that I was going to babysit a baby hippo that night. I was explaining how small (harmless) and cute they were. Then I was in an indoor pool of sorts. It was encased in glass with a door closing it off from the rest of the building. I went into the pool. I think this is where I was supposed to watch the hippo. I looked around... everything was light blue and the glass was steamed up. There was a seal in the water... I looked right at it.. no effect. Then I saw what seemed to be a unicorn... but also was a mermaid with light hair. When I saw the unicorn I was thinking... I wonder why people don't believe that these existed on land when they clearly exist in water?? Then it was a mermaid and I kept avoiding her. I had that kind of fear that is at the pit of your stomach and heart... not horror movie scared, but fear of the unknown becoming known...and once it is known, you have to do something about it. I kept avoiding her eyes and she kept swimming closer trying to get my attention. She couldn't speak like a human, so I knew once our eyes connected, she would be able to say something to me.... and worse yet, she would know that I knew what she said. Then I was in a room. I was writing a book. It all started making sense. All of my experiences and thoughts were lining up. I was sitting next to a friend (JS). He seemed sage in my dream. I was asking him questions, but he would not answer my question, but guide me into having to answer it myself. I tried to kiss him on the neck to move to a nice feeling, but he avoided it. Then my contacts (which I don't wear) came out. They were much larger than normal contacts. I told them this had never happened. I had been wearing them for a year. He told me that wasn't a good idea. My eyes felt a little scratchy, but I noticed I could see better without them. I found them both on the floor and one had cracked. I couldn't put them back in anyway, but we put the one that was whole in some solution.

mickey mouse carpet

I dreamt I was in a workshop with a group of people. They were from all walks of life. I was feeling a little lost and possibly behind. Then the instructor said the ones that know the least, change (benefit) the most. Then I felt a little better. We were all leaving the workshop and going back to our cars, although I hadn't driven. The older man with white hair and a big belly said..." you know, you are about the size of my (title of job - meaning a man who puts in sinks)." He was saying it in a way that he was pondering me doing it. His XX always complained about his job and he wanted someone who could just come in and do the work, do what they were paid for. He said he would keep me in mind. It made me think...how nice that would be as a boss. To have someone do what they were asked to do, paid to do, without the resistance. Then I thought about myself in my own work and how much I'm the one resisting and shuddered. I continued walking, since I needed to walk to get to where ever my home was. It seemed like a picturesque town. IT was small, quaint, with hills and little streets. A guy I went to high school with (DZ) was there and said he could walk with me. We walked down a dirt street with one side lined with little shops. I looked in one. It was painted red inside and had large old planks of wood for the floors. They were not finished, but they were smooth from ware and had space between the planks. At the very end was a counter and to the right was a barrel bbq. I realized it was a woman I used to work with's place. I told DZ... hey, I know her.... she just opened up this bbq place. I was thinking.. hmm maybe I should help her with her biz. We walked by some remnants of a construction site. There were left over pieces of counter and wood paneling. DZ said let me show you something. One of the pieces of wood panel had a stain on it. He took a piece of cardboard and placed it underneath. All of a sudden the stain started changing levels of dark. Then it started to fade until it was gone. I was amazed and said "how neat! now they can use it!" Then it continued to change. He told me that it will have an affect at the end and it will look fuzzy. They call it the bear fur affect. I went up to it and touched it and sure enough, the surface had tiny fibers all over it and the paneling had changed to a brightly colored design with Mickey Mouse in the middle wearing a marching band outfit and blue and yellow triangles decorating the edges. I was thinking hmmm... that would be fun to do in Vegas (for some reason). But when I thought that, the procedure turned to the lighting of a match causing the change to happen. Then I saw a film that happened in the same place in Vegas I was thinking of. And these mental inmates were dancing around. One man in particular was the main character. He had long hair and was dancing oddly.

jupitor

Woke up with this tune in my head: Drops Of Jupiter lyrics Songwriters: Hotchkiss, Robert S; Monahan, Pat; Stafford, James W; Underwood, Scott Michael; Colin, Charlie; Now that she's back in the atmosphere With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey She acts like summer and walks like rain Reminds me that there's a time to change, hey Since the return from her stay on the moon She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey But tell me, did you sail across the sun? Did you make it to the Milky Way To see the lights all faded And that heaven is overrated? Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star? One without a permanent scar And then you missed me While you were looking for yourself out there? Now that she's back from that soul vacation Tracing her way through the constellation, hey She checks out Mozart while she does Tae-Bo Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey Now that she's back in the atmosphere I'm afraid that she might think of me as Plain ol' Jane told a story about a man Who was too afraid to fly so he never did land But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet? Did you finally get the chance To dance along the light of day And head back to the Milky Way? And tell me, did Venus blow your mind? Was it everything you wanted to find? And then you missed me While you were looking for yourself out there Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken Your best friend always sticking up for you Even when I know you're wrong? Can you imagine no first dance, freeze-dried romance Five-hour phone conversation The best soy latte that you ever had, and me? But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet? Did you finally get the chance To dance along the light of day And head back toward the Milky Way? But tell me, did you sail across the sun? Did you make it to the Milky Way To see the lights all faded And that heaven is overrated? And tell me, did you fall for a shooting star? One without a permanent scar And then you missed me While you were looking for yourself? And did you finally get the chance To dance along the light of day? And did you fall for a shooting star? Fall for a shooting star? And now you're lonely looking for yourself out there

almond quartz

I dreamt I was taking some sort of class. The man was rattling off sentences we had to create based on subjects. Sounds easy, but in the dream it was challenging. I was listing the subjects quite quickly and I couldn't write them down fast enough. I told someone sitting next to me .. that this was nuts. How does he expect us to get this done. I heard one of the subjects that stuck in my memory. Something about almond quartz. I had never heard of almond quartz before... how was I supposed to write an intelligent sentence on it? I just happened to have an encyclopedia in my lap. I looked up almond quartz.. it had been discovered by a Dr. Almond, but the book didn't list any of the qualities about it.

motorcycle

Dreamt there was a slow motorcycle drivign along side me. I was thinking I wanted one just like it. It would be perfect, small, less gas, not as dangerous etc.

linen

Dreamt something about white linen pants... they looked great when I bought them but now they were not what I thought...

rubber hearts

I dreamt that I was in my dad's old house. My step mom was showing me some measuring spoons.. I saw that she had quite a few unique ones and I asked if she was collecting them and she said yes. Then she was showing me little rubber hearts. Almost like heart shaped rubber bands but they did not stretch. She had a yellow board that had pegs like for keys, to hang them on. She also was collecting sets of these. I was feeling a little odd about it.. kind of sad that she would her time and money on this. I was with a guy.. no one I knew, but in the dream we were kind of an item. We went to the basement of the house (although my dad's house had no basement). It was all fixed up and was sort of a family room with a tv etc. We were sitting on the couch watching tv. He said... why don't you keep the house (meaning my dad's house as though it was going to be sold). In my mind I felt a little defensive with him telling me what I had already decided. I said ..."of course I want to keep the house." And then he went on ... we can live here, get married... have a baby etc. Then I realized he was being nice and not pushy. ---- I had a dream that the VP of the company where I work and I were on a work trip. We were walking up to the hotel and he said... "We are staying there?!?!?!?! It is too expensive!" I said... it is what it is... knowing I had already exhausted the other options. There was a huge blow up pool in the back. I went in there and my mom was there taking a swim. I was going to join but I wasn't sure I brought a swim suit.

dreams

woke up to this song yesterday You Make My Dreams Come True Hall & Oats What I want, you've got And it might be hard to handle But like the flame that burns the candle The candle feeds the flame What I've got's full stock of thoughts and dreams that scatter You pull them all together And how, I can't explain But You make my dreams come true On a night when bad dreams become a screamer When they're messin' with the dreamer I can laugh it in the face Twist and shout my way out And wrape yourself around me 'Cause I ain't the way that you found me I'll never be the same 'Cause You make my dreams come true I'm down on the daydream That sleepwalk should be over by now I know that You make my dreams come true"

sleeping

I dreamt that I was walking around these fields. It was an event or a bar or... Each field was a square and was set up differently. One was covered a little, others were open and people were walking around, talking or choosing a field to be in. There were chairs in some and tables, lights strung around the border. I was walking and looking and it started to rain. It was refreshing. I fell asleep in one in a bed. It was a nice sleep. Then the CFO from work said hello. I thought I should get up. He said when ever you can sleep in .. take advantage of it because you can't always sleep well. He was telling me how he and the CEO were trying to put curtains around this field and they worked so hard... and then realized something was backwards and had to do it again. He and another coworker were waiting with me for my ride to show up. I said something about if they were worried about snow tonight. She balked. In the dream they lived on a hill where I grew up where the wealthier people in town lived. She said something about there being a lot of trucks up there, so there would be no problem. I was thinking ... ice is ice, but I would just not say anything.

chicks

I dreamt I was taking a train to somewhere. I was talking to two guys. One named Frank and the other Eugene. I thought Eugene liked me because he was so chatty, but it ended up that Frank did. We were going to some house party. We had to dress in costumes for a non serious reenactment of some sort. The costumes were cheap... mainly covered your front with ties in the back. The kind you could slip on over your clothes. Men were "fighting" and playing... women were in the "house' Then my brother and his wife and I left. I was talking to this man, Mortie. He was telling me of some discoveries. My brother was listening too. I was glad because I wanted him to hear them, and thought he would listen to this guy more than me. I was telling Mortie some tools I used besides his tools. How well they worked together etc. He was listening and interested. My brother quit listening and had to go, so we left. Then I was on a messy back sun porch gathering things.. My sister in law was asking something. Then man pulled my aside to talk about Frank. Frank was saying there was a house deal I might want to look at. It was 4k for the first month, but then no contract and you could get your money back and leave. I thought it was too much work for one month. Frank and I walked to a store. He was getting something to eat and I was going for the walk. I saw a red ball to buy that would turn into a live little red monkey on your shoulder. We noticed all of these eggs had fallen on the floor near the registers. Half of the eggs had hatched and there were baby chicks everywhere. Two Asian women had little piles of chicken legs with feathers on them. They were not going to where the packaged chicken was as they thought why not.. it is fresh and free. I was trying to wave they baby chicks away so they would be safe.

magazine sorting

I dreamt that I was at a vacation house with my coworkers. It was uncomfortable, I didn't want to be there and I was just doing what was necessary to keep busy to avoid having to interact. People were sitting at the dining table, so I went in search for glasses. I knew they wanted drinks, so I was looking for rocks glasses. My mom was there too hobnobbing and asking people questions, the same people I wanted to avoid. There were a stack of magazines that were a mess... another thing could do to keep busy. I went over to start sorting them. They were in fact in the way. My mom loudly asked why are you organizing the magazines? You don't have to do that right now... Drawing attention to me and the activity that was not necessary. I looked at her with a "shush!" look and she kind of had a mean grin with her eyes and kept on.

water tunnel

I dreamt I was sitting in the sand with a boyfriend (Mathieu Amalric). We were watching the waves. It felt dangerous but at the same time we were in love, so nothing else really seemed to matter. Then we saw a large water tunnel... like you see when someone is surfing. It was beautiful to watch, but we knew it would come crashing down on everything. We were mesmerized and didn't move. There were cars, buses, all rolled over. I saved a baby.... but my boyfriend died. A matriarchal woman came over as though she knew him or as if it she was a mechanic and he was the type of car she worked on. She pulled on him by his legs and started removing his clothes. I was thinking that she was preparing him for burial. Then she mentioned that he had no testicles. Huh? She said yeah... (like of course... as if she had cut them off herself). It was strange and violating feeling. Then I woke up with this song: take me down Alabama Fly away with me tonight. Take me on a one-way flight in your lovin' arms, and ev'rything's gonna be alright. You're the one who took my hand when no one else could understand. You're the one who moves me like nobody else can. Chorus: Take me down where I wanna be. Turn around, the man who lives inside of me. Take me down and love me all night long. Hold me close and make me strong. Take me down. Take me down tonight. In your eyes I see the light. It's your emotions glowin' bright. So keep the fires burnin', and let it warm me through the night. You can be a part of me, 'cause you're what love was meant to be. You and me, baby, we'll set the flame inside free. Chorus You don't have to stay forever Let's just put our hearts together, share another night in ecstasy. We know that it's feelin' better ev'ry time we get together. Maybe love was meant for you and me. Whoa, take me down where I wanna be. Turn around, the man who lives inside of me. Take me down and love me all night long. Hold me close and make me strong. Take me down. Take me down tonight. Take me down tonight. Take me down tonight. Take me down tonight.

grace

I dreamt a guy was singing some song. The chorus went "We all live in the grace of ...*mumble mumble*..." I said is he saying the grace of god? He said no, "the grace of love."

badger

I dreamt that the lead singer of van halen and I were performing. We were both wearing striped sweaters and switched them. I went to a cafe. I was hungry. I picked out a table to sit and there was a place setting. I was sitting for a bit and then decided to get up and look for food. I wanted breakfast but couldn't find any booth or counter that was open. Then I found one for smoothies and saw another area where they had packages of smoked fish and swiss cheese. A man said hi to me and was very nice. Then a delivery guy said hello and was polite and said I looked nice. Then I talked to a nice old man and his wife. I went to walk back to my seat and there was an asian man there in a green polo shirt and glasses. He was reading my journal. I said hello and then he was embarrassed. I told him not to be and it was find and he could keep reading if he liked. We sat there and then he saw a small animal. We couldn't figure out what it was... a ferrit? a?? Then we saw it was scared. Then other furry animals came near us. One was a chocolate brown squirrel. We saw that a large badger was coming for them and told them one of them would be eaten. I picked up the squirrel. I wasn't sure it was a good idea. If it ran, it may have gotten away.... but may have been more chased after then caught. If I held it, would I be able to save it?

First I dreamt of my friends KS and C and he was talking about horse racing and how he wins at cheating. He was being pretty funny. Then I dreamt of MM and he was talking to me and helping me move. He wasn't moving boxes, but he was helping me decide what to move and remember where I had things. We both had ipads and were trying to get information from one to another. I asked.. can we move sand (meaning information) from one ipad to the next by tilting them towards each other? or do we need chords? I think in this instance, we needed chords. Then I was looking at an old light fixture I once had. It had lights at the end of long bendable tubes. I had forgotten about it. Then I dreamt I was looking at a series of grave stones. It was a kind of puzzle. You looked at them in order and they would make a sentence. Some of them were supposed to be obvious and the idea was to figure out the first word that would be more difficult. A cross looked like an ampersand so was an and... I forget the rest of the sentence but the first word was a phrase "horse and rider" but the stone was two horses.. one holding the rope that was around the other horse and leading him.

soccer, Guadi, sun, snow suit, little girl

I dreamt I was part of a sports team. I was official etc., but I had never done the sport and was with all of these people with experience. I was kind of excited but also nervous. I think normally I would have been scared to death. We were getting ready to go and there were lots of things to do to get ready. Some people were packing up in a bus, others were in a pool, I was I guess in both. I don't know if we played soccer or it was a swimming event. It felt like the aggressive and competitiveness of soccer, but there just happened to be a pool. We were all gathered on the bus at one point with our bags, but then I found out that was just the meeting place and we had to take some other mode of transportation to the game. Didn't make sense to me. - - - - - - - - Then I was on some sandy mountains. I could see that they would fall apart under your feet. It would be a struggle to climb, if not impossible. They were situation right next to the ocean. Then I was out in the ocean with some people. A woman that seemed to have been giving us information and some young girls. I looked back at the mountains, with a preconception of how dangerous the mountains would be if you were to leave the ocean at that point. I had imagined that you would be crushed against he rocks by the waves. But when I looked back... the ocean was calm and the mountains looked smooth. We swam over to this other area with odd shapes. They were rounded, with large openings almost as if a giant bug with Guadi skills, made them out of mud. We looked inside them. They were very expansive inside. The woman was explaining how they had been decorated. They were beautiful. The ceilings were ornate and full of different colors and light. Although intellectually I knew there was nothing really to fear, something about looking inside them made me feel fearful or anxious in my heart area. I didn't know what I would find. ------------ Then I was with an old friend (KM) and we were in classes. She was her usual laughing talkative self. She was talking about things to friends. I would try to add in conversation, but for the most part just listened. I was doubtful of what I had to add and if I had the energy to spend to add. I was in one class and there were few students that had arrived yet. I was waiting and then realized I was in some sort of trouble. I had done something, small, unintentional, but still, by my hands, so I was in the wrong. I was waiting to be addressed. This man that looked official came to me, he said they had also found something in the past that I had done that would show a record of this sort of behavior. I looked at report. It said I had thrown some red beans while in a restaurant. I was scared... yes.. this could be seen as out of control. I looked again, then it read edamame and I was with a group of friends and we were all just having fun. Argh... so frustrating that things out of context could be used against you.Then he pulled me aside. I was ready for him to take me away. He walked me to a chalk board and talked about the sun. He drew it and then some equations. He said do you know the light that orbits the son.. it shows up and then ?? explodes. I thought I had a jist of what he was talking about but could not articulate it. I decided to just play dumb and let him explain more. He drew something but also showed up in my minds' eye. It was some thing that looked man made. He said no... it wasn't man made. But it happens and it will explode... it was darker than the sun and blueish green. It was just a phenomena, nothing to be concerned about, but he seemed intent on showing me and that it was important that I know it... and almost that it was special to know and that I needed to help him. That although these things I did "wrong" were punishable, they were also showing that I could take on this task. Some other people came by and interrupted him, so I went back to class. I was closing up the computer and the wall paper on the computer kept changing as did the icons. I figured when I restarted, it would all come back fresh again. -------------- Then I dreamt I was shopping for some clothes. They would be for a special activity. I think underwater. I was looking for the least hideous pair. A guy friend was with me and my step mom. I found what I thought were good ones, but they turned into being a gray snow jumpsuit. I guess I needed that as well, so it was kind of a bonus. But then there was a long coat that went to my feet that went with. I thought it was a bit over the top. It was red and long and I really didn't care for it. It had a gray kick pleat in the back. My guy friend thought I should get it and it would be useful. - - - - - - - - Then I was (almost like watching tv) was watching two men... but was insides the ones head as well. They were sitting and chatting. The one said he hadn't had sex in a long time and quit giving him such a hard time (in a playful way). The guy then played a recording of a phone message. The one had accidentally called him during his last sexual encounter that was recent. He was caught... they laughed. Then there was a little girl on the bed.. about 4. She was in her undies and was giggling... They immediately became responsible and told her to go find her mom. little girl

tomatoes

I dreamt my friend PC and I were walking and looking for a place to eat. We walked by this Irish pub. It had white and yellow wall paper on the walls with dark wood beams. I wanted to go there and knew she might not like it. I said, want to try this place? And we were both hungry, so we went. It was crowded and we finally found a place in the back. She ordered for us. When the food arrived, she had some cozy food, like shepard's pie etc. and I had plain romaine lettuce and tomatoes and another plate of tomatoes. I was a bit disappointed. I had a ton of tomatoes at home, I didn't want to eat more.

Love ... Thy Will Be Done

I woke up with this song in my head this morning Love... Thy Will Be Done Love, thy will be done I can no longer hide I can no longer run No longer can I resist the guiding light It gives me the power to keep up the fight Love...thy will be done Since I have found you my life has just begun And I see all of your creations as one Perfect complex No one less beautiful or more special than the next We are all blessed and so wise to accept Thy will love be done Love, thy will be mine And make me strive for the glorious and divine I could not be more, more satisfied (satisfied…) Even when there's no peace outside my window There's peace inside And that's why I no longer run (I no longer run) Love thy will be done Love, thy will be done I can no longer hide I can no longer run (no….) Love, thy will be done Thy will love be done No longer can I resist (no..) the guiding light (guiding light) The light that gives me power to keep up the fight I couldn’t be more satisfied (no…) Even when there's no peace outside my window There is peace inside And that's why I can no longer run Love thy will be done (thy will be done, done, done…) Love, thy will be done I can no longer hide I can no longer run Love, thy will be done Thy will love be done Love, thy will be done I can no longer hide I can no longer run (no….) Love, thy will be done Thy will love be done… Thy will love be done… Thy will love be done

army men

I dreamt I was with my dad. We were needing to use up some time while waiting to do something else. We went into this building that was having some sort of event. They had plexi-glass boxes full of things. One had black army men (like the green army men, but more modern looking). We were going to go to a Thai Toy exhibit, but went through another one first. There were lots of bugs and worms and it was kind of annoying because they would jump on you. Then I was shopping and everything I found was in a size 4.

Barbie corvette

I dreamt I was going through some boxes of things. Everything felt cluttered. I looked through the boxes and found lots of old clothes. I hadn't seen them since the 80s. There were some sweaters in colors I haven't worn in years. I tried to see if anything was salvageable, but I decided to get rid of it all. I didn't know it had existed still until that day. Then someone knocked on my door. It was a man and his son. He was asking for toy donations. I remembered I had run across some Barbie items (a corvette, a jeep and a tent). I thought for a second and said yes. I went to go get the items feeling good that it would free up a lot of space. I was about to tell them to look it up on ebay before just donating the toys. I figured they would get more money that they could use for their cause, but then decided against it. I was letting it go, which meant letting it all go. Then I went into the kitchen. My friend (MB) had been cooking. I saw he had used a grater that I had planned on returning. He had not only used it, he had mangled it. I was a little disappointed, but at the same time.... it was only $25. And what is that compared to peace of mind and friendship.

video

I dreamt I was listening to a video "radio" station. The BeeGees were one. I think it was some song with the word dance in it, and I don't think it was a BeeGees song. My brother wanted me to change it. I told him I didn't have control, it was the station. The BeeGees were wearing white and light blue jump suits. I was telling my brother that I didn't realize how fit they were. They looked like they had dancers' bodies.

stuffed fish

My friend PC and I in line for paper work for the government. Kind of a yearly renewal of citizenship. There were a few Mexican ladies in line. One was crying hoping that they wouldn't take her little girl away. She was holding on to her. I was worried that she was scaring the little girl and I found the necessary paperwork to help them. PC was taking a while filling out her forms, so I went in front of her, then she was done, so back behind and so on. While I was waiting I noticed it was snowing in the building. There was a sort of opening in the middle. It was really pretty. There were tiny houses on the counter and they were getting snowy. It was nice - - - - Then I had a dream I was walking home with my dad, step-mom, brother and his wife. There was a tree growing in the middle of the sidewalk and someone put an iron bar there to protect it. At that same location, a rhododendron was sticking out. My dad decided to break the branch and then realized it was dead and the whole bush came out. My brother and him quickly got a stone turtle to over the whole where the bush was. We kept walking home. I got home first and changed clothes. I had a multicolored shirt on, not my style, and black pants. The house was bare. It had recently been remodeled and had one antique loveseat in the corner and not many other places to sit. It only had two bedrooms. One was mine, but Walter Matthau was going to be moving in. I thought that might be nice. I didn't know his real personality, but he might have some good stories to tell. Then they came in. Charlotte was wearing a new dress and asked if I liked it. I did. Then she was saying that god told her that he was going to give me twins. And she was teary eyed in a happy way. My dad rolled his eyes. I just sat there on the couch playing with a stuffed fish.

belly button

I dreamt that I had a very large belly button. I was with my friend MB and we were sitting around drinking water. I looked down and it was as big as an ice cream scoop. I was think I had better do something about it.

boss

I dreamt I was living with my coworkers. We all had bedroom in an office like setting and some rooms were nicer than others. I didn't have one of the nice rooms as I was new. One of my coworkers had left the company, so I was going to be able to change to a better room. The one I was offered was very nice, but very close to the owner. I realized there was another one farther away and it had its own bathroom. I told them I wanted that one instead. When I went to look at it, I realized it was oddly shaped and it had some strange sinks etc. in it. It was originally built to be a dentist's office. I didn't care for that part, but I thought it still was better to be farther away from the others. WE all ended up sitting in some living room. I was sitting next to the owner and we had office cats. HE was petting one of them and telling people about it. He told me he had an upset stomach and asked me to rub it. I was uncomfortable and was not sure what to do. I did, as it was simple enough. Then a colleague of his came in. I had met him before (in my dream), but the owner reintroduced me as if it was the first time and the colleague played along. The owner had taken a liking to me in the dream and so the colleague was being very nice to me. I had a sailing trip planned and mentioned that I wouldn't be able to make a certain event due to that. The owner said he knew but cancelled the approval, so that I wouldn't be going. I knew in my mind I would whether it cost me my job or not. I kept quiet for the time being until I figured out what to do next.