the stairs

I dreamt an ex boyfriend BW, called and I think I was going to drop something off of his, or pick something up of mine. I went to his place and he wasn't home yet, which I was glad. The place was dark, and I went to go do what I was supposed to do, hoping to finish and leave. I think I noticed something, was thinking something that made me pause or was looking at a tv, to where I was in a mini trance for a moment. I was holding on to a door jam and just sitting there. Then I felt a warm hand touch mine. I looked over my shoulder and it was him. He held my hand for a bit and asked me to come over. I had a container in the other hand and said that I should take care of this first and would be over. I don't know if I was buying time to figure out what he wanted, how I wanted this to go, or just scared of closeness altogether. I went to move and I spilled some of the container. I told him it smelled like chicken stock and he said ... yes, it is chicken stock, but with a tone that it was much more. I got a towel to clean it up. He said he really wanted to talk about something. I think I asked what and he made a gesture... about this... meaning he and I and our last talk. I was excited he wanted to talk and at the same time a bit mistrusting, that it would just be him wanting to say why we were not together, or something else that meant we were not right.

Then I was driving. It seems I had finished there, but I'm not sure we talked. All that I knew was that I felt very woozy. I went to go park at a mall where I was going to run an errand. I got out of the car and was walking down a sidewalk in heels. I could barely stay up without checking my balance. A man was walking up. At first I thought it was my photography friend BM, he looked older and not as healthy, then I realized it was someone I didn't know. He saw that I was having some sort of trouble and he thought that I had wanted to go down some stairs before him. I told him no, but he insisted saying he would take the way through the store. I should have taken the way through the store... as it would have led me to where I wanted to go without stairs, but I felt it was too late to change direction, I didn't want to keep moving forward.  I knew I could do it with concentration. I held on to the railing and started my first step down the stairs. They were metal and had a cut out pattern in them that you could see through, and get a heel stuck on. I was woozier than I thought. I was wishing I had just taken the way through the store now. It would have been simple, but i wanted to avoid him and something felt like cheating going that route. I held on tight and slid down to the step, heel to mid calf until I could feel the step. I carried on that way to the first landing. The second half of stairs had no railing, but it looked more solid. Cement steps instead of metal and I could see my destination, which made me feel more solid. 

The Red Book

I dreamt that I was helping a professor friend (BB) find some supporting info for a class if his. And so we went to the campus bookstore... A young, but knowledgeable kid was helping us and instead of looking for the "hard facts" information that he wanted, he kept reading quotes out of a book. They didn't seem related at first, but they were in a big picture, abstract theory sort of way. I asked him which book he was reading this from, and he held up a well worn book whose pages were detaching from the spine. He had to juggle to get the cover back around it and it was the The Red Book by Carl Jung.

new job

I dreamt I was in a large bed with two of my friends. I was just been hired to a new job, but it hadn't started yet. A woman who was very high up in the business showed up at my place. I was still in my pajamas and my friends were still in the bed. She had taken a keen interest in me and wanted to make sure I was ready for the job. She gave me a book and said that I would need to study this before starting. She went through and circled the important chapters for me. She also was going to set me up for an appointment with her?? hypnotist? or...?? some sort of healing person so that I would be better prepared. It was an expensive appointment. I felt honored that she was there helping me. Then she left. I then spoke to my friends saying.. oy! I can't believe she didn't say anything about us all being in the same bed. I wonder what she thinks??

Then I was leaving. I was going to go to a movie, but in order to go, you had to be in a long line. I had somehow been lucky and was at the front of the line, where others would have to wait for hours, if not a day or two to see a movie. I had left my place in line, because I realized my friends were not with me yet. Part of me wanted to jump back in line and part of me wanted to follow my gut.

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Then I dreamt that my friend AS, who is currently pregnant, was looking for some dresses. I thought that I might have something for her and showed it to her. It seems everything I showed her, she wasn't impressed with or had already had something similar. I had a blue dress that I could have offered her as well, but I kind of wanted to keep it for myself. I had a bit of an internal tug of war on whether or not I was being selfish, or if it was ok for me to keep the dress. 

can't buy me love....

I dreamt that I was a coworker, but I felt like I was either a boss.... or I was very involved in the concern of the work being done. So was I a boss? or needing to control the situation?? I was working with a guy (Sam from The Whitest Kids You Know). I was trying to make work fun. I had music, food and so on... he just seemed annoyed. I left the room to go do my own work and he closed the door. There was another coworker, a woman ... I could hear them talking and making fun of me. I had bought food for them. They said they were going to lunch instead and left. I went into the room and I saw that they had thrown the food away. 

book by its cover

I dreamt I flew to a vacation island. It was a place where Europeans tend to go.  There was a man and his son there in their speedos. I looked at the son and he was oddly shaped (not a human shape really). His head was the shape of a weeble wobble and he had a bit of a curved back.  I feeling fleeted over me that I felt bad for him due to his shape. Then I looked at his father. He was a larger, older version of the same shape. He had a smile on his face and eyes. He looked truly happy and pleased. I then felt relieved and happy for them both... and maybe even a bit ashamed about my judgement.

changing colors

I dreamt that I was in a locker room. We were all on our way, we being a bunch of woman and one transvestite (man dressed as a woman), to a class on tango. One person didn't seem to have the right shoes for her feet. I found some shoes, but they were a  heavy wooly felt in a blue gray color. They looked like a man's loafer. The man/woman said they wouldn't do and would slow down the foot, so he found a pair of tango shoes that were too large and they would make those work some how.

Then I dreamt I was going to a cousin's wedding or some sort of family/religious event. My stepmother was there and my dad. Actually, a lot of my family was there. We were in a small church that, in the dream, seemed to have been used for many of the family functions. It was pretty. Inside was all old, well stained wood that was ornate and dark from they years. Everyone was piling in and I was in the back. I think I was ... either trying to be helpful or trying to stay out of the way. Really, more or less, I was staying away from all and observing as usual. I had some things in a bag, maybe more appropriate clothing to change into. I went to the bathroom to change, but then I seemed to be wearing a white pant suit that was embroidered from head to to with birds and other things. It wasn't obnoxious as it was the same color as the cloth. I had to go to the bathroom and I was looking for an open stall. There was an older lady in there and she seemed to be smiling at me sweetly. It seems she knew how I felt, knew that maybe I was stressed and empathized with me with her eyes. I found a stall that had three toilets in it. I had to go so bad, I didn't care. I seemed to have missed somehow and actually was going in the pants. :-/  I took them off and rinsed them and wrung them out. They were now wrinkled. I thought if i snapped them a couple of times it would come out. It did good enough and I went to put the pants back on, but then I saw all of the birds were now black, as if the water changed the color. Then other parts started changing color. I didn't like it at first and then I thought it might be better because it would be less dramatic then wearing an all white suit to the function. It seemed to only change color on the back. As I went to put it on, which it now was a skirt, it changed to all of the colors changing on the front, and there seemed to be a flair to it and more colors of purples, reds and so on. I just needed to put something on so I didn't care at this point.

I looked back at the "business end" of the church. I told my step mom I had sat up there last time when we sang for something. She half acknowledged me but was busy with something else on her mind. Then I know there was something about a baby... a step grandma not being happy ... ??

fighting the dragon

I dreamt that I was in a different type of world I think, as I was a mermaid. I seemed to have had a mentor person. It was a woman who seemed older, wiser, stronger and possibly darker in her heart. At least she wasn't very soft and sweet feeling. But she was there to help me and I followed what she said without question. I felt as if I paused to analyze her directions, it would just be one second too late to follow them. We were swimming up to a place where you needed to belong to be there, and I didn't belong. There was a type of moat around the place, although all of the people and buildings were on both sides of the moat. She was telling me almost telepathically that I needed to be here and start belonging, but I needed to get passed a dragon in the moat. It was an underwater dragon, about the size of a human. She had me swim in one direction with her and then I had to go back towards the dragon and face it. I thought I would have to kill it or it me, but that wasn't the case. I just had to swim towards it, acknowledge it almost, but not get swept up by or bitten by it. I followed her instructions almost as if my mind wasn't with me... my adrenalin and desire took over and my body moved. I made it. I came out of the water in a blue strapless dress, the bottom was fitted and flared out, mermaid style. I felt empowered and majestic walking over the grass to the lights and the people.  

ultimatum

I dreamt that I was in a building. At first it felt like a fancy school and then a business. There were interesting rooms in the building and it was all unique architecture, with lots of stained wood. One room was an auditorium. My coworkers were filing into the room and I felt as if I might have been a bit late. As I walked in, I could see there was something going on. Some of the people were standing, some were sitting, but the room wasn't settled. There was a man facing the room from the side entrance. He was in charge, and not just as a boss. It seemed he was powerful, and in control of everyone's fate somehow. He offered a new contract to everyone, but it was more like an ultimatum. You choose the contract, or you choose ?? getting fired? death?  I hadn't had the offer yet, as the man didn't see me. A group of women refused his contract. It didn't feel like tragedy though, it felt like they freed themselves from this man. I was happy for them or at least admired their decision.  Then the man and I sat down facing each other. He had a case and opened it. It was full of gold square shaped plates (not food... ). It filled the case in a kind of curve, almost as if it was some sort of game where cards are fanned out. He was making an offer to me...

aliens landed

I dreamt I was in a home sharing a room with other people. Initially, I had my own room, but I had to move back into another one with two other people. At first I internally resisted, but once I was in the room, I felt fine. There was a woman there. Kind of ugly, masculine, dark hair, short.... and we were doing an odd experiment sticking things up her nose. It was a legitimate experiment that she wanted to do, not something mean. She had some other things in there, a rubber toy and last, a baby carrot. I felt that it wasn't going right and it made my stomach turn to do it. I noticed she was bleeding, but I wasn't sure how to retrieve the items. I went to go get the help of my friend BB, because it was his experiment and he had the tool. I liked knowing I could go to him.

Then I was flying... out of the house, away over some grass and over a small town. It felt good to fly. I had either forgotten that I could or just not taken advantage of it in a while. I landed on a street and then all of a sudden I heard something in the air. I looked up, finally... aliens had come. It was no longer an idea, a myth. They were real and it seems we had known about it because we had special ships in the air flying to fight them. They were white ships made of thin material. It seemed like cloth, but I remember it seeming extremely advanced. I was taking photos with my phone, and so was my brother. I was worried they would take my phone away as I don't think we were supposed to witness any of this. I saw one of the pilots look over, but he continued on with what he was doing.

end of the road

I dreamt that I was going to the beach with my dad. We took Hwy 99. There has always been a sign there that has two routes, one that goes through town and one that circumvents it. I've always gone through the town, but decide for some reason to take the other route this time. It lead to a hangar and it seemed the road stopped right at the building. I figured due to the size of the doors on the hangar, you must be able to drive through it. I went to the building and checked with the people. A tall blond woman said yes, you do drive through and pointed me to another large door on the other side of the inside of the building. My dad was talking to someone else in the building as I went to inspect the door and see what was on the other side. I opened it and the pavement only went a few feet and perfectly ended...  and there was a hedge that you couldn't pass. So you couldn't really drive through. It was the end of the road and would have to go back and start again. 

corner office

I dreamt I went back to work at my last place of work (b*m*l). I was working away, doing everything appropriately, not complaining or looking for things to complain about... but I realized I stayed off in the corner. Certain people didn't even know that I came back to work there. The CEO did, but he wasn't a talker. I decided I should go be social, so I went to put a dish in the kitchen and I could see the President walking around. I felt my stomach sink. For some reason, I didn't want to see him and I felt that he didn't want to see me. 

convention

I dreamt that I was at a retreat. It felt very "done" as in it was very organized, hyped, and so on. The speakers had lots of energy and poise, almost in a 1980s sort of way. They looked the part, sounded the part, dotted their i's and crossed their t's, had all the right swags and details. I was curious, it seemed like it would be fun either way. I enjoyed the idea of being the one who could sit back and be lead through the day. My friend ASh was there. She looked as though she was enjoying the idea too. There were two main leaders. A perfectly dressed man, with a perfect physique, hair, face and posture and a woman, who was similar, but had a bit of ?? hmm she was tall, and looked like she was on a mission, the ring leader.  We were all currently sitting on the roof of a building. It was sunny out and it seemed as though the set was going to change a bit the next time we saw it. It didn't match the perfect of the rest of the scene.   The session broke and we all walked through the halls or lobby or where ever it is that we were. Everyone seemed to hustle and bustle to the next thing. I was exploring and enjoying the energy of the event and the surroundings. I loved hotels and conventions. Then I saw that the next session was about to begin. I forgot that we were to have supposed to showered and dressed up for the next session. I gathered my things and ran to find a shower. I went to several and it seemed they were all occupied.  I could see that some of the women were almost done, but I couldn't rely on them hurrying and I didn't want to test my patience. I finally found a shower room just as ASh was about to get there. I told her I would hurry. It seemed that it was open to a stair well and more.. but that seemed normal. I kept trying to put my things down and I could see that the female announcer had her dresses in there. It looked like she would be doing several costume changes at this event. They were full length strapless gowns, a red one, yellow and kelly green. I heard something over the speakers and the event had started. They had screens all over the lobby and I had a small screen in the bathroom of the event. I was wondering if I should just watch from there or if it would be appropriate to walk in mid session. I didn't want to be a target for this woman. I started noticing some other things... can't remember now... which made me think this was an odd event. I felt as if they were starting something... , gathering followers, it didn't feel right and I wanted to make sure ASh knew.

epoxy church

I dreamt I was with my mother in a church. The ceilings were huge and domed. It felt clean, 1950's like.. It felt like my grandpa was there. The ceiling was so high and lofty and lots of light poured in, but it was an epoxy ceiling. I thought it was odd in the first place to use a material like that in a church. I thought it was kind of a cost cutting product. Also, it didn't looked finished. I said.. look.... there is a grid and places where you could see the mold lift, other places where it is perfectly smooth. I would have thought if they left the grid framework, it was so they would do carvings or ornate ?? somethings in between ... and if not, they would have made it perfectly smooth. It felt unfinished... It felt cold... It felt fake...

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wine rules

I Dreamt I was at someone's house. This woman was a strong personality, probably wore the pants. She had long straight blondish hair, older, and seemed to have not time or desire for fixing herself up and/or being feminine, but she was nice and attracted people to her due to her strength and you felt comfortable around her. What you saw was what you got.We were moving clothing around on racks outside of the room where they belonged. Either they were redoing that room, or she was going through the clothes. I was trying to see which order to put them back in and which ones interested me. I think she was giving some of them away. I would pick up a top or?? and hold it in front of me at the mirror, trying to mix things that I normally wouldn't to see if I would come up with some new style or idea. Nothing seemed to work. Also, when I would look in the mirror, it looked like something that I had tried on at the beginning, was still on, but it was a cushion of sorts. It was big and square and on my back and it made me look awkward and cartoon like so I couldn't really get a clear idea of the clothes I was trying.

Then we were all on the couch. She was telling me about some wine, and she couldn't remember something about it, but she was told she could never bring it in the living room. Not for cleanliness reasons, it was more like it had some sort of rule or spell on it and if she brought this particular bottle into the room, it would mean bad luck. So we all went into the kitchen and then some more people came over. They were going to redo her floors. It all started to happen so fast, but I saw the destruction materials flying out the door... old floor and some sheet rock and so on.

bad boyfriend

I dreamt that my mom had a boyfriend that is actually a boyfriend of a friend of mine (PS's boyfriend CB). I knew he was bad. I'm not sure if I had a gut feeling or evidence, but I knew he was up to something and using her. I wasn't sure what to do though. If I told her so, she would defend him and make things worse, so I was stuck.

swim suit

I dreamt that I needed to get a swim suit. I knew this store was having a sale, so I decided to go in. Something about it felt like you had to be part of some special group to be in there. Not a formal group, so much as a ... we are snow boarders... or we vacation in the SW .... or?? something along those longs, a group of people that have similar habits and activities. I wasn't from that group and could feel it going in. I didn't feel uncomfortable though, just out of place. I went to the swim racks. I tried on one suit. It was much too big and I realized it was for older ladies. It has these odd flaps on the side near your thighs to cover them. I didn't think it was a good idea, even if you did have bad thights... they looked like whale gills. Then I think I found a red swim suit and it was only $22, a steal now days. So I was going to get that one, but then I left the store for some reason. I was telling some people that I found a suit, and I probably should have purchased it right then. But it was one of those things... do you buy something if it is a good deal, what you were looking for... but it still doesn't feel right?

bad studying

I was in some sort of classroom I was with a group of students taking a test. We all seemed like we had spent plenty of time together because we seemed pretty chummy. I was stressing out. As I was taking the test I realized none of the information looked familiar to me. Had I checked out the whole time? That wasn't like me. I'm a procrastinator, but I do the work. I looked again at the first questions. They were all on stories we had read and (over) analyzed. I knew I had read the first story. In fact, I had gone over it with a fellow student several time until they understood the information. What was going on?? A guy in front of me (AdF) turned around and could tell something was up. He talked to me for a second. He was telling me that I had done all of the actual work, the reading, the analyzing ... everything on the check list. What I didn't do was put my?? soul?? my heart? my?? umph into it. So what ever I did as an activity, didn't stick enough to take the test. I could tell he felt bad about my situation. He knew I meant well and that I was confused, but at the same time he knew I wouldn't pass until I learned this. I should cut my losses and take the class again. There was no rush.  As soon as I realized it wasn't a race... that I could do this all again and would do great now that I knew the secret, I felt relief.

Then I was in this company. It was a place I supposedly worked a long time ago and was back again. I felt like a bit of an old timer because I knew a lot of the history that they didn't. I told them who I used to work with there and they would be in awe like they were legends.

Then I needed to get somewhere. One of the coworkers was taking a truck into town for lunch, so I jumped in the back of his truck. It was fun sort of sliding around in the back. I had a dog with me too... part real, then stuffed animal some of the time. Then the man stopped. He had a passenger in the car as well. He didn't know who I was and was disturbed by my presence. I told him some people that I knew he knew that I knew as well... I said I just need to go downtown ... He seemed ok then and we all went out to get some lunch.

doctor date

I dreamt that I had a sales job in a store. I think that I was supposed to be selling makeup. I don't see myself as a sales person, so I was doing my best. I realized after being there, no one really is a sales person and my best was better than most. I went over to a furniture department and helped a woman who looked lost in decision and made a sale of a special piece of furniture that I would make a good commission on. I knew they would want to move me to that department, which I was happy about. I left work to walk home. I went up stairs. It seems I was sharing an apartment with a friend, another woman my age-ish. We got along well, had similar ideas about decor and cleanliness. I checked for mail and then decided I need to get out in the city. We lived in a 4-6 story building in NW Portland. I wanted to see a shop that was right across the street from us. I walked outside and it was still open. Just as I turned to make sure the building door had closed a man came from behind. He was pleasant, a tall blond in a white coat. It looked like a lab coat. I had seen him around and he had seen me in the neighborhood as well. He had flowers and said something goofy but nice that made me feel nice. He was asking me on a date in a round about way. He was completely and totally a pleasant person. I told him that I wanted to see what was in the store across the way and he said he would like to see as well. So we went in... a shorter roundish woman was taking care of the till. She had a shoulder length bob with straight bangs. She seemed nice enough as well and I could see didn't mind the company.

bull dog pups

I waited too long to record these... but I rarely have repetitive dreams and two nights in a row, I had a dream about a baby bull dog puppy. It was adorable and felt good in the dream. Cute and pudgy. 

salsa

I dreamt about my exboyfriend (BW). We were walking through some markets and heading towards a train or bus or? We had a destination in mind. On the way, we walked through an old school. We were not supposed to be in there, but I think it was some sort of short cut. He at one point told some man to do smoething, which the man did. I just thought in my mind.... bossy boy... but he was good at asking people to do things for him. In the school he was looking for some pipe to shoot water through. I can't remember if it was for a prank or a distraction to the security guard. I found something that would work and he started working on it. Then I turned around and saw the security guard enter the building. I told him to run. So we ran down the hallway. At some point he needed to empty what he had in his pockts and he emptied a bunch of salsa in a fish bowl. We both immediately felt bad because we didn't want to kill the fish.

elvis hair

I dreamt about a guy with blond Elvis hair, at least that is what I called it in my dream, and fish gills for his under eye bags ... again, what I called it in my dream.

clay mask

I dreamt I as with my exboyfriend (MT). We were talking and for some reason I was smearing clay on his face. I think it was more like clay slip than it was a  mask, but I was telling him it was funt to fill in all of the crevices and pores to see what his face looked like smooth. We were both laughing and it was nice.

purpose

I dreamt that I was walking through town with a little boy. It was if he was my little brother (although I don't have one). We were getting away from someone and/or were trying to get to a safe place. At some point I lost my top, not sure how, but it was awkward and I needed to get somewhere to hide and find something to put on. We were walking in an area, and I thought I knew who the people were in a nice home we were near. Maybe a friend of mine knew them, but it was the closest thing I had for help. We walked up and I knew I had to quickly explain the missing top. These people were very wealthy and had little patience for people not at their level. A man opened the door. He was probably in his early 50s, dark hair, but bald on top. I quickly explained to please forgive my appearance and could he at least let the boy in. He let us through, said he would protect the boy but that I needed to leave. I asked for at least a t-shirt and he said .... just leave and wouldn't look me in the eye. I could feel he was disgusted. I went out to the front lawn, and felt relief from the boy being taken care of. Then two older teenagers? or 20 somethings came out? They were either that man's children or neighbors. They both were very self assured, very head strong, and very directed. The girl, who was slim, no makeup, long blondish hair,  asked what was my purpose in life. I said I wasn't quite sure and asked what her's was. She said that she had always been interested in a certain medical field and research and she was going to focus on that. She seemed to have no other distractions, like but I like to travel or dance or want a family, just this medical work. The young guy, who had naturally curly surfer hair, was friendlier. He also knew his purpose, but I don't think he shared it. He took off his sweatshirt and offered it to me to cover myself up. I told him thank you and that I would return and/or replace it as soon as I could. He didn't seem to care. I could feel the cold on the inside of the shirt where there were iron ons or decoration. He also asked me what my purpose was. He said there is no excuse for people to not know it. That it was more or less just a type of laziness and he had no tolerance. I felt sick to my stomach. What could I say? What did I like? I knew I liked how the mind worked and how to fix things in the mind... but is that enough to call something a purpose?

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I dreamt that I was in a classroom. We were all figuring out where to sit. I was sitting on the far left of the room, 2nd or 3rd seat back. I guess I was wanting to sit near friends and they near me. Our professor was coming in the room. We all were excited for class, because we all liked him. He had wisdom, was kind and fun. (He was actually the same man that was in the dream above). Class hadn't started yet. I looked around the room and I saw that my mother was also taking the class. This was odd as she wasn't really that self motivated for these sorts of things. I am usually quick to pick up new concepts, so when the instructor started the lesson, I was baffled in that I didn't understand anything he said. I think normally I would have panicked or wanted to hide my ineptness. But this time, I felt very free and almost good about saying... I don't understand a thing. Please explain. It felt very freeing. 

cookies

I dreamt that I was helping my friend PC set up some booth in a grocery store. I was very thirsty and drank a whole 2 liter bottle of water at once. Then I decided I was going to go by Taffys ... a kind of cookie, for a friend of mine. I went to the aisle to find them and each and every package was opened and half eaten. There was a guy behind me looking for the same ones and I let him know that we were out of luck.

walking home

I dreamt that two guys were following me across a park. I could feel them watching me and knew they were going to do something. They came up trying to take my purse. I kept walking, held on tight to my purse and didn't look them in the eye. I kept on talking about that I didn't have cash and they could follow me to a bank. I did this intending to run into someone on the way to ask for help. We crossed the street and I was disappointed that there were no cars I could stop. Then I saw a group of kids. I screamed for help and ran to them. They knew they couldn't do anything to me directly due to the number of kids, so they took the smallest boy and held  a knife to his neck. I was so furious I ran to the boy, picked him up and glared at the two guys and said they should be ashamed of themselves. I ran into the next house and there was a woman from another country there. She looked confused. I called the police. 

Locker

I was in a bath house or gym ?? I put my things in a locker and went to do something. Time passed and i went back to get my things and someone took them. i looked all around. i knew this girl took my things and she just stood there and denied it.

Hotel

I dreamt that I was in Seattle for business. I was staying at a hotel for two nights and for some reason, could not afford it. I had checked in and the hotel person came to my room etc. to show me in. Time passed and it was two days later. I knew I was late on checking out and that they would want to charge me for another night. I went to the room and was going to hurry before they came. It was too late. She came in and with a maid. The maid had blond hair, a messy pony tail and she looked like a frumpy odd older woman. She was looking at me judgingly but almost happy that she had someone to look down upon. The other hotel woman was more business like. She was not being nice, but wasn't rude. I told her I would hurry and lied and said I had left earlier, but that I had just forgot some items. It was stressful. 

Jon Hamm

I dreamt that I worked with Jon Hamm. He wasn't my boss, I don't even think that we were in the same department. He was rushing around and very stressed trying to duplicate some report he needed to hand to a client. I knew that he had other things to complete as well. I told him that I could do it for him so he could finish his other work. It ended up being more work than I expected. Some of the sheets were fabric, one was an actual shirt. I wasn't sure where to get these materials and if the copy machine could handle them... Then I was stressed. It wasn't my project and I felt obligated to get it right for him.

Dress

I dreamt my exboyfriend and I were hanging out. I had my red dress hanging on the wall, I think we were going to do something later. I looked up and he had cut it in half. It was useless. I was so upset, and hurt and ?? Just so confused. Why do something randomly to hurt me?

Wood beak

I dreamt that I was on a farm. I think I lived there? worked there? But it was still new to me. There was going to be a big festival with all of the locals. I walked on the grounds to get to the festival. They had large logs set up against each other vertically to resemble giant trees and then they had large fruits and vegetables hanging on them, so that they looked like broccoli trees or pepper trees and so on. I kept walking until I was at the orchard. They had tents set up with different items in them and farm animals. There were these tiny chicks. They looked like a ball of brown feathers with feet, eyes and a beak. They said that they hadn't had time to put the wood in their beaks to shape them. As if the only way chickens' beaks are curved is due to us making them that way.

statistics

I dreamt that I was at a fair or a concert. We had been there for a while and there were little chotchkies they were giving out. I think I was with some little girls. We were all sitting on a blanket and had made it cozy. I was trying to tie something for a girl with a ribbon. I didn't think it would be long enough so was seeing if I should tie two ribbons together to make it work. A friend of mine stopped by (SK). She showed me something they were giving out... some dog poo bags in different colors. They looked like balloons, but I could see that they had a larger opening. I was looking to see if we had more so that I could give them to her since she had a dog. I heard the music in the background. It was some country duet or something. I wasn't sure why I had decided to go to that concert. It was also soooo long, like 4 hours. I remembered in the dream that I had done something similar and swore I wouldn't go to that long of a concert again. But then I decided.. each moment by moment was actually ok... it was just the idea of the hours and time and and and that didn't seem nice, but there was not real not nice moment to pick out. Then I heard someone say... life isn't a bunch of statistics, it is about enjoying the moment.

airport bangs

I dreamt I was in the airport. I was on my way to my gate and noticed Louise Hay. She looked taller than I expected  and I wanted to say hello, but at the same time I wanted to respect her privacy. I thought.... maybe if I smile really big she might look my way.

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I dreamt that my hair guy gave me bangs. I had just been trying to grow them out and they were at their perfect length. I was sooo not happy with them, but I thought... well they will grow, change is good. I should just enjoy them and the experience for what they are.

Row your boat

I dreamt that I was getting a lot of money. I went to go pick it up and there were piles and piles of it. I had earned it some way, either sold a service, a business, made a good investment or something. What ever it was that I did to do it, it was all light and feel good. It all went smooth and nice like a hand over fur. I saw the one pile of money on the counter and I just wanted to toss it in the air. I felt how fun to just take all of this stuff that usually is so emotionally weight and play with it.

Then I woke up to this song in my head...  Row row row your boat, gently down the stream,
Merrily merrily merrily merrily, life is but a dream...

dog treats

I dreamt that I was on my way to somewhere. I didn't think that I was in Portland anymore, but it looked and felt like Portland. I was on a scooter and was going one way, then had to u-turn. It was all through a pretty tree-filled neighborhood. Then I ran into someone I used to work with (KS). She was busy as usual, doing some event that involved people. She had little dogs with her that I stopped to pet. She held out her hand with a bag in it and said ... here... I put my hand in the bag and was about to put the items in my mouth when I realized they were dog treats.

sneaker slippers

I dreamt that I lived in a skyrise? or an apartment on the top floor of a building. I may have had rooomates, I'm not sure. I think I did because I think there were other's things there and my things were messed with. I looked through a bag. It was a bag that I would take my things back and forth from the swimming pool. It seems I had things in there that I didn't know I owned. It felt like find a small treasure. There were slippers in there that looked like converse sneakers. They were a soft cotton and I'd never seen anything like them. I I thought they were kind of cool. I was going to put them on but I had to go somewhere. I went down the stairs and out into the city on my way... I saw a friend of mine's sister who had moved to Germany years ago. She was there with her husband, kids and her mother. I hadn't seen any of them in years. I said hello to her mother. I was a bit excited to see her but at the same time, wasn't sure how she felt about me. Our friendship had been rocky at the end. She looked at me and I could tell she knew who I was, but it was also like she had lost her memory at the same time.

Then I dreamt that I was in a house. People were in there possibly accusing me of something and/or I didn't do something I was supposed to. My brother started talking saying he was going to cut out this wall near the kitchen and extend the room, blah blah blah and some how that made it all better. I was glad he helped me but at the same time I was thinking... will that make the outside of the house look boring??

split cross

I dreamt that I was at a retreat thing. There were different activities you had to do.... meditation? A post where you went and said things? or maybe gave a message or?? and a dark room ? and finally an end ceremony thing where you cover yourself in a white mud?? I was near the mud, but I hadn't done the rest of the activities, so I had to sign up and come back.. It had to be done at the end

I saw a large cross that split down the middle.. they say when this happens it is good. It was like a rare thing and an omen. Someone said it symbolizes the splitting of the penis which symbolizes manhood or masculinity? Not sure what they meant. I asked if there is a girl version of this (it being a women's retreat) or if it meant something for a woman? is the penis splitting universal?  Then I helped a lady at the post.. well she cut in first and I bumped her shoulder to let her know she took cuts. She noticed what she was doing and said ..oh you go first... I immediately felt better. All I needed was the acknowledgment. I let her go first.

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I dreamt that I was at a place downtown... I was living there or looking for a living space. I think I rented a trailor on the street (which was kind of normal in the dream).  I thought it was a decent location (safe), large enough for me, close to a grocery store, so it was good. Other people were doing similar and/or my place might even be better. I think I went grocery shopping. I felt like a girl in college, when you get your first feeling of independance. It felt fun and freeing. The whole world is your oyster sort of thing. Then I was on a date? It was almost as if I was reliving an old time.. Either watching someone else's story or getting another chance at mine.

There was a guy... a Richie Cunningham type. Very sweet... we were getting along great. He was flirty. In the dream it was as if I was rooting for the girl... but the girl was me...or not me not sure..and she had something open, an application and was filling it out hoping he would see that her info was there and it would spur him to ask for her number. He realize he has to go and then never asked... It felt like they wouldn't meet again.

Then I'm at my mom's.  We are trying to have a nice time. I brought over a movie, a nice happy feel good one. We are watching and things are going good. Then she mentions something... a thing she doesn't need to, that she knows bothers me, that she knows I've asked her several times not to, that she does on purpose to bother me.  I flip out. I take the movie out of the dvd player, put it in the case, walk to the fridge (was I living there?), started packing up my food... all of it that is mine. She is upset that I'm leaving and I just don't care anymore. I pack up some cottage cheese, but the cats seem to want it, so I leave it for them. I pack up tuna cans, which she seemed to have hidden in the back. She picks up lemons that I had... she looks at them as if they are bad and put them in the fridge. I look at them.. I said there is nothing wrong with them. Why would I not want my lemons??? She was trying to take what she might have wanted. There was a box of cream cheese. I toss it thinking... I don't need it anyway.. then thought.. what if i do? and took that too..I was infuriated. I didn't want things to turn out like this, but I also couldn't take it anymore.

work

I dreamt that I was working for my last company where the boss and I didn't click exactly. I knew I was headed out and they had a new girl coming in. I think I was liking that last week of work, knowing that I could detach from everything that was going on and my surroundings... the drama. The VP was being kind of weird, but I knew why. We were kind of each other's outlet at work, to goof around and make jokes and I was about to leave. I was looking for the printer. I think I was being proactive about something I didn't need to be. I saw that they hadn't fixed something that they had no clue was broken. It would make printing a breeze compared to the way they were doing it. I made a few people happy, including the boss. He was smiling and genuinely nice to me. He asked me to stay on a week longer, that the new girl wasn't going to work out. He also wanted to play like this day was my last day, and surprise everyone when I showed up the following week. He was playful, nice... not his usual self. I felt like it was due to the printer. Why hadn't
 I put extra effort in before? Maybe he felt estranged from me and me him just due to my by the bookness, maybe coldness? He wanted to feel cared for. Hmm...  A friend of mine worked there as well, KM who moved away long ago. She was in a good mood too telling me about her life.

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I dreamt that I was downtown needing to get somewhere... from an office to a function? meeting friends? a class?  I was about 20 stories tall though. I could walk over buildings, but with stilts on, so my footing wasn't sooo perfect, but it wasn't unsteady either. I would step carefully on rooftops as not to damage them or poke holes through, and then slide down them if they were slanted. It was kind of fun. I ended up at some science museum type place. I noticed most of the museum was for a child audience. Lots of short kiosks and fun imagery. There were fun areas where you could draw things but with liquids encased in plastic, sands or metals with magnets. I made one and left it and my brother came by and said this one is neat. I had titled it connection. I noticed more friends (although I had never seen any of these faces) and realized we were all there for my brother's wife and her baby. Some class for them or celebration, not sure. They had refrigerator magnets and I spelled out baby and :)  to take a photo to commemorate the moment. I saw a couple of guys and a girl that were bored and made up some excuse to leave. There was another palish fellow there and I thought he was going to do the same, but he wanted to do something to show his support. He asked.. Is there a card I should sign? He seemed a bit nervous and I didn't know of a card.. I saw some large white paper and I said... no, but we need one. Could you make one over there out of crayons? He seemed so happy to be of use and went right to it.

spiders sneaking and hiding

I dreamt that I was supposed to capture different spiders, either by camera, a sketch or actually capture them. I don't like spiders in general. They creep me out. I saw a yellow one, then a red one... I didn't want to touch them, I didn't want to get close enough to get the details. Wasn't a good game for me.

I dreamt that I was helping at an events. It was a invitation only type thing and you needed certain credentials, for example to be a scientist or a doctor. I was excited that I was able to be there, not due to the exclusivity, but I wanted to learn what they were learning at this event. I was at the entry, making sure the right people were let in. Everyone was dress nice, somewhat in a 1950s style of suits and dresses. I needed to get some water and the only place with the best filtered water, was in the gents bathroom. You had to go to the end stall where there was a sink. It was all very nice, although odd. I wore a navy, matte satin fitted dress with pearls. I had forgotten to take off my gypsy-style earrings though. I felt like I was sneaking something or hiding when I went to fetch the water. That part didn't feel good. I was tired of sneaking and hiding. 

late

I dreamt that I was going to the beach with a group of people. It wasn't a pleasure visit, more like we had to do this to survive or get some message somewhere. We had to walk by a friend of mine's house SA. He wasn't so happy we were doing it although he wanted what we wanted and couldn't get it if we didn't go on our little mission. He was yelling out about something that was wrong with the trees. Some boys (his boy and friends of his) had made them a mess. He was acting like it was my responsibility that they had made the mess. I shook my head and shrugged it off. He was unhappy... not my fault.

I dreamt that I was starting a new job. At first I was in the office with two ladies. I felt like I was back in the 80s, old hair styles, clothing, office equipment. It felt easy and outdated. They were talking to me in a mother hen sort of way. They knew that the boss, a creepy older man, was inappropriately flirting and being suggestive. I didn't like it, but I thought... just let me start working and making money.... then we can deal with him. If we do it before I start, I might not have a job.

Then I was in a parking garage ?? or. I was just about to leave, as if it was my first day. I felt I was running late. I kept looking at my phone to check the time but it wouldn't show me. I got in my car to go, and then I saw a friend of mine that had a wheel go out. I was trying to get his attention before he got on the road. I didn't want him to get in an accident. I knew if I stopped to help him, I would be late for my first day, but I had to. He stopped and we looked at the tire. There was no way he could drive it. Then all of the wheels looked like odd coils, like a new kind of tire instead of rubber, although his car was vintage looking. I told him to get in my car and I would give him a ride home. I still wanted to know how late I would be, so I kept checking my phone. I guess I had downloaded some work software on my phone that made it run slow. In the mean time, I needed to move some duffle bags from the front seat. I put them outside and some dog kept going through the bags and taking things out, making me even later. I tried to shoo him away, get my bags, get in the car, get the time... my friend was telling me to call work to tell them I would be late, but I couldn't even get to my phone list. Then it was as if I didn't have to work that day, like I went in, but they didn't expect me, but then I was back in the car with the same scenario of being late. An email popped up on my phone without me pushing anything. It was some video a friend took of early morning downtown.... some guy that had been out the night before and had too good of a time throwing up in a garbage can, then two feet away, another man going through a garbage can for food.

phones

I dreamt I was working for a new company I think? As in they were starting, or having a major overhall. It was a nice office in a high rise. At the moment, they were changing out all of their phones. All cell phones, all multi-line phones etc. for some old phones. When someone called you had to run to find the correct phone and you couldn't even forward the call. You had to find the person and bring them to your phone. 

hairbands.

I was just south of the city. I mean just... as in it was part of the city, but at the end of the high rises. It was grassier there, more parks, and so on. It was kind of a shady area. Some odd folks lived there, cars were broken into more, but safe at the same time. I had walked up the hill to meet some people or work? I guess I had to get somewhere else because I started walking back down. I decided to walk closer to the river than through the town part. It wasn't the smartest idea as there were less people, it was dark, but I wanted the trees and the grass. I saw some odd folks, a man walking near me, I figured I would just talk and walk through.

Then I was at a place of work. I felt I had already worked there and proved myself, but it also felt like my first day. A woman there was acting as my boss. She was a short tough gal. She told me we always had to wear all white (I was wearing a light blue button down). And the hair had to be back in a pony tail, all of it. She was saying how it was an old lady hairdo in a way to have it all slicked to the head, but at the same time a little girl do. I told her I didn't have any hairbands, she was not happy with it. She had many, but she obviously didn't care to share. I walked around some stainless steel shelving and found a collection of bands. They also had a leather strap connected to them with a snap closure. I asked if they were ok and she said yes. Then some bigwig came in. He was in a suit, shiny hair, he was swanning knowing he owned the place and that there was zero threat for him. He was pleased about something and was about to say it. I was thinking he must be pleased with my recent work. I had saved the company money, did a bang up job at a certain event and so on... but no, he was happy that an employee had offered up 35,000 of their own money to buy something for the company.

Then I was in some mall. I was with some friends? We all had to get somewhere, as well as get away. I had run through some hall, up some stairs and was on the roof waiting, hoping they would hurry. We had to leave before ?? happened. 

1111

Dreamt I was living in a home that wasn't mine. A friend SK was cleaning and reorging the house. He had moved the living room area around, which is also where I slept. It was an odd shaped place, kind of like it was in a pod, small living areas, short ceilings. I went to try to get to the fold out bed and couldn't now with the furniture moved. I was planning on moving everything around again. I needed to get to it. I had an idea to move a couple of easy chairs to the window for a sitting area, but then had a flash that some woman, maybe his mother, had done it before and said no one ended up using it, so I didn't.

I was seeing a fella and he was over. He annoyed me, why was I dating him? He had sandy hair, kind of longer than looked good on him. And he was feminine .... my job, not his. He was also wearing a beige colored thing tshirt and a thong. Bleck! Was awful.

I was asking for help in my mind from this situation and I kept hearing and seeing 1111.

growing paper

I dreamt that my dad gave me a jet pack for a gift. We were up in the NE somewhere, Maine?? or?? I decided I was going to fly to NYC. I was in the clouds and couldn't quite see where I was and then I went through them, they were a bit dirty and a bit pretty in parts. I wanted to land at Central Park. I could see it and started to hover down. I was excited to be there and wasn't sure what I would do next. I didn't have much money and I probably needed to head back. As I hovered down, I felt like the motor was getting weak. I realized it wasn't meant to travel that far on such a small tank of fuel. I looked around and felt so lucky that I had landed near two different gas stations. The one looked like they were closing, but I saw that the open sign was still up. The other one was farther away, I think cost a little more and there was something about it I didn't like. I really wanted to use the one next to me. There were a couple of old guys there and I was happy to see them and talk to them. They were tinkerer types and were interested in my jet pack and in helping me out. I had never filled it before and wasn't sure how to. We found that it had a glass tube inside that held the fuel. I thought it was odd that it would be made of something so delicate.

Then I flew back and I'm not sure anyone knew where I went and I wasn't going to tell them. More people showed up for my birthday, my aunt etc. I was given a piece of paper and a few pieces of popcorn already popped. When I clapped my hands, the pop corn would get bigger and the paper would get bigger. I thought it was very cool and what a $ saver as far as the paper went. I could just keep on clapping and have a ton of paper.

Then I was at this school. It felt like it was in Ireland or something, old brick buildings, old trees, older way of doing things. I think there was something specific that I needed to do, I don't remember what it was, but I was walking around with a destination in mind. I saw a guy in the distance doing some grounds work near the gravel pathway. I wasn't sure if he was planting, airrating, or what. But he was going along quite quickly. As I came closer, I saw he had wheels on his shoes. One wheel per shoe about 10" in diameter. He could bounce on them and roll at the same time. I figured you would have to practice to go like he was going without falling. Then there was a larger wheel about 5' tall and he could put his shoes in slots on it and roll with the wheel. I moved on from him and found the path was ending. I climbed up some rocks and to the side of a brick building and held on to some rails to keep going. It seemed like a religious building with statues and stained glass. I came to a point where I could see grass on the otherside of a railing. There was a  shelf of sorts where there was something decorative. I saw that someone had put a porceline figurine there. At first I thought it was a gnome and then I realized it was an angel, with sandy blond hair, blue gown and white wings. I figured it was either some sort of good luck charm or a hide and seek game. I looked again towards the grass to see how to get there and realized it was a farther drop than I had thought and a creek was inbetween. I knew I couldn't make the leap.

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I dreamt I was at a hotel with friends. It was a very fancy hotel in a warm area, not sure if it was domestic or some other country. Some of the people I was with were different ... as in we probably didn't share certain values on authenticity or kindness, but either way I was stuck with them and they were not horrible. We were all going to hang out at the pool and maybe get something to eat, but some of us needed to change, some of us wanted to go to the city first... it was messy a bit. We needed a card to get into the pool, every card from the hotel had your photo on it, so someone else couldn't use it. It was right on the beach and I thought it was odd because people from the beach could come right to the pool with no card, but people from the hotel couldn't go in without a card. I felt like we were trying to sneak people in, otherwise I wouldn't have felt stressed about this card situation. One of our friends worked in the hotel and she was about to walk to the pool. I reminded her she needed to change out of her uniform or they would not let her in.

feeding the dog

I dreamt that I went to my exboyfriend's. I had left some things there that I needed to get and was going to say hello to some of his friends. I showed up and only D was there and maybe someone else that was fun and nice. I looked around and found a fuzzy blanket that was mine and a couple of other items. Franky, his little pug was there and jumped up on my lap and rolled around on my blanket. It was pretty cute and sweet. I saw that he hadn't eaten yet and was whining, so I went to go get his dish and try to find his bag of food w/ the least amount of digging through things possible. I found one bag, but they were his treats. Then I found the other and a lot of the food came out too quickly, so I was trying to quickly clean it up so I could feed him and get out of there before ex came home. Then there he was all of a sudden. I told him what I was doing and asked him where I could put the food so that the other dogs don't get into it. He said... "well... you go down to the corner... take a left...," basically giving me crap, saying to get out of the house. I threw the dog food from the dish over my shoulder and it landed all over him. He laughed. He meant it good naturedly, but it still kind of bugged me. I got the rest of my things without looking back, swung my camera over my shoulder and then was going to walk out through the back kitchen. D was there and he had all of his camera equipment in the oven. I thought.... hmm interesting way to make sure there is no water in your camera. I asked him..."are you dehydrating your camera?"  He said... "No, that's ghetto man..." and smiled. 

neighbors

I dreamt I was on a walking tour with a group of women. I think I worked with some, some I just knew and I think some were relatives or friend of my mom's. I really wasn't wanting to go on this trip, do the usual shops etc. or hang out with these women. I hung back a bit from the last location adn they all kept walking. It started to rain and it felt great. I decided to go back to the place I was staying. It was on the top floor of an old building that butted up completely against another building. My bedroom had a window and at just about the top foot of the window, you could see into the next building's apartment. They windows were only a few inches apart. There was a little boy in there and he was laying on a bed? or window seat. He saw me and was a little shy, so he put a pillow against the window. I decided to get out again, but I'm not remembering where we were. Then I was back in the apartment, this time there were two little kids, a boy and a girl. THe girl was a bit mischeivous, kind of almost in a scary way. She was strong willed and smart. She kept wanting to go in my apartment, borrow my laptop and so on. I kept telling her no, and she kept arguing to use it. I went into the next room and saw the group in the next building over. They were done with their walk and were having drinks and dessert. I figured that was a good excuse to say good bye to the children who were reluctant for me to leave. I said I really had to go and would be back soon. They seemed ok with that idea and pulled themselves back into their room. I immediately went for the window and locked their window (both of our windows could only be locked from the outside). I could see the girl and that she was upset.

I went to the bar where the group was. They seemed a bit tired and were separted into two booths. Only two women were at the one booth. I went to the larger group and asked them all to scoot as we could all fit in one booth. They did. I ordered to add to the desserts and then ordered a special cake for a gal that was having her birthday. The bill was $150 just for those two items. Ugh. The gal that sat next to me had a bunch of trinkets behind her. She said they were awards for all of the walk they did that day, one being a 1000 mile walk. One of the desserts being passed around was called Cherries Jubilee, but it wasn't ice cream, more of a cheese cake, but it had a mild blue cheese in it and corn nuts and rosemary. Kind of strange, but in the dream it was really good.

I was feeling blocked in at the booth and was hoping we would leave soon. Then I heard a bird.. it kept cawing. It was the restaurant bird and you were to give it a tip or feed it. This was how the waitstaff earned extra tips. I wanted to shut it up as it wouldn't stop. (there was actually a crow outside my window this morning). 

staying places

I dreamt I was in a hospital. At first I was there to visit someone I think. They were occuppied, so I went to get my hair colored red (although the last thing I would do). They showed me how it turned out and I said "it is perfect! the exact color I wanted," which was an auburn color of red although slightly brighter. I went to go see my friend and was at the elevators. There was something about them... like it was an escape? a place to hide? a place to get to the next place, so in a way exciting? a way to be alone?  I'm not sure. The building was very modern and almost set up more like a high-rise business office type building than a hospital. Lots of windows, high ceilings and plants. I went through one area that was in the middle of the building. It was all open and I think it was a gift shop of sorts, but also had some desks.

I went to the room where I was supposed to see my friend. It was full of people and felt kind of nice. Then I left to go find my room. I guess I was staying there too. My room turned out to be one bed in a large room of beds. Kind of like what you see in the old movies. I put out my own downy comforter and pillow. I was wondering if that was a good idea. Would they take it thinking it was theirs? But I decided to leave it.

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Then I dreamt I was coming up to a big house. Was it mine? My aunt's? I was going to stay there for a bit regardless. I think it was my aunt's because there was a note to pay the help for cleaning. It was a pile of rupees and there were a family of Indian people I was paying. They were waiting there for the money and graciously accepted payment until they felt it wasn't enough. I looked around for some dollars, just a few, and handed it to them. They seemed happy enough and left. Then I went into the garage. My cousin (TC) was there and my brother. There were a bunch of items we had to go through to set up for a garage sale. I saw an old turntable and wanted it. My cousin said just to take it. Then I saw more of them and one that had five stacked on top of each other. It was supposed to be something luxurious for back in the day, kind of like a 5 cd disc changer. 

life

I dreamt I was at my exboyfriend's house (BW) and he wasn't there. I wasn't sure if he moved or not. Then I went into his roommate's room. I felt a little like it looked like I was snooping, but I wasn't. His room was all orderly, which is uncommon, then I remembered his girlfriend moved in with him. I saw a plaid wool dress coat hanging that might have been her's as well.Then a reggae looking guy came in and I realized it was his room. I went upstairs and it was a huge attic, really well done, and it was to be my room. It was full of things and a little dusty, but otherwise very nice, kind of a haven. I wanted to lock myself up there, downstairs was too complicated, messy and so on.  

butt of the ...

 I dreamt I was riding my bike and I needed a light for my bike. I saw a store owner that I knew casually. She was walking out of the store and I knew I was probably too early. I was right, the store was closed and she was on her way out to run some errands. I was playing with some of the lights that were hanking from a display. I didn't really want that kind anyway and so I moved along.

Then I was at some sort of pub. I think it was a chain, like a sports bar. I was there with some coworkers (one being Caitlin from wagged). There were two groups of us. One was more of a fun group, the other a little more competitive and critical. I was with the first group and I guess I had an iPad in my lap. There was some spoof web site that included some new movie or event and a couple of sponsor companies with fun stuff on their site. I was shocked to find a company I worked for was on there (WE). Our game in that room was done, so some of the group left and the rest went in to continue to play some game in the other room. The game was taking a chalk board eraser type thing and sliding it down the table, trying to hit a point on the wall. It was my turn next, but I was at a disadvantaged spot at the table. I was at a bend in an L and there was a sitting body between my "eraser" and my target. I said I needed a new spot and as I got up, I felt a little tipsy and not level. I then realized I was probably also talking a little loud and would probably do a poor job at aiming. I sat down and Caitlin made some snide comment about how much beer I had that night. I shrugged sat down and took my shot and I hit the spot dead on with a quick clip. Everyone gasped and I felt I gained a little, but decided to be done with the game.

Then I was in a room with friends. KU and her husband, baby and some siblings. The siblings seemed as though they were in their early teens and I kind of felt the same age. There was a baby and a roundy old man there too. I had some purchases in a bag on the coffee table. I knew there was a glass vase in there. It was from the bike store from earlier... almost like something they gave me because I couldn't get what I wanted. The kids were kind of giving me a hard time, either with games, poking fun or?? They were not being mean per say, they just acted a little holier than though. I wasn't really enjoying them. The baby was crawling around on the floor being cute. At first she had a head full of curly blond locks and then she had a shaved head. Still lively and cute, just not that adorable girly look. She was crawling around diaperless and then the old fella started crawling around in the same outfit. I felt a little weird seeing the two's full backside views like I shouldn't look, but at the same time it felt natural and ok. I went to see where the bag where my vase was. I didn't want it on the floor with the baby there. I went to get it and heard a clink. It was broken. I poured the broken glass in my mouth so that it wouldn't fall on the ground and get lost in the carpet. One piece did drop and one of the tweens picked it up. I took the piece and put it in my mouth. As I got up to go to the kitchen to empty my mouth, KU came out laughing. I hadn't realized but she had been behind me when I was kneeling on the floor and tucked something in my underwear so that it was sticking out when I got up. I was like... ok.... a joke, I appreciate your fun, but I need to get this glass out.

bare feet

I dreamt that I was on my way to someone's home. It was a man (RVB) that I was going to visit, had thought I wanted to visit and had put some effort into visiting. It was night time and I had taken a bus to a mid point. I wasn't sure which bust to take next. I didn't have much money, I didn't have shoes, I didn't have the right map or the right address. I walked bare footed on the gravel. It was fine up until then and I knew I could keep going even thought it hurt, but then I decided against the journey to his home. It would have taken a while, I wasn't sure of him, I wouldn't have seen him long, and then I would have a long journey home that maybe empty.  I decided to walk over to a terminal. When I arrived at the terminal there were other people there, all chummy and pleasant to be around, all going on their own journeys. There was a small stand there that sold bits of food, coffee and news papers and I was a bit ..?? hungry? maybe not, maybe just wanted something to occupy myself with. I decided against it. While I was turned around, a bus had shown up, the No. 8 and people were loading on to it. I could have ran, but still might have not have made it, my feet would have been raw and I wasn't even sure where it went. I knew two other buses would be coming that night and they may just be going in the right direction. I decided to pull out a map and a man was there (either FE, although in that dream he had a third name, or the angel fellow I saw at an intersection) eager to help me find my way. He was pleasant and I was glad that I had missed the bus.

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I dreamt that I was at BM's house. He was working on projects or something, the usual confusion surrounding him. I was there to help him with something and was feeling quite good about the information I had to share. We were chummy..... I don't quite remember the rest.

complacent

I dreamt that I was in a house with others having to do something. I think I had some of my own things there and my own are, but like in many dreams, I didn't feel part of the people or like it was my home. There were many other people there all sort of a family?? like we did belong together, but detached in some way. I think I was looking for some of  my things to hide away, they were in some old cigar box.

Then I was hearing a quote, as if I had dreamt it and was trying to recall it. It was something about complacency or complacent. I kept trying to recall it and it had something to do with it being the beginning of the end of the world. I went to go look up the word because I had lost the meaning. I went to a laptop and kept trying to type it in but it wasn't working. My dad was there and I was telling him about it. I wrote down what could be parts of the quote in quotes. He kept typing it into a search without the quotes and I had to explain why you needed them. It for some reason still wasn't working, so I went to the side of an RV. The whole side of it was a type of iPad, as in it worked just like the screen. I was trying to decrease the size of the screen and find the quotes I needed. It wasn't a full keyboard, so you had to go to different windows. As I was working on finding my dream quote, there were other people behind me. Some woman my exboyfriend was friends with, kind of  a matriarch type..... maybe a mother figure for him in reality. She was talking about which guy she uses to change her oil and which she uses to fix her engines.

"Complacency is the enemy of progress." - Dave Stutman

com·pla·cen·cy

   [kuhm-pley-suhn-see]  Show IPA

noun, plural com·pla·cen·cies.

1.

a feeling of quiet pleasure or security, often while unawareof some potential danger, defect, or the like; self-satisfaction or smug satisfaction with an existing situation,condition, etc.

faking death

I dreamt that I was in a department store. I was near the shopping carts and there was a bit of chaos of people in a hurry. Maybe not so much chaos as people milling around stressed for no reason causing more stress. For some reason I decided to fake my death. Not for attention, but just to check out for a bit without having to react, think, be any certain way, appropriate or not. So there I laid on the floor near all of the shopping carts. People would walk by, some stopped but didn't quite know what to do. I just listened to them trying to problem solve. It was nice to just sit there and not be the problem solver, not be the one who had to "know" or convince anyone.  It was nice and I didn't feel guilty. It was a nice break.

Then I was in a room with a bunch of my step aunts and cousins. They were all trying on old dresses for some function. They were old prom type dresses from way back. None of them were that pretty. They handed me a couple to choose from. At first I thought one of them might be nice, but I was wrong. It was royal blue, cinched at the waist, ballroom fluffy bottom half, long sleeved and sort of a white cloth from the decolette and shoulders to the neck. 

locks

I dreamt long locks of my hair were falling out. They were handfuls at a time. I gathered them all together and was amazed that I still had hair on my head. I gathered them up and went to show my mother, just to show her because I was in awe. She said... I can't help you with that I don't have the money.  I was immediately offended. Not that she wouldn't help me, but that she thought me telling her was asking for help. I asked her why she said that and what would she need money for? She didn't answer me and started talking about something else. I kept asking her, each time a little more angry and a little louder. She would speak as though I wasn't even asking the question. It was so frustrating.

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I dreamt that I was at a large store and checking out at the register. There was a woman in front of me, that was trying to be helpful, but seemed to make things more complicated. The checkout guy was an older man, kind of quiet and calm. They were going through items that they were supposed to give away as samples to each customer. It was all sort of messy, although I was curious what the samples were.

veil

I dreamt of a long cat. They called it something... some nice name. It was long, like 15 feet long, with a tail that stretched out for another 10 to 15 feet. A couple was holding it like it was their baby. At first when it started to unfurl it looked like it had a bat's face. Not one of those cute ones, but the ones that look like they have an inside out nose. The fur was striped and fluffy. Later the face looked almost like a French cartoon cat, with extra large almond shaped eyes that took up most of the face and the face was shaped more like a pointed horizontal oval. The house I was in was modern and many openings on different levels to the rest of the house. I heard a doorbell and it seemed all of the people and cat that were there, no longer existed. I was sort of the cat but a human. I didn't want to answer because I felt not dressed appropriately. The front door was open and I didn't want them to see me, so I ran upstairs to see who it was and it was a man and a woman, both working in some design or magazine industry. I put a hat on that had a long black mesh veil. They came in and we talked. I spoke in a French accent it seemed to either be someone else, or so they would believe I was the cat thing that existed earlier. They seemed to believe me and were in sort of awe of my character. We went together to a function where we all (including other industry folks) would talk about ideas and design. It was a posh bar of sorts on the top floor of a building. Different items were sitting around for us to look at.. like new designs for Chanel and so on. Although I liked the quality of the materials, I wasn't too impressed with the designs. Coco Chanel was there.. she seemed to like me and my ideas. She was trying to see under my veil, but the hat and and veil covered just enough even though it kept on creeping up. I would just pull it down again from time to time. I liked having the veil. I feel I could totally be myself without risk.

Then I was in another office building. I think they were working on some print materials for us. My friends PS and her boyfriend CB were there. She ended up leaving and he walked me out the door. I went with another woman to go find our car. She needed to use the restroom and I was waiting outside, but then I decided to go in too to check my hat. The mirrors all made you look different. Either you would have a short face, bigger eyes and one made it look like you had pink glitter all over your face. They were kind of fun, but I really just wanted to see my face normally. A woman pointed me to the two normal mirrors in the place, but then my friend came out and we were on our way out. The door had a line up of men that wanted to come in. I didn't realize it was uni-sex. Then I realized it wasn't and told one fella that looked like a young Val Kilmer that the men's was in the other direction. But then, I found out that they needed to stand at this area to get to it. As we were walking down this incline to leave, there were waiters just coming out of the kitchen doors, each in a different costume, crouching or on pointed toes dancing to their tables. It was a theme restaurant.

turning ship

I was on a giant sailing ship. It was like the old ones but many many rooms and instead of old, it was all new and shiny. It was really beautiful. There were many types of people on it walking around, and the sun seemed to be shining outside. People were panicked though. The ship had been turning. Not in direction, but horizontally. We all knew it was going to come a little faster. Some people jimmied themselves in a corner and tided themselves to the ship. Some people just seemed to walk off the ship to end it all. Others were scrambling, and couldn't keep their head straight enough to make an plan. And still others were kind of oblivious... just meandered with their loved ones either clueless or letting things just happen. I think I wanted to live, but I wanted to find my right spot first.

spirit animal and doughnuts

I dreamt I was in a group meeting. There was a shaved headed lesbian woman there leading the talk regarding spirit animals. I told her I once had an experience while listening to some music that was supposed to put you in a meditative state. While listening I saw a cougar, but then a wolf climbed out of the cougar's mouth and then I actually saw through the wolf's eyes. It was fun. I was very "in the moment" because the wolf would run one direction, pick up a smell and go in another, see a mouse, run after that.... no worries, no thinking "where should I be right now?" ... just feeling the cold air, following what caught my eye next. I thought it was very exhilarating and fun. Then at the end I was an owl. She went on and on about how interesting and telling it was, but she didn't say what it told. Then the group was breaking up, half of the group had gone into another room and had been drinking or doing drugs. I wanted to go home but my friends were partying. I said I could take them home because I hadn't had anything and they didn't want to. I kept on bargaining, I was going to go home somehow.

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I dreamt I was in a work environment. There was an office supply delivery that included cookies, doughnuts and peanut m&ms. Half of the office was empty and I needed to go look for someone, so I took an elevator down a floor or so. I don't think I found the guy or maybe I knew he would be coming up to the next floor. I went back to organize the food and put it away. It seems someone had put piles on different desks. I thought  this was odd. Why not keep it together in one container to keep it all fresh. Part of this was a controlling feeling too... what would happen with all of the items, who would take them, toss them, not put them in a container?  Why did I care, it wasn't my responsibility really.... I ended up just taking a jelly doughnut and going to a desk to work. It was someone else's desk and they had a pile of food there too. I put it in a box so it wouldn't get on the work. The girl that sat at the desk (RP) asked me what I had been up to. At that moment I couldn't tell her what work I had accomplished. I knew I had been feeling lethargic and uninterested in my work, and that since I was having a problem with my memory recall and suddenly was feeling guilty, maybe I hadn't been doing my work. I replied "not much." She was giving me the eye like I was worthless and lazy and should be gone. Then I started realizing I am not the type to sit and do nothing... I had other projects I had worked on that kept me from my normal work. I started feeling better again.

splitting paths

I dreamt I was in a room in a tree. It was a large tree, but still small for a body, as in I couldn't budge. I was feeling claustrophobic and feeling an anxiety type attack coming on. Then I saw a little dwarf guy. He wasn't so little, a bit pudgy, bald on top and older fella, but he could zip right through the tree and I felt better just watching him being able to get about. 

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I dreamt I had a date with a guy. I was excited because I really thought he was sweet and handsome. He was taller than me, dark hair, a bit more round than svelte. He picked me up and had flowers, I think I was a little nervous because it was such an official date date. There was some sort of night time festival going on and we were going there to get a bite to eat. He asked if I wanted a beer. I really didn't. I hadn't eaten all day and I knew it would go straight to my head... but I also didn't want to appear like a no-fun type, so I said yes. Then I woke up in bed. My clothes were still on, but my button down was above my sweater instead of the other way around. I put my hands over my face worried about what I might have done the night before since I had blanked out from getting the beer until now. I got up to assess the damage and my roommates were up. It was about 9 a.m. and they said he was still downstairs asleep on the couch. I felt a little better. I went down to talk to him and he had to get to work. I had some place to go too, so we both walked for a bit in the city. There was some sort of construction going on and I had to make sure my bike made it over some grooves in the road. He had to split off and I went on. I had to get off my bike to get over an especially high curve. It had rusty wires and things up there, so I was trying to be careful of my tires. There were two nicely dressed men on the other side of the curb and they had a little girl with them. I told them to be careful of the rusty wires. I must have set my bike down on the other side of the curb as I talked to them, and lost track after because I kept on walking. Then I realized I had forgotten my bike and one of the men stole it. I was so upset. I had just sanded the bike down and painted it and I really didn't have money for another bike. I chased after him.

I dreamt I was in space. This was a normal thing as we all were in space. A group of us were returning from a mission. I think it felt good to be part of this group. We had succeeded at something and we were good fun people. Some of us split off before the return because they were due to join another team. I wasn't so happy about it, but I knew we had something else to look forward to. We docked at the main station and I had to get to a control device. I was in charge of deploying ships, ordering them on what to do and so on. I didn't feel like I was doing a good job. I wasn't familiar with the software I was using (it was all software based and not voice). I did deploy some first aid to some folks though and that seemed to work out all right. I left the control station and went to see how the people who had been hurt were doing. One blond woman was smiling, glad that she was ok. She had red marks all over her face, but it was going to heal. Then there was an alarm for another guy. He was the big fella on the show Weeds, Marvin. He was in a ship and felt like something was wrong. I knew bees were going to fly out of him. I ordered people to run and help, but they didn't seem to be either taking me seriously or going fast enough. A man was on his way in a space suit, when he saw the bees come out of his mouth, he put on an emergency bubble on. It was a clear bubble that would encompass him about a foot or two out in every direction. It was too late and the man's ship filled with bees. 

radio

I dreamt that I was working with a radio station. It was one of those low budget ones that play local community shows and have no advertising dollars. I was just helping on a project and really wasn't given any guidelines, project details, what I would be paid. I was supposed to getting that information soon. I was taken into another room, the place looked more like a movie set than a radio station, as if we were supposed to look at things as well as hear them. People were milling around and I felt kind of an excited buzz from being in a non-office situation, knowing I would be going from one location to another. I was sitting with a few people I would be working on a sofa. There was a lightish haired fella at the end. He looked kind of critical and entitled. I was supposed to be working with him. There was a social gal in-between us and a few other folks. We looked over our shoulder and heard a character name and saw a tall gangly guy (Darb) and we were all.. Is that the guy from the comic book story show? He looks just like the character! We had a laugh about that and then started getting down to business. Then social gal introduced me to the light haired guy. He asked me some questions and I wanted to let him know that I wasn't officially an employee yet, that I didn't know what I would be paid, when I was starting and so on. He looked at me as if I was stupid. Why would I not demand that information first. Didn't I think enough of myself??

second journey, stitches

I dreamt I was on a journey. I had already come a ways and it seemed I was at the mid-point. I felt as though I had a lot more freedoms on the first leg, as though I had gone it alone, but I knew that wasn't true. Maybe I just avoided my awareness of them. The preparation for the next half of the journey definitely involved people, rules, things... One was a blond man. He seemed very bookish, rules-y, uptight... I was a little impatient with it all. Couldn't we just go now?  We had a certain way of flying before that was with a mechanical type device that we held on to. At the current location though, there were many people milling about as if they were all working for us. I was thinking it must be some government thing or money making thing and we would have to give them money or sign our lives over, but no... they were just giving us technology and aid freely. They had this new technology for the next part of our journey. They said we could still use our mechanical device, it wouldn't hurt anything, but this new thing, a type of helium balloon, could take us faster, or we could use it if our device gave out. It sounded good to me. I just wanted to get going.

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I dreamt was with a man, young Jeremy Irons looking type. Just previous, he was stabbed by a man from the middle east or south eastern Europe. We were walking speedily along a boardwalk near the ocean to get away and I could see him wince. I asked if he was ok and he pointed to his chest. I could see something coming out that was like a lung or something (although not possible). I had him sit down on a bench outside and I went to this small open air mini-mart. I was going to look for soap, needle and thread. There seemed to be lots of office supplies and soaps but not much else. I kept looking around and wasn't having luck. I looked in some drawers and found some gel like band-aids that would hold the skin together, then finally I saw a jar on top of a shelf that was full of odds and ends like safety pins. I saw a needle in there, although the eye of the needle had a red rubber type coating over it. I thought that it might be too large regarding piercing the skin, but  didn't have much choice. I knew I had to find a way to sterilize it and I was questioning the harshness of the soap, I just didn't have much time. While waiting in line I was thinking of what would be the best way to stitch him so it would have the least amount of stitches while still doing the trick.