mistakes

I dreamt I was in the streets for some festival. It was night time and possibly fall, as it felt a little cooler and the streets looked wet. There were fireworks going off and the embers were landing all over the crowd, not enough to hurt anyone, but enough to put a hole in some cloth. I was wearing a black dress and I had two lines of wholes going down the front. I think normally this would have made me angry, but for some reason I shrugged my shoulders and didn't seem to care. Then I went into a car with two friends. I think they were new friends. The girl was in the driver's seat, although maybe it was a UK car because I felt like I had the steering wheel and the guy was in the back. It was a fancy sports car that wasn't mine. I don't know if I was borrowing it or if it was stolen, but I knew I felt a bit nervous using the items in it. I showed them this phone thing where you could choose the music. It was all pretty fancy. Then I was in a movie theater. I was with a boyfriend (a guy I recently met in an Irish pub) and we were getting cozy and ready to watch the movie. There was a gal next to me (someone I know via biz) and she had a laptop open. I didn't care for her company much because she was trying to push her agenda on me. She was saying how her body in a bikini was much better and I just didn't agree (in the dream she was skinny to where you could see her bones). I typed a search on her laptop for Marilyn Monroe and was showing her how nice smooth skin looked. She agreed. Then I was in this bright white classroom. My friend (LN) was there and he was chatty as usual. The instructor was casually chatting as we were finding our places. I was looking through a booklet of calendars. It was a collection of old calendars that were mainly nice photographs. He asked if they were mine and I said yes and was showing him some of the photos. There was also one that had pin-ups, although they had been altered. So what you would normally see as a pin-up, you would see them nude but it was drawn like it was for a medical class. So you would see the nice face and limbs and outline of the torso, but the middle was organs set out in a text book way.  I saw that I had left a blazer in the room. It was green cotton and I decided to put it on. As everyone was chatting I realized I had put it on inside out. I started to fix it and LN gave me two plants that we were going to talk about that day. They were actually fungi, but very beautiful, almost orchid like. I successfully turned my blazer right side out and then noticed there was mold and small mushrooms all over the shoulders. I was a bit curious and kind of grossed out a bit too. I needed to get it cleaned if it was savable at all. As people continued to get settled, they were talking about how certain things propagate. I said, well such and such plant was obviously by seeds being blown by air (others plants we spoke of were orderly and grew in natural rows). Then I started day dreaming about the dandelion and thought it would be interesting to make a man made item that could carry a human and float like that, then I was wondering how you would control the movement and so on. Then the class started talking about a certain type of maple tree and how they wanted to make it extinct because it kind of took over everything. So then I started thinking of a man made version of those little helicopters that spin off of those trees. Then I heard a voice regarding the maple tree. It said it would be best to let it do as it pleases as we survive by our mistakes.

ginger cookies

I dreamt I was part of some baking event with my step mom's family. There were a ton of them there all baking and knowing what to do. I wanted to help, I liked to bake. It actually felt good to be around them, since normally I feel like an outsider. They were baking different kinds of cookies and pies. There was one recipe that was a chewy ginger cookie. I guess it was excellent, but they kept on trying to make it into a pie and it was failing. I went to touch the dough in the pie tin and each time you would push on it to spread it to the edge, it would retract to its cookie shape. I decided I had to use the bathroom and so I went out to the barn. All of the boy step cousins were out there doing barn/farm work. It felt like fall, it felt kind of nice but at the same time I wanted to be out of their way. There was something I didn't like about the man feeling that day, where normally I would have chipped in. I went up to the second story of the barn where there was a sort of out house. It was made of wood and there was hay on the ground, not glamorous at all, but the door shut tightly, so I was happy. I also wanted to hurry before I had anyone waiting outside the door. I was successful and went back out. My step mom and my dad were there. I felt as though I didn't want to be around them. I could feel their criticism and their inability to get me or care about my needs. It seemed some time had passed and for some reason I needed to use the outhouse again. I went up the ramp and shut the door when my dad came knocking on it and the door fell off. I wasn't very happy about it and just left. I had two phrases go through my head..." there is no rest for the wicked" and "the meek shall inherit the earth." This passed through my head throughout the dream and I thought... I think someone is trying to tell me I need to be patient. I went back to the house with the backing. They were still having the dilemma with the ginger cookie but otherwise the pies were all done. I looked at everything neatly boxed. I saw that one of my aunt's (D) had red velvet cakes all boxed. I think she may have store purchased those. There was also an apple pie on the table half eaten. I think the crust may not have turned out on that one. Then I started talking to this blond girl. She was a little airy fairy. I suggested that we just cook the rest of the ginger dough as cookies and she agreed. She was tasting one of the baked good and mentioning something like.... " hmm yes, the second story I think...." She was using the way the baked good came out as a symbol of what might be going on in your life. So say a pie fell in the middle, maybe that meant that you were missing some grounding or solidity in your person. I asked if this could be true for all cooked items, projects and so on, and she replied more or less .. of course.

Then I dreamt I was in an office building, a nice modern one. Everyone seemed pleasant to be around. A lot of femininity in the air as apposed to the usual male feel of an office. There was just a feeling of a lot of smiles, caring and sweetness. I, for the first time, didn't mind being in an office knowing I might work there. I was in charge of a couple of projects, but really wasn't part of any department, just helping out. People came by my office asking for this and that and I think I had some sort of information gathering that I was in charge of and so I knew I would have a lot of people by my office. I decided I had better put all of my favorite pens in a safe place so none of them would be accidentally pocketed. As I was doing this ladies were stopping by and giving me their information. I felt sort of ashamed that I would be so greedy with my pens when these people were so nice. I could get others, so I stopped. A security guy walked by a couple of times. He had a nice sweet smile on his face, kind of a grandpa type. He asked how I was doing and I replied good. Then a woman (JG) called me and asked about some HR sheet that she had expected to be done. I reminded her that I gave it back to her with my edits long ago and hadn't heard back from her. I realized I had better set up a status sheet for her projects and the other office projects to keep everyone on the same page. Some office fellow stopped by my office then to give me info. He was curious about me and why I was there and we started chatting. He was trying to be helpful and kind of hinting I should start a business. He said "you should like that (some nickname) lady, she was a smart noodle." Then he proceeded to show me her web site. It was regarding helping people with apartments, finding them, how to set up a lease, deal with issues, the law, and so on. Kind of a helpful hints thing for people who didn't want to do their own research. He said "She solves problems people need answers to."

Then I needed to leave. I was walking through corridors trying to find my way out. It was kind of a complicated floor plan and elevators didn't go to all floors. It also seems I was hiding from someone or trying to get out unnoticed so that no one had a chance to detain me for one more minute. I stopped and looked through one of my bags in a reception area maybe to look normal or to stop and think of my next plan of how to leave...

shadow

I dreamt that I cut myself open to find my "shadow." I reached in and pulled out a glossy black octopus like thing. It was large and maniacal, whipping its tentacles around. It was hard to catch a glimpse but part of me was avoiding it because it was just too frightening.  I couldn't let it free but I didn't want to put it back inside me. It seemed it would be self sabotage. I wasn't sure what was appropriate. I knew that you were supposed to embrace your shadow self so it doesn't affect you in adverse ways. An angel showed up behind me. I couldn't see his face, I just felt his presence, knew he was abnormally tall and had dark hair. He couldn't do anything to my shadow, but he could stand there and make me feel safe. I took the octopus thing and nailed it to a post. I didn't hurt it, it was as if it had a loop on the top of its head that I could hang it on the nail with. I still couldn't really look at it, but I noticed it wasn't flipping around anymore. While thinking what to do the angel put its wings around me, but didn't give me any hints of what to do, just that it would be there. I noticed a beak. It was coming out of something barren and dusty. Was it me? I kind of think it was... it was a crow and it came out and picked up the "shadow" and flew towards the sun. It kept going until it was close enough and it flung the octopus thing toward is and it burst into flames and disintegrated. The crow flew back and it was my new shadow now. It felt dark still, but more controlled. I looked inside to see if there was anything else I needed to take out. I saw a little girl running behind something. I was just able to catch her by the heel. She was a bratty little girl, the kind you don't appreciate. I wasn't sure what to do with her. I knew I needed to deal with her though. That saying that if you don't like someone... you more than likely have some of their traits. 

out of place

I dreamt that I was at my exboyfriend's home, although it was a different house. I was there with a couple of his friends an they were happy to see me. We were having a fun discussion and then he showed up. I felt a little uncomfortable but he was in a chipper mood and kind of acted like he was happy to see me. He had bleached his hair blond, shaved off his sideburns and his eyebrows and was wearing a new hat. It felt as though he had a makeover... not for self improvement, but to show me he was nothing like he was before and that he had moved on. I went in his room to hang my coat and I saw he had sheets. Were these the sheets I had bought him? Then I realized he had purchased 2 sets of new sheets that were nicer than what I had bought him. I guess I was happy for him that the had improved his life but sad that he had thrown away ours. We all sat back down in the living room and were looking over our left over Halloween candy. I was going to give them mine because I didn't want it. I decided to get up and socialize with other people, which ended up looking like a party. I didn't like being with someone I felt rejected around even if he was being nice. I walked down this stairway. It led to a large basement that had a pool table and odd furniture and then further on was a green house of sorts. It seemed like it was a private spot and that we were all needing to go back upstairs. I ran into people that seemed to have known me while coming back up the stairs. They seemed excited and happy to see me and I figured I must have met them at some past party where I had had a little too much to drink. I felt like being nice, but at the same time they were not going to meet the girl they had met before, so I just wanted to move along. Then I was up some stairs and there was lots of natural light. There were a lot of people there I just wouldn't hang around. They were more ?? dramatic, more needy of attention, more?? well, I just couldn't relate. I heard a girl scream in one of the rooms upstairs and then started to cry. I saw her mother leave the room with her eyes down and she looked very judgmental. I wanted to go help the girl as she obviously wasn't getting empathy from her mother. I walked in the room and two women were holding a small baby, obviously just born. It was covered in blood and it looked like it barely survived. I found soon after that, that another baby had been born (twins) and had died. They asked me to hold it and carry it out and I almost vomited. It made me ill to hold this sickly thing that had been born in this kind of a feeling and space. 

home

I dreamt I was without a home. Well, I was staying with people but, although they were kind to me, I was a burden and I could feel it. I also didn't like people in my business exactly although I was thankful for the space. I was staying at a friend's parents' house. Her room was still in tact and there was another daughter living there, friendly enough. I went into my friend's room and the floors were slanted to the middle. Like all of the sides of the room angled up to the walls, and then you slid down into the middle of the room making it hard to keep your balance. I wanted to be out, but I also knew it was a good deal especially with me being unemployed. I knew I would be house sitting for my brother soon, but I wasn't looking forward to that. His house was dark, there were cats (which I don't mind, besides the hair) and I just wasn't looking forward to it. Then I received a quick call from a friend. She said her home in Portland (which they sold) was empty and they really needed someone inside, and if I didn't mind.. could I rent it for $300. At first I said I would get back to her. I did this out of fear of committing and wanting to weight the pros and cons. Then I realized it was an amazing deal and I should jump on it. I was so excited to finally have a space of my own, with my own furniture. It felt great.

construction

I dreamt I was near a building. I think I worked there or was supposed to look up something there. It felt not welcoming, like I had to do this work, although it was sneaky and not right. I didn't like it. Then I was walking down a street. It seemed it was evening. I wasn't sure how to get back to where I needed to be. I walked down one path, but then I felt it was the wrong way, but I just kept going hoping I would find a shortcut to where I wanted to be. The further I walked, the more I felt like I wouldn't be able to get where I wanted to go. I don't understand why I kept going down that path.

Then I was outside a building. It seemed like construction workers or even firemen were doing something to the building. There were tall ladders and cranes, hard hats and roped off areas. My dad was there in a truck. We were waiting for something to be done. I didn't like being there, I didn't like having to take the "back seat," even though I knew I was more capable. But I just bit my lip and did what would make everyone else comfortable

no food

I dreamt I was working on a project in a mall. I think I was in a foreign country and my project started as the stores were closing. I was so hungry though. I looked over and a restaurant was just closing. I knew they had bread and specialties as well as chocolates at register. A little girl was sitting in the doorway. She was told to watch the door as they didn't want anymore patrons that evening. I went to ask her if there was anything I could buy. She said... "bread maybe... but that is downstairs and I can't go downstairs"... it was as if she was tempting me with things just a hands length away, but couldn't stop playing with her doll to help. I really didn't have a solution, but for some reason I couldn't stop searching through the window of the place for a possible something I could buy.

Then I was home and my mother was showing me all of these special treats she had purchased. All things she was saving for a special dinner and knew that I couldn't eat any of them because I was on a special diet. I think I thought the hell with it and opened the fridge to see the food I couldn't have thinking I could sneak something. All of it was carefully stacked and packaged. I couldn't touch anything. 

dead cousin message

I dreamt I was supposed to be getting ready for work, but I think I was going to just not go. My brother was in the house and being all proper and doing as he should, being professional and appropriate. I was feeling less than. I peeked out the window because I heard someone talking. It was my cousin that had past away a few years back. She was laying back in the car and talking kind of loudly. The kind that maybe makes you feel like you are confident and strong, but really is a tone of offensive defense. She was saying how yes... she was on acid, but not as much anymore and she handles this way better than others and so on. It made me take a look at my life and where I was using excuses and if I sounded like her when I talked about them. I was glad I over heard her.

I looked at her and he was thin again. I could see the stretch marks on her stomach, but the shape was nice. I was happy for her. I told my brother she was outside, so he went out to talk to her and invite her in. She had needed help with her hair, so I was thinking no problem, I could braid it for her until I wen to touch it. She had some sort of braid thing on top like corn rows, but it had felty fibers weaved into it like palm palms. Then the rest of the length down the middle back and heavy beads at the end making it hard to keep the hair separate. I finally got the hang of it and made a quick loose braid. It wasn't perfect, but it was done.

She also had these project she was working on. They were thick block tiles that were painted on each side, but they worked like a bead. She would put a string through each one and then another perpendicular so that they lined up horizontally and vertically to make a diamond. I thought sort of clever, I guess... it held them in place and I told her so. But then she looked at me and said "see?"  and started moving the tiles around in air, so that she could rotate the painted tiles in the design she wanted. I wanted to play with them too..

broken teeth

I dreamt that my front to teeth and broken in half horizontally. I went to inspect them and they continued to crumble in my hands. I was mortified yet somehow calm. I thought I just wouldn't smile big for a while and I would make an appointment with the dentist soon. I was more concerned on how did this happen. Was I treating myself poorly? Not eating right??

I've always heard about broken teeth or teeth falling out dreams. Supposed to mean stress etc. Hmm...

vibrating spider

I dreamt there was this strange, very large, yellow spider in the room. I wanted it gone, but at the same time I was curious, so I didn't throw anything on it. It was a bit larger than a baseball (including the legs) and had very long pointy legs. It would move fast from one room to the next, but when it changed directions, it would do a backwards summer-salt, which would make me laugh. Then it would curl into a ball and vibrate. When it did this, it's legs were thick like a tarantula. A friend walked in and found an animal died that she loved and she was crying... then her sister found out and she was crying. I was sad for them, but concerned about the spider. I decided to show it to them, because I thought at least maybe the summer-salts might lighten their mood. But it was still scary...

movies

I dreamt that I was going to see a movie alone. I wanted to sit farther away from people, so I picked a spot that wasn't popular. As I sat down, I noticed this theater  had made a place for wheelchairs all the way down one side. Then someone immediately was placed right next to me. The person seemed quiet, so I didn't mind. Then a few seconds later this extremely obese woman sat next to me and part of her body was in my space. So I got up and went down to the very front. I think I was there to see Star Wars, but then it was Batman. I looked up and there were some old time figurines of Batman. I was feeling this was a waste...

special

I dreamt that I was with a group of people. Normally I think I would have been outside of this group, but for some reason I was inside, and was treated nice. It seems it was the holidays and the big boss gave me a gift. It was in a Chanel box and it was a jacket of gold, all frilly. Nothing I would normally ever want or like, but in the dream, it was special, beautiful and heart warming that he thought of me. It ended up that we were all spies. I was the newbie on the team and was excited to be a spy. I loved the idea of being out and about, not tied behind a desk and being part of something. My partner was Ann Hathaway. She had a strong personality, a little bossy and definitely the alfa. I just let her play her role as I knew I had a lot to learn, she seemed to know what she was doing and really, I was just happy to be doing something fun. 

letting go

So I ended up dreaming I was with this guy and he was fishing. He didn't pay much attention to me. He was focused on his goal of getting a fish. I think the other people didn't think he would do that well since he started late. Then all of a sudden I saw his string being pulled. No one noticed but him and I. It looked like something bigger than a fish. I was happy and excited for him and helped him navigate it in. Then a huge sailing ship (like old time) came up out of the water. It was beautiful. We boarded the ship. I felt a tug... like he was looking around how to make it go... and get away and even though I had helped him.... he was going to go without me. But I still wanted to help. It hurt a bit. But then I looked at the ship and there were bugs everywhere. Spiders, beetles, ants. He didn't notice them at all. I was thinking that this ship was doomed... it may have killed the previous sailors and so what would it do to him? As much as it looked like a treasure and that you would want to hold on to it, maybe it needed to be let go. Which is hard to do when you just found something that you thought you would never find and seems so amazing. I went to go look for a captain, someone who could help us. A captain showed up (Robert Shaw) and he knew the sailing world. I felt like he was a friend from the past or something known. I felt safe around him. I offered information and he respected it and conversed about it. It felt so good not to struggle to prove myself. I showed him a map. It was only the edges of a map, like the right and bottom sides of a frame. He found the top and left sides and we put them together. Somehow, in the dream it was a whole map even though it didn't have a middle to see where we were going. But it all felt ok because we were working on it together. 

freedom

Last night I dreamt I was in a hotel. It was kind of interesting. It was fancy, kind of dark... well to do people staying there. They had these statues, some small animals and life size, some larger tall ones. I noticed that they had moved them into the pathways of where someone would walk coming in and out of the hotel. I felt like for sure someone would stumble on them, but they didn't seem to, and then I kind of felt like.. of course... why would they fall? Some of us had to go to work or?? I looked out at the street. The hotel was placed on the NW corner of an intersection. The street going north and south was flooding. It was the snow that had been melting and it was so high and going so quickly that you couldn't walk across the road. I was wondering if ice would form underneath like it had in the (imaginary) past. I was hoping it would. I liked extreme weather and I didn't really want to go to work. Then I was in a room with a friend. It was a guy. He seemed smart, nice and funny and I enjoyed his company. He had this device that was a radio. At the push of a button it would move parts around to be larger and play amazing sounding music. Well amazing sound... I can't recall the music. They came in larger sizes, but this one was perfect. He pushed another button and a lever popped out. It had blue light emitting from it. It was a bomb. It felt like he was intending to use it and for some reason that felt ok.

Then I was in the past. Maybe the 1800s. I was living with either my own family or some family that had taken me in. I wasn't very valued, mainly just a body in the house that had to be clean and act appropriately. The house had a visiting school mistress and she seemed to be nice to me. I wanted to badly to escape the house and she was going to provide an opportunity. She had to act stern to me like she was punishing me by teaching me certain things, so that the family wouldn't think I was being treated special or getting anything nice. She was teaching me the buttons on an old metal cash register. She drew all of the buttons on a chalkboard and was showing me what to push first... the numbers. Then I would need to make a "sentence" so the cash register would know what to do. So I would need to push numbers... then it was for... select country's currency, and so on. I really had zero interest in the cash register, but I knew knowing how to do it was my ticket out. I could go get a job and be free.

answer

I dreamt I was at some retreat or?? We had to share some stories and for some reason I got up to speak and mentioned that my dad had died 3 months ago (he is still living). And then I went on to say something meaningful... not sure what. The session was over and we were packing to leave. Oprah had attended and I wanted to ask her a question. I had a biz idea but I really needed some partners and I figured she would know of some good people to network with. Before I got a chance to ask her anything, she said "you know... you are really good at seeing a person and then motivating them in who they are." It was as if she answered my question in a round about way. That I shouldn't do my biz idea and should do that for a living.

skill and talent

I dreamt I was viewing and commenting on people that had expertise. I was admiring how much they had studied, practiced and so on to a wise person sitting next to me and some other friends. I didn't have any such skills and was feeling less than. The person sitting next to me said, "well you are lucky that you have that brain of yours. You don't need a class or an instrument, you just keep channeling ideas through that brain," and then gave me a wink.

No escape

Dreamt that doll had a spirit. First my mom had killed it years before.  Then I either killed it for knowing something or because it made me uncomfortable. Then it's spirit had gone into a child and so on, each needing to be killed. Then it showed up in a new doll. It looked right through me. It felt awful. I wanted to kill it better this time so it couldn't jump bodies. People were coming and I kept trying to start the fire to burn it in. My brother had made CDs ... A boy and a girl one. I wanted to use the packaging for the fire. Mom said it woud be nice to throw the cats in there. Meaning dead ones.. But an old sick one went in and we didn't try to save it. 

vampires and buttons

I dreamt my boyfriend and I had been turned into vampires. Our maker was Erik from the series True Blood. We were going to take acid and Erik wasn't very happy about it but he just rolled his eyes. Then my bf said "You should see ?? not sure of the name??, he was smoking and he stays up all night like, like a hooty hoot owl."

Then I was in a different dream. I had just been hired on to a handmade button company. I was at a conference where a woman was talking about the specialness of buttons that people just don't realize. After the speech I went up to her to let her know I was in the business. I was wearing a special blue dress that had  5 different hand made buttons made of different materials (glass, clay, and so on). 

making amends, shop, bikes, convention

I haven't been posting my dreams...

On the same night I had these two dreams:

I dreamt it was my 40th birthday. My dad and step-mom were visiting to celebrate with me. They had made a card for me which was sweet and then my dad had a grocery sack full of posters. I peeked at some of the corners of them. I saw that they were movies we had been to together... like every movie we had been to together (we have been to many). It was as though those moments were not just making busy time, but they actually meant something to him. I started crying and woke myself up crying...

Then I dreamt about my mother. She came up to me and said she was sorry we never had those mother daughter moments as I was growing up and in to adult hood...

Both dreams felt like they "fixed" things when I woke up.

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Last night I dreamt that I was a business owner on a trendy street in Portland. I felt part of the space a bit, yet still getting my feet wet. I walked around, wanting to be part of the space, the community, the neighbors and so on. It felt kind of nice. There was a shooting earlier at a bar a friend was going to go to. She hadn't heard about it, so she still showed up. A friend of our was going to be performing that night. The door was locked and he came knocking on the door and we let him in. The crowd still seemed ready to have a good time, shooting or no. There was a guy there that I used to work with (Luigi S.). His hair had been black when I knew him, but today it was gray at the edges and black at the roots. He seemed cheerful and wanted to talk to me, but we had a bad ending, so I was not really interested in talking to him, so I left. Then I ran into G.H. He and I were in a hotel. It was an old one with lots of character and kind of dark. We were looking for a place to get food. We were both on bicycles and tootling around outside. It was dark and we didn't really seem to have a sense of direction.

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Then I dreamt I was at a convention. Everyone had partaken in some food thing and I had been working. All I really wanted was some coffee. I looked across the convention and saw a coffee sign and walked towards it. I couldn't see a vendor or a coffee pot. Some guys in the corner booth said there is coffee over there. I kept looking but felt a little crazy in that I couldn't see it. I saw some Frisbee golf discs though. One of them brought me a bottle of Jack Daniels. I said I didn't want that.. wasn't there any coffee??? They finally helped me find it.

roady

I dreamt I was was on some sort of boat or even an ice block, although it wasn't cold. I was drifting through other small island type things. Some no larger than a boat, some the size of a small restaurant and others more island sized, but they were closer to a mainland. I think I liked the freedom of floating around and not being connected to the other pieces of inhabitance, although I knew I still wanted to be with people. It just felt like when I landed on them, things became more complicated then I felt they needed to be. I wasn't going to harm, hurt or interrupt anyone, so couldn't I just go about my way? I ended up on one of them, I think it was an Asian restaurant. All of the food seemed foreign and I didn't recognize what to order.

Then I dreamt I was walking up to a concert. I think I was supposed to be doing something there? but maybe just watching. Two of us were picked out of the audience to go to the stage. One of them was already up at the front and up on stage, I lifted up my arms and allowed myself to be body surfed over the crowd. It was a nice feeling. I was sent to the side of the stage while they talked to the other girl. She had to give a little speech on why she was there. I kind of wanted to avoid that so was happy to talk to the band's makeup/producer/?? person on the side of the stage. She was young, about 25, but acted much older. I was older, but felt much younger. We were talking about career and freedom. How we both liked go from thing to thing instead of committing to one career. I wanted to follow my interests in a light way. Kind of like you would imagine a wolf in the snow... following a mouse around out of interest instead of hunger. The band was Aerosmith. The girl and I continued to talk and realized we had some friends in common that were producers and photographers and so on. Then Steven Tyler walked by and said "ready to give it a go?"  I looked at her eyes were asking for confirmation if I wanted to go travel and work with the concert. Part of me was very ready and my mouth was saying yes, and then part of me was wondering if this was just a knee jerk reaction. Going on to the next thing when the current thing was getting challenging. She then asked me if I knew this one guy. That his dog had died recently and he was really sad. He showed me a photo, I didn't think I knew him, but he reminded me of people from a group of friends of my boyfriend's.  I felt bad for the guy, I also felt envious that he had felt this deeply and others felt this deeply about him to give him notice. 

doubt

 I dreamt I was talking to my boyfriend. He was being aloof at one moment where I thought everything was ending, and at the next moment saying he wanted to move in together. The one felt horrible, the one felt great, the idea that both could happen in a short moment made me uneasy and doubtful.

cats work

choppy memory on this dream...
work for office
managed women
PC rec'd discount on apartments.. I almost kept but then gave to her
big house.. many waiting to be se en... actors?
cats... playing
getting ready
dark man aksing me questions
flashback of me in cute top .. my back looked great... I was in great shape
walking through a home... ladies lived there... exchanged info

orchard spaniels

I dreamt I was at my grandpa's orchard that he used to have. I could see a man out working in the orchard and two spaniels dancing around his feet. The man had a dark energy about him. He felt heavy, weighted and anxious. It was as if his soul left him, and all that kept him going was to get to point B. He had that feeling of thoughts spinning in your had of all you "had" to do and get done and that had encompassed him. I didn't want to go near him and I wanted him out of the orchard. I took a closer look at the spaniels, who felt more like joy and love. They were prancing around the man's feet, but I could tell they were starving. I felt an urgency to feed them, but I wasn't sure I had the power to do so. At that moment, the man held one of the dogs heads down and shot the dog in the head several times. I screamed out at the man to stop with every bit of energy I had.

Good lesson.... feed your joy before you become dead inside.

glass shoe

I dreamt.... but I remember from the end on... I had traveled to Italy. BW is a friend who is a glass blower and I thought I should take some photos for him of the glass art I was seeing. Some things had happened before as well. I dreamt that my dad... well it was a mix... as though he was a dad, my grandpa, a mentor... was involved in my life and caring. Wanted me to see things, not that he wanted to see, but that he knew would inspire me, make me think, make me grow... . It was a nice feeling. So in the store... I was walking around and saw some glass vases... I almost took a pic but then thought they were normal and he wouldn't think anything of them, then I saw a unique sculpture of clay... it was of an abstract woman figure... but the body was painted on in a lifelike way... I thought I wanted this idea for myself.. and it was not glass, so I didn't take a photo.... then I saw more glass... I thought maybe not impressive enough for him.... then I saw a unique sculpture... it was a putty/lavendar/grayish color... it looked like a shell for a moment and then looked like a high heel shoe... it was rather large... I was looking for a price as I really fell in love with the color, and I knew a friend of mine that liked shoes... it was over $800 but look liked it had been on sale, but no, but yes... I couldn't tell by the pen marks. I went to ask the sales lady about it and she said many had been interested and that it was not on sale price. The feeling of the dream for the most part was ok.. I was on vacation and I was getting nice attention from a mentor (grand)fatherly type... but then I realized... I had spent my whole trip thinking of what everyone else would like instead of what I wanted to look for...

three wise mummies

I dreamt that two friends of mine (PC, MG) went to go see a find. Three preserved bodies had been found from ages ago. They were three Asian women sitting on three thrones. They had somehow been found where they hadn't been before, so they had moved or appeared on their own. They seemed larger than humans, let alone normal Asian's smaller frames. Their heads were very large and they had bangs that were blunt cut at the eyebrow and hair down to their shoulders which was also blunt cut. Their skin looked like leather, but they were all sitting perfectly upright, elbows on the chair arms and hands over the edge. The only thing that made them look dead besides their leathery skin was that there eyelids were sunken in a bit. My two friends and I went to see them but it didn't seem like it was open to the masses, but not like we were the only invites either. The place where they were found felt like a cavern but at the same time felt man made. It was spooky to walk by them, but not because they were dead, but more that you could still feel their energy. It wasn't a light energy or a heavy energy... but one that felt hmm... kind of a mix between warning and judgment. I didn't know if this was an energy for their time or something they were giving off for our time.

apartment, closed theme park

I dreamt that I was moving in with two of my friends PC and RP. We are all not really roommate types, so it is odd. I was in the apartment checking it out. It was beautiful. It was in an old building, lots of interesting rooms, high in the building, great windows and views and location. PC was picking out paint colors and they both were making decisions about the place. I had opinions but I knew they were more picky about what they would and would not live with. I suggested a color for one wall knowing they wouldn't like it. I also suggested where the dining table could go, next to a window with great people watching. I don't think they liked that either. I figured I would just keep it all to myself moving forward. It was strange. I knew I didn't want to live in this kind of situation, but I was giving up "me" in order to live in this place. Was it worth it...

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I dreamt that I was in a theme park with KM an old friend of mine. We had to walk through tunnels to get around. They were where the little trains would normally go. Sometimes we had to crawl, but it was ok, because the rails were soft and made of spongy material. We were near the end of walking around and there were women at tables having desserts. Fun looking whimsical desserts. They said that they were having tea. One explained that they get to do this once a month? or year? because they had year memberships at the theme park for their children. I guess they enjoyed it. I don't think it would have been worth it for me. We left the park and on the way out there was some water, but it was full of algae and was all murky green. I said I wanted to jump in. My friend was almost scolding me letting me know that was a bad idea. I had to explain I didn't mean in that water in particular, but it was a hot day and I wanted to be in water in general.  We walked across to our hotel where there were two pools. I was wanting to jump right in, but she walked in one of them and I felt it kind of stole my thunder. Not sure why... As I was deciding which pool to go into, they had drained both of them for cleaning. I was thinking in my mind.. why would they do that during they day when people wanted to use it... why not at night?

monk planet

I dreamt I was in a space ship /hover craft over a plant of monks. Tibetan monks... in orange clothed robes. I felt so lucky to see their lands and homes. It was beautiful, green and untouched besides walkways and small homes. I was in a strange spot on the space craft that was flying over but, I felt blessed again in that I was in the only position that could see what I was seeing as well.  Then later I was dreaming that I landed on that planet with a good friend. We tried to go undetected as we were not supposed to really be there. and then found an opening to the "visitor/tourist" part of their land. There was a small tourist village with things to buy and to eat. It felt very contrived but at the same time more comfortable than being in the place where we didn't fit.

baby baby

I dreamt that I was given a baby, that was mine. It was a chubby boy baby that seemed happy and healthy enough. I was thinking.. how embarrassing... I didn't know I was pregnant. What will I tell people? And the immediately following was the feeling of I have no choice, just roll with it. I would tell people that is why they hadn't seen me in a while because I was hiding the baby bump, although in the dream I never really "carried" the baby. I didn't know who the father was and in my dream I didn't even think of it. It seemed like it was just my project that I created and would take care of. There was a man in my dream, he was setting up a room for me. I felt like I sort of knew him, but not really. He was nice.. I knew that he kind of liked me and would take care of me if I wanted. It all felt comfortable and uncomfortable at the same time. I didn't like this part of me exposed, but at the same time, I was forced into a position and I didn't have to think about it, just do.

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I had another baby dream last night. This time I think I was watching someone else's baby girl. I was holding her with the same detachment as I was the baby boy in the previous dream. Like I knew she was a living thing that I needed to care for, but otherwise, she was just a thing. I had to go to the store for some supplies for her. I went in and was looking around ... I had a backpack (actually it was BW,s gray and orange backpack), and other items. I went to the register to pay and was going to put the baby down so I could find the money, and realized I had left the baby in the car. I went running outside and there was a crowd of women all scowling at me. I tried to explain that my hands were full and that it was a mistake and I was only gone seconds. They didn't seem to care, but they didn't call the police and I was happy to flee. Although it wasn't exactly a fleeing. One woman went with me in my car. I was driving and she was in the passenger seat. I was explaining more of my reasons and I could feel that she was judging me. I then recognized her as someone I knew. She paused and didn't seem happy that I knew her past, as if she lost some of her judging power because I was trying to bond.  I looked in the back. I had left the baby on the back seat floor and she was crying. I tried to sooth her and knew we had a corner to turn and we would be home. Home was my mother's current house. The whole thing felt awful. I felt like I had failed, that I was selfish, that I couldn't even do something as simple as watching a baby anymore. 

flying apple

I dreamt I was on my way somewhere with a man from the middle east. We were not very familiar with each other, but at the same time, we had a level of comfort as if we did either know each other or had similar values or goals. There was an excitement we both shared about something that kept us bonded. We went to a parking lot under a bridge. It was a mess of cars and we found the one we would be using. It was a bit of a mess and I think it even had a broken window. As I was getting in, I looked over to some traffic lights in an intersection. They were the kind that hung from a wire between poles. There was an apple vine of sorts going across it. I pointed it out to him so he could see how beautiful it was, and I kept exclaiming on how perfect the apples were. I could feel the appreciation rising from my belly to my chest and then phwoom! an apple flew over in my direction, bouncing off the hood of my car into my hand. My mouth dropped open and I looked at him and thought how fortunate! The apple was as crisp and delicious as it looked. I was amazed. Then I realized I needed to go start up an old white car behind me. I went back to the car, gave it a good couple of tries with no success. I then shrugged my shoulders as I didn't have a solution and went to get back in my car. Then an engineer friend called me at that second to tell me how to start the car.

lobby

I dreamt I was in some sort of lobby. It felt like a hotel, but I think it was an apartment. I say I think because although it felt like apartments, and I lived there, I didn't feel familiar with the place, or how to go about finding things, where transportation was and so on. The elevator was in the center of the lobby. It was old an ornate... victorian mixed with art deco, dark metals and wood and in the center of a lobby that was colored in plum and wine colors. It was luxurious looking, yet still old and small scale, so it didn't feel too grandiose. More like you would smell old smells while kind of appreciating the design. I was coming downstairs to meet someone. I don't remember who, or why. There were women in the lobby and men. I felt they all knew what they were doing and where they were going as I pretended to know by milling around. It felt awkward.

quiet men

I dreamt I was at some hotel thing. It was for work I'm thinking. I was there for a reason with people I wouldn't normally spend time with. I don't remember much of this part. Later in the dream I was walking down a street I used to walk when I was in grade school. It was a quiet street, wide and not lines painted on it. I think only older people lived on it because all of the lawns were manicured and I never saw children coming out of them. I was walking along when I realized a man was following me. He was slightly hefty and bald. I could feel that he was smart  and intent on his purpose, so I wouldn't be able to easily get away. I would walk down one street, back in through a alley and so on, and he was on my every step. I ducked into a house and somehow lifted myself up above the door jam. My plan was to just attack him as he walked in. As soon as I moved up, I saw a taller man right behind him. It was as though his mind was not only able to read mine, but he could manifest whatever he needed immediately to thwart my next move. 

ocean Depp

I dreamt I was an actress. At first it seemed I was in a class again. I looked over and there was Johnny Depp. I'm  not sure if he was just sitting in or actually taking the class. He was being nice. I felt like he was kind, helpful and wanted to help me specifically. It made me feel special. Then the group walked out on to the beach. It seemed it was dusk. We were having an practice outing or a performance, I'm not sure. The waves were stormy and high and we were all in the ocean rolling with the waves. The sane (or maybe fearful) part of my brain said we should all get back to the beach because these are the kind of waves that pull you under. The other part of my brain, the part that knows if I want to "live" life, and move forward, I needed to be out in those waves. We were out there, swimming, floating and spinning in the waves as a group and it was thrilling. I felt alive and part of something. Then it was time to come back in. I saw a friend of mine (KM ..actress in LA). She was kind of helping me out as well. Showing me the ropes. 

levels

I dreamt I was in a house that was moving down the road. My friends (BM, PC and JR) were there. BM was being pleasant. We were all going to sleep and just had a blanket on the floor to sleep with. BM had extras and said to use some of his for cushion. He started talking about business and something he had discovered.
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I dreamt I was either a border or an assistant at this house. I never really felt at home there. I felt in the way like a servant or as if I was a cousin that had to stay with the family, and wasn't really wanted. The man of the house was Jeff Bridges. He wasn't there at the moment, so I thought I would make myself useful. I stayed in a room a level up from the main floor. Not quite another floor up, but high enough to have half a case of stairs up to it. I had nothing left to do up there, so I came downstairs. There was a door above the fridge in the kitchen so I decided to take a look. It needed organized, so I organized it and it was much better. You could see through the attic to another room and hallway. It was on of the sons. He did most of his living up there. The attic part I organized I couldn't really fit in, I could just organize things from the ladder. Then Jeff Bridges came home and went to the upper level. He sat Indian style on the floor and looked through things. I was standing aside anxiously. That feeling you get when you want to be productive and would be if you knew what to do.

elephant assigment

I dreamt that I was in a classroom of sorts. The class was working on a writing assignment. It was a casual feeling class, as everyone was sitting somewhere comfortable, desks askew and people sitting how they liked. The assignment was to write about the one thing that stopped us from our dream. Each of us was given a paper quill. It was a sheet of paper rolled into a narrow cone with a quill at the tip. I was trying to write with it, but the quill kept pushing back in to the paper cone. I new I could play with it a bit to get it to work, but I wanted to get a better idea of the assignment before the instructor left the room. The instructor was an older Indian man. He was nice, but also matter-o-fact. More black and white than emotional. It was good because he could get the point across quickly and didn't let you have excuses. I brought up the paper that I was supposed to write the assignment on. It was three horizontal rectangular pieces of hand made paper. Each had a large elephant on it with a baby elephant behind it holding the larger one's tail. We were supposed to write the thing that held us back and I'm assuming how it affected us etc. One idea on each sheet. For some reason this was not a simple task to me. I couldn't figure out what to put. He explained it again, identically as before, and I was trying to relate to him that I understood what was needed, but mine wasn't that simple. I stopped to think where I was "stopped" in my life and I realized all of me was stopped. I wasn't allowed to think, feel, hold my face in a funny way, express myself, do good, do bad, enjoy myself, pout or breathe. These three sheets and 6 elephants were not enough to express everything. I didn't have a little issue to work on, I needed a full life reset. I couldn't even pick the "most important" one as they were all one big issue. A friend of mine from high school (SK) was there. She wasn't necessarily the best in school, but she had a quick and easy time with the assignment. I sat there kind of paralyzed and excited at the same time. I didn't know what exactly to do next, but I was glad to finally see...

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Then I dreamt that I worked in a building across from another building. I'm not sure what the business was, just that it felt comfortable, that I liked my coworkers and that there was a pleasant feel. I saw things happening across the way at the other building and I didn't understand it all. I wanted to see more. I walked over and saw that their front door wasn't locked. I walked in. I found I was able to walk through the whole place without them knowing I was there. There were just a few women that worked there. I thought it was a little dangerous that anyone could walk in and they were not even curious. I walked to the back. I felt like there had to be some trick door or something in the back. There was just  stairwell. It looked like it went down, but I'm not sure to where. I let them know how easy it was to do this and maybe they might want to at least lock the front door. They then showed me that their building was connected to an office supply store. It was large like a warehouse. I thought it looked like fun. 

Asian race car

I dreamt that I was in Asia somewhere... not sure where. I was with an Asian guy that was supposed to race a car. We were in an underground parking lot that led into a store. I didn't know why we were there until he stole a car. It felt like he "had" to do it. I didn't feel that way, but he knew he needed to take the risk, and felt that it was ok to do, although knowing it was "officially" wrong. We jumped in the car and took off, which ended up being a van that was loudly painted in bright colors and Asian writing. There is no way we could really hide this van. We drove quickly down the freeway and then pulled into a small local market. It was close enough to where it was stolen and the parking lot was lower than the street, that I felt we could almost pull this off. We went into the store and my brother was there with his wife. I'm not sure if I told them what we did, but it seemed he knew we were not trying to get attention, that we were focused on something else besides picking up some vegies. We walked through the areas trying to look normal. I picked up some small tomatoes and paid for them. I was holding them in my hands. I wished I had put them in a bag to look like everyone else. As we went through the register area, I showed the older man that I had paid for him and he nodded and was fine with it.

exposure

I dreamt I was in a hotel room. I had gone for some event that had to do with rodeo or horses. There were others around that I had went with in other rooms. I felt this need to hide so I could get ready. I felt that I wouldn't be given a chance to get ready or that I would be criticized for what I was doing, as I was doing it. I found a room where someone had already checked out and went in there to finish up. I was hurriedly getting ready when someone walked in. It was a maid. She asked if it was my room and I was honest and said no, but that I had been staying in another room and decided to use this one instead as I knew the person that had checked out from it. She decided she need to call authorities, so I packed up and left... the whole time feeling anxious and exposed.

Then I dreamt I was in a retail store. I think I worked there. They sold clothes. I felt very watched and although I was doing a good job, I felt under scrutiny...

Then I dreamt I was getting ready again, this time in a friend's basement where I was staying or renting to work in or?? I felt I had to get ready in hiding again. It didn't feel good. Then someone came to my door. It was a man that is an actor in Hell on Wheels, the Dutch guy. In my dream he was a hypnotist that I know (British guy). He came in and I felt uncomfortable. Why was he here? I had nothing for him. Maybe he was here for my friend. I opened the door and he said he was there to learn and experience more psychic ?? stuff. I was confused as I thought he was very scientific and not into it at all. I in the dream I was a kind of expert on it, but my friend upstairs felt she was too. Part of me wanted to just send him to her. What if he was just asking to poke fun? 

all thumbs

I dreamt we had found another Earth type planet. People were milling around and being critical on how it doesn't have this or that. I was frustrated. I said... "Do you know how lucky we are we found this planet at all???? We are lucky to be alive?? Make the best of it!"

Then I had another dream about a guy I met a while back from Isle of Man, SM. He was being nice and friendly as if we were old friends and we were chatting, he was cooking. Then we sat on the couch and he kept poking fun at me verbally and then literally poking fun at me with his foot. I was laughing and trying to get away... then I realized he had a thumb growing out at a right angle to his heel.

the whole fam damily

I dreamt about a mix of things. It isn't all sorted in my head yet. But I've never had a dream with so many people I know in it before... friends PC, RP, BW ... family CC, SC, BC, PC, GC ... and possibly more.

In one part I was in a store/building. I was supposed to be preparing someone for death and then they died and making sure things were handled after. I felt like my heart was in the right place and I did the right things. But my friend PC came and my mom and RP and I felt as though they thought I didn't do everything appropriately. I knew the person that died was ok with what had happened, so I was just trying to deal with feelings of being disrespected by people who were not there, did not experience it and so didn't really "know." They just knew what they were seeing after the fact. They continued to finish up the duties and I helped in the room tidying up.

Then I was at a house. Not sure if it was one of my parent's house or not. I was in a shed and looking at all of the old things that had piled up. I think it was a mix of old grandparents' and great grandparents' things. I was excited to treasure hunt, clean up things and so on. I went back in the house for a cloth and my dad was in there. Out on the door step were my nice clothes. Mainly business clothes for work. I yelled why were they out on the wet doorstep to get ruined? My mother appeared and said they were not put away, so she got them out of the way. Another feeling of disrespect, but instead of the mild feelings I felt at the death scenario, I felt inferno angry.. I yelled at the reasons why this wasn't ok and part of me felt weak and teared up... why? why would she cause this frustration. Then my mind went immediately to why did I do to create this situation. I did leave the clothes out, I didn't trust them as well, I was doing things in a sneaky way.... pot/kettle/black...

raspberry pie

I dreamt that I was on my way somewhere. It felt like a job, a duty, but not horrible. I had things to get done, places to go, people I had to spend time with or see. At one point I was on a bus. I was supposed to be meeting someone and get off earlier, but someone was handing out Christmas gifts. I hadn't brought any for anyone, but one woman, someone I didn't care for... she just didn't seem right, lacking self esteem, doing things for the wrong reasons, .. she gave everyone a pie. She wanted to make sure I knew that she gave me two pies. It was very nice of her and they looked very nice. I could see one pie was raspberry. I didn't feel obligated to give her something back. But I was thinking of why she thought I should have two pies, it was as though she wanted me to know I did something good unbeknownst to me, and that she appreciated it.

warewolf video

I dreamt a friend of mine (StK) was walking my dog Sophie, which I no longer have. He was yanking her neck. I went running after her and was asking him to stop. I picked her up, it was nice to hold her again.

I then went into a store. The woman in the store wasn't very nice, a bit snobby. I told her that I was getting married so that she would give me better service, which she did. She gave me a picnic basket with book of wedding ideas. It was kind of a sampler for her store so you would buy more things. I took it home to my friends StK and CK. I put the basket up on the counter. It was the farm house kitchen that my dad had when I was growing up. I started talking and then DF came around the corner. A little Irish guy... He came around and asked how I was doing. I went to give him a hug and I hadn't realized how tiny he really was. It was nice to see him and to see him be pleasant. I was a little upset that he thought I was getting married, but it was nice to have him be nice so I decided not to correct it.

I started going through the picnic basket. The book in there was very nice with not only wedding ideas, but creative ones, gardening and so on. There was also a calligraphy set, water color set, among other things. The basket itself was a little broken, but it was still a nice gift. CK was going through it with me and I could tell wanted to use some of the items. I probably would end up giving them to her.

Then I was singing a song.  I was glad I received the picnic thing and in my mind I was thinking (even though this and that was broken). I wanted to stop bring up the wrong bits... just bring up the right and so I wanted to sing a little happy song before going in the room to see my boyfriend. I start singing and then I laid back on the back of the couch and was getting good thoughts in my mind and then he ran in like in 1/2 a second and was on top of me and looked like a warewolf.... and then I looked like a warewolf with a surprise on my face and he said.... Haven't you seen the video? meaning the song I was singing's video was of a warewolf couple....

Elvis Lamp and Berlin

I dreamt I was working in a new office. I had a nice setting. I was using the desk that I had purchased from an estate sale and I had it decorated kind of frilly. Not my usual in an office. I generally try to look organized and utilitarian. This was very whimsical and fun and made me smile. My new coworkers were a good 15 to 20 years younger than me. Although I didn't feel out completely like one of them, I didn't feel like an outsider either. There was one especially energetic guy that was part of my team. He was chipper and felt nice to be around. He was about to work with another guy, who in the dream was fun, successful and innovative. That would be a good team. We all (the staff) had taken a class and so received iPads as part of it. It was a nice gift and I was thinking about what kind of backing I would use to differentiate mine. I had an image of white with black swirls that (in the dream) I had used for my phone. Yes that would work fine... Normally, again, that would be too girly for me. My friend (PC) showed up. She was all smiles and gave me a congratulatory present. I'm not sure if it was for this job or what, but I accepted. She handed me the gift bag and I pulled out a glittery desk lamp. It had a gold glittery base with Elvis in a white jumpsuit on top of that in his pose and then a gold lamp shade. I loved it. I immediately went to put it on my desk and had a perfect spot for it. I went to plug it in and the gold lamp shade had turned into white Christmas lights wrapped around swirling wires. Each time I went to try to plug it in, this time from the plug in at the beginning of the string of lights, to the plug at the end of the string of lights, it would light up the first few lights and then burn out at the end and the plugs would melt and fuse. I realized I just needed to plug in the initial plug and the electricity would flow through to the end on its own. Then PC told me that someone wanted to sign a contract with me... wanted me for the business or job. It turned out it was the young guy and the successful man as well as another guy that was working on a project. I was happy and excited. ------ I dreamt I was in Berlin visiting. It was now... like I had left and was there. It happened so fast I was questioning myself as to why I was there, how did I do it financially and so on. But I decided to go with the flow. I was so happy to be there and seeing my friends. I was back visiting my old apartment and my friend (SP) from Berlin was there, my friend (WW) from the Netherlands was there and another guy who I seemed to know in my dream. They had never met each other and so I was really looking forward to some of my favorite people coming together. The apartment then turned into SP's apartment and was fancy and nice. He was showing everyone his place. He had turned his bedroom into an outdoor area and there was even a pool. One of the guys had just come back from the bank. I realized I had no Euros on me and needed to go as well, so I slipped out to the mall to find an ATM. I went through a bank, but they were all for the special cards with the chip which mine didn't have. Then I kept walking and finally found one. It gets a little foggy here, but I met someone, everyone was friendly, I came back in time for us all to go out.

spiders attack and ice cream buffet

I dreamt that I was in a large building. It felt almost warehouse-like in size and openness, but it was livable. I also felt like there was a feeling of community there. We all lived together, were aware of each other and cared about each other to some extent. We heard there had been some spider issue. Small spiders about the circumference of an eraser head. They could give you a disease with one bite that would kill you and possible make you a little "off" as well. I don't think you could trust a person once they were bitten. We were all on watch for them and looking out for each other, making sure we were all accounted for and could get to a safe place. I remember something about getting some supplies too, even things like entertainment. We were all to meet in one area, make sure it was spider free and then work out. Although the spiders were dangerous, it felt like a solvable problem. While gathering our things, we noticed that it was much worse than we had assumed. There were hundreds of spiders all together and we needed to act quickly. ... Then it seemed the warehouse was an office. As though there were buildings built inside the warehouse, offices, cafes and so on, but all under a protective roof. I was supposed to go get some food at the grocery store for a meeting. People were all talking about the new ice cream buffet the store had put in. I went over to look at it. It didn't look appetizing, but maybe I was just being picky as everyone was raving about it. I asked for a sample spoon to see for myself. My instincts were right. The texture was icy, the flavors felt watered down and not rich. The people were just falling for the gimmick and the pricing.

off plan

I was in a spaceship that was hovering over an area on Earth... a particular downtown area in Portland. Our ship was invisible, so we could go undetected. The ship's occupants were just myself, a woman with black shiny hair and straight across bangs (the captain) and the guy from the office. We landed, although we were only supposed to hover. I was going to tell them about the area they were near as they were had never been and I didn't get my chance to be helpful. The captain didn't seem to like me and it was as though I only noticed this at this moment as things were going off plan. The ship had to become visible due to it being material and people could run into it on the ground now that we had landed. It was on this corner of a block that was an open area. It appeared as a small building that looked like a large log structure on its side... modern, with brown painted metal. The grain of the wood had been stamped in to the metal. It was fitting for the area (stump town). I was concerned as she just had it appear and we were not supposed to just show up and reveal ourselves like that. I went outside to see how the people took it and people were fine, buzzing around on the streets like a normal workday. She had made the ground side of one end open looking with glass walls and an open wall that people could walk on the ship. Many young professionals (or want-to-be's) got on... I was running to get on because I wasn't sure why she was collecting them. For research? for??? I was also jealous... I felt as if she was taking on new people and kicking me out. As I approached the glass opening it started to close. I tried to squeeze in but it closed and the people were so packed in I couldn't have squeezed in either way. Somehow I found another entrance on the other side. She was busy with this new bunch of people to ?? and some of our leaders had arrived on the ship as well. She was trying to show them what she had accomplished and woo them as well. I made myself known. I wanted it to seem to her that I was still strong, that nothing really happened and it was work as usual, although I know when our eyes met we both knew what we knew. I took advantage of her business and ran down the corridor to find my friend. He was busy taking care of his duties. We had a close relationship, more along the lines of best friends although I think I loved him and he me. He was a little disgruntled about seeing me. He knew her plan and that I would be fine where we landed but that he could not insure my safety on the ship. I think I was upset in a way that he didn't leave to go with me or protest against her, but it wasn't like that... we didn't have those choices. I could hear her coming and asked him to hide me glancing around seeing there were a few good options that would work. He declined. What would we do next when the ship left.. she still would want to be rid of me and then we would be worse off as he would be in trouble as well. I needed to leave... Then I was hired on with a company some how. I fit in well enough as I had the experience before. It was a bit of events, marketing and pr. They hip-ish gray haired man with little glasses was kind and trying to show me the ropes. I had a desk upstairs that was small and simple. I walked down the open office area to see the other folks. Their desks were made of whiteboard material. I kind of wished that I had that instead. I walked over to another area where there was a machine that must have produced something useful. It had many different colored rose shaped things made of pleated ribbon. They were not secure, and so could unravel when you picked them up. I wasn't sure what they were for. The man started telling me of some duties that would be coming up soon. Some press kits to be made and he hoped I could handle it. I let him know I had worked for a prominent pr company before, and he didn't seem to hear or really care, but he was just happy I could handle the job. I was just happy to be around kind people.

floating history

I dreamt I was in a history class of sorts. It felt like a field trip. We were on these individual platforms that we could sit on. A few could share or some went one by one. It is as if the platforms floated through the air and we could go through a history book visually. First we were in a cavern looking type place with dim lighting. There was a map across the ground that was 3D, yet still simple... countries were colored pink, green and yellow etc, and they were labeled. You could just see some raised areas where there would be mountains. Then we went through an arch way. There were floating columns, artifacts, and you almost felt like some of the air from the past. I felt like we were seeing things that may not exist anymore, but they were real all the same. I was so excited as I had wanted to be an archaeologist. I was right here, with the past. It was amazing. Then there were these red and yellow things on the ground where we got off of our platforms to get a closer look at the artifacts. They were crawling along the rocks and boulders. At first they looked like slugs and then they appeared to be long "haired" caterpillars. I warned everyone to watch out and not squish them. Some had already been smeared on the rocks. Then George Bush showed up out of no where to give a speech. "My fellow citizens. Today I am here to talk about peace ... P S S S .. " I started laughing in my dream... I was thinking figures.... Then he mentioned something about religion and Sister McJesus.

connection

I dreamt I was running away from some bad guy (Christopher Walken). He was a powerful person like the villains in movies that know what they want, do it well, and are passionate. I was on top of a building trying to get away from him and I think I was hidden well unless he and his thugs were going to put some effort into it. But then he somehow was shot in the neck and had no one to help him. I had this need to go help him and it felt good. Not in a warm fuzzy kind of way, but more of a hmmm ... like it would make me part of him, part of his intensity, his passion, we would be linked. The feeling of being part of something or someone like that felt more than good. Then I was part of a black family. I could have even been black, but I didn't get to see outside of myself to know who I was. I knew I was married to Will Smith and I had a couple of sister-in-laws that were really nice to me. ... Then I dreamt about these crystals that neutralize machinery ... head person there... getting the pieces, baseball game, after hours... ?? this one is vague.

shower attributes

I dreamt I was at a conference. I guess I worked with these people but part of me felt like I had already left and was tying up loose ends. We were all in a room being spoken to with breaks here and there where we could talk, stretch or get something to eat. I had 1/2 of a burrito earlier and was going to get the other half, but it seemed someone had taken it. I was hungry... the burrito sounded good, but I really didn't want to order another unless I could get it without rice. I knew the vendor would be annoyed that I asked to remove their filling that made the burritos to appear more amazing than they were, so I passed on the whole thing. The women there all looked like models, all perfect hair, skin, clothes, and faces. Even though I felt accepted by all of them, I knew I wasn't one of them. We went back to our rooms. We either needed to prepare for a function that evening or to leave for the airport. I got in the shower. Someone else was about to as well, but chose the big fancy shower. I didn't want that one... but something irked me about her assuming she would be the one to use it. She questioned me not going to another part of the conference, which initially I felt 100% comfortable about, but her questioning made me question myself ... for a second. Then I got in the shower. They were big and with glass doors. There was a ridge up from the ground and I was wondering if it could hold water and I could use it as a bathtub. I decided it wasn't that kind of shower. I looked over at the big shower and wondered the same. I thought it could be that kind of shower... then looked at mine and realized it had similar attributes and maybe it was easier to see those on the other shower because it wasn't in my vicinity... or not something I was about to test. After the shower one of the model type girls that I would normally avoid was talking to me. She said she didn't understand why I did my hair every day and that I should look into wigs. I didn't like the idea. She said she wore them every day. She was showing me her wig and exclaiming on what a good job they did on the variations of color so that it looked real. I told her indeed that they were nice and appreciated how she looked. In my head I was agreeing still, but thought that the hair looked dull and lifeless. I couldn't see myself doing it unless it was just for fun. --- Then I dreamt that I was at another work type place. This guy was talking about how he was learning about EFT. He was not the usual type.. logical, atheist etc. The only reason he accepted it was because he went to some European conference and it was like a competitive edge. I was a little frustrated and let him know it had been around for a long time, but the reason why the U.S. hadn't accepted it openly is because they assumed it was hokey and assumed it was a bit woo woo and snake oil like instead of looking into the science behind it. I guess I was happy it was being more accepted but at the same time annoyed that it had been poo pooed so long.

snakes

I dreamt that I was with my friend (A(L)S). We were visiting in her town. One of her boys was with her and she was telling me about the tables we were sitting at. They were long folding tables, not super pretty, but very functional and good for her family to have outdoor meals on or do their crafts. She was so happy. Some woman from behind me said hello and then gave her a flower saying how wonderful she was... they said not to just put it in water, it was special... she joked that she would eat it to keep it forever. Some other thing at a hotel... drinks... felt like the 40s or 50s Then I dreamt about something with two snakes... killing them... I was scared.. One was a female and one was a male. As much as I wanted them away from me or dead, I was sad for them. They just wanted to get away and be together but they couldn't help their nature and that is what would kill them. Someone had wounded both of them and I was to take them out of the car. Although they seemed dead like (even kind of looked like they had been dried and smoked like jerky), they were still able to move and were trying to get away. My friend that wounded them was looking at an octopus.He was showing me some hole that was there that shoudn't normally be. He was very interested in it and kind of got lost in inspecting it. I was trying to show him the urgency of him needing to help me the snakes were getting away. They were just about to slip down the drain in the streets to be forever gone out of our hands and to have bad things happen, but my friend caught them for me.

getting ready

I dreamt I was at (GH)'s house. In the dream his house was near a Disney ride, The Nutty Professor (the older version, not the new one). I was going to a little shop to help them prepare for some event. It felt old, like it had been there for years and so had their traditions. The inside was filled with little treasures, antique's, tchotchkes, clothing, etc. It was set up in a winding ornate way where one thing led you to the next. There was also an outside area. I went to the outside and moved things around to set them up. GH was there too. I felt like we were both playing parts. Part of that felt good and sweet, the other part felt forced and empty. I liked the idea, not the reality.That is how the store felt too... wonderful treasures that you want to keep, but at the same time held you back from the freshness of now. Some of the older "tea" type ladies came out. They were helping me with my skirt as it needed to be refitted. I realized I had grown somehow and so it needed to be let out. I was sad that it was being let out a bit although I accepted it as part of life. It was a light antique blue netting... delicate, but strong in its own way.

office party

I dreamt I was in a job I was happy with. It was as though I was another person living the life that I thought adults lived when I was younger. You went to work with people you liked, had camaraderie, enjoyed your work just enough (not necessarily passionate about it, but it wasn't painful either) and life was good. I think it was someone's last day of work, maybe mine?? I was at a hotel and calling my dad and step-mom. They were lost and trying to find me. I had told them I was in the hotel lobby against the wall directly opposite the entrance.... they couldn't miss me. Then I saw a friend of mine from Raleigh (JWM). He seemed in good spirits and was inviting me to the office party. Part of the dream I felt like that is why I was there, but partly felt I was invited and I would be crashing. It looked like fun, he looked like fun and I wanted to go

couch swing

I dreamt that I was on a porch and on a couch that could swing. I kept trying to get up, but kept falling back on the couch. It seemed to be moving each time I stood. I was getting a bit frustrated with the situation or myself or both, when a blond guy on a couch at a right angle from mine told me it wasn't my fault. He was swinging and it was pushing my couch. Like this is all normal, don't worry and that it happens like this. I felt safe and loved. (before I fell asleep I asked to have a positive dream as my last ones were scary)

robot god

I dreamt I had to fight this large robot. I guess maybe he looked a bit Transformer-ish, but less detailed. I'm not sure why "I" had to fight him, but it was a duty and it was something that I couldn't run from. This wasn't because I couldn't physically get away, because I could... I could avoid it as long as I wanted. But it was something I had to do at some point. I gave myself one day of thought/avoidance. I wasn't ready for pain of his sword followed by knowing I would be dead. There was no doubt he would win, he was massive, stronger, a "god" and what seemed like a reality that must happen.I decided to face it the next day ...

asteroid

I dreamt that I was having dinner with friends. The host lived on a hill that overlooked the land. The house had been there for years and had ornate trees around the back deck and was cute and homey. We were having lobster as part of our dinner and my brother was placing them on the plates. The lobsters were navy blue (which seemed normal) and you would place them on their back completely in the shell with their heads still on. Mine was placed on my plate but I could see its legs were still moving. I was upset and said mine is still alive. I couldn't eat it that way of course and felt bad for it. My brother said he knew what to do and took an knife... I could see two exposed veins that were attached to the shell with a clear membrane. He cut both of them and I could feel the lobster's spirit leave. It was a very sad feeling as if it were taking part of me with it. We all continued to set the table and prepare. Christopher Plummer was our host and he was very pleasant and everyone was in good spirits. Then I heard a whistle. It reminded me of a bottle rocket or the sound in a cartoon when something is falling from the sky. I moved away from the table umbrella to see. I saw a large fire-y asteroid fall a good 50 miles away towards the earth. I knew immediately that it was serious and that the damage would move fast. I knew we couldn't out run it, so I told everyone to run into the house. I figured if the house survived, it was the only chance we had. If it didn't, we would have died anyway. I looked out where the asteroid had hit so far away, and could see the tops of trees flaming already coming up the hill. We all ran and all of us made it in the house... through the mud room and into the kitchen with both doors shut, but two girls. I'm not sure if they hadn't heard us, but it was too late to let them in. We could hear them screaming outside, but there was no move to open the door. It would have killed us all. We were not cold people, but just were very clear about that outcome. We still were not clear if the house would go up in flames or not. I was sitting on the counter in the kitchen, most of us huddling together. I though for a moment if I should find a butcher knife and just slit my wrists. The thought of dying by flames seemed awful. Then I figured dying by cutting my own wrists didn't seem so great either, so I might as well let fate take its course. Ashes were falling outside the window. I reminded everyone not to breath the ashes, to get a mask or a scarf or something to cover their faces. It seems were were in the clear, so we started to walk towards the small town that was down the mountain near the lake (the side away from the asteroid). The people in town were aware of what happened, but no one seemed in a panic. Also no one was covering their faces and children were playing in the falling ashes. I had an urge to alert everyone, but knew I would be putting out a lot of effort for something that was most likely too late. We had to just keep on moving to a clearing and decide what to do next.

farm retreat

I dreamt I went to a farm type place for a retreat. It felt like a dry area up in the mountains. Our home base was on the lower part of the roadside. We had just arrived and we were to go on a hike. One of several activities I was assuming. We were a bunch of girls and one lead guy (PB). There was an orchard on the higher side of the road. It was very steep and impossible to climb without lots of slipping. I didn't see how the trees were even staying up. We started down the dirt round and took a bend up the hill or mountain. On the left we passed another farm type place. There seemed to be a home and a barn or shed and some equipment. It felt a little out of place. Our home base seemed more "farmy" with aged items around the place and as though it had been there for years. This place was made of newer materials and didn't feel part of the land. It felt like they were visiting and possibly doing something underhanded. We were headed towards a cabin. I didn't know we were headed there or I would have told them that we couldn't go. The CIA was renting the place. I knew they were trying to catch some people that were brewing beer with chemicals as well as using it in the fields. These chemicals made them more profitable but caused disease. I decided not to tell them all that I knew. Some of the girls were gossips, some I didn't trust, and I felt a bit trashy gossiping myself... A few of the girls wanted to take shortcut back down the hill through the hazelunt orchard. I told them it was very steep and dangerous.PB was going with them with zip lines though so I figured they would either figure it out or come back up. I continued down the road back by the house, shed etc. I kept my mouth shut and kept walking. I saw that some sort of fight was occurring. Then I got back down to the home where we were staying. There was a dog, kind of country like scenery. It felt comfortable. I wasn't sure if they had made it down the orchard yet or not. Then we were taking a truck and a trailor out... the fight was actually occurring still and some of the girls were in the river intertubing.... the fight that happened above the canyon caused a trailor to overturn and a large green mattress to fall in the river. I was watching to see if it would hit one of the girls. I was amazed that it missed.

smoke break

I dreamt that I was in a classroom or buisness place. The building was one of those that had metal framework, and lots of glass for walls, but in a late 70s early 80s way. Some people were outside having a smoke break by a many legged sculpture. It was more like an upside-down octopus. It felt weird as it always does when people have smoke breaks. They have this instant bond that makes absolutely no sense to me... that just because they all need to go outside for this activity, they are instantly friends. I felt that it was an odd reason to feel left out. I didn't like it, but I wasn't going to smoke... So I stayed inside the empty room. Then and old friend of mine KM was leaving the country. We took a tram of sorts and swung on a metal chord all around the city. It felt great in that we could see many things, but a bit out of control in that we couldn't stop where we wanted, or get to know one place better. It kept dropping in all of the places I had been. I was saying how handy it was to KM because I could show her the places. She was glad too because she would have never have seen them otherwise. Then we stopped in that same smoke break area. At that point I think I was a worker, wondering what was going on... then a spy? or... dodging people, sneaking and then bullets were flying. A blond man got it rhough the neck... you could see the hole in the flesh but no blood. It felt someone scary and somewhat exciting to have a purpose there.

makeup

I dreamt that I was in a room with Cameron Diaz, only she was not an actress. We were roommates or had to share this room for whatever reason. I had just received a new makeup kit. I'm not a big makeup wearer, but I was experimenting with different things... nude colored lips and so on. The new makeup kit would be fun to play with and I was excited to dig into it. I had to leave though to go to some appointment. The room we were in felt almost like a grade school classroom. That sort of stale feeling in the air, feeling a bit held back, a bit confused as to what and why, a bit like being in a carnival ride car in line to go next.... but we didn't know how long it would be before we could "go" ... I turned to leave for this appointment and as soon as I did, Cameron snatched up my new kit and started putting it on. I turned around and snapped it back. I was furious, more that she was being sneaky, than she was using my things. I told her that if she wanted to use it, there were other ways of going about it... even if she felt uncomfortable asking out right. I told her she could have acted curious about the product and started talking about makeup ... and possibly I would have offered. I was trying to pound down the idea that being sneaky was absolutely not tolerable, so she should try any other avenue. Mind you in reality, I had it when people beat around the bush when they could just ask the question.

workshop

I dreamt I was in a workshop with what seemed to be a bunch of 1950s style housewives. I was going along with it although I wasn't sure why I was there. I generally liked workshops, so although I didn't fit in, I was sure I would like some of the activities. We needed spiral notebooks to write in. One tall perfect blond lady went to go pick some out because she had forgotten hers. She picked out three that had some of those vintage shots of women in the 50s that looked like they came from old advertisements. She needed notebooks specifically that said 41-97 on them, and I wasn't sure why it was significant. One of the notebooks had some witty saying on the front. Then I was in a different scene. It was if I was in the ?? hmm 30s or early 70s. It was if it was a musical. People were singing what was going on. It all rhymed. I walked into another room and there were two bearded men. They were singing and the last line was " blah blah blah.. when we figure it out." In the "scene" they were living together and were friends or roommates or.... and figure it out meant that they were not sure if they were gay or not.

watermelon tattoo

I dreamt I was at a gathering. It seemed as if it was a bunch of neighbors or families. The nicey nice people with kids and wholesome lifestyles, faces, activities and so on. A gathering I might go to and appreciate the perfection and feel completely out of place in. I was there and hoping it would be over soon or that I would have an excuse to leave. I wondered around and then saw L, my friend's daughter. She was thirsty and so I volunteered to find a drink for her. This was the third best option to escaping, being busy with something where I had a purpose and/or didn't have to interact with the rest of the party. I picked her up and she was pouty. I had a attachment to her and so not only was this a distracting activity, I didn't mind doing it. We went into the kitchen and I was searching for glasses. I wanted to get her water, although I knew she wanted something sweet. Each time I thought I found a glass, it ended up being a bowl or much too large of a glass for her to use. As I was looking an old boyfriend from high school came in. He was with his daughter and fit in much better with the crowd. It was nice to see him though. He was going to help although at first I wanted to do this myself, I appreciated it as my hands were full and I wasn't having any luck finding a glass and L was getting fussier. I looked down at his arm. He had a tattoo on the inside of his forearm. It was really uncharacteristic of him, but I was excited because I just realized I had one too in the same place but the opposite arm. I looked at mine so I could tell him what it was. It looked like a square piece of watermelon rind, pink side up, with a black berry on top. It was in color and I had to look a couple of time to make sure that it was a black berry. I'm not sure what it meant or why I got it, but I was excited that we had something new in common.

snakes fish bugs

I dreamt I was supposed to catch this small cobra. It was smaller than normal and had orange flairs coming off its head. It didn't seem overly scary because it was so small. This was stupid on my part, because poison was poison whether it came in a small or large package. I turned my had for a second and it took a strike at my hand. I pulled it away from my hand and threw it. It had bitten me on my hand. I scanned my area for a solution, a person, a phone, an answer. I was about to ask someone for help to suck out the poison when I realized I could do it myself. I did, but I had no clue if that would take care if it or if the poison was already in my blood stream. A man came over to help. He was tall, in his late 40s with blondish brown hair. It seemed as though he was from another era in how he held himself and what knowledge he seemed to have that came off as wisdom and calm. I looked in the mirror and saw that there was swelling near the left side of my nose. It was solid like a bug bite but larger and not circular. My head felt numb and I could feel the rest of my body getting a numb feeling. I'm sure it was the bite. The man started squeezing the lump near my nose and I could feel warm liquid pouring out down my face and saw it run down his hands and wrist. I could see he was getting nauseous from what he was seeing which made me feel the same. Normally him reacting the way he did, would have made me feel scared... but I was nauseous in response to him, but felt safe. .... Then I dreamt I was on a boat. There was a fishing boat next to us and he was throwing the gutted fish from a small boat to a larger vessel. It was their living. As they were doing this a large fish landed on our boat. I could feel that everyone on our boat felt like it was their loss as well as the chances of us being able to throw it back to their boat and make it were minimal, so we just got ourselves a fish. I felt bad when I saw the man's face. They worked hard for these fish and that was his paycheck he just threw to us. One of our guys came from the cabin. He had an even larger fish and he was quite a large man, and was able to throw it to their boat. I felt better that we didn't "steal" even if the feeling initially was a bit of good fortune and finders keepers. --- Then I dreamt (and possible on the same boat) that these pieces of grass were on a little dog. I went to wipe them away because I knew they would be scratchy. It ended up being little bugs that looked like a chopped up blade of stiff grass. It would land on you and then burrow under your skin... quickly. I was pulling them off the poor little dog when they started landing all over me. At first a couple on my leg and they were easy enough to get rid of, but while trying to get rid of them, more and more and more showed up all over me.

sand river

I dreamt that I was on some large truck or train. It was supposed to carry many other semi-trucks in the back. It wasn't my business or job, but I decided to organize it better or not sure exactly, but it made it possible for all of the trucks to fit and they would only have to make one trip. This made the people, and my dad who it seemed it was partly his job, happy. We had some spare time so I went and walked around outside. It was like a desert. We were surrounded by sand and some rocks and there were workers milling about finishing up things. I walked along the sand over to some boulders. I saw that they were carved. Some archaic, some intricate. I wondered if any of them were old if they had been recent. I looked at one and it had a date of 1997, but then another one looked faded and worn like it was actually very old. On the ground near the boulders there were some more items that looked like artifacts. They were stones but with a glass top like someone had fused the glass on top and put items in the glass for decoration. They were very unique. I picked a couple up to see if I wanted to take one home. One was more attractive visually with just lines in the glass, and one was a bit more gaudy. I normally would have liked the less gaudy one, but for some reason I felt the gaudy one had more meaning or more of a story to it so I decided to keep that one. Near where I was walking I could see the sand moving. It was like a long line of sand that was going in one direction, but only in that line, then it kept getting wider and deeper. I wondered if this was normal, if this had been happening for years? But it couldn't have been. It moved too fast and changed too much. I wanted to talk to someone to see if this was a bad thing? or just a ??

rolling pin

I dreamt I was on some nature walk but it had little kiosks or small buildings with information, like a museum. I was there with my mother. Her and her boyfriend stopped to check out the gift shop. I wanted outside. I realized that I needed to bake a cake for someone's birthday. There were people there from my high school, not really friends of mine, but for some reason I felt it was my duty or socially "nice" to do this. I had planned on making a chocolate cake with cherry filling and whipped cream. I was kind of excited because I had not made this cake before and was curious how it would turn out. I went to my step grandma's kitchen to look for a rolling pin. It was very large and was in three pieces. It didn't make sense to me how it would work. It was too long to maneuver on a counter and none of the sections were smooth, so I started to take it apart to have one usable length. She came out of no where and yelled at me not to touch her cooking utensils. ----- Then I dreamt there was an angel. She was all in blue and normal colored skin and hair. I think she was there being angel-like.. guiding and helping. Then someone was dying or maybe it was me dying.... or it appeared that way to the angel. It was like I was in another realm all of a sudden and sitting on a leaf or a cloud or?? The same angel came this time but in this realm she appeared different. She was pale, her blond hair was a pale whitish blue, her skin was white and she had an extreme look on her face. Even her voice was different, not soft and coming from her mouth, but strong and almost coming from every part of her being. She was coming to take me or the person to the next realm. I was trying to explain that I or that person wasn't dead yet and thought she would recognize me. But in this realm everything was different. You were no longer that being that you were on earth and so she had no memory to connect you with the relationship she had with you on earth.

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I dreamt that there was a healthy way that dancers and ballerinas ate. I was shown this "secret" diet and it was sweet potatoes, pineapple, greens and I forgot the rest. I was kind of excited because I liked all of the foods. ------ I dreamt that my car had been hit a little and I wanted to save money, so I was going to trade it in for a lesser car. A guy from work (MB) was helping me. He was nice and bumble-y and really thought that he was helping me out.He showed me the first car I could have. It was the vice president's (of the company I work for BG) 7 series BMW that he had wrecked. I told him I didn't want a wrecked car and especially not one that used that much gas. So he offered me a look at another and it was even in worse condition. I told him I wanted my old car back and I would just fix it. Neither of these solutions were solutions. ------ I dreamt that I met a friend of mine from the Netherlands (WW)at a Chinese food place in a foreign country. I think we had just gone to a movie together and then decided to have lunch and catch up. The waitress delivered us our mail at the table. I had received a post card that he had sent me a while back and some long envelope which I was kind of excited to open because it was an odd shape. More like a wide sword shape. Then we left to do some things and came back to the same place for dinner. They delivered more mail... I had another mystery envelope that I was saving to open last. He had received some photos I had developed a long time ago and sent to him.